Outaishihi ni Nante Naritakunai!!

During the day my mother-in-law kept telling me stories that were fractured.

Maybe my mother-in-law was stressed out because she couldn't talk to anyone either.

Speaking up at one end, it didn't seem to stop.

"Just for the record, Friedrich was a lot of difficult labor. There's that, and the other one, he wanted me to give him a break. Besides... did you have a child that changed your health or made it harder for you to work than before..."

"Mother-in-law......"

Oh, that's hard. I didn't know that acts that I didn't like originally would be even more painful.

I often hear that having a child changes her constitution, and my mother-in-law must have suffered.

My stepmother nodded at me with a painful face.

"Every day, every day, the days just went on hard. It seems very unlikely to me (me) that I want another if I remember that difficult birth. But no matter how many times I say I don't like it, the king holds me like every day. I couldn't help but be hard and hard. The thing about Friedrich, who was adorable at first, eventually got thrown out, and I (I) was hunted down physically and mentally. That kid looks just like the king. If you look at Friedrich's face, it reminds me of the king even if I don't like it. Gradually, I began to disturb that child, who I would miss without knowing anything."

Mother-in-law exhales more. There was a deep distress in his face.

"When that kid was six. There was a decisive event. That day, the king was in the private room with me... arguing with each other. I said to the second aggressive king," How can you not understand me? "'If I knew I was going to have such a hard time, I wouldn't have wanted to have kids. I wish I hadn't had that child. I don't want to do it again'. Of course I didn't mean it. I am the queen. It's my job to have children. I am well aware of that. I'm just pissed off at a king who doesn't understand me, and he talks... it's like buying words into selling words."

"Ah... could it be..."

My mother-in-law snorts at me for saying nothing.

"Yeah, I think that's what I imagined. That kid was hearing our ugly argument in the shadow of the door. Maybe it was a cold day... so I missed it. I came to our room. Until then, I (I) never showed that child my certainty with the king. Because I didn't think it was a parental fight or anything to show my kids. Our first argument I've ever seen. I guess I was shocked at that young kid.... and he accidentally overheard me (me) rumbling, saying that I (me) had betrayed him... and he thought that he had been lying that he loved me until now"

I remember Fried having a cold eye for his mother-in-law.

I don't know why, but I'm sure he's still hurt.

"Since then, that kid has never stopped laughing at me (me). I guess I should have apologized if that hadn't happened soon. And if you give him a hug. But I was exhausted. If you don't come near me... I even thought it would be better if I could be alone."

"... that, is..."

I couldn't say anything. I was blowing up drowsiness. Look at me listening to you, my mother-in-law laughs small.

"Did the king finally understand when he heard my cry, saying, 'I'm sorry I made you suffer,' and marry my concubine shortly afterwards. After that, as I already said. On that occasion, I (I) moved, and since then there has been no king's visit, and time has passed... and so has my son. I must be disqualified as a mother and a wife."

"Not at all... are you?

I asked him that because my mother-in-law made a very sad voice.

But my mother-in-law shook her head, not to mention her temper.

"So I told you at the beginning that you were cowardly. I knew if we talked about this, we would react like that. I don't want sympathy. It's no consolation either. I'm just in the same position... I just wanted to share my experience that this can happen. And about Friedrich... because he deserves it. I'm not going to start over now."

"Mother-in-law............"

"That said, I'm not talking about this one. I saw that kid's attitude toward that, and I didn't like it, but I remembered the old king. I really didn't want to get involved more than I needed to, drawing on that kid's feelings, but I just can't stand it. She's trying to do exactly what the king did to me."

I saw how Fried obsessed with me, and my stepmother sighed that she remembered an old time she didn't want to remember.

"It wasn't all bad because I was able to get a daughter who could forgive my heart. That kid really... said he hates women, etc., and kept him married, and if he had to get engaged, it would be me. Aren't you any different from the king?... I was worried that I might be traumatized..."

"Mother-in-law......"

Listening to my mother-in-law, I remember Fried saying that women don't have good memories.

It's an unfortunate story, but maybe my stepmother's concern isn't a mistake.

The story of my mother-in-law must be at the end of the reason I don't like Fried women.

Because Fried's mine.

Because I think "I don't like being lied to in my body" is probably the starting point around here.

... He was only six years old, and he heard rumblings from his adorable mother about "I wish I hadn't given birth" and so on. I can't imagine how shocked he was.

