Philstar or Gaju's Regression

55Ch 19. You and My Connection

“Everyone, be careful. ”

It was also up to Roan to take everyone to the dormitory.

Especially today, I had to pay more attention to Pete and Egbert, so I had to join them.

“… Anyway, I got it. You be careful back there, Loan. ”

“Take care of yourself and see you tomorrow. ”

I have a lot to say, but if I keep telling stories now, I have to get longer.

Willian and Hans are waiting outside, and if you think about tomorrow's work, you have to give Roan enough time to rest.

So Hannah and Damos, who thought it would be better to make Roan a little more restful, greeted him and took the first steps.

“Be good, Loan. ”

“As soon as the day is light, call for the Shrine! ”

Megaella and Povos greet each other and follow them.

“…… I didn't have to come all this way. ”

“That's it. ”

Pete and Egbert stare at Loan with a fairly sorry face.

Emilia next to him is also a smiley face like a habit, but if you look closely, it is clearly different from usual.

As well as all the unexpected things that happened, it would be right to come to Clyde at the last minute and flip him over. I'm so sorry, I don't know what to do.

“No, it's my job to make sure nothing happens to you two. ”

Loan also kept on caring about Emilia like that.

She seemed like she was having a hard time today.

I've been worried about you, and I haven't had a proper conversation since, so I've had a bad feeling.

“Anyway, you two go in carefully. ”

And when Roan says hi to Cubbuck,

“Yes, Loan! Tomorrow, I'll tell the story to the Shrine, so as soon as you get to the Academy, get treatment! You can't hurt that gorgeous body! ”

Pete raised his voice that his health recovery was a top priority.

“…… Ah, yes. ”

But is it supposed to be a nice body?

“Thank you……. ”

It's still suspicious, but this is how the prince takes care of it, and he should be thankful.

Loan smiles awkwardly and nods at Emilia.

Usually she liked to see herself embarrassed.

“Ah……. Why...? ”

I don't think I have much of a mind right now.

Loan shakes his head with a pale smile as if he had not heard what he has to say.

It's just a worrying glance.

“ ……. ”

Emilia smiles with a pale smile that makes her feel better in her eyes.

“Oh, Loan. ”

Meanwhile, Egbert looked at him and said,

“Yes, Your Majesty. ”

Then Loan answered with a slightly stiff face.

Egbertmann was unwelcome, even though no one else knew it.

Obviously, even if he is a completely different person from Egbert, he must be the one who gave him the worst memories of his life.

“…… in case of St. Orléans festival. ”

And the day he attempted to assassinate,

“Yes?”

Loan is a little embarrassed.

Egbert Sager's work that day was only remembered as a simple commotion of drunken aristocrats buried in the wake of Pete's assassination and the Sulpicious Party, and it was not a big deal.

When Egbert takes out the problem that naturally passed away again, Ian and Emilia become nervous.

“... No, I don't think so, but just in case. Did you ever come to my saucer that morning? ”

Obviously, Egbert remembered the black-eyed man he saw that day.

I wanted to be a dream, but I didn't forget that the black eye who was looking at me was too intense and vivid.

And the only black eye he knew was Loan.

“…… that morning I met Alicia. in the academy.”

An alibi you created for this occasion!

In the words of Loan,

“Yes, Your Majesty! That's when Loan came to see me at the festival! And I don't think anyone can go! ”

Alicia, who was guarding the side of the house, added that the Dyke family could not return to the dormitory as much as Egbert Fine.

“Ah, yes..... I think I just saw someone like Roan that day.... ”

Egbert was curious.

He must have seen something he shouldn't have shown others.

In his awkward smile,

“It's Orléans Festival, so it's bad enough. ”

Emilia adds a few words.

“Yes, because that's the day everyone hid themselves. ”

When Pete adds that he can do it, Egbert nods to make sure he's mistaken.

“Of course. Anyway, I'm sorry. Go get some rest, Loan. ”

In any case, Egbert seemed to be in a bad mood to organize the day's work.

In the way he laughs,

‘.... It's definitely someone else. ’

Loan also smiled lightly, feeling a slight dilution of his hatred for him.

