Re:Zero Kara Hajimeru Isekai Seikatsu (WN)

When I gave up the chief, Miselda's expression, which I declared, was determined.

The domination of a strong, wild beauty does not fade, and it is not different from the impression I had when I first saw her. Everywhere, the impression of being a strong woman remained unchanged.

With that impression, Mizelda lost her right foot and decided to step back from the chief's seat.

――――

Those around Mizelda are the ones who are deeply coloured and carefree.

The "people of Shudrak" who have seen the strength of their patriarch, Mizelda, close to them, their feelings of remorse and loss are by no means easily wiped away.

Kuna's expression turned into a spurt of impertinence, and Holly's face sank as well, always slowly breaking her pace. Tearful eyes were biting down his lips, and the other Shudrak's expression was uniformly depressed.

But the biggest disturbance was--

"Ah, sis, please don't do this." I'm the chieftain of the clan, Te, so I'll be your chieftain.... "

"-Tarita"

"I'm your sister, so I'll do my job!" I don't have such a vessel... "

Shaking her head sideways, Tarrita called out desperately.

I can imagine that Misserda's younger sister, who was directly nominated as the next chief, loved her from the end of her daily actions and was close to worshiping her sister.

But the fact that Misserda had lost her legs made Tarrita a terrible wolf. The agitation seems to be more than a party's miserda.

"... my power is lacking"

Tarrita's grievous complaint made her weakly blame herself.

It was the end of a floor full of wounded people, a rippled rem standing on a cane.

Treasured as the only place where healing magic could be used, Rem ran right to left to save many wounded. I could tell how harsh it was from the clothes of the blood-stained rem, the disturbed hair, and the fatigued expression.

However, this person did not approve of it, and it was a little "okay" to the first Subaru's words.

Nevertheless, no one has the right to blame Lem for his lack of power.

Without her, we would not have been able to extract the dead from the Arachian assault. Everyone understands that.

Therefore...

"Lem, you don't have to worry about cumming. I was lucky enough to be able to fight the [General] of the Empire on one leg....... Yaah, I need your help."

"Miss Mizelda..."

"I am grateful to you, Le. I don't want any more words than that."

Unless Miserda give thanks again, and Lem can say nothing more.

Louis, who had disturbed the long blonde hair, stood beside Lem, who was silent. Placing his hand on Louie's shoulder, who was gently picking the hem, Lem quietly lowered his eyes.

Lem's sense of guilt and helplessness was so painful to Subaru. But before Subaru could say anything, the beauty of the brunette moved forward.

"Misserda, I don't want to change my mind."

Misserda sat on the object nodding as she asked Abel in front of her.

She touched the cut surface of her bandaged foot with her fingers.

"Ahh, don't change your mind." The covenant between Shudrak and the Volakian Emperor was kept. From now on, it's not me, it's Tarrita... yaa, ask the chief. "

"--All right, Misserda, it was very generous."

Fu

Miserda, who was determined to leave office, and Abel, who had arms with her, showed understanding. With that, Miserda, who breathed a small breath, was disfavored.

With a faint smile, she glanced up at Abel,

"La, smile anyway." That's what beauty is all about. "

"- Hmm."

And I'm cumming

Despite losing her legs, Misserda was too strong.

Not even Abel, who was an admirer, was disrespectful to her posture and laughed at.

It was a testimony to the emperor's respect for the female warrior who lived in the woods, who had been robbed of his throne.

And then--

"-Listen, my fellow countrymen!"

Miserda raised her face as she tightened her smiling expression.

Listening to this violent voice, Shudrak and the others all set their positions together and listened.

"As I told you before, Li, I want you to fulfill the duties of the Patriarch!" Come on, Tete, give up the role of the Patriarch to my sister, Tarita! Everyone obey Tarita! "

――――

"This is my last order as a chief." ---Thank you for your father's oath, the pride of the ancestral spirit. "

”-Thank you!”

