Ravenclaw's Blue Gem

"Even if I am a monster?"

"You are not a monster..." she muttered, but still said honestly: "Yeah."

"Even if I will kill you?" Max looked at her coldly, "You know everything now, and you know the ending of Florence. You gave me many happy memories. I like you very much, Barbara. Pull, so I want to kill you."

Barbara’s chest rises and falls quickly, her face is pale, and the fear of death grips her heart tightly, shouting "No! No!" Especially she knows that Max is not just talking, because from her Barbara could see that it was no joke in her eyes.

"Of course you can give up, Barbara. It's not that you have no choice, I can also let you survive, but I will give you one to forget so that everything is over." Max's words seemed to carry A deadly scent, the sweet scent of the deadly life.

Who would want to die so meaninglessly!Run away, I still want to live.Reason said to her, this is a correct decision that no one will ever condemn her.

Max didn't speak, but waited quietly for Barbara to make her own decision. In the whole stone room, only Barbara's heavy panting and trembling echoed around.

"...Okay, I am willing." Barbara closed her eyes, relieved, "Even if you will kill me...I am willing."

"This is so strange, why would you be willing? Death is a terrible thing for ordinary people." Max frowned, her breathing became heavy, and she felt that she was only one step away from success. Now, since the girl in front of you has agreed to this request...

"Because I love you, I accept it. Even if it is this life, I am willing to hand it over to you."

"Great, I have one last request. If it were you, the hole in my heart would be filled."

Expecting, eager, eager.She finally saw her own light during the long march. That was the answer she got after racking her brains. If it were Barbara, it would definitely bring her salvation.Max kissed Barbara's lips and said with a smile.

"Just kill me."

"Huh?" Barbara widened her eyes. "What did you... just say?"

"Barbara, kill me, and own me. I want to understand, it’s not enough to just love. If I don’t have each other in the same and equal manner, the hole in my heart will never be filled... …"

"Do you say this is'love'?"

"Yes." Barbara's face became very ugly.

"I don't want it!" she yelled, tears running down her cheeks, "Never!"

"...Why?" Barbara's voice still echoed in the airtight stone chamber, but they suddenly fell into a terrible silence. After a long time, Max asked softly, with the sound of foam cracking.

But she was not asking Barbara’s thoughts, but entered her thoughts: "Are you willing to accept my love, but you are not willing to give me equal love? I can give you another chance, Barbara Pull, don't let me down..."

"No, I won't change my decision, Max." Barbara watched the situation slowly slide in an unpredictable direction, but this time she should never compromise, "I am willing to let you kill me, So I will never kill you."

"I love you, Max. But because of this, I... You are wrong, Max, stop, we still have time, I will be by your side..."

"You said I was wrong?" Max said depressedly. "When I killed Florence, my heart finally felt full swelling and pain like never before. It let me know that I was alive and let me Knowing what love is, do you want to deny it? Deny me to maintain my roots and think that I am wrong?"

Barbara felt her figure suddenly distorted, and she suddenly remembered that if Max refused her, she would be ejected from her spiritual world.They both need to calm down with each other first, Max's emotions are obviously out of control, but she doesn't know if it is because she has endured it for too long, or if they made a mistake in connecting.But anyway, it's too dangerous to stay here.

When they return to the real world and calm down, she must explain to Max clearly, hug her, tell her what she thinks, and let Max realize that she has actually committed a big mistake.She vowed that she would never let Max feel lonely again, and that she would love her for a lifetime.

But she was too keen to hide her joy. Max was keenly aware of what was about to happen, and sneered: "This will make sense. You actually just want to run away and don't want to say it directly, so you deliberately said something to anger. My word—if so, then I’ll change my mind, I won’t let you run away, Barbara."

Chapter 62 Break

"Don't pretend, Granger is gone."

Barbara spoke indifferently to the girl with her eyes closed on the recliner, without looking at the other's embarrassed expression or the gesture of turning over and sitting up: "Is there anything you want to ask me? You should remember everything that happened before. Siegel."

Zoe nodded silently: "Well, this time... I remember everything. Whether it was with Hermione or..." She opened her mouth, her expression confused and tired, "Professor Barbara, do you think What kind of'thing' am I?"

"I don't think you are a'thing', Siegel." Barbara said, "Why do you all have to question the meaning of your existence? I'm not saying it's bad, but... there are so many People are looking at you, caring about you, and loving you. Is it just because of the slight difference in identity, such an unreasonable and uncontrollable thing, that can erase everything you have experienced?"

"'You'... you know the professor, you know, my mother, and Professor Margaret too. She never calls me by my last name like other professors, she never calls me by her first name."

"It's just a bit of bad fate from the past. The three of us used to have a good relationship... As for Meg, that idiot just hopes to distinguish you by this name, because she is a fool, and can only use this straightforward method to express her importance. Because she doesn’t want any of you to mistakenly think that she doesn’t have you in her eyes...Ah, I’m so hot thinking about this idiot, God knows how I..." Barbara used three words in just one sentence. A word to attack Margaret, but Zoe felt that her anger was not too serious in it, but more like a verbal habit.

"Is your relationship with Professor Margaret not good?" She asked tentatively, but as if poking Barbara's switch called "Complain", her face suddenly became angry.

"Can you imagine that when I was a student, I had to be pranked by boring fools every day? This is not a fun thing. I hate others doing things to me, and I like being quiet, but Meg likes it Bullying me, although she didn't do anything particularly excessive, it caused a lot of trouble to me, if it wasn't because of Max..." She stopped talking abruptly, pressed her forehead and said helplessly," You just treat me as saying nothing."