“Yes, Your Majesty. Then go in carefully. ”

“Yeah, go get some rest! ”

“Be nice and see you tomorrow, Loan! ”

When Alicia raises her voice that it's time to go in, Pete and Egbert naturally stare at Emilia.

He looks like he's asking what you're going to do.

“I need to talk to Loan a little bit more, so go in first, brothers. ”

Pete smiled strangely before he heard it.

“Yes, I got it! But don't hold onto Loan for too long! ”

The moment he looks like he's making a nasty laugh, Loan is blameless.

"Huh?"

Obviously this is a joke to Emilia.

But somehow the nuances are really like normal people.

Isn't that what Pete was like?

Even if you laugh at your head,

‘Are you sure you want to use me as a public good? ’

I wonder if I want to flinch again. It's Man-Roan.

“Then we'll go in! Let's go, Egg! ”

“Yes? Yes, brother! ”

Leading Egbert behind Loan like that and making him fall in love!

“See you tomorrow, Loan! Emilia!”

Alicia, who was left alone, waved her hand, whether she was going to go in now or not.

And thanks to Pete and Egbert, who haven't disappeared yet,

“ ……. ”

Not a word, but even Lorelei, who bows her head to her side.

According to her, who doesn't look as good as Emilia today,

“Don't worry about Lorelai too much. ”

Loan said a word with a worried face.

“…… Yes, Roan. ”

At that time, Lorelai bowed her head again with a pale smile.

I feel a little relieved, so I feel comfortable with Loan.

“Freya's going to wait. ”

“Yes! I'll get hot water! ”

Soon Emilia will send her servant Freya.

“It took me a long time to say hello..... ”

Loan finally had a slightly awkward face, with only two left.

“….. It's because Roan is popular. ”

And I think Emilia did the same.

Somehow, she had an awkward face.

“…… are you okay? ”

Loan asked again more carefully.

Emilia seems to be struggling a lot today, but I felt like it was her fault.

“Uh-huh. ”

Meanwhile, Emilia raises her forehead to Loan's chest without saying a word.

“… Emilia? ”

Loan couldn't be embarrassed by it.

What are you trying to do when someone sees you?

Usually it was Emilia who panicked or played around.

“…… It's hard. ”

The atmosphere seemed different today.

The axially stretched shoulders and body looked too dangerous to break.

“..... have you had a hard time? ”

Loan looks down at her with a sad eye, a corner of her mind that I don't even know about.

“ ……. ”

Then Emilia nods without saying a word.

And still holding her forehead to Loan's chest, she said with a gloomy face.

“I think I'm feeling a lot weaker today. ”

She was always smiling in front of the others, but not this moment.

No, I didn't even know this was really Emilia.

‘I want to give you a hug.... ’

Loan, whose appearance was so thoughtful, raised his hand cautiously with a hesitant face.

I really want to give you a hug because I feel like it, but...

Is that okay?

Can I?

I couldn't be sure.

- Hello, Loan.

Eventually, she remembered the last thing that came to her hands.

Cough.

I couldn't reach out.

Even if I came back in time and met Emilia again, I still can't escape the memory of that day.

Fear is pushed back to Loan.

So in the end, I can't give you a hug. With my hands stopped in the air,

‘After.’

Loan who swallows sighs.

“Charging is over! ”

At that moment, Emilia was screaming brightly again,

“You were surprised, weren't you? ”

I asked Loan with a smile as always.

I didn't think it would get better so soon, but I must have been thinking about Loan, pretending to be nothing, pretending to be bright.

Like the remnant of that day, which is still engraved in the heart of Loan, I don't know if the unspeakable sights of Emilia remain.

I wondered, but I couldn't ask.

She may also be a very hard memory, just as Loan can't tell anyone the memory of that day.

“…… a little. ”

So Loan just smiled awkwardly with his hands up and down.

“I think I embarrass Loan every time..... ”

Maybe she didn't notice what Loan just felt like.

I saw him shriveling again in no time, as I thought he was burdened.

“No, it's not like that! ”

Even those who have come back in time are not perfect in every way.

Rather, it has been too time-consuming, so there are some areas that fall far short of normal people.