My mother-in-law and Fried are all sad.

My stepmother, who has broken my heart on Fried, is of course a problem, but if I listen to him, I know that even my stepmother suffered.

... is it the King who's bad when it comes to it? I thought so, but I felt it was different to blame anyone, wondering if the king didn't realize he was hunting down his own wife that far either.

What a family with complicated circumstances.

I sighed inside, and that, I thought.

"Um, sorry if it was an extra favor. Mother-in-law.... will you not be reconciled with Your Majesty?

I said enough about Fried, stepmother. Then I wondered about the king.

My mother-in-law shook her wear quietly.

"... making up, etc. I'm not fighting anything. Because we were so convinced of each other that we welcomed our concubines. Besides... in the end, the king didn't have to be me. Ever since, it's good evidence that I've been going to Lord Helene's. I thought rather...... If you are a woman who will quench your own greed, the king will surely be good to everyone."

"But... Your Majesty loves her mother-in-law..."

I just thought so when I looked at the interaction so far and the King's attitude.

But my mother-in-law stubbornly denies it.

"No.... I have never asked you to say anything like that before. If you dare to say so, Lord Helene is the only one who chose it of his own free will. I (I) am only the opponent of a political marriage to the King. Neither do I ask the King for love."

"Oh no..."

When I was out of line, my mother-in-law asked me kindly.

"Kind child. But you don't have to look like that. Could Friedrich have said that he loved you?

The calm tone almost made me cry zero for some reason.

I meditated my eyes and shook my neck vertically.

"... Yes. You always say it. I'm sorry, mother-in-law. I'm happy he loves me. I don't want my concubine to welcome me, and I want to be with him at all times… I love him."

"Liddy......"

What's wrong with me? I like Freed, and I don't want Freed to see anything but me.

I always want to be with you, and I would be ashamed but happy if you would hold me.

My mother-in-law extends her arms towards me. I was slowly stroked in the hair.

"Why do you apologize? Nothing more if we can think of each other. It's good if it's not that kid's one-way street. I don't mind that unless you're overloaded with impossibility. And if you don't mind if I do, you won't have to talk to me."

"Mother-in-law......"

Tight. I'm relieved you finally listened to me. And I'm glad you figured it out.

When I open my eyes and raise my face, I meet my serious eyed stepmother.

"... but Liddy. Just one piece of advice. Just because you tell me how much you love me, don't forgive me indefinitely. … because we will definitely be on the diagram"

"Huh? Uh... yes"

I was embarrassed with my true face and my face caught on.

"No matter how much you like them, there are limits. Run to me before they crush you."

"Thank you......"

It's not a funny story, but I honestly think I'm happy with my mother-in-law's tenderness.

Wang Hua is here, so I think the area is fine.

And just a little, something bothered me.

- In the end, the king didn't have to be me (me).

My stepmother gave me a very hurt face for a moment when I said these words.

... I know it was true that you said you didn't like it anymore, but you didn't really want a concubine.

I can tell when I talk like this, but my stepmother seems to have a personality that I can't be honest with.

My stepmother said, "I don't like it anymore. My concubine." When the king said, "I don't like anything but you. I love you," but maybe something has changed a little.

That's an impossible story, and it's all too late, though, than my stepmother isn't the king's turn.

The king married his concubine with his own hands, and he has not visited his mother-in-law's room since.

That's the truth.

And my mother-in-law said she would blame me.

But how sad it would be if that were the best void of a strong stepmother who can't be honest.

I want to be on your side, I thought.

My mother-in-law, who will be intimate with me. A kind mother-in-law who tries to protect me by saying she understands how I feel.

But the key stepmother doesn't have an ally who understands her.

That's what makes me so sad.

Of my mother-in-law, who thinks of me, I wanted to be on your side.

"Mother-in-law. I'm on your mother's side, too."

If I realized it, I would have put it into words.

My mother-in-law blinks. A look taken aback.

I grinned and nodded.

"Because I love my mother-in-law. Please rely on me, too. If I can help you, I want to help you."

"Liddy......"

My mother-in-law shook her head with such expressions as incredible...... then she sneezed her face and laughed, saying thank you and hugging me hard.

The smell of lilies smells fluffy. Totally called Fried, how can this parent and child smell so good? I feel uncomfortable wanting to stick around.

"I love it. Mother-in-law"

So I gently turned my arm around its back to meet my mother-in-law's embrace, too.