Ravenclaw's Blue Gem

"Go and die!" Zoe slammed the door and left.

Chapter 57—Holy Pain

The pain seems to have been engraved on the soul through the nerves.

For humans, pain is never a feeling that should be praised. Whether it is physical pain or mental pain, humans’ first choice has always been to avoid and stay away.This may be an instinctive reaction for survival, or it may be an experience summed up by constant attempts and choices in the long history.It is like discovering that flames can illuminate and heat but are hot and dangerous. It is one of the countless tools of mankind.

Even if she is out of the physical body, her state seems to be different from ordinary ghosts. One of them is that she occasionally falls into dream-like recollections. The part that differs from dreams lies in the time and time she encountered and experienced. It feels that it will make her repeat the experience countless times, so realistic as to return to that period of time.

From time to time, I would return to that place and revisit that kind of confused and helpless experience.No one can help her, and she has no one to rely on. From the experience summed up in the past, she can learn that this may be a scene that a certain type of identity must go through, but when she does face such a ceremony, I found that the scenes described by those words were so pale.

At first it was just a kind of subconscious resistance and the rational use of one's own advantages.Resisting to see "self" awakening from the cold stone bed again, the father, because he is a man, does not have the necessary conditions for gestation, and considering the difficulty of the baby, he adjusted the goal of the ritual to a little girl Pattern.

These are the details that she thought about in the countless days and nights that followed. As for asking about such things in front of her, she couldn't do it anyway.Just listening to the man spit out any word about this matter would make her feel a strange numbness, like electric current rushing into her body.

Even if she finally follows the same path as him, it will never become exactly like him.She will be bolder and more perfect than him. The child she makes should be a doll with a clear purpose, but this child will not realize her panic and confusion at the time. If she can, she does not even want this. Children have their own thoughts.

Tom said that she was an out-and-out lunatic, but she obviously chose to throw her body into it only for a more convenient ceremony.Anyway, she has no interest in her partner and offspring at all. She can't imagine who she will truly fall in love with, and she can't imagine a family walking or eating happily.Compared with this kind of future that suits most people, she is more willing to choose what belongs to her only, even if it is distorted in the eyes of others, but it is what she wants to do.

It's just that the level of hard work is beyond imagination, but I can bear it for the time being.Even if she goes from being able to perform daily activities normally to walking slowly for a while, even if the consumption of energy is accelerated, even if various reactions that have never been seen before appear one after another, these novel and annoying experiences are not good or not Well, she is willing to experience all kinds of things, but if those things start to hinder her daily life, it will not be so pleasant.

Tom sometimes looks at her with complicated eyes. She knows that Tom is not looking at her, but at someone who is not here, although in the end it will always end in nothing, because Tom has never been attached to family and the past. , But he finally brought St Mungo's healer with the Imperius Curse.

When the day came, she experienced pain that she had never experienced before.That was different from any pain she had caused in the past. It not only made her feel alive, but in the end even a strong stimulus of being taken away began to appear.Part of the body was torn, squeezed, and then peeled off. In the end, the pain and even became numb. Even thinking became difficult. Between the ups and downs of consciousness, there seemed to be a blank in front of her eyes. She and Orlando stood face to face.

"Look, this is something you will never be able to do." She declared, "and I did it. I surpassed you, and you will never be able to restrain me. I am not your test product."

This is the pain that even good and evil can be peeled away from destiny. The things she despised, hated, and wanted to erase, actually disappeared from the blank and hazy spirit as she wished.He stretched out his hand to catch Orlando, who was standing still, but couldn't reach it anyway.

Then came the loud cry that broke the stagnant time."Congratulations, you are a healthy girl." The therapist's tone was dull, her eyes were hollow, which was obviously the reason why the effect of the Imperius Curse hadn't passed yet, she was just repeating the process, but she did what she should do , Whether it is cleaning or aftercare.

