Problematic Sister Fell In Love With Me

I know this is a question that Chu Yuan cannot avoid at the end, and it is the answer I am destined to face, but I never thought that this shy girl will condense the answer to this question into three such impact Words.

My heart was drawn into a thin line, intertwined and tangled, so that the head was hidden in it, and I could not find it. I could feel the stiffness of the facial muscles, and the corner of the mouth that was barely raised, twitching Awkward smirk, "Brother knows already, you like it"

"Not like it, but love!" Chu Yuan's emphasis this time was loud, but then the sound fell like an alpine skiing, and quickly fell, "You say that'dislike' is different from'hate', then I say'like 'Not the same as'Love', I don't like Cheng Tassel because I like you, I hate Cheng Tassel because I love you"

"You little girl, know what you like and love?"

"I know! Love is cover-up love, love is love without cover-up!" Chu Yuan's lips were shaking, her eyelashes were shaking, her body was shaking, her voice was shaking, but she still applauded all Courage, looking into my eyes, said: "I have long wanted to tell you, since I was very young, I want to tell you, but I don't know why I always want to cover up, you leave home after graduating from college Afterwards, I regretted my death. I can’t think of it, and I don’t want to remember how I survived that year. I can’t stand that kind of day. I look forward to the school relocation every day. Finally, when that day comes, I Become the only one who has no complaints or complaints. I have the courage to tell my parents to move in and live with you. I did it. I thought it was an opportunity that God gave me to make up. I began to learn to be brave, but I still don’t know how to cover up, how to tell you what I’m thinking, until now—I don’t need to worry anymore, because you already know, I still want to cover up, but I have no way Covered, so I can finally be sure that it is love, no longer like it!"

A flash of lightning tore the sky above my head, and a thunder burst in the crack. This was Chu Yuan’s most feared thing, but at this moment, she didn’t respond, so I knew that she was more scared, it was my answer.

Perhaps Chu Yuan felt that she had expected the answer long ago, so she took me by the hand and refused to let go.

Perhaps I also think that I knew the answer long ago, so I agreed to her request without hesitation.

However, we are all wrong.

It’s love, no longer like. When this sentence and that thunder pour into my ears, I suddenly found that the eyes of worldly morality are not as penetrating as imagined, and the shackles of ethical principles are also not imagined. So heavy and penetrating is the sound of the broken heart of Chu Yuan's heart. What made me feel heavy was her heartbreaking sadness.

I smiled, I couldn't explain the taste, I was a little panicked, I was a little vanity, I was a little bitter, I was a little bit sweet

It took only a moment to be shocked to calm. I wasn’t surprised why it was calm, but why I was shocked-no, when I saw the novel of the smelly girl, before you saw the novel of the smelly girl, Chunan, you’ve already found out Everything?

"You can laugh," simple Chu Yuan couldn't see through me, she bit her lower lip without blood, and she refrained from letting herself lose to fear, and she refrained from crying to admit her vulnerability, she thought A self-deprecating laugh, but for the first time, the pretty self laughed at the ugly expression, so ugly, so ugly, so cute, "Laughing I am not only a little ass, but also a psychologically distorted, nympho Fart boy, I always pretend to hate you, but now I naively say I love you, but I tell you, I'm not sick! It's the world that is sick! Dad and mom are just the reasons why I met you, why this The reason has become the reason why I can’t like you, can’t love you?!

Chu Yuan couldn't breathe, she couldn't even suffocate to say the next word, her back was embedded in the back of my hand, "Wow--" Chu Yuan cried, she still cried, hysterical howl Crying.

She rushed into my arms and pressed her left hand clasped to her heart, as if to make me feel the pain of tearing from her. The blood on the back of my hand seemed to flow out of her heart

She slammed my shoulder with that weak right hand, "Why? Why? Why is this wrong, why is this wrong? Why dad and mom can be together forever, and I and you are not Can be together forever? Why am I the person you are closest to, but I can only watch others take you away reasonably? Why I just want to stay by your side, is it unreasonable? Not fair! This world is to me Too unfair! Let me meet you, but let me be your sister!"

Every word and every word of Chu Yuan beats my heart. I can't answer her'why', even any'why', I can't answer it, I can't tell the taste in my heart, In addition to a moment of relief at the moment-Chu Yuan finally cried, and finally no longer suppressed the secret in his heart, let it destroy the not strong self.

Just now, I was very scared. I was afraid that Chu Yuan, who refused to cry, would faint in one breath. At that moment, her face and her eyes were only desperate, not even a trace of vitality.

I don’t know if she was afraid of losing at that moment, but I’m sure, I was afraid, afraid of her despair, what I would lose

What will I lose?God knows, but when this girl pounced into my arms and cried, when she still didn’t let go of the hands we held together, when I followed the agreement, and didn’t let go of her, when I hugged her, as usual When I touch her head, I feel it, I won’t lose it

Life is like a note, in a limited number of pages, with the happiness I hope to write

However, the appearance of someone and the disappearance of someone have torn off all the blank pages that have to be portrayed in the future.

Since then, happiness has nowhere to write

Since then, longing to wait for disillusionment

Yeah, if there is no Chu Yuan's happiness in my life, how can I describe happiness in my blank page?

Maybe I never dreamed, so I don’t know what disillusionment is, but if happiness is nowhere to be written, then the result must be disillusionment.

If it is destined that the appearance of disillusionment will make Chu Yuan's happiness disappear from my notes, then

Go to the disillusionment of +him+mom+!

,,,

Sitting in the last row of seats in the last bus, Chu Yuan, who was already crying, was still choking and clasping my arms, fearing that I would be like a water droplet on the car window.

There is no doubt that we have become the focus again. The few passengers in the car are secretly looking back and observing us. In those eyes, in addition to the ambiguous, it is still ambiguous

Two soaked men and women-a crying girl, a calm-looking young man, clasping each other's hands tightly, snuggling together silently, the girl is so delicate, so beautiful, if I see this In one scene, I can’t help but wonder, and I take it for granted that they are people with stories

Along the way, Chu Yuan didn't speak anymore. I knew that she needed to calm her mood, and I also needed to reorganize my thoughts.

The most difficult person to face is always myself. I thought that I was an alternative to stand in an objective position and have a dialogue with myself, and finally chose to talk to Chu Yuan, which also proved that I can do this-I exist I have the same psychological problems as Chu Yuan, so if I cannot objectively jump out and look at myself, I will not admit this, and then I will be subjectively conscious of the trend. As in the past, I blindly choose to escape and deceive myself, just to not bear those. Weird eyes and heavy weight of ethical shackles

But now, Chu Yuan's questioning and tears have plunged me into a kind of chaos. I can't tell whether I am still objective-I am not without the courage to hurt myself, but I have not the courage to hurt Chu Yuan

Chu Yuan did not say what she hoped for, she only said what she was afraid of losing, and I

Feelings are still an unsolvable problem for me, and the only thing I know is that I cannot persuade myself to do any harm to Chu Yuan, even if I clearly know that the feelings of brother and sister are not tolerated by this society, but the feelings The question is still unreasonable, hasn't it already become an existence that is not tolerated by this society?

I don’t know if I’m using contempt for this society to hypnotize the objective self-subjective consciousness, but I’m sure that, like Chu Yuan, I also have my own bottom line. We are not allowed to cross our own bottom line.

Chu Yuan’s bottom line is that even if you lose everything, at least you have to hold hands, then my bottom line is that I would rather lose everything than absolutely let go!