Problematic Sister Fell In Love With Me

Xu Heng didn’t speak for a long time, so he looked at me expressionlessly, and after a while, he smiled bitterly: "I never thought about my tomorrow, nor did I think about what is the future, a person filled with hatred filled with hatred People, probably can’t think so much, to challenge the rules, to break the laws that I don’t like, are all excuses that sound good, hypnotize themselves, and strengthen the belief of revenge? I don’t know it myself, but each one People who have done bad things and done wrong things are willing to find a reason for themselves, haven't they? Revenge for what happened after Long Xiaotian, until the moment when I returned to Beitian, I don't seem to have seriously thought about it, because these There is only one thing in the heart of Nian. I live for this purpose. I don’t really care about life or death, so I don’t care how I live or how I die. Also live like this? Killing Long Xiaotian, from now on, seems to be a matter of course, no need to think about it, but no one can expect that in a certain year, in a certain city, before I arrived, I met such a small person. Girl, she was sold by her companions and abandoned, just like I was betrayed and abandoned by the society, so-called justice, a little bit of sympathy, so soft in my heart, she was taken away, loneliness is a terrible thing At first, I only sympathized with her, pity her, and then slowly regarded her as a substitute for my sister, and then later, she unknowingly regarded her as a sister, so she was arrogant, indifferent, merciless, in her I was stripped in front of me. I told her everything, including I wanted to take revenge on Long Xiaotian. I didn’t intend to let her participate in this matter. I was also trying my best to prevent it, but she still blended in. I reached Beitian a step earlier, and waited for me for more than a month, waiting for me like a rabbit. When I knew that she was also in Beitian, it was already when the arrow was on the string and I had to send it. At that time, I just took Xiao Zhanhe's hand. I was tricked into reporting the materials of Long Xiaotian, and while dealing with the animals of the Green Snake Barbarian and their animals, I had to appease the girl who would help me in life and death. I was afraid that she would run to take revenge on Long Xiaotian. A colleague, especially the Green Snake, knew Xiao Nuo's existence. He was really a snake. He was suspicious and fierce by nature, but he also had a very smart head. As long as he suspected that I had left a hand with him, it didn't need to be too practical. Evidence, he will kill me, so I let Xiao Nuo come to this hotel, opened the room, and lived quietly here, I told her that her identity and this room are the best for me Good cover Mr. Chu, you are right, she tied you, I did not expect, I am too self-centered, a person is used to life, it is inevitable to be subjective to people and things, you hit me One shot, I didn’t go to myself, so I ignored Xiaoyou’s feelings. In fact, think about it carefully. If someone shot her a shot, whatever the reason, I can’t stand it. I’m angry because I’m angry. She exposed herself. Once the police went to check her account, I found that her account was my help to move the relationship. After contacting me, she also stayed in Beitian during the period before and after the crime, and she was finished in her life."

"Then why don't you take her with me?" I said: "Why are you looking for me? If you don't let her come to me, she won't be exposed, and the police can't investigate her for no reason, then Are you guilty of begging me again? Before then, you thought about surrendering yourself, didn't you?"

Xu Heng did not answer the question, "Does Mr. Chu know why the girl has to avenge me?"

I was shocked, and I felt that there was an answer in my heart, but I shook my head.

"She's afraid, I'm afraid I will go to the end of the world after I revenge Long Xiaotian, then she will become a lonely person again. For her, I am the only relative in the world, and I become a criminal with me, just In order to make me unable to find an excuse to leave her behind," Xu Heng seemed to be envious and self-deprecating: "Mr. Chu has family and friends. Perhaps, he cannot understand the real terrible thing of loneliness. It takes great courage to live alone, and it is nothing compared to death."

Indeed, I have never been alone, but I am not completely unable to understand their ideas

"Humans are very strange animals. Many times we can't understand ourselves. We don't know how to think about our future, but we always worry about the future of others," Xu Heng said with emotion: "She is not afraid of crime, because I, I I’m not afraid of losing my head because of her. I can’t take her with me to the end of my life. From then on, I can’t live in those days where I can’t see the sun, and I have to worry all the time. I can’t let her be a criminal like me. I have to tell her, I Those things that I have done are actually wrong and I have to pay the price, so I have to surrender myself, because she is my sister and my only relative now, she should live well and live decently, I carefully I thought back countless times. Why did I take her out of that city? The answer is the same because I want to give her a future, not destroy her future."