It is not so easy to recover immediately after being relieved. She has always been insensitive to activities that require a lot of physical effort.Only this time she had no choice.She didn't care about the congratulations from the therapist, because the babies adjusted on her own basis would only be girls, and she only needed girls.

The little thing the therapist was holding in his arms cried and cried. She refused the therapist's invitation to let her hug the child, but instead supported herself on the pillow to make herself more comfortable.There was blood and some strange smells around. She was about to adjust it with her magic wand when the door that had been closed opened.

Tom frowned and walked in. Neither she nor he would care about the messy scene here, nor would he be embarrassed by such a scene. The connection between them did not require these hypocritical responses.

"So this step is considered a success?" He looked at the baby who was crying loudly with an expression of disgust.

"I haven't confirmed yet, but the ceremony was set up to be implanted in the fetus from the beginning. It should be said that as long as the child can survive, it will be more than half successful." Tom noticed the therapist standing aside.

"Just leave her aside?" he asked weirdly."Is there any problem?" She didn't care.

"You should give her a hug." She was surprised to hear Tom say that."Are you a man who cares about such details?"

Tom frowned and showed an uncomfortable expression: "Since you are her mother, you should give your baby a hug."

"Even if I will put her to death later?" she sneered. "You are strange enough, Tom."

"Well, give her to me." The therapist did it unconsciously but obediently.But she has been able to do many things, but she has no talent in holding a child. The child just lies in her arms, and it looks even more uncomfortable.

When she first took the child, a deep part of her heart was faintly shaken for a moment. In her life so far, she has been in contact with children, peers and elders, but she has never encountered any baby.The birth of life is accompanied by severe pain, which is the pain of separating a part of oneself. The born life carries its own blood and flesh. Probably even the soul and destiny are destined to be connected to each other.

"This is, I..." Looking at the baby crying in front of her, she hesitated for a while when she narrated, then closed her eyes, "If it is, that would be great."

"You chose to create a life." Tom walked over. At this time, she had already handed over the child to the therapist. After patiently soothing, perhaps tired, her voice gradually calmed down, "What if she refuses your occupation? do?"

"Of course she will resist." She said softly, as if she resisted her father. She didn't understand this, but she couldn't find other possibilities. "But I will not make a mistake." She is not her father.

"Whether it is my death or her death, the conclusion will not change. Besides, both parties bear the same risk, which is called equality."

"Death is the most foolish choice in the world." Tom said coldly, "I will leap over death and conquer death, and I will never succumb to death."

"Yeah, so you did it that way." She smiled."Where are you going to leave her, Lucius?"

"Of course I live with me and I will raise it." She said of course. "This is my child. Of course I must live with me. Lucius is not her biological father, and he is married."

"If this child can kill me in the future, it will also be a good ending." She looked forward to it, "No matter what the ending is, I can accept it. I am willing to accept everything from her. If she needs it, I will do my best. Train her as much as you can. Until I destroy her or she destroys me."

"Do whatever you want." Tom said indifferently. "Have you figured out the name of this kid?"

"Well, think it over." She closed her eyes and relaxedly said the name she had considered for a long time.

"Zoe (life), I want her to be called Zoe."

Chapter 58 Chimera

Chapter 58

"Hey, I have called you many times." An impatient voice sounded from my ear, the voice was not close, it must be some distance away.There is only one answer among the people Max meets who would speak to themselves.

"I'm resting." She stood up faintly. She had been sitting down against the stone wall before, "I thought you would not come over for a while, after all, I should have scared you before."

The fragments of the "dream" have not completely dissipated. These things that Max has been visiting more frequently these days are probably an accident during the ritual. When she woke up, she had a concept of the experiment and had nothing to experience. I have forgotten all the facts I experienced in the past, as if removing the key pieces of the puzzle from the graphics, and the whole picture became incomplete.