"...A lot of things have happened between us. I know how much she likes stalking. She is just and awe-inspiring in front of you, but in fact she is just narcissism. She always treats everything around her. It's messed up, and at her own pace, just because she feels she should do it...Of course, I don't hate her, at least now I have given up."

"But you have always known, knowing the abnormality in my body, when did this happen?" Hearing the abnormality from Barbara's words, Zoe said gloomily, "Even Professor Margaret knew , Then Dumbledore must also know... how many people know about my mother living in me? Is it the only one who is kept in the dark?"

Barbara sighed: "Calm down, I guess Professor Dumbledore should be the insider, but Meg was the one who told her that I missed it. I told her about it, and I... knew the time. Point, it was the first time we met, during the summer vacation."

"Didn't you always know?" Zoe blinked. She thought they had known for a long time, but it didn't seem to be the case.

"It's been a long time since Max and I met. Since we...well, after the'quarrel', she cut off the relationship between her and Meg, but she pretended to be much better than Meg. Nothing seems to have changed. It’s just that she never saw us alone anymore, and something happened to me. I spent about a year or two to recuperate elsewhere. After I came back, it was too late to say anything. It's..." Barbara's voice was melancholy, and obviously annoyed.

"After that, she joined the Dark Lord's camp as soon as she graduated. I can’t wait. We never met directly after that. If you don’t treat the occasional disappearance or death obituaries in the Daily Prophet as an invitation letter ..."

"Don't you, and my mother..." Zoe said vaguely. She just remembered that Max told her that she had been confessed by a girl, but she couldn't directly ask Barbara if she was her. Maybe it's just that she has thought about it. It is not only rude to ask directly, but it may also make Barbara suspicious.

"Then you now know that she is such a person, do you hate her?"

Barbara was stunned: "Why do you ask this question?" Her gaze made Zoe restless, but fortunately Barbara didn't mean to pursue it. "Hate... never happened before, even if it happened in the past. With so many things, I just feel pitiful and helpless. I don’t know where we went wrong, but after all everything has happened and I can’t go back."

"I never even regretted loving her. Why are you so surprised? Haven't you noticed it before? Your mother is a bastard, an arrogant bastard, and doesn't know how to consider others. Feeling, thinking that my cognition is absolutely correct... But even so, I have loved her, but we can no longer get together and drift away. This makes me feel a little sad occasionally."

Barbara came back to her senses and cleared her throat. Her cheeks were reddish: "Ah, you just assume that I haven't said anything. Those are old things. Adults are very ruthless, Zoe. Because we will choose to forget, even if it is hopelessness and pain, one day it will scab... However, even if some things are forgotten, they will never disappear, because they are already part of us... Although I think if The person standing here is Max. I will definitely choose to slap her first." She chuckled lightly, it was indeed a smile that came out of the haze.

"Could it be that the person you saw when you were connected was..." Zoe suddenly remembered the scars on his body at the time, then protested, "What are you thinking about! That's my body!"

"Who asked her to provoke me with that incident? There are some things that can't be said." Barbara patted her head gently for the first time, instead of as she often showed. Kind of silence, "Sorry, I was really a little dizzy at the time, I apologize to you."

"Can I really stay here, Professor? Even if I am such a person?" Zoe looked at her.

"Don’t be stupid, boy. Of course you can stay here, it shouldn’t be decided by anyone, not to mention—isn’t someone betting everything and willing to help you? Who are you? It has nothing to do with your origin."

*****

With a big cup of hot potion in his hand, Zoe walked on the way to Barbara's office with a bitter face.You must know that she only showed weakness in front of an unfamiliar professor two days ago, even though that person may have been her mother's lover.But running over at this time will only make Zoe feel embarrassed.

But Snape was completely unaware of her mood. He just said lightly, "From this time on, you will deliver Barbara's potion. It just so happens that this time the share has not been delivered, you go first. "For this reason, Zoe was sent out at will.

He cursed in his heart that Snape had better become a real bat right away, or he would break his big hawk nose directly.While Zoe resisted the office close to Barbara, he was curious about everything that happened in the past, and he couldn't choose.

But I don’t know if Barbara will be in the office today. She doesn’t know about Barbara’s course schedule. Even if she doesn’t have classes, maybe she will have private arrangements... But Zoe immediately abandoned this conjecture.The second semester was almost halfway through, and the time she spent with Barbara was not too small, but she knew exactly how lonely this person was.

As if to bury herself in a scroll, Zoe had never seen her have unnecessary greetings or social interactions with other professors, even Margaret, who was said to have had a lot of bad relationships with her, Never came to her.

"Ah, the professor wouldn't she have no friends at all." After blurting out, Zoe looked around with a guilty conscience, for fear that a Barbara would pop out from which corner to eavesdrop on her bad words.But fortunately, these are just imaginations. She walked all the way to Barbara's office without any abnormalities.

First she stood in front of the door, took a deep breath, planning to just pass the cup to Barbara, and then say the greetings that she had repeated in her mind many times, so that even if she didn’t have to look at Barbara, she would be Evacuate quickly within minutes to get rid of that embarrassing state.

"Professor, this is Professor Snape..." She murmured, and as soon as she pushed the door through a slit, she heard Barbara's depressed voice from inside.

"Let go of me, you..."