That's what Shudrak and the others repeat at the end of Mizelda.

I have no knowledge of their customs or long-standing customs. However, it was felt that it was an inheritance ritual even for Svalbard, a layman and outsider.

Short, not formal, inheritance technique that combines practical benefits and idealistic things.

Here, the chief of the "people of Shudrak" was inherited from Mizelda to Tarita.

"Sister..."

"Na with a sunken face, Chief. Your stray is our stray. Your hesitation is our hesitation. Your death, ha, our death."

――――

Misserda encouraged Tarrita, a new chief with a sad expression, as she walked over.

That doesn't make Tarrita feel any easier at once. But I'm sure Tarrita understands that things are not going to change anymore.

After a moment of silence, Tarrita nodded silently.

――――

The complicated emotions that passed through Miselda's eyes when she saw it were something that Tarrita, with her head down, could not see. --And it was a sanctuary that no one but her should mention.

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"... honestly, I was surprised"

At the end of the change of chief and the damage report, Subaru called out to Abel.

Called to a halt, Abel frowned at the impression that there was no subject, and succinctly questioned Subaru's sincerity in an unpleasant manner, saying, "What is it?"

"There are many things I have to think about. Don't even bother me."

"Don't be too harsh."... I was just surprised. You lightly admitted Misserda's departure from the front. "

――――

"I just lost one of my legs." I thought you were going to tell me to work till you died for me. "

Thinking it was too extreme an opinion, Subaru tells Abel his honest feelings.

To reclaim the throne, the "people of Shudrak" were added to the gesture, and worst of all, the emperor considered poisoning the citadel city of Gualal.

Abel: No, Vincent Volakia won't let that happen.

"Besides, what's the point of being strong?"

However, Abel's answer to Subaru, who was prepared to tell the truth, was calm.

Abel gazes at Shudrak, who talks in the distance, in front of the confused Subaru.

"In any case, I don't want more than my men can do." Even if I command you to do your best, you will say, "Spit out your limits."

――――

"I'm just mad at my calculations for doing more than I've rated." Your subordinates will not ask for more or less. And Misserda fulfilled her part. Then all I can give is a reward. "

Make a blast with words, draw more power with rewards, and promise the next with nigiri.

I knew that Subaru would be able to follow his men as a powerful man. That's why Abel's answer contradicts Subaru's imagination.

Don't ask your subordinates to do more than they can do.

This was because it seemed like an environment that was easy for the subordinates to work in, and at the same time it seemed like a lonely environment.

"Of course, I will reward work that is not worthy of recognition with punishment." You know what it means to believe in and be punished. "

"... does that mean you're punishing me?"

"If you were my subordinate, you would be." But are you my subordinate? "

Looking straight ahead, Subaru stared at Abel's words.

Of course, I don't remember Subaru's emotional subordination to Abel. In discussions with Priscilla, Abel was treating Subaru as a military master, but he had no intention of serving.

It's not that I'm not attracted to the title of a military master, but I don't think your men deserve it.

"It would be. You are not my subordinate. Therefore, it does not fall within the scope of the requisite punishment."

"Thinking like that, what are you to me..."

As a result, I was forced to accompany them, but originally, there was no master-subordinate relationship between Subaru and Abel, and there was no relationship with more humidity.

Only by becoming a community of destiny in the flow will the path be divided if the problem is removed.

It was completely different from allies, allies, and comrades. If you insist, you're one of them.

Some people called me a friend on their own, but you're not.

“Yeah. I know people, so it's not easy to be friends.”

Given the circumstances, I'm sure the people we're going to be seeing here are either very good people or con artists. The flop was just the former.

And then--

"I have a conversation with Priscilla." You must fulfill your duty. "

"My sphere..."

"You don't have to tell me."

Split between her long eyes, Subaru's gaze dropped off Abel and headed to the corner of the room.

