Outaishihi ni Nante Naritakunai!!

A state of bodily and mental meltdown. Yet the nightmare wasn't over for me.

How soon after that, Mr. Johannes married his concubine as I (I) vomited.

As my surroundings glanced at me, I smiled and showed to Eagle Deep.

"Your Majesty will need comfort, too."

I said that, a dialogue I didn't even have in mind. But the truth is, it was wild inside my chest.

- I didn't want this to end up like this.

I just wanted to ask you what you think of me (me).

I just wanted it to be a word.

Why did this end up like this?

Or is this the answer, Mr Johannes?

Not me. What I really like is Lord Hélène, whom I married as my concubine, and is that what I (I) am told that I am only the opponent of a political marriage?

In fact, once since then, Master Johannes has never tried to hold me (me).

Like it was a lie that was so sought after, I never visited the room I moved to, just a peaceful day.

I'm sure he has a beloved concubine, Lord Hélène. I guess I'm pouring all of Lord Johannes' greed on her that I (I) couldn't take.

My chest hurt tightly, but I pretended not to look.

Oh, then that's enough.

I want you to leave me alone. I want my heart to remain calm and quiet.

Lord Johannes only needs to be happy with those he truly loves.

Because I (I), the disturber, live alone and secluded.

Let my concubine Lord Hélène take care of everything.

distractions, etc. Because I am a woman who was not loved, even though I am the righteous queen.

I wish I could keep my country as promised.

Because that's what I meant by being married to this country.

As long as I serve as the righteous queen, that's fine.

Honestly, I didn't think I wanted to be held by Master Johannes anymore.

My body hurt, and I often fell asleep. I was just ashamed of the many ownership marks I could wear, and I was sick and tired of the nasty nightwear the ladies prepared.

My son has also become completely distant from me (me).

Naturally. Who would want to get close to a mother who said she didn't need it, etc.

It's too late to say that's not happening now. My son won't believe me.

Because I (I) have put so many wounds on my son.

He was biting the word he deserved so painfully.

Whenever I see my son, who has come to turn a cold gaze on me (me), my heart aches.

But I don't show that attitude. Because you don't deserve to be hurt.

I hear Master Johannes leaves the room like every night. I guess I'm still going to Lord Helene.

After all, he didn't have to be me.

And because of my own stupid remarks, that's why I (I) lost all my sons and husbands.

You're so stupid, you just have to laugh the earliest.

But I didn't want it back now.

Because it's all my fault. The month of fifteen years went by, wanting to just disappear from this world.

◇ ◇ ◇

"Oh, my God..."

Something called time does heal the wounds. When my heart finally stopped hurting and I was starting to think this was a good idea, it happened.

Fifteen years had passed since then, and his son had become twenty-one.

I was heartbroken by my son, who would never try to decide on his fiancée, but it was also decided, and the engagement ceremony was successfully completed. I doubted my ears at the rumors I heard in that.

His son loves his counterpart, the Chancellor's daughter, so much that he is blind.

I was so surprised that I panicked and caught Kara, the chief woman. Because I heard she was taking care of her fiancée's princess. But I heard from her, and now I'm about to fall.

According to Kara, her son's love and obsession with his fiancée is intense and it's normal not to let him go until morning these days. Hearing how my son adored his own fiancée as he did every day, I (I) was alone.

- Same as Mr. Johannes then.

A few months ago, I met her at the engagement ceremony, and I can't stay or stand wondering if that skinny daughter is seeing the same thing as me (me).

Anyway, desperate, he broke his own vows, which he had decided would no longer involve his sons, and approached Liddy, who became his stepdaughter.

- I don't want you to step on the same footing as me (me).

We have to protect it. We have to protect our young righteous daughter.

I am the only one who understands.

Nobody understands. I'm the only one who can understand you.

Truth I approached with only that one heart, but my righteous daughter, Liddy, was a sweeter, better child than I thought. They honestly admire me (me) with my mother-in-law, they love my son wholeheartedly, and they try to lean on me.

