Possessing Nothing

Targets, ideals, admiration.

For Lee Sung-min, W. Ho-yeon was like that. That's what I thought.

No, I also knew that that's not all. I knew but did not want to express and acknowledge it I didn't think I deserved it.

Lee Sung-min and W. Ho-yeon are different.

To have, to live. My natural talents are so different. Unlike Lee Sung-min who had ordinary qualities, Ji Ho-yeon was a genius that everyone recognized.

So I don't deserve it. Not suitable for fountain. I've always thought so.

I'm in love.

That's what Heju said.

I couldn't argue with that. because he was right.

I only thought it was because I knew it didn't fit. I hoped not to touch it. May Wijihoen always be stronger than herself.

I've always wanted to stay objective, admired, and idealized.

That way you can see from afar. They'll be able to see from afar, chase them. You can't be preoccupied with it and think of anything else.

I didn't want to be greedy, so I just wanted a situation where I wouldn't be greedy.

Lee had a long silence. Ji Ho-yeon was waiting for Lee Sung-min's answer.

“... I'm no different. ”

The silence is over.

“So am I. I... didn't just think of you as a friend. I've always thought about the day I'd see you again. How many times have I almost died, and I've suffered worse than dying. ”

So far.

“I didn't think I deserved it. You were too different from me, too good for me. So...... I didn't want to have an overwhelming wind of anger. I was afraid that when I hoped for him, I would hear you say no. ”

“You're a coward.”

“That's right."

Lee Sung-min smiled bitterly.

“I'm a coward. That's how important your relationship was to me. I wonder what would have happened to me if I hadn't met you. What if you didn't tell me I was your friend? What if you find out that I... think of you as more than a friend? ”

I had many nightmares in Mt. Mesh.

“That's why I was afraid. If I keep my mouth shut, I'll be able to stay as a friend. It has nothing to do with goals or admiration or ideals. I want you to go. I liked you, Ji Ho-yeon. ”

When did you first meet Wijihoen? No, not then. By learning to be a free man from Wijihoen? Since then, I've been targeting W. Hoenn. Ever since I started learning to be a free man from her.

“It's been a long time.”

Lee Seong-min looked away.

“Not 11 years, but much longer for me. I've been thinking about you for a long time. I wanted to be close to you. And I wanted you to be further away from me. Even if I was close to you, I was afraid that my heart would be close to you, not my strength. If you get to where I'm touching, I... I can't hide it. ”

“You don't have to hide it. ”

Ji Ho-yeon said.

“So am I. Me too. It's weird. I was too scared to do this. It's because I don't know. ”

Ji Ho-yeon raised her hand to touch her hair. Long hair. I untied it and let it go.

“I'm not who you used to be in your past life. ”

Ji Ho-yeon closed her eyes.

“I told you I was a woman in my past life. Even if it was me, I don't know who I was in your past life. But...... I have a hunch. Because you don't have to pretend to be a woman. I don't want to be seen as a woman, I don't want to be seen as a woman. ”

“Is it... different now? ”

“It's different. I've met you. ”

It was a hesitant answer.

“I loosened my head. I was in a dress, but not a man's. I didn't hide the curvature of my chest. Everyone saw me as a woman. I thought it would be okay if only you knew me as a woman, but I didn't want to convince myself. ”

Distance to W. Hoenn is approaching.

“I wanted everyone to see me as a woman. That's what I wanted to tell you. I'm different from the man I was before you. And…… today. I wasn't wearing a dress. Do you know what that means? ”

“... I don't know. ”

“You're the first person to see me like this. ”

Ji Ho-yeon smiled brightly.

“It will be in your past life. I'm sure of it. I've lived in a past life, now, maybe in another time. I'm the only one in a dress like this, standing in front, saying this. You're the only one listening to this. ”

It seemed like time had stopped.

“I don't think of you as a friend. Friends aren't enough. I'm greedy, so I want more than that, more than that. ”

Ji Ho-yeon's eyes look at Lee Sung-min.

“And you?"

“Me, too."

“Then don't just stand there. ”

Wiji Hoenn's voice lowered. It brings out feelings that have been hidden for a long time.

What will you do when you reunite with Wijihoen? What will happen to her? What will you do? The thoughts I always had, the unconscious actions I did were fulfilled.

Lee Sung-min grabbed Ji Ho-yeon's shoulder with both hands. After dragging him away, Ji Ho-yeon put him in Lee's arms without resisting.

It's small.

I always felt big, but Ji Ho-yeon held in her arms was small.

Lee looked down at Ji Ho-yeon's head touching her heart. Ji Ho-yeon slowly raised her head.

He was looking for something, and Lee did not hesitate to get close to his head.

The time that stopped was still not moving. I didn't even hear a sound.

Nor the sounds of the forest, nor the anguish of the fairies.

The first kiss I ever made in my life was long.

“…… this is my first time. ”

Wijihoyen chuckles as his lips drop. In saying that, Lee Sung-min also laughed.

“And you?"

“Me, too."