There was a Lem sitting on the floor. I couldn't see the look on my face from a distance, but I couldn't let it go.

I was told by Abel earlier that it was a problem.

"Don't start another fight with Priscilla." Watch your mouth. "

"A lot of things will advise you that you should say those words, not me."

Returning his hate speech with further hate speech, Subaru breaks up with Abel as he returns to the conference hall.

Since the "people of Shudrak" will change in the matter of Miserda's legs, it will be necessary to enter into a dialogue with Priscilla with that circumstance in mind.

However, there are not many curtains where Subaru appears in conversations between Abel and the Priscilla people.

Priority was given to words that only Subaru could use.

"--Rem, are you ready now?"

Take a deep breath, calm down, and then head under the lem.

Sitting with his knees folded and his back on the wall, REM slightly tilted himself to the Subaru's words, and reflected this figure in his blurry pale blue eyes.

"... is that you? When will you change your clothes?"

"Rem is preferable to changing clothes." I'll change my clothes as soon as this is over. "

"I see. Then we're done here." I need you to get dressed. "

Such a mess!

There was no island to attach to, and Subaru shouted at the Rem for a wonderful response. And when Subaru's voice was sharpened, Lem said, Be quiet.

Then she sneezes the girl leaning on her left shoulder with her chin,

"Louie, who is asleep, will wake up. Please take care of it."

"That's..."

Or do you not want to put such care on this child?

"Don't say that in a bad way." I'm sorry. "

Louis leaned against Lem with a small breath.

I heard that Louis, who had blood all over his white clothes, was helping Lem to heal his wounded. According to Lem's attitude and what he heard from Utakata, it was awkward, but it was still moving as it should have been.

Naturally, Svalbard's inner self is not complicated.

If you make a steep face like that, you're going crazy.

Ah, oh, I'm sorry. My makeup is so messed up, it's embarrassing.

That's how embarrassing it was when the makeup was properly worn.

"And cheek..."

Svalbard dropped his shoulders and dented his spicy Lem as usual. Then Svalbard slowly sat down on the right side of the lem, on the other side with Louis, sitting side by side.

Little by little, Lem's protest gaze flashes, but it is consciously ignored,

"Lem, you've done well. Thanks to you, everyone was saved."

"... I also felt painful about my lack of strength. To tell you the truth, it's unbearable.”

"Lem..."

In response to the words, Lem looked down at his hands regretfully. Looking at the white finger, Lem chewed her lips weakly.

"There's nothing wrong with it. Even though my memories are still fuzzy, I was able to use healing magic to help a lot of people." and yet.... "

“I know. If it's true, this magic wasn't like this.”

"It wasn't like this."

"Healing is magic; the magic I use now is sensory, in other words, self-taught. Louie helped me and I managed to get it in shape....."

Lem's words didn't go on.

It is known that it is not necessary to say that it does not continue. I know that it is the blade that hurts me if I say it, and that it comfortes me even though the pain is slight.

A weak voice hurts itself if it is spoken to. Instead, just a little, your chest will be lightened. And Lem is reluctant to get lighter.

A testament to my true lack of power and my self-pity for failing to save others.

――――

Once again, Subaru knows how Lem feels.

The remorse that we could have done more afflicts us more than the poor walls. It's even more so if it involves the future of someone who isn't who they are.

― ― Miselda lost her legs, leaving something heavy in Subaru's chest.

It's not life. But it's not hard to imagine the magnitude of losing any of the limbs.

Most recently, Al lost his left arm. Ricard loses one arm in the water gate city of Pristella, where he confronted the "bulimia" during the battle.

It's a terrible shock, but it's not so far-fetched a tragedy. Rather, it might be more appropriate to speak of a familiar tragedy if we are to find ourselves in battle.

Even so...

"It's tight."

"... yes"

As Svalbard muttered, the lem immediately beside him nodded tinyly.

