Outaishihi ni Nante Naritakunai!!

I shook my head to deny Theon's inquiry.

No, it's not. This was from the beginning.

This feeling, I thought I could be held by Freed, is what I had from the beginning.

It's not the feeling I gained when I was helped by Prince Maximilian, who first recognized me as a liker (tentative), or the story I recently started holding.

It's what I've had since the beginning.

To Theon's words, I tried to argue that's why it's different - - I was annoyed.

- From the beginning, from?

I felt uncomfortable with the word for the first time.

Open your eyes wide and breathe heavily.

I was overwhelmed by the answer that suddenly appeared before me.

- Oh, my God.

I thought I'd get dizzy.

Why, how could I not have noticed it before?

Yes, not since Prince Maximilian helped me.

This is not such a recent story. Long ago, from the beginning.

"Ah... ah..."

Hold your cheeks with both hands. My body was shivering at the fact that I finally thought of it.

I kept pretending not to see it. I almost cried at the answer.

- Oh, well. Was it?

Once you find the trigger, it's very easy to get to the answer.

I thought it was so hard, I could guide you lightly.

Yes... I was fine with him holding me that night of the masquerade, except, after all, because I liked him. That's all we're talking about.

I liked the fact that he was... Fried from the beginning.

My eyes met over the mask at the masquerade for the first time, ever since that moment.

That's why.

The day I first met him, whether he kissed me or held me... what made me feel good about what I was doing.

I'm sure it is. 'Cause otherwise, I can't explain it.

Now I know.

If they weren't free that night, I would have definitely escaped.

The plan was unsuccessful.

I finally understood that it was a very dangerous plan, full of holes, which could have been accomplished because he was the other guy.

(Tentative) When I told my brother, I also found out why he gave me a frightened face.

Maybe they thought of anything now.

If you like him so much, what are you talking about?

My brother is a smart man. Probably for sure.

If I noticed myself being empty, all I could do was sigh later.

"So? Still need certainty and doing?

Instead of disputing it, you must have guessed the situation from my attitude, which has been stunningly consolidated.

Inquired in a quiet voice, I slowly shook my neck to the side.

Well, okay.

That this feeling is not just transient. On the contrary, I was able to finally admit, as of late, that it was something I had all along since I met him.

And when that happens, all that springs up is endless love for him.

He's been waiting a long time to tell me how he feels about me for running away without realizing it.

I looked up and gazed at Zion.

I could only thank him for leading me to this answer.

"Thanks.... well, ok. As strange as it is for me how I didn't notice. The answer was right in front of you."

Vision seeps through. I plucked my spilled tears with my fingers, and I laughed.

"You pretended not to look, I'm sure.... maybe you didn't want to get hurt anymore"

"Scion?"

Later in the day, he shrugged in a deafening voice, shaking his head, no.

"It would have been nice to have been able to help. … because I am making a painful mistake once"

"Theon did?

When he was surprised that it had happened, Theon narrowed his eyes.

"Surprised? I used to be dull in circles to you right now. Because of that, I hurt them. Very, very sorry."

"Yes, what.... Is that why you helped me?

……

Theon doesn't respond.

Silent time went on, and eventually Theon let the conversation resume with a look that seemed somewhere far away.

"... I still love her. But I hurt her deeply. Now I just wish her happiness."

"Scion......"

I was surprised by the fact that there was a woman that my senior thought was like that.

Maybe it's someone you dated after me.

I've never been loved by a senior, so that's for sure.

Still, I thought it was sincerely good that the seniors had met someone they could love that way.

... because it's something I couldn't do.

One day, I wish someone like that would show up to my senior, because I've been thinking about it since we broke up.

Unfortunately, we don't even know what that girlfriend is doing right now, just talking about her senior year.

It would be a lie if I said I didn't care, but I thought it would be rude both to ask deeply and to express my opinion wisely, and I quietly mumbled.

"Oh...... please don't look like that. It's okay. I'm the happiest person in the last few years."

"Scion?"

He nodded that it was okay, and Zion looked to the door.

"Are you going back to His Highness Friedrich? I'm sorry I held you back for so long. I hope your thoughts are well conveyed."

"Oh, thank you"

Either that or I feel better taken care of.

If you hadn't pushed my back like this, I'm sure I wouldn't have noticed. Because I think so. I sincerely thanked my predecessors who remained as kind as they used to be, even after the years.

Seeing Scion, his cheeks were completely red, even if he didn't say they were swollen.

"... sorry. Could it have been too hard? We need to cool it down..."

If you know it's an act you've done for me, you'll feel sorry for me, too.

Theon stopped me as I began to look around to see if there was anything I could cool down.

"I'll do it myself later, so you go. Besides, I was prepared to do this, so you don't have to worry about it. It's not that big a deal."

"... thanks"

This is probably where I'm sweet for his favor.

I thought so and I stayed just to say thank you.

Theon smiles calmly as usual, bowing his head towards me.

"Thank you for taking the time to make Strawberry Dafu for Lena today. Lena and I will take care of the rest."

"... yeah, I'm glad you did. I'll take her some chocolate treats next time."

"That would please Lena, too."

"Tell Lena I said hi."

"Okay."

I wave to Zion, who dropped me off to the door, and I leave the room.

One day, I wish I could give it back in some way.

The Kingsguards who waited asked him if he would return to his room and shook his head to deny it.

Now as soon as possible, that's what I wanted to see Fried.

If it's time now, he must be in the office.

They say you can come to the office whenever you want, and I want to see him because I don't mind just looking at his face. Of course, the confession is going to be made when we get back to the room and we're alone, but I wanted to see him anyway because it's okay at first sight.

So I told the nearby guards to go to the office.

I feel distracted.

I couldn't help but be glad to finally be told from my own mouth.

Yes, I loved him... Fried.

Ever since I first met him, I still am.

Indulging in the desire to rush out, I walked to the office where Fried was.

- You, I like.

Maybe tonight.

I think of the moment when I would be told that to him, who has waited so long for me.

How long has there been an irresistible grin in my mouth?