Outaishihi ni Nante Naritakunai!!

I couldn't say anything the day I brought Liddy home when I watched her get too upset.

You just have to settle down a little bit and then ask what's going on with your thoughtful expression somewhere, I think so, and I just hugged and slept that day.

I wanted to reassure her.

There was actually jealousy about Zion, and the ferocious feeling of wanting to crush her was swirling her chest, but still looking at her face made me think I couldn't do that either.

In the end, I'm vulnerable to her everywhere.

Loved weakness is a good word.

- - Ever since that day, she seems to be thinking of something.

If you talk to me, you can smile back at me, but I'm not.

You seem to care about something.

If you get out of your mind, you'll be in your world forever.... I have a bad feeling.

Is it possible that I am thinking about Zion?

Thoughts arrived there and sighed with his neck covered.

- Theon. Tarim's ex-military.

He was a very good person and only solicited him because he didn't want to do it to another country. I don't regret that, and I still think it was the right decision to make.

It's true that I wish I served Wilhelm and stayed active for a long time.

Still, my part as a man, not as Prince Wang, keeps sounding alarm against him.

He's in danger... Yes, instinct warns.

If I wasn't even in such a nasty position, I could have ended up telling you to stay away.

That day, I felt an unspeakable fear in Theon, who reached out to her.

An unfounded fear that maybe they'll strip her as she is.

That's why I raised my voice. I couldn't help but raise it.

I don't want her taken away. I don't want them to take it.

That's what I thought in a flash.

As a result, Liddy came back under me. Speaking up, I honestly got it in my arms. He laughed happily ever after.

I was so relieved by what it looked like.

Her contemplative face, which I began to show from that day, makes me think maybe.

... Could it have gotten any better about me? Are you worried about Theon?

I remember the two of them walking amicably. The way they walked together was slowly getting tight, and I wanted to get in the way of jealousy's not very funny.

Many times, Liddy wanted to scream that it was mine.

Liddy knew Zion was a military teacher. And you didn't tell me about it. I don't know what I was trying to do, but I used caine and ended up acting on my own.

... that you didn't tell me anything. That's what weighs on my mind.

... Until that day, I was sure you did think of me, but I felt like it would collapse in no time. It's a sandy cabinet.

The only thing Liddy likes about me is my assumption.

I didn't get the word from her directly.

As soon as I do, my anxiety swells.

I don't think so, but I can't believe I'm already feeling apart...

Imagine, shuddering.

Horrible. I don't even want to think about that.

I'm going to spend the rest of my life with her.

I don't look like a woman other than her already, and I don't even want to hold her.

She's definitely my turn. She's all I have.

Yet she may not.

I couldn't wait to be scared to think so.

What if they say they want to go to Theon's?

I can't stop coming up with it. I don't want to talk about Zion, so I can't even ask questions about the military teacher.

- - Would I have been so weak?

Still - I'm afraid Liddy will say a decisive word to me, and I'll get away with it.

Love is horrible.

I've never known you to make people so weak.

Since then, I haven't even held her.

If they refuse, they hesitate.

If they reject me, I'm sure I can't get back on my feet.

That's when I don't know how to get out.

I don't want anything but her. It's me I wish she was the only one.

In case they refuse, that's what's going to do to her terrible, I'm afraid.

I don't want to do that.

So I just decided to hug Liddy and sleep every night.

The touch was mild and patient.

I wanted to hold him, I filled him up with me, and I indulged in desperate desire to crush him, just mouthing him on my cheek.

The only salvation was not to be rejected for it.

And yet - she doesn't say anything about it when she says I endure so much.

We held each other so many times every night.

I poured many times in the back of her, whispering that I loved her, even though I had conveyed all the love I could.

Wouldn't she think anything of it if it went away?

I almost cried when I thought about it that way.

I just like it. I felt so stuck.

- Still, it should have been good at first.

If you can get her, that's fine. I certainly should have thought so.

My heart screams that I don't like it now.

I want everything. I want all of her.

So you said you've been waiting a long time, and you've been eagerly awaiting a day to tell me from her mouth that you like it, and that's what you've done wrong?

Then what was I supposed to do?

- - Her heart I wanted the most, I might not get it anymore.

Just before it falls into your own hands, it could be taken from you by other hands.

"Hey, Freed. You look pale. Hey, what's up?

"... ah, oh"

Blurring in the office, Alec called out to me.

I can see that voice guiding me.

This shouldn't be it.

I gave up what I kept thinking for now and made an expression.

"Oh, I'm sorry. There's a lot going on. Never mind, I'm fine."

"That's what he looks like. Anything wrong? You seem so frustrated..."

"... nothing"

Check the clock up time.

Reminds me that Liddy is going to Theon's right now.

The pain ran on my chest.

I want to go see how it goes. I'm the one who did ask for that and nodded.

If you don't want to, you can say no. Until then, she won't try to get me through.

But...

In the last few days, I've been exhausted too.

Disgusting imagination sharpens the spirit in addition to thoughts.

I'm tired of worrying about possibilities.

I want to know the conclusion quickly. That's what I thought.

So I told her to go away and put her back...

If, then, she goes to Zion and chooses Zion, I'm sure I will continue to regret today's choice forever.

How did you do such a stupid imitation - and.

Still, if that happens, I'm not gonna let her go.

Mostly, she has Wang Hua in her chest. Wang Hua is a testament that she is my righteous queen.

As long as I have that, it doesn't change that she's my thing.

That's what Wang Hua is all about.

But apart from that.

If she chooses Theon, even if she marries me, she will never respond to me again.

It will be a couple of mindless, shape-only couples.

No matter how much I wanted her.

An act of love to me results in just violence to her. I don't feel a shred of love there.

But even then. I'm sure I can't let her go.

You want her love, you keep tying her up, crying in your heart.

"... you, enough for today. I'll do it later, so go back to your room and get some sleep.... If you're not feeling well, you can start tomorrow afternoon."

"Alec. No, I..."

"I don't care if they work with that face. It's about you, I know something happened with Liddy anyway, but do something about it before you get stubborn. Some of Tarim's ex-militaries you brought with you. I still have the Sahaja thing, and I don't want to hold any more extra bombs. Hey, Fried. Just go home.... so let's just make up. You guys are just as sticky as I think you are depressed."

……

Said in a terribly gentle voice, my chest clogged.

Nod cursorily and leave the office.

- Reconciliation. That's what Alec told me, but what if the discussion with her turned out to be a decisive crack?

Return to your private room, dragging your heavy feet and heart, and open the door.

Maybe Liddy will be there. I might not have gone to Zion. I had such pale expectations, but those expectations quickly disappeared.

- - There was no one in the room.

She must be visiting Scion as planned.

I should have known, but I realized I was terribly disappointed, and I mocked myself.

How far, I...

I went into my bedroom and stuck myself in bed.

"Liddy...... I love you"

My voice sounds softly.

I don't want anyone else. She's the only one I want.

There's only one thing I wanted.

"Don't go anywhere. Stay by my side..."

Yet it may fall out of its own hands. Unwiped by anxiety and fear, I was just being beaten down.