"--This is how God saved people."
However, the content of the Sister's religious lecture itself was always a challenge for Berta.
Whether it is an interesting thing to satisfy intellectual curiosity, its profound religious affiliation is always accompanied by question marks.
"God will save all people and those who believe.
Believe and ask, the sin is forgiven.
Blind beggars, poor shepherds, tax collectors, wealthy craftsmen.
All men are equal before God. "
In fact, Berta was really willing to follow his country when he entered it.
If you can, in order to spend a long time in this royal family, it is surely easier to live by understanding the spiritual world and learning faith.
Even Belta, who thought so easily, faced the difficulty of obtaining a world view that was too far from his own understanding as an idea after adulthood.
"Where is that god?"
"God is far above heaven.
I watch the children of the earth from heaven.
God dwells in your heart and helps you. "
I like Sister Stella as a person and her story is very interesting.
But no matter how many times you listen to it, for Berta, the teachings of Prosperoscism seem as distant and ambiguous as the world that emerges in a fairy tale picture book.
"... for example, there will be many other gods in different religions.What difference does it make between the God they believe in and the "God" you say?Many gods are in the heavenly world, and one of them is your God? "
"No, God is the father of all people.There is only one father for man.... many other gods mentioned by Her Highness are not in the same place as the Father in Heaven. "
Almighty God exists as the only transcendent father.
Belta is even surprised by the fact that a lot of people believe and think about such top-level existence uniformly.
Creation of the heavens and the earth - the value that all the rationale of the world is covered by one existence is quite simple and frivolous.
In short, Belta has repeatedly stepped from such an objective view to the inner reality of thought in a position where it is impossible to go any further.
Apparently, Berta will never be able to align her values with her husband, and then with her son, who will be educated and raised in piety as the next king.
With each lecture, Belta started to ask Sisters honest questions, and she was so depressed in her heart.
"Where do people go when they die?"
"People are judged by what they do in this world.
Whoever does good in this world will be given eternal life in heaven.
Anyone who does something bad will be punished in hell. "
"Is heaven the same place as God in heaven?"
"I can say yes or no."
Sister thought carefully about each question and answered it, as she would repeat the rude and rude questions that she would never understand the context of her teaching.
"... I wonder if everyone wants to go to heaven.For example, if there are a lot of people close to you in hell, wouldn't it be lonely to be alone in the world of heaven?To break up with a world divided after death.I want to go as much as my loved ones. "
"Well, are you still going to be punished if you die?"
"I think it's better than boring in heaven."
Sister smiled, fufu, after looking surprised.
"But maybe I can say this because I don't know what the hell is."
"Don't worry, Your Highness's loved ones will be the good ones.I'm sure you'll live happily ever after we meet again in the heavenly world. "
Berta also wondered how Harold's domestic conversion was reflected for devout followers like them.
"Isn't God angry that His Majesty has reformed the State religion for political reasons?"
In fact, is his act a good deed that is permissible in the religious world?
In Belta's words, Sister raised her eyebrows slightly.
Berta herself still has only a small value standing at the entrance of faith, whether it's heaven or hell.
But if Harold, who would be a devout believer, were to be thrown into hell by doing something for this world, it would seem pathetic.
"... because he understands the profits of this world poorly.It's too much, so I'm a little worried.It is not necessarily a betrayal of God, but an unavoidable manners as king of many in this world, and I hope that one day the referee will take him into account. "
Sister put aside for a moment and smiled funny as if she couldn't stand laughing.
"... don't worry.I am sure that those who will judge His Majesty will have the kindness of Her Highness.God is forgiving. And Your Majesty is sincerely committed to the kingdom of this country. "
The fact that God and religious teachings are inherently very tolerant also deepens Belta's sense of reality every time she interacts with a Sister.
Berta is nothing but an untouchable person trying to dive into the religious world for the sake of mystery, but it is nostalgic to teach such a person a teaching that may open the door in this way.
"If you are worried, please remember and pray with me about Your Majesty in your daily prayers.Praying not only for oneself, but also for loved ones is a virtue forgiven by the Son of Man. "
The days of religious lectures continued, but for Berta it was also a day to strengthen her conviction that she would never come to an essential understanding.
"Why do people ask God for salvation?"
"Because we are sinful beings with original sins.
In the name of God, I forgive sins and seek the salvation of my soul. "
One day, Berta revealed the truth in such a question.
"I may not be what you call a 'salvation'."
The words that I said suddenly fell helplessly into Berta's chest.
Belta, on the other hand, is certainly not fundamentally seeking salvation.
Why is that so? Is that why I grew up in different cultures?
Or is it that Berta was originally such a person, and they have a different outline of the world than they imagine?
Belta looked up at the Sister silently.
I wanted her to say something.
And I wanted you to forgive me.
That they and Berta are different kinds of people.
I hope that Berta will spend the rest of her life here.
In the chapel at noon, there was dull sunlight over the stained glass.
The soft shadow illuminates the room, giving it a quiet and demanding time.
Berta never disliked this church space.But that's all.
"----maybe so."
After a period of silence, the Sister returned with a gentle nod.
Berta kept staring at her old appearance, which was deeply wrinkled over the years.
She finally gave up enlightening Berta and wondered if she was disappointed.
"Please forgive me."
But Sister was pointing a smile at Belta that didn't change a bit.
"Prior to this conversation with Her Highness, I knew that I was sorry for the fact that Her Highness did not believe in God.Without knowing God's love, he always had a lonely heart, and I'm sure Her Highness's heart would be deeply hurt.... that's what I was hoping I would do to help you break your faith and save you. "
Belta, who somehow knew what she was thinking about dealing with Belta, didn't hurt her.
It was only surprising that Sister confessed to it herself.
"But that was a big mistake.Even at this age, I'm ashamed of myself. "
She quietly stepped down from the chapel and grabbed Berta's hand.A small, hip-bent nun was no different than the height of her gaze from the belta she sat on.
I see her at a sincere distance.
The grey blue eyes, which seemed cloudy in the years, were more clear than anything Belta had ever seen before.
"You believe me.and above all, the pure sincerity of man. "
She apparently forgave Berta for not admitting her sins before God and for not praying for salvation.
"Your Highness, believing, loving and happy, perhaps you don't need truth, faith."
Every time people who are as deeply attached to faith as they are to the understanding that they are by no means exclusive, Berta will at the same time taste the awkwardness of not being homogeneous with them.
"... but can we walk together?"
Even if you don't share your faith.
Can we understand each other as neighbors of culture, accept each other, and live together?If you step out of this space alone with her, the world is still far from tolerated by others.
It seems to me that any division that has occurred in the past in this country of diverse cultures is not permanent.
Is there hope?
"... yeah, yeah. I'm sure a country like you would stand as a mother-in-law."
Belta never forgot the colour of Sister's glittering tears in her gray eyes.
Because that was the last face Belta saw.