For the first time, an honest head without rebellion was equivalent to a reaction, but I was not in the mood to rejoice in it. Lem glanced slightly at Subaru, who had a lump in his chest.

"What would I have been like if I had been... before?"

"... if it was Rem when I had memories?"

"Yes, if it's my healing magic then Misserda's legs..."

The words that were supposed to remain, and Subaru's eyes closed.

I don't know how Lem feels. However, it is difficult for the gatekeeper Subaru to determine how far the existence of memory affects the healing magic of Lem.

Even if the healing power could be quantified, it would be difficult for Subaru to evaluate it.

However,

――――

While staring, Lem, who was harboring a sincere emotion in her pale blue eyes, was looking at Svalbard.

I don't know if it's something Subaru can prepare for the answer she's asking for. There are only two choices in front of Subaru: "I can" and "I can't" in the previous rem.

Which one of these will help Lem?

--No, if you say which one, will the rem no longer need to be scratched?

"... I don't think I could have done anything with my memories."

――――

"Healing magic is not a panacea. In the process, Lem would have done his best."

For a few seconds, but after a more prolonged struggle, Svalbard replied.

Even if the rem had memories, even if it was the healing magic of the complete state, it would not have left Misserda with her legs.

Whether or not the facts are true, it is not true.

If you're told, if you start talking about it, you won't be able to hear it. Sure enough, Lem couldn't save Misserda's legs. But they saved the lives of many other wounded people besides Misserda.

The achievement deserves praise, and there is nothing to blame for it.

Rather, if there is a blame--

"I wasn't strong enough."

"Eh......"

"I didn't have enough thoughts. I should have done a lot more serious scrutiny."

Listening to Subaru's answer, Lem opened her round eyes wide.

In front of such a rem, Subaru gnashed his back teeth hard and covered his face with his hands.

If we were to curse the shortage of power, the blame should fall on Subaru.

"It's all my fault."

While preserving the [Bloodless Opening of the Castle] in a majestic manner, it led to results far from reality.

The Arachian insurgency has left many wounded, and the city guards have taken her back with multiple casualties. There were no casualties, but looking at Misserda's missing legs, how could it be called 'bloodless'?

Failed. Failed repeatedly, missed opportunities to recover, and made a lot of mistakes.

What I wanted was the best happy ending, and what Subaru had in front of him was a happy ending there, or something called a bad ending there.

In the words of Abel, we should be punished for our admiration.

If Subaru was Abel's subordinate, it would be a mysterious tragedy to be beheaded.

- Worst of all, 'back to death'.

And so much so that such an idea passes through my head.

In that case, the most likely thing to come back to is during the bloody offensive and defensive battle with Todd in Guaral. ― ― If you remember, your whole body will be upright from fear.

Still, even if you come back to that moment of fear, if you can still pick up what you've been missing--

"... why?"

Suddenly, such a word was struck on Subaru's eardrum.

If you raise your face firmly, you will meet Rem's eyes, which are staring at me from the front.

Until recently, Rem's eyes moistened with a sense of self-responsibility, and for some reason, he stared at Subaru head-on with a stronger sense of self-responsibility.

“Why is this your fault?”

Shaken by Lem's gaze, words were repeatedly sent to Subaru, who was sealed off from his movement.

She stretched out her hand with her moistened eyes, showing the city government building turned into a miserable place.

”Misserda-san's legs, Louis and Utakata-san's injuries, Medium-sized and Flop-san's wounds, are all your fault?”

"That's right, that's right. If I had prepared more carefully, this would not have happened."

“You came up with a plan that looked reckless and delivered results. I managed to secure the two generals and get them into the city without anyone fighting. As planned."

"But after that..."

"- What happened after that!"

Lem raised his eyebrows and shouted louder at Subaru, who ate down. Lem turned around and the body of Louis leaning against her fell on her lap.

