Re:Zero Kara Hajimeru Isekai Seikatsu (WN)

Chapter Two: 32: Because I cried and cried and cried and stopped crying

"On the girl's lap, she receives a calm sleep as she is stroked in the head.... when I saw it alone, that was already a superb event, but come on"

Scratching his head, Subaru groans so with a shitty face.

lay down your eyes, chewing down your sighs over and over its side, scratching your head in red to your ears increasing the speed of your hands,

"To the girl opponent in my mind, I sleep in a super crying call, crying blurry, tears and runny nose with a messy face. Besides the fact that he's been monopolizing the kid on his lap for hours... what a shame to play anymore."

Thinking back is the feeling of Emilia's knee and the tragedy of her knee brought about by the deep sleep of Subaru, who fell asleep for hours.

It was a terrible condition with tears and saliva, runny nose and other conditions that could not be seen from a hygienic point of view or purely from Subaru's boy exponential problems.

Nonetheless, she did not voluntarily try to shake him up until Subaru woke up, nor did she do anything to blame Subaru for waking up and flat-apologizing while keeping her clothes dirty that way.

"If you can get some rest, that's fine. And I don't know Subaru."

"To?"

"They're more satisfied when you say thank you once than they say they're sorry. I didn't want you to apologize, it's what I wanted you to do."

Is there a man who gets his finger on his lips who speaks of apologies and says so with one eye closed and doesn't get corny? No, I'm not.

In fact, Subaru fell softly. It was overwhelming to her in the first place, so no push, it's a multiplier don.

I broke up with Emilia, who left me to change clothes, wandered around the mansion often feeling fluffy and dreamy, and returned to me like this.

Looking back at my place today, I want to cry about its incompetence. After all that crying, I can't stop crying now.

"No - I'm awesome - no. I don't want to show anything but my weak cousin Emilia, you're showing no more shame. You're no longer a serious face."

"… enter a person's room late at night, and I wonder if that's what I'm going to say. If you think it's peaceful because you don't see it all day, it's an unwanted disaster."

Sitting on the middle step of the stepladder, Beatrice takes a vice by the side of Subaru, who gets bored around the entrance.

A forbidden little room beyond anyone's reach was ahead of Subaru, who wandered around the mansion and thought he would be very bare and unable to see his surroundings. Most of all, it would be a good place for the Lord's girl to be dissatisfied.

But that's not the only reason I'm here.

"Don't say that, Bear. Me and you."

"What's the relationship between Betty and you... wait. Before that, what did you call Betty now?

One eyebrow raised, Beatrice's inquiry as she clasped her cheeks. Subaru slapped her hand at her attitude like that,

"Oh, you're a bear. Nickname for the person who felt some intimacy. I think I need this. You've never felt that way before among the people at the Mansion..."

Thinking back is the last time, that's the time I was immersed in despair.

Even if it wasn't a circumstance for her to be put on a mouthpiece, there was a contract that was certainly made between the two of them.

Beatrice kept it disciplined, and helped Subaru until she deliberately blurred the contents of the contract.

Even if she's forgotten, there's no way this one can forget how she felt saved then.

So,

"Whatever you think of me, I'll call you Bear Child. That's a testament to all the love I can do to you!"

"I'm not happy about it! I wonder what that pressing goodwill is! My chest shit is worse than disgusting!

"What, you, the way you say it! I'm serious about conveying my sincere gratitude, but this isn't a good time to tear it up!

"If you can look back on what you're saying and tell me you're not kidding, it's not the conversation that's already in place between you and Betty, it's something else that feels like a conversation!

Subaru, who intends to challenge a catch ball of conversation, but is told something like he was covering for the wrong event.

It was a subaru expression of affection, but unfortunately it didn't sound right to her mind. I'm honestly sorry to hear that, and I get sneered at unexpectedly.

"Well, even then, I'll keep calling you Bear."

"I don't need it. It's hiccups. Then I wonder if Betty would ever respond to being called by that name. So we agree on each other."

"Don't talk nonsense, Bear."

…………

To Subaru's call, but Beatrice silently does not respond with her gaze down on the book. Apparently, he's going to put into practice what he said earlier.

Walking over to such a stubborn girlfriend, Subaru circled around his stepladder,

"Bear child, bear child, bear child, bear child, bear child, bear child, bear child, bear child..."

"- He's unparalleled because of his roughness! I wonder what it is!!

Call out your name so you can play Kabadi. Beatrice's emotions continued to whisper in his ear reached a boiling point, and Subaru gasped posing that he had achieved his purpose.

So I looked back at her again and distorted the edge of her mouth against the girl who was still pissing off her shoulders,

"It's chopped and blocked in eight directions. Blah, I want to borrow your hand."

