Price of Management

Maybe it's because they've been spending a lot of time together now.

Julia and Sis were reunited with me and did not make any fuss or talk. I was just taking you to a quiet room where I could rest.

“Get some rest. When Jis wakes up later, she'll be too loud to play, so you better get some sleep. ”

In Julia's whisper, I smiled in relief. It relaxes my mind. I felt like I was back home.

“Ah……. ”

“Why?”

“Come to think of it, you haven't met the Duke of Hoodini. ”

I should have said hello as the lord and father-in-law of Arthur here, but I forgot because I was busy.

“Come with me tomorrow. He'll understand. ”

“Yeah. No hard times, huh? ”

“I didn't. Stop thinking about other things and get some rest. ”

Julia looked beautiful today.

I pulled Julia's neck and kissed her. Julia smiles and kisses a few more times, then covers her duvet.

Julia turns off the lamp and goes outside.

I was left alone in the darkness.

I'm sure I'm exhausted, but I can't sleep strangely.

“Noum.”

- Yeah?

The gnome protrudes from the floor. The gnome digs into the duvet and sticks its head out because it fits next to me. It was so cute that I stroked my head. Norm laughs as he laughs. That's why I feel like I'm sleeping with my daughter.

- Dad, what's on your mind?

The gnome bites.

Yeah, you don't know that. Spirits are connected to spirits.

I sighed and said.

“I wonder if I've made you do the wrong thing. ”

War.

I have slain numerous Horn Empire soldiers with the spirits. Of course it was. I'm not a hypocrite who discusses the value of life on the battlefield.

I did my best.

I tried to stop the war from happening. I met with Emperor Kars and tried to convince him to fall into a trap.

Nevertheless, in the end, there was a war, so it was fair to fight for family and country.

It's the right thing to do.

... but on the one hand, I also wondered whether it was really right.

Justice is always an excuse for sin. Even if I had to, the karma of killing countless people in the end will not go away.

In my past life, I became a good merchant who had never killed a man because I had only mastered the art of spirituality. Without animosity, I would still have been a good carrot who didn't hurt people.

Of course I don't regret it. All I had to do was fight.

It was just the guilt of using these nice and cute spirits as weapons of war.

Gnome tilts his head.

- Dad, I don't know what's right or wrong. Is fighting bad?

“... I don't know. ”

Of course, you would say fighting is bad.

But is it that easy to tell?

Norm said.

- Look, you don't know. I have no idea.

The gnome dug closer into my arms. I embraced gnome.

- But I know one thing.

“What?”

- The obsession with being right and wrong and choosing only one of them is wrong. That obsession is killing me. Like now.

“Ah……. ”

- Fighting is just fighting. I don't feel rejected when I'm fighting for my father, I don't think I'm doing the right thing.

The words of Noonum continue to dig deep in my heart.

- Fighting is just a form of living phenomenon. Animals, plants, all living things fight. It's just a phenomenon of being alive, not to say it's a fight. It just seems like a lot of different shapes to the human eye.

Yes, he's right.

Just as life can be miserable or happy, everything…….

- It's an obsession. The reason he's suffering is because he thinks he's suffering.

“Norm.”

- Yeah?

The gnome opens its eyes wide.

“I think our gnome is a genius. Wise. Wise.”

- Heh heh, I'm a genius.

Norm liked it with a real smile.

Ask me questions you already know the answer to. I just read his mind and told him the truth.

“They're human. He knows the answer and he's wandering around pretending not to know it. ”

- That's weird.

“It's stupid, right? You're an idiot, so you're gonna need smart gnomes to tell you the answer. ”

- Yeah, trust me, Dad!

“Phew, my little cutie! ”

- Heh heh, I'm cute.

I slept with Noonfrost for a long time.

* * *

The next day, I woke up and asked Woundee to wash my body and clothes and leave the bedroom.

The young son frowned as soon as he saw me.

“Dad! Spirit! Father Spirit!”

“Jis, which one of you wanted to see Daddy or Daddy Spirit more? ”

Then, the defective Jis grumbled, not knowing what to say. This son of a bitch. When did I say, "I like my mommy, I like my daddy"? ’Did you ask? Why can't you answer?

I sat on the dining table with my head bowed.

You hear Sis speak quietly to Jis.

“You should say dad. ”

“Even if Dad Spirits are better? ”

“Yes.”

The wound grew larger.

When I saw this, Julia, who was making fun of me, consoled me. I pouted my lips and waited for breakfast.

Then Jis stepped up and grabbed my leg.

“Dad, I like you better. ”

“Huh, really? ”

“So the Spirit. Father Spirit.”

My son grows restless. I'm already seeing signs of an insubordinate.

“No. Spirits are only after eating. ”

At Julia's words, Jis sat on the dining table without hesitation and hesitation. I was amazed at Julia's charisma for making her young son listen like that.

I complimented Julia with a pat on her head.

“My house is impersonating. ”

“Who's in charge? ”

Julia turns on the sympathy.

“He's exhausted. We should retire as soon as the war is over. From now on, you must feed our family. ”

“I consoled you because you looked tired yesterday. Where did you go to retire so early? I told him to work at least forty years. ”

“Sweetheart, can you take care of me? My husband is so tired. I knew there was no war to be had. ”

“I'm asking you to do 40 because it's hard. ”

“…… Tell me the truth. You don't see me getting comfortable, do you? And yet you covet a position as the wife of a powerful man. ”

“How can you be lazy when you have the ability to help so many people and do nothing? If you're a man, you should live with more power. ”

“Big, big.... ”

You mean like the Golden Lady. I think differently from other women.

“You should have been born a man, no matter what. I think God made a mistake. ”

“I see. If I were your husband and your wife, I would have beaten you up. ”

“No, I'm scared. Domestic violence is bad. Besides... ”

I pulled Julia away and kissed her on the neck.

“Because you were born a woman, you do this. ”

“Oh my gosh! What, what are you doing in front of the kid? ”

Julia struggles with shame. I giggled. I'm glad I was born a woman.

Breakfast was simple. I ate bread with sauce and hungered over the soup and white wine that followed.

As soon as the meal was over, Jis summoned Sylph, who was anxious and fond. By the way, Silf with a thick face hugs Jis and goes out to play. I didn't feel good because it seemed like he took the place of a father instead of me.

I had a conversation over tea with my two wives.

“Is it okay to stay here? Better to just flee to Kunt territory. ”

The order was noisy at the moment. It was obvious that the Royal Regular Army had gathered, and that the lords were gathering from all over the country. It bothers me to leave my family in such a distracted place.

“It's okay.”

Sis' simple answer.

Julia replied a little longer.

“Of course, Kunt territory is more comfortable than here, but we can't leave Queen Siena alone and go anywhere else. There's loyalty.”

That said, I kicked my tongue.

“Well, she's not much of a courtesan. You're the only ones with an open mind. ”

Queen Siena is so quiet and calm that she doesn't make many friends. I've heard that places crowded are distracted and hated.

Just like Julia and Sis, I like to hang out with a few people who are doing nothing wrong. Besides, there's no child here to play with Prince Giren but us.

When my family leaves for Kunt territory, I will feel emptiness and emptiness for Queen Siena and Prince Giren.