The Zoe in her eyes suddenly coincided with the baby-time appearance, followed by the scene when she left the headquarters with a larger Zoe. The biggest and most important puzzle has not yet returned. She thought about it many times, but still did not Understand what makes the ceremony complete.The book didn't say it in detail, it just recorded a fragmentary method, and didn't mention a word about the conditions for the achievement of "Soul Turn".

On the contrary, it records the Horcruxes in detail. From the method of production to the consequences, it can be seen that the author of this book is more curious about Horcruxes than Soul Zhuan. I don’t know if this is his own research. The technique is still inherited from more distant ancient books.The techniques used by ancient wizards are far more powerful than those of today's wizards.Many of the mysterious spells that have been lost or passed down are actually created by predecessors a long time ago.

Many people always have such a misunderstanding: Those ancient spells that are powerful or complicated and difficult to understand are perfect and cannot be changed. As long as they do not show obvious flaws or shortcomings, then the current wizards should Follow the footsteps of the predecessors in the past and do not make redundant explorations of those spells, because with their skills and knowledge, it is impossible to surpass these "perfect" spells.

But Max never recognized this.Isn't it because they are such spells that it is more necessary to explore and pursue the roots and possibilities?Even ancient spells, in the final analysis, were created by wizards themselves. As long as they were created by humans, there would be shortcomings or improvements.Even if it is a god, who has actually seen a perfect existence?

"You didn't scare me, just with that subtle killing intent, you can overcome it with perseverance." Max doesn't think this is the truth. You must know that even if Zoe saw death, he didn't face it directly. The true killing intent, perhaps today's confrontation with the horseman can be regarded as one of them.

"Even if you don't kneel down, those horsemen won't do anything to you, as long as you don't continue to provoke them." Max said, "Know that you don't have to take it up, you just need to take me Offering it out can calm the anger of the horseman, for example, saying that I have died after being tortured in various ways."

"But it can't change the fact that you used my body to kill Lisa. It was the disaster I brought to her, and I was facing her family." Zoe said upset, "Furthermore, even if You are not using my body to hurt her, and I must also bear the responsibility of apologizing for this."

"Oh? I thought you wouldn't recognize me as your mother even if you died." Max smiled."I don't'recognize' that you are my mother now, but I have no choice, do I? I can't just because I want to sever relationship with you, I can unscrupulously get rid of those who are hurt. I hate you. One of the points is that no matter what you commit, those people will always find me in the end.” Zoe remembered what Daisy had said to her before, she really couldn’t escape this relationship, even if it came to her. Said it was just a heavy burden.

"Let's continue practicing the dissolution spell today." Max clapped his hands, and Zoe stopped her."I have something to ask you."

She waited for Max to make a respectful look: "You used to sneak into the forbidden forest, right." After Max admitted this, "Then what you have done to the dead horseman today What do you think of that thing?"

"Do you want to ask me if I know what it is?" Max said directly, "Of course I do. Do you remember that I gave you a map?"

Zoe suddenly had a bad feeling: "Could it be that?"

"It's the'is it', you guessed it right, that thing was raised by me." Max didn't care that his collar was picked up, "I wanted you to find it and kill it. But I didn't Thinking that it has woken up from the restrictions I set, now I must be venting my anger and satisfying my appetite."

"How come I can have your shadow every time I encounter something wrong!" Zoe didn't know if she should punch Max for the innocent horseman, she stared at that one and acted at all. The face that didn't care, the face that looked exactly like him but looked very ridiculous.

"Is it time to be held accountable? The question you should ask me the most is only this level of question?" Max easily broke free of Zoe's shackles, "Forbidden Forest is such a place where the strong defeat the weak, and the strong The definition of "is just victory or defeat. If that thing can kill them all before the horsemen gather to kill it, it will be the strongest in this war."

"Any creature needs to eat. Horses can hunt it for dignity. Then why should you be so angry because it eats a horse? You can also kill it. This is what I intended to give you. Subject."

"That's why you want to play with life? If you didn't create that kind of monster, this horseman would never die!"