Louis woke up with a slightly lowered body and a small roar. While supporting Louis' shoulder, Lem bounced slightly and looked at Subaru again.

"No one could see what happened after that." I couldn't have predicted the appearance of that half-naked woman, or the outburst of it. "

――――

“And yet, why do you take full responsibility for it?”

Asked, Subaru took a breath.

If anyone asks why, Subaru thinks it's the responsibility of the powerful.

Just as Lem lamented the lack of power of his healing magic, Subaru sometimes regretted and lamented that his power had not been made up for. 'Return to Death' has a greater scope.

Because if Subaru exercises his power, the future can be both better and worse.

However,

"That's..."

--That's a truth that I can't tell even if it's a rem.

It's not just about Lem.

I can't tell you how much authority Subaru has, no matter how open his chest. --No, I can't talk to the person who let my heart pass.

If you talk, you'll reveal the truth that might lead to the death of the opponent.

The pain is frightening. The pain inflicted by trying to reveal the 'return to death' is frightening.

Who gets used to it many times, such as severe pain that grabs the heart's heart?

But what is truly frightening is not pain, but loss.

Is there anything in this world that is more frightening than losing?

Wasn't this power granted to Natsuki Subaru because he feared it to the extreme?

"...... why did you protect me?"

"Huh...?"

Pushing silence, Lem continued to speak as if he had cut off Subaru who could not return the answer.

For a moment, I didn't know what to say, and Subaru blinked his eyes.

"It was when that half-naked woman attacked me. You knocked down the pillar and couldn't see through it... you stood in front of me when that woman came up to me."

Svalbard stood impatiently in front of Arachia to save her from the attack.

I was desperate to spread my hands and bring every threat closer to Rem. At that moment, even if Arachia took my life, Subaru didn't mind.

I wanted Lem to live longer than me for a second.

That 's--

"As a result of your efforts to open the castle bloodlessly, you've sheltered me there, and even Miss Miselda has lost her legs, you're trying to hug her all by yourself..."

――――

"You're not strong enough to do all that."...... at first, I was wary of that horrible smell. "

So he divided his words, and Lem lowered his gaze once to Louis, who was on his lap.

While gently stroking his golden hair, Lem held his breath and gently turned his gaze toward Subaru.

"I, Louis, Abel, Miselda, Medium and Flop are all willing people, and you don't have to breathe to protect them."

"Ahh..."

"Don't try to do all that alone..." You need to take responsibility for what we do. "

Overwhelmed by folded words, Subaru opens and closes his mouth.

The brain refuses to understand quickly what is being said. However, if you don't ask any more, an unidentified impatience is burning Subaru's heart.

Lem was devouring his heartfelt emotions to Subaru, who cursed his lack of strength.

I mustn't make you say anything more--

"You're not a special person."

I knew I shouldn't let you tell me.

"--You 're not a hero, are you?"

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Fuzzy, fuzzy, Subaru was wandering around the city hall.

We have not set a destination. In the first place, it's not even clear when you started walking. When I noticed, I was walking, and my consciousness is still vague and fuzzy.

"--Oh"

Suddenly, it hit the front with a hard impact.

Looks like he hit the wall because he was just staring under his feet and walking. Hitting a blank wall on the forehead, Subaru held the painful forehead and exhaled.

Then casually, I hit my forehead against the hard wall again.

Hard blows and dull noises make Subaru feel a tingling pain running through his brain.

Then, when I shook my brain from the outside, I felt something like a dimpling that stained my whole body tingling away.

At that rate, Svalbard hit his forehead against the wall again and again.

Tapping, tapping, tapping-

- Hey, hey, stop it, man.

I grabbed the shoulder I was trying to hit from behind, and I heard such a voice.

Looking at it, I bumped into Subaru's sight and the iron helmet gaze that was staring at me. The opponent grabbed Subaru's shoulder and snorted his neck bone.

"I know how it feels to die." No matter what I do, I don't feel like it. "