Outaishihi ni Nante Naritakunai!!

"Yeah. It's good.... Fried, I'm sorry. Will you stay back in your room first?

"... ok"

Fried, who seemed a little lost but had noticed Reid's crap, nodded relatively honestly.

The two of us go to Reid's room. Edward arrived after us, naturally, but before entering the room, she got rid of him too.

"You don't have to come. Stay outside until I call you."

"But, Your Highness"

"Terrible. Can't you hear my orders"

"... sorry"

Reid stared at me, and Edward reluctantly pulled back.

"Liddy, come on in."

"... yeah"

Nodding at her words, she enters the room. Reid sat me on the couch in the back of the room. I stand, I don't gaze at me, I just look out at the view.

"Reid?"

- I'm really stupid.

"Huh?"

Suddenly I see Reid wondering what to say. She grinned bitterly.

"Earlier you sheltered the Beastman boy without hesitation. He behaved like a royalty, saying that discrimination was unacceptable. The same goes for His Highness Friedrich. He also sheltered you, and told you to think of the meaning of your words, though they were tender.... unlike me."

"Oh, but even Reid..."

He helped me out properly.

Everyone broke up so hard, no doubt thanks to Reid being there for us. Without her, it would have been more noisy.

But Reid shook his head sideways to deny it.

"I couldn't move.... just a little bit, just a little bit, but I know how they feel about it. I couldn't move aggressively because somewhere in my mind I had agreed to their words."

"Reid......"

I can't say anything, I just stare at Reid. When she turned to me, she said with a crying face.

"Liddy, will you listen to me now? My... I'm talking about a love that didn't come true"

"What..."

"I've never told anyone before. I didn't even tell Ed. But I want you to listen. [M] Would you mind?"

"Of course... I don't mind that"

I didn't know how she was trying to tell me an important secret right now, but I nodded.

If Reid thinks I'm good, let's talk. Because I'm sure it means something to her.

Seeing me nod, Reid said in such a small voice that he couldn't hear "thank you".

For a few seconds or so, I meditate my eyes.

The next time I opened my eyes, there was something like readiness in her face.

"- I always liked my brother from an early age. I divided the blood, just one brother and sister. I loved my brother."

"Brother...... you mean His Highness Hendrick?

"Yes."

Raid nods in a quiet voice. The voice alone made me understand how serious she was.

"Of course, I knew it was an unacceptable thought. I didn't want to make my thoughts come true. I was born a royalty anyway. One day he would marry a man who would be in the interest of the country by order of his father, and that was dividing him from having no choice as a royal duty. But feelings don't quite do what I think they do. As if to mislead it, my men's clothing, which was my original hobby, grew more and more authentic every day. I guess I wanted to assume that I wouldn't be interested in just dressing up as a man and not having a brother. But it also failed. The next thing I did was start writing stories. A romantic novel for men and women. This is how I wanted to transform my feelings for my brother into a novel. The prospectus was a success and I was immersed in writing. I felt that my thoughts on my brother were calming down a little bit because of the effect of the men's clothing as well.... until that day."

Reid punctuates words.

I somehow figured out what she was going to say next.

"My brother, who had a fight with my father and was flying out of the royal palace, suddenly returned one day. Take one woman. My brother says he will make her his righteous queen. My fathers got confused, but I got confused, too. Because my brother was like me, and he thought it was someday something that would marry my father's prepared woman in silence. It's a royal duty, and that's why I had no choice but to bless my brother, who fulfilled his duty, who, I suppose, brought back the 'woman I love'."

……

Reid's crying was painful.

How did Ilya appear in her eyes when she was desperately trying to sublimate her feelings for her brother?

I even thought Reid was afraid to think about it as to how he felt about his beloved brother's actions, which could be described as betrayal to her.

"My brother silenced his surroundings and married the woman he brought with him. My brother seemed happy. That would be so. I could marry the only woman I ever decided to be. I also celebrated my brother's happiness. Congratulations and blessings. Inside, no matter how complicated you are."

"... yeah"

"At that point, I was determined to forget about my brother. My brother married the woman he loved. I can't have barren thoughts forever either. Wishing my brother happiness, trying to break this thought."

I can only imagine how hard a decision that was for Reid.

But it must have been hard for her to be shredded.

Forbidden love that I have cherished since I was a young child. How much of Reid's mourning was when he made the decision to let it go.

"That's how I erased my thoughts. Turned it off, it should have. But at one point, I stumbled upon it. My brother in the courtyard is holding my sister-in-law. And on that sister-in-law's head, where the cat ears were growing."

"What..."

Cat ears, where I opened my eyes. Unexpectedly gaze at Reid. "I knew you knew," she grinned bitterly as she turned to me. Apparently, I've got a little bit on my face.

If you can't answer that, Reid says, "You don't have to answer. I generally imagined it, and that's why I wanted to talk to you," he did not pursue.

"For once, if you're going to defend your brother, the place where his brother was doing the deed was a hidden place that was not visible, like no one would normally come. But unfortunately, it was also my secret reading space. That's when I climbed a tree and was reading on a sturdy branch. I can hear you talking, so if you look down... Anyway, I couldn't find my brothers, I was desperate to lurk my breath until the act was over... by chance, I looked at my sister-in-law's ear. It's like the act made me feel too expensive and my ears went out, but that one really surprised me."

……

I don't know what to say anymore. I want to hold my head to Prince Hendrick, who was acting outside, and Reid, who ran into a wet spot by accident, can only be described as sorry.

Plus... Ilya was seen hidden ears. She was unlucky.

Of course, the worst part is, I'm pretty sure Prince Hendrick... but I couldn't really blame Prince Hendrick because if I did poorly, Fried could do that, and then they would flush me out, too.

"After my older brothers left, I was stunned. I just couldn't believe what I saw. All that my brother had a sister-in-law in a place called the courtyard, and that my sister-in-law was a beast"

"Yeah."

"Still, I managed to calm down and I went back to my room. You look pale, you get rid of Ed, who asks me if something's wrong, and I pulled him into the room by myself. All kinds of emotions were swirling around my chest. You know what the biggest one of them was, Liddy?

"... I don't know"

I answer honestly. Reid looked like he was going to cry and said.

"Why did the beast man take my brother?" I thought. You've dressed yourself like this and been discriminated against by others. You know the pain of being seen and mocked with white eyes, I can't forgive the beast man for taking my brother. I thought I'd be good enough to pick the Beast Man.... and I can't forgive myself for thinking like that... but I can't erase that emotion... and since then, I've been avoiding my sister-in-law on purpose "

……

After all, he was just pretending to be okay, and Reid was hurt. Of course I think it was true what she looked like when she grandly claimed that men's clothing was her identity, but that's not all. I guess she was distracted, distanced, she was hurt, and still stood fine. The sentiment of the beast man 'something' sprouted in it.

I can tell by just hanging out a little bit. Reid is a straight clean man. discriminatory emotions that such a person has had. Come on, it must have been painful.

Sympathy is different. But I felt terrible and stared at Reid. Reid grins sadly and tells me.

"This is ridiculous, isn't it? Besides, that's not the end of it. Since then, for some reason I have been unable to write. Nothing comes down that letter that was all in my head. Even in front of the manuscript, I can't write anything. Something is different when you write in pain and suffering. The reason why there hasn't been a new issue in the past year is because there hasn't been a second volume of the book I gave you."

"Reid......"

"You look like a man. The truth is I'm only a woman everywhere, and I even have the idea that I'm not allowed to be dirty, royal. Hey, Liddy. I hate me so ugly. I don't like it, I don't like it."