For Loan, that was the moment.

As for Loan, who abandoned my voice more than I thought,

“Really…? ”

Emilia staring at him with a cautious face.

And I think Emilia did the same.

No matter how experienced she is, she would never have met someone like herself.

So when it comes to treating each other better than anyone else,

“… so can I have a little more? ”

For this moment, even Emilia was 18 years old.

In response to her question, which seemed a little shameful,

“Uh-huh. ”

Ron nodded his head,

Ugh.

Emilia leans much softer this time.

I didn't put my forehead on like before, but I leaned my whole body against his arms.

You can say that you have completely entrusted all of your body to Loan.

“ ……. ”

Even so, Loan's pupil, who was so nervous, shook.

“… after…. ”

Just as my voice was too loud for me, I began to hold my breath and try to control it this time.

The memories of her time as a lover were overwhelmed, and misgivings, glamour, and excitement were mixed, and the urge to hold her was just a little more.

“…… is it okay to be sick? ”

Do you know how Loan feels?

Emilia also asked with a balmy face,

“..... I can't even hear the axis that hurts. ”

Loan answers awkwardly, avoiding gaze.

“... And what do I do if you're wrong? ”

I want to see my eyes, but I don't want to see them.

Despite her nagging,

“That's not going to happen. ”

Ron shakes his head without counting the insides.

“ ……. ”

And Emilia kept worrying about it.

I was avoiding the gaze and felt uncomfortable being awkward.

Of course I'm not used to being a loner for the rest of my life.

So even though I know it's not going to be a subway,

“How can you guarantee that? The future is changing. ”

Unlike my head, Emilia, whose heart is getting colder, makes a sharp voice that I don't know.

“Well, I've lived a hell of a lot longer. ”

Then Loan replied with a bitter laugh.

“I don't even know what to do with the princess.... ”

He seems to be wandering around quite a bit.

It's okay to treat other people, but why not just treat Emilia like you think!

I also know that Emilia in her arms seems upset, but she doesn't know exactly what to do.

It's like a kid who's scared and shriveled.

“… but you seem too harsh for you. ”

Rather, I was relieved.

And compassion has been pushed.

He, too, comes back in time, but does not know exactly what each other has been through.

I know we've been through very bad things with each other, so I'm not asking politely...

“I can't keep doing that..... ”

In any case, Emilia grabs her shirt carefully with both hands, saying she doesn't like it when she doesn't care too much about herself.

It is a very cautious hand movement that seems conscious of his injuries.

“ ……. ”

Even Loan could not easily find out if the words were undeniable.

And he took a short sigh.

“I've been hurting other people my whole life..... ”

Answer taken after a brief static.

The words didn't go to the end, but I thought I knew what I was thinking.

‘So you can do it. ’

It was also Loan's attitude towards this life that came back in time.

In my past life, I have taken hurting someone for a living, but this time I will live my life to protect my precious ones.

To do so, I am willing to carry all the wounds, pain and even death.

“Don't do that, though! ”

Immediately, Emilia shakes her head and hugs Roan.

To him, his eyes widened in astonishment, and Emilia looked up in his arms.

“That's so sad! ”

The wet blue eyes seemed to cry at once, and the distorted white face seemed desperate.

Perhaps that's because Emilia is the only one who understands how Loan feels.

And it must be because he has as many painful memories as Loan.

The only person who leaves a man and a woman to share the same experience.

I think, Loando,

Cough.

I could hold Emilia without hesitating any longer.

Maybe what she needed was someone's warm consolation.

“Ah……. ”

It was such a bold skinny thing to take a step back all the time.

Loan takes a deep breath after having hardened her heart, leaving her surprised Emilia behind.

“Actually, I wanted to give you a hug. From before.”

This was really honest sentiment.

To be more honest, I thought I'd be back soon from the moment we met.

After committing a crime, Loan smiled embarrassingly, saying that he could be bold.

“You can give me a tighter hug. ”

However, even if I was bold, I still felt a cautious touch.

“… then I think I'd hate it. ”

As he trembled with tension,

“…… I don't like it. ”

Emilia smiles full of mouth and hugs him again.