“You've done this in your past life, right? ”

“I've... done it before. ”

“Well, it doesn't matter. ”

Ji Ho-yeon licked her wet lips with her tongue and smiled like a villain.

“In this life, your first time is me. ”

Cough. Ji Ho-yeon hugged Seong-min's waist.

* * *

The returning sensation is strange.

Baek Sogo slowly raised his sitting body. After years of persecution in the mountains of Mesh.

In fact, I wanted to do more because I felt like it, but unlike the will of the Saxogo, her suffering ended.

“If I did more, I'd be dead. ”

In front of the Saxogo was a mesh. The Goddess of Trial and Agony, who was wearing bandages all over her body, was looking at the Saxony with a weary expression.

Mesh exists in this world, and many troublemakers have come to this mountain, her sanctuary.

Most of them dream of becoming more than they are, and usually they give up and leave the mountain without enduring long hardships and financial sanctions.

“I've never seen anything like it. ”

The mesh had to genuinely acknowledge the poison of the Baek Sogo. It was impossible to survive on this mountain, other than carrying out the excrement layer of gold.

Nevertheless, the Saxony survived.

My body stinks, and I can't eat too much, so my bones are stuck. Nevertheless, the Saxony was alive.

The two eyes of Baek Sogo, who had endured a terrible day without stopping, were serene as if they were not human. Mesh sighed as he looked at the white sogo.

“…… I, the goddess of trials and afflictions, stop suffering because I'm worried about the death of the afflicted. ”

“I can do more. ”

Saxony opened his mouth. After a long time, he raised his hand and touched his neck, because his voice was awkward. It's been a long time since I saw anything.

Baek Sogo stopped, looking at his hands that were too dry. She slowly moves her hands and grabs her face. It's been a long time since I felt anything.

Baek Sogo smiled bitterly touching his recessed cheeks and exposed body because it was so dry.

“That's ugly.”

“Of course.”

The mesh mutters.

“You don't have to do this anymore. If you say you want to, I won't. ”

“This is not good enough. ”

“There's no point in torture anymore. ”

Mesh said so while looking at the Saxony.

“You got everything you could from this mountain. This affliction will only completely ruin your body and not give you the strength you want. ”

“So what do I do? ”

The white sogo staggers and rises up. After a few breaths, she looks straight at the mesh.

“…… I would have told you. ”

The mesh raises its hand.

“When you leave this mountain, I, the god, will personally bless you. ”

“I remember. ”

White Sogo nods his head. I remember hearing that. But I didn't think very deeply. It was because I had no idea what God's blessing was.

“You have endured the longest, most terrible affliction since this mountain began to exist. And you've overcome even the ordeal of Flam. ”

“I did.”

The white sogo nodded again. The mesh narrowed its eyes, looking at the white sogo, which rarely expresses emotions.

“Since I have overcome the trials of Fleram, I will introduce you to Denir, the god of time. If you meet him, you'll face a terrible ordeal... different from what you've done on this mountain. But you'll get over it. ”

“The God of Time. ”

The Saxony mutters. When the Mesh reaches out to the Saxony, information about Denir is etched into the head of the Saxony, just as it did to Lee Sang-min.

“And I will also give you my blessing. ”

The gray light blooms from the fingertips of the mesh.

“Your priest, who suffered on this mountain before you. He was great, too, but I didn't think he would give me a blessing. But not you. I'd have to accept that if I were you. ”

“What do you mean? ”

“You will be the incarnation of Me, the goddess of trials and afflictions. ”

Whoa!

The light that blooms from the fingertips of the mesh is connected to the White Society.

“I don't need the money anymore. As my incarnate, you will be able to leave this mountain and enjoy the same privileges you suffered on this mountain, even if you are not forbidden. It will serve as a great advantage in Denire's ordeal. ”

Baek Sogo nods his head with a blank expression. The Mesh did not tell us anything else.

What it means to be God incarnate. At the end of time, what role will the incarnation play?

You'll find out when it's time. The mesh hides its bitterness. It was cruel, but there was nothing I could do.

Of course, we don't know yet. It's not all set yet.

‘You don't have to introduce her. ’

If you become that much of a vessel, the Mesh won't need to introduce you, but the Erebrisa side will contact the Saxogo.

Erebria makes the world's variables its members. The Saxony has already become enough to be a variable in the world.

After parting with the Mesh, Baek Sogo descends the mountain. The awfully dry body does not move well even after the golden pill disappears.

‘Not yet. ’

As he came down the mountain, Baek Sogo thought of a priest. I wanted to go see her... But not yet.

Baek Sogo knew he was not ready yet. Despite her growing up in the mountains of the Mesh, Baek Sogo has yet to reach even greater heights.

To reach and reach the point of no reach, it took more than what was done on the mountain of the Mesh.

‘Not enough.'

Righteousness and agreement have been a solid belief that has sustained the White Sogo on this mountain. But she knew. Faith is not enough to implement a consensus with righteousness.

That's why we need our strength. Stronger than I am now. The power to firmly establish beliefs like ideals in the world.

She thinks she's becoming a monster.

And she hopes to become a monster.