I only know that Xu Heng surrendered because of God Blessing, but I don’t know what gave him such courage. Now I know it is a responsibility, to be a loved one, to be a brother’s responsibility

Xu Heng drove me and Dong Xiaoye back home. In order not to be met by the squat police, the car was parked a little distance away from the community. We didn't talk anymore along the way until we got off the bus. He took it out of the car and carried it on his back. He said to Xu Heng who had never been on the bus: "It doesn't make sense to show. You don't need to please me. I don't lack your favor. You surrender and grab you. The credit, if I want, has long been obtained, as for her, "I looked at the unconscious stunned tiger sister, and said: "She won't care."

Xu Heng smiled and asked, "Mr. Chu wouldn't really think that if I surrendered myself, there could be a ray of life? Ha ha, don't give up this credit."

I looked at him indifferently and said, "Self-reporting and wanting to die are two concepts. Which one do you belong to?"

Xu Heng's expression suffocated, and the smile was not so natural. "Is there a difference?"

"It makes no difference to me, I can not arrest you, but I can’t stop you from surrendering, the road is your own, life and death are your creation, I am curious," I said: "You seem sincere Sincerity and my heart, my heart and my lungs are not necessarily false, but not all truth?"

Xu Heng just smiled and didn't answer, but his eyes clearly dodge something.

I sighed and said, "Actually, I am also doing something recently, I am very committed to doing it, almost all my energy is invested, and I have been getting closer and closer to success, but I have no sense of accomplishment, but more and more I feel more and more frightened and dazed, and the expectations that have been increasing day by day with the clarity of the results suddenly fell sharply, and I began to wonder, what should I do next when this goal is completed? Just like you do now, complete the goal, I have to say goodbye to my past life, but I am used to my previous life. In the face of the inevitable changes in the future, I have little confidence and no motivation. Whenever I think of this, I have an urge to die because I can’t seem to find a purpose for living, and'starting from scratch' is too difficult, too difficult"

Xu Heng didn't laugh, as if he was hit by the most vulnerable concealment in his heart. There was a trace of confusion in his eyes. His mouth twitched a little, and he seemed to want to talk, but he didn't know what to say.

I smiled with emotion, turned back to Dong Xiaoye and walked toward the house, raised my hand, and said: "Tomboy is very pitiful, my parents don't want her, my loved ones don't want her, and I was cheated. Go, I finally met someone who thought he wouldn’t lie to her, but it turned out to be the one who would lie to her most.”

"Mr. Chu!" Xu Heng shouted at me, but when I turned around, he didn't know what to say. After a long pause, he asked: "You, promised to be a friend with Xiaoyou, yes ?"

"Yes." I said simply.

"Can you not tell her what I just said?" Xu Heng's words were tantamount to defaulting my guess.

Sure enough, his motive for surrendering was not only for God's blessing, but also partly for himself-he surrendered because he had lost the faith or motivation to live, and he wanted to die.

"I said, surrendering or wanting to die is two concepts, but it makes no difference to me. Even if you don’t want to die, you should take responsibility for what you have done. The courage to take responsibility , I admire, although you have piled up so many great excuses in front of the tomboy, but it is nothing more than hope that the tomboy will be an upright person in the future. You have left her with an image of being able to change, dare to bear, and be open and tall. I have no reason to destroy these positive, worthy of emulation, even if it is not completely true."

"Thank you" Xu Heng smiled with relief, and bitter smile.

"You're welcome." The bitterness of my smile, and the relief of laughter.

Xu Heng may be a smart, insidious, and fierce person, but as I felt at first, he is not an unforgivable person,'sinner' is the definition of him in this society, and his sin is forced out by the society It is a pity that the law cannot convict society, so it can only be convicted.

Xu Heng is the victim of this sad society. No one can say that he is innocent, but only hope that his sin will enable more people to realize that some things have already surpassed the laws and rules, which is unreasonable. , That is an undesirable phenomenon, that is the tragedy of society

All I can do is give this person who is willing to be a victim a little psychological comfort, so I agreed to his request.

Xu Heng was right, I was tortured by Stockholm Syndrome, I didn’t think he was damn, so I also made an excuse, like him, to cover up my cowardice-I don’t want that heroic credit, I don’t want to be an accomplice to this sad society, so I don’t catch him

In the society in which we live today, it’s not necessarily shameful to be alone, but be practical.