“The sound of my heart grew tremendously. ”

And she whispered her face to his chest,

“…… that's out of control. ”

Loan turns his head with a red bite to the ear.

I don't know if I was cold before, but now I even look cute.

It wasn't because I hated it or felt uncomfortable, it was because I was ashamed.

“Half-back, can I be this cute? ”

All the bad journalists seemed to have disappeared today.

When Emilia, who really seemed to be charged, smiled brightly and asked,

“…… he said he was 160 years old. Compared to that, I'd be a snob, but I might look cute. ”

Loan grumbles and says, "I don't know anyone else, but you can."

I'm ashamed to be so stubborn.

“Unh!”

It was undeniable.

“Others will think it's cute enough. ”

But even if it hadn't come back in time, she would have thought he was cute.

No, it won't be just her.

Unlike usual, this symmetrical guy was really cute.

“You know what? ”

And when Emilia asked with a slightly fat face,

“…… what? ”

Loan raises his head.

“Loan, you're being so secretive. ”

And this time, she's full of questions about Loan's face when she touches the Tool.

“…… am I? ”

Emilia bursts into laughter again as she does not know anything at all and does not know what she is saying.

I wish I knew, but I don't know at all.

Parvitina, Busha, Alicia, and Hannah are playing well, but clearly they're not being rational, they're just being friends or sisters.

“So they like you! Don't flirt with men! ”

In response to Emilia's playful cry, who had completely recovered her energy,

“…… when am I! ”

This is so unfair!

“I'm not that kind of person! I'd rather live alone! ”

Roan shouts with a thick face.

“Puchup!”

Emilia, who burst into tears with a genuine smile.

“... that doesn't mean that I've lived alone my whole life. ”

It's a bit fat, but I must still be ashamed of it.

“Okay, okay. ”

And it's been a really long time since I've been able to rely on someone,

“Ah……. ”

Emilia smiles, stealing her tearful eyes.

“I'm so glad to have Loan. ”

*

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Deeper underground than underground.

“I haven't seen this in a long time. ”

He smiled and said, "It's so intimidating."

“That's what Polks said. Ludwig of the underworld is one of them. ”

The man with the red hood pressed next to him also said in a mixed laugh.

In that way,

“…… think what you want, Polks, Verke. ”

Rudwick, whose right arm has not yet been healed, replied with a gritty face.

As soon as I saw it, I was annoyed that I was being ridiculed.

“Who the fuck is that? Captain.”

“What happened to Hugo? ”

They are more tenacious comrades than blood.

Ludwig looked at the last wolves who survived the Northern War.

“A man named Loan Pilstein. He's a very dangerous man. ”

Currently, Loan has a strong presence enough to break the foundation of the Ariman Church's plan.

The benefit of going back in time would undoubtedly have prevented him from fulfilling his next act, so the Ariman Church now had the greatest focus on eliminating him.

“The Philstein family? I'm familiar with their story, but I still know that this town is William Philstein. ”

“It's not even William. Did his son get hit by a bloodbath? Ludwig of the underworld?”

Soon, Polks and Bergega will be questioning the wild name of Roan.

“He's not worth it. He has Tatag's necklace and is already a Sword Master. The bishop was in a state of turmoil and even called Carabine. ”

Ludwig, who takes his face seriously.

Polks and Berke stare at Ludwig with a blemish.

“Even Karabine? ”

“So you need to call us? ”

After the ‘catastrophe’ of the Northern War, Carabine became the strongest wolf.

But even though he was out of control, it was no exaggeration to call him, but I can't believe he even called that carabine!

“Maybe Caravan will fail, too. ”

“No way?”

“No way. He's really dangerous. That's why I called you guys. ”

Ludwig said that even Karabine could fail.

“..... That's ridiculous. Who the hell can defeat that monster? ”

“Immortal Karabine will never catch you. You could say he's a natural assassin. ”

Polks and Berke shook their heads in excitement that it wouldn't happen.

“Neither did I. ”

Ludwick raises his right arm with a deeply engraved sword.

“That's enough because I'm lucky. ”

In his very serious words, Polks and Berke's face became serious.

