Outaishihi ni Nante Naritakunai!!

Oh, it's hard. I want to get rid of this thought.

No, you can't, I don't want to turn it off.

But I still want to turn it off.

I can't. I can't do this.

I feel like I'm in a loop that I can't get out of forever.

Stuffed, another unfamiliar man appeared on the field.

A man who is invited to the royal palace as a guest. Theon Nanaoggi.

Former Tarim's military mentor. Teng himself was forced to struggle with last year's Tarim southbound fold.

I haven't forgotten about that time, so I felt somewhat moist the first time they asked me. But I thought I'd swallow it if His Highness wanted to welcome me to his men.

It's proven to be capable, and much better than being taken to another country.

But I hope that many fears will determine His Highness, and I will never take the oath of my lord.

Theon Nanaoggi and I were such men.

The place solidifies in a word brought to it by him like that.

I don't know. He...

"You seem to like His Highness Friedrich's abs."

And so he said to Liddy.

Plump...... he said he has abs!?

Hear that word and look at Liddy reflexively.

I accidentally took the confirmation, but she didn't deny it and instead nodded with a bright red face.

Her first taste I've ever known.

I can't believe she liked that stuff.

Blind spot. Too blind spot.

She told me in detail that she likes cracked abs in six, but unfortunately I don't have one of those.

I came here with a piece of magic.

I never cared, and I didn't think I needed it. That's why I never worked out my body to Loc.

Alec used to laugh at me saying I should work out a little bit, but I was through saying I didn't care. Yet when I heard that I liked Liddy, I accidentally looked at my belly.

I felt terribly sorry I didn't have what Liddy thought was preferable.

I can't believe that not having worked out my flesh bounced back on me in this way. It's too late to regret it.

But - I meant to understand enough, but I was still shocked by the words that came out of Liddy's mouth.

'Cause Liddy's liking of His Highness's abs means nothing more than having a chance to see it.

What a scene to see a heterosexual abs, naturally at night - so it's only possible in the bedroom.

I knew His Highness and Liddy thought of each other and loved each other, but I almost cried at the dialogue that made me understand the facts of the affair. Also at the same time, she could see the seal of ownership on her neck, which was sneaked up on her not to be noticed, and was further damaged.

Even though she was ashamed, she said gladly that she would go to Her Highness, and she left before us. [M]

Connect your reading to Your Highness and tell her that Liddy is on her way as she feels like she may be caught on the spot.

His Highness's thoughts were always in an upbeat mood, and I soon found myself pleased.

Envy.

I can only hope that Her Royal Highness will think of her all the way.

And it makes me want to disappear because I'm ugly and pitiful to remember such emotions.

"... you're a cute guy"

"Huh?"

When I hung up on him, the pompous and the nanaogi shrugged.

What he was looking at was Liddy's back.

Nanaogi, who sees her walking dangerously toward the Knights headquarters, has a cut look like she sees something she misses.

"Nanaogi?"

Speaking up, Nanaogi looked back.

"Theon, I don't mind. Master William. No, I know it's disrespectful, but I thought you were a lovely lady."

……

Scion shrugged pompously as he dropped off Liddy's back.

"You're a sinner, right?"

"What...?

Staring at Scion for what he had been told, he looked back again and held up the edge of his mouth in a meaningful way.

"It's about the Lady Dowager. Keeping everyone captivated with a naive smile, she only sees one of those fruits. She doesn't try to look at anyone but him as mercilessly, even though there are thoughts of being saved, even if she at least turns her gaze to me."

……

Everyone, Theon said, just found out it was referring to me.

Oh. Will even the first person I meet expose my thoughts?

Can't you even hide it from Loc and yet the person in question doesn't even notice it at all?

It makes me laugh silly.

It's also troublesome to deny. Everyone but her is aware of my thoughts anyway.

So I answered with a throwing feeling.

"... that's her"

But I think.

If my dear girlfriend were a woman who would take statements and attitudes that would make anyone concerned, she wouldn't be so attracted in the first place. I wanted to be loved because I knew I was a one-way woman who turned my straight thoughts to me.

If I saw Liddy sending an autumn wave to a man other than His Highness right now... that would make centuries-old love cold too. So this is fine.

Whether it's dull or cruel, it's loving because you're the only one who sees it.

At the same time, it means you won't be visiting the day that you turn your gaze to me.

I think that would be better if Liddy were to change.

So I said.

"I prefer her as she is now. And I respect your Highness. That's everything."

To be clear, Theon looked like he had been taken aback and then laid his eyes down to see if he was.

"Excuse me. Apparently, I underestimated you a little bit."

"I don't care what they think, but don't just make strange mistakes"

"Yes, I understand."

Sion nodded lightly, grinning lightly.

"It's okay. I often say if time goes by, it's never a lie."

I am the witness.

finger on his own lips, Theon says.

Only for a moment, but Sion, who threw his lonely gaze into the universe, was still turning it off beautifully the next moment.

"Are you...?

"Come on? It was a long time ago. Then I'll do it too. Because I have a job Your Highness asked me to do. I apologize for letting you take the time for the extra story. It would be very helpful if you would just forget about the earlier story."

"Ah...... oh"

Every request of His Highness. I can't hold back when they say that.

Watch Sion's back as he leaves.

His earlier expression. He told me to forget, has he been in hard love again?

And has it gotten over it?

He had an atmosphere where he couldn't say as many words as he wanted to.

I don't know what woman shot him, and turned his back, but I'm sure he meant it. Now that I know that, I couldn't be angry that I had been stepped into a terrible place.

"Oh......"

The file in my hand feels heavier than it was earlier.

Can it be laughable that one day I too, it was past like him? [M]

I can't imagine at all, but I wish such a day would come.

I thought so and shook my head.

"... No, you're not. I don't want that."

I don't think this thought will go away as long as time goes on.

I don't want to think it's something that disappears.

Because if that's how it goes away, why should I feel so miserable right now?

I'm sure I will hold this thought in my chest forever. Whatever happens.

It's also true that I want to forget. It's also true to see her as a bride and wish to blow it off.

But I'm aware of it.

Living with this thought. Not letting go of trying to bleed no matter how much my heart screams.

I realize this is my undisputed wish.

"Liddy, I only love you"

Words that will not reach anyone.

Shamed myself for being immersed in sentiment, I and I walked out to my own office in the Magic Division headquarters.