Unlike me (me) in those days, I don't want my son to ask for one disgusting face and on the contrary, I don't want him to marry my concubine. Make it clear that it is good for me alone.

The strength of that will dazzled me.

If only I (I) had that much strength back then.

I can't help it, but I couldn't help but think so.

When I look at my righteous daughter, I get the feeling that I'm really jealous.

When we see him getting along with his son, how could we not be like this, the regret that we should have shook off brings our necks.

Even though this shouldn't happen.

I gave it all up and wanted to spend the rest of my life quietly, but my desire to sink deeper now swells. It seemed painful to be able to poke my own untrained.

In the meantime, a tea party in the garden invited by the righteous daughter.

My (my) destiny, lost in the stray, was beginning to move in a direction that I didn't even wish for.

◇ ◇ ◇

"Your Majesty, Your Majesty, Your Majesty..."

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry, Elizabeth."

Embrace me (me) and Johannes spins words of apology to me (me) over and over again.

In the arms of Master Johannes for the first time in fifteen years, he was unexpectedly comfortable and again overflowed with tears.

Righteous daughter, what Liddy told me (me) was too much to upset me (me).

- Master Johannes doesn't have Lord Hélène.

Not much of a shock, no words. Because there's no way that's happening.

It's me (me) who knows Master Johannes' stunning demeanor. I couldn't even believe it.

But the righteous daughter even told the soldiers to back up the evidence, and that Master Johannes was not in Lord Helene's room, but rather in mine (my) room every night.

Suspicious noises I've heard since the beginning of my move. That went on every night, and until today there were no days I could not hear. I was surprised to ignore it, but I (I) was strangely convinced when I found out that the killer was Mr. Johannes.

- 'Cause even I (me) don't believe there's a ghost.

I was wondering if there was any reason. If the culprit is the lord of the land, Mr. Johannes, it's easy to stop him, and even the soldiers can't say that there were suspicious people, etc.

Mr. Johannes is the only one allowed to visit my room without permission.

"... I asked Liddy. Sire, why did you come to my room every night?

"... you want to know why"

"Yes."

Cry enough, face up. I tried to escape from Master Johannes' arms, but I couldn't get him to let me go.

I have no choice but to stay in that position and listen. When I gently pressed my cheek against my chest, I heard a severe heartbeat. Master Johannes starts talking to Pompous.

"... even in an attempt to welcome my concubine, from the beginning I was not willing to hold a woman other than that. But without the fact that you left the room at night, you would have noticed. That's why I went outside for now, but I don't even have an address to head to. When I realized it, I was in front of the room."

……

"I wandered around and walked around in front of the room all the time. The first thing I noticed was the sound. I told the soldiers not to mention me. I stabbed the nails and went back to my room. And then, every night. I didn't feel like going anywhere but where I was, and when I found out I was asleep, I went into my room and just looked at my sleeping face all the time."

"... how could you do such a thing..."

I was surprised to hear that he was wandering in front of my room in the middle of the night.

The words of the righteous daughter were true, but how could both the king and the king imitate such foolishness?

"Don't you get it if I don't tell you?... Right. You don't understand. My son pushed me so hard earlier that I'm really stupid after fifteen years.... because I love you. I visited her for the engagement ceremony. Ever since I first saw her, I've just loved her. Understand... did you give it to me?

"... eh"

"Elizabeth, I love you."

Master Johannes' arms become stronger. I (I) had stiffened my whole body in his arms.

Does Master Johannes love me?

Such an idiot. 'Cause I've never felt anything like that before.

"Can't you believe it? I guess so. But it's true. I was going to tell you how much I love you. My son told me earlier that it was the first time I had noticed. - That if you don't put it into words, it won't tell you."

"Huh!"

For Master Johannes, it seems that that act of overlapping the body, which was just hard, was what conveyed love. I just wanted to tell you not to play witch mountain if you try from here, but it seemed like there was no lie anywhere in Master Johannes' expression with a depressed voice.

Are you sure that was the means to convey love to him...

I felt disappointed and out of my whole body.