“.... Is there such a human being in the world? ”

I still find it hard to believe.

To those who ask questions,

“... I thought there would be no such thing. ”

Ludwick sighed and replied.

It's true that he didn't expect an enormous opponent named Loan to appear.

I didn't know that I might be like this, who transcended humans a long time ago.

“Anyway, I have a favor to ask of you. ”

After all, he had to borrow the strength of his companions, let's send out a serious glance.

“You want me to get rid of him with Carabine? ”

Berke nods, knowing that he doesn't have to listen.

“Yes. Karabine has already begun to move on his own. But you know, he's got a lot of problems. ”

“Well, yes. ”

“So, Berge, you use your strength to help Karabine get rid of him. Through your machete. Because I have a chance, it's best to end it with your hands. ”

Soon Ludwig pointed to a black bow like Berge's sharp blade.

Even if it's a double-bladed sword with a blade up and down, it's not an exaggeration.

In the red hood, Berghe smiles with a flash of green eyes.

“I don't know if Karabine will allow it. If he were that dangerous, he would be more attractive. ”

Ludwig replied with a cold-hearted face.

“Be a little more serious. He killed Hugo. ”

Then Berghe nods with a sharp ear different from that of a human.

“Yes, but Hugo's revenge must be avenged. ”

Soon the Polks next to him asked Ludwig.

“So what can I do? Is it okay to watch while Karabine and Berke are working? ”

Ludwig laughs at him, questioning the massive massive mace all over his shoulder.

“No, I have a favor to ask of you. ”

“Well, let's talk about it! ”

The one who enjoys the most fighting of the Red Wolfs, the Falls!

“It might be a little harsh for you, Polks. ”

“Shitty stuff? Are you going to let me down? Captain!”

So, please, let's get him to work.

“It's a princess assassination. ”

Ludwig said with his arms full.

“..... damn it. It won't be any fun. ”

So Polks sighed.

Assassinate the princess in the eclipse!

“As a pity, may I have some fun before I kill her? ”

But I didn't think it was because I was being asked to.

I would have reacted because I thought it was too easy.

“I've never had white hair before! ”

But the next thing you like is a girl!

Soon he had eyes full of desires,

“Whatever you want, Polks. When did you follow me so well? ”

Rudwick shrugs, saying it doesn't matter.

“Hahaha! That's right! Fine then! I should see you as the High One! ”

Berke shook his head with excitement.

“Poor thing.”

Even if you're the same colleague, that's not much of a relief.

“What do you intend to do, Captain, anyway? ”

Soon he asked Ludwig for a walk.

Although Ludwig is currently injured, he will still yield revenge to others.

“…… I go south. ”

“To the south?”

“Yes, I intend to gain strength there. Greater power than now! ”

However, he seems to have been quite discouraged since he was broken by Loan.

In the face of a longing for greater power,

“Then the captain can fly like a carabine. ”

“Too much power doesn't work. ”

Polks and Berge expressed their concern.

“What does that mean, even humans aren't overwhelmed yet? ”

Soon Ludwig brought out his hatred of Loan.

“And can we say that we were chosen? ”

A power that no human can stop!

What the hell does that mean?

In response to Ludwig's enraged question, Polks and Berkeley nodded their heads.

“Then by the time the captain gets back, everything will be cleared up. ”

“Maybe it's over already. I have carabines.”

Ludwig shakes his head in the face of two optimists.

“He's never worth it. Maybe I'll be the last wolf. Don't look so easy. ”

Ludwig is very wary of Loan.

In that way, Polks and Berkeley nodded their heads, saying, "I can't just take this as a joke."

“If the captain talks that much, it's not normal. Anyway, let's aim to clear it up before the captain gets back. ”

And Berkeley said,

“I'll take care of the princess, I'll take care of Berge and Caravan. Because of Hugo's revenge. ”

Polks also added meaning.

Ludwig laughed for the first time at the appearance of trusted colleagues.

“Thank you.”

This is the comrade!

They can trust and leave anything to them, because they are a comrade who is strong enough to come back together.

Soon Ludwig looked at the two people with a very serious face and said,

“When I come back, I will come back close to God! You must!”