- He cried unnecessarily, disturbed himself so much that he told the girl on the vertical roll the conclusion that came to his mind at the end of it.

It was Subaru's own greed to the point of purity that he spit out its inner heart on Emilia's lap and remained in Subaru, which shed all of that stuff, like the dirty feelings and overwhelming tears he had been accumulating.

I like Emilia. I like the life of the mansion where I can spend time with her. I like environments where I can learn a lot. I like rams that stick around but bake a lot of care for me. I super like Emilia. I like the lem that guides me somewhat cursing in polite language. Emilia Tan Seriously Goddess. I owe Roswar a favor for providing me with this paradise-like situation. Beatrice also thanked me for not being able to pay him back now. I have an irrevocable fondness for the people who live in this mansion. I can't abandon the happiness I have there.

Thoughts that overflow enough to grab your chest.

An indelible memory of happiness is the source of vitality that moves Subaru.

But while I think about it...

I like Emilia. I don't have enough power to protect her. I'm incompetent. The life of the mansion is uninspiring. I don't know where I can be limited. I have severed my legs with a blade of wind and the lamb I have worn around my neck is horrible. Repeat the torture until the wound is treated and the lem crushes the skull with an iron sphere. It's disgusting Roswar's bottomless madness to have two of those and possibly be able to give instructions on it to obliterate Subaru without the mercy of fine dust. Every time I wake up, I can't wait to see if I have my life and wonder if my despair isn't creeping over.

That's the real deal in Subaru that never disappears again.

Conflicting emotions were unacceptable to each other for their existence, and Subaru lived and scratched them with a surface and heart.

It's like barefoot on thin ice, time when you have to keep laughing without even letting the skin on the back of your feet peel off and fall off at every bite.

Emilia didn't overlook the miserable annoyance of Subaru, which stood up to despair.

Maybe it was the pack I noticed. If that Spirit, who can read the mind, would have easily spotted the awkward mask that Subaru wore, etc.

But it was still Emilia who comforted Subaru's heart, which was close to being rubbed off.

I don't mind if this was a dependency.

There is not a single minute of doubt that the driving force is feelings for her, which thrust and move Subaru's mind now.

Yeah, I mean...

"Emilia Tan Magia Quangel"

"Did you want some intense crap right now?

"No way. I just reasserted what's most important to me."

Chest confidently and I can answer that.

And that's how he was fully affirmed in his current statement, and Beatrice sighed troublesomely that he would no longer have a frightening trick,

"Put the story back. … so I was wondering if you wanted to take Betty's hand."

"Oh, seriously, God. I feel like asking for it. I can't think of anyone who can."

As it stands, who Subaru can keep his full confidence in in this mansion. That is Emilia, of course, but her presence is at the same time the most important factor for Subaru.

In other words, Subaru doesn't want her to be the only one in danger. For Subaru, who takes precedence over her own life, it is her being put to life and scale without a multiplier.

Therefore, I do not want to choose the means of borrowing her hand until the end of this loop, bearing in mind the confrontation with the magician.

That makes it harder to draw on nature and the help of her sidekick, the pack, and the choices that remain -.

"It's actually a pretty sweet, choroin bear."

"Even if you don't understand the content, can you detect the atmosphere of insult?

"I don't mean to be hairy.... In fact, you're the only one I can count on in this mansion."

Naturally, it cannot be revealed to Lamb or Lem, nor to Roswar. If Subaru could rely on anything other than Emilia right now in this mansion, it would have been none other than hers.

"Please. - You're right, please."

So Subaru kneels on the floor in front of her, drooling his head and wishing.

Help yourself. He wants it to be the curtain pull of the repeated chain of despair, the light that illuminates Subaru's path for it.

"I need your help. Put it all together and flip it, and I want to protect where I can be happy."

――――

Silent time falls between them with their heads bowed jizzily.

While waiting for a response, Subaru's heart was beating his chest anxiously and hard. but the prolonged silence also gradually distracts the sound, and Subaru raises his gaze slightly in suspicion. and

"... Beatrice?

Unexpectedly, I forget to interact with you earlier and call you by name.

The more I let that happen, the more pitifully filled emotions were shaken by Beatrice's look at Subaru.

She frowned faintly, biting her lips, and Beatrice staring at Subaru. I'm staring, but I looked Subaru in the face as if it was going to cry now.

Breathtaking, silently awaiting her next reaction.

Beatrice kept her time to calm the waves of emotion that had occurred inside her, and remained meditative and quiet,

"... Betty has no reason to do what you ask."

and have returned only weakly.

"Bear child...... I am"

"Will you shut up, human? Betty doesn't always have to be nice. If I'm concerned, I don't think I'll forgive you."

Beatrice blocks Subaru and comes all the way to the quick mouth.

Shutting up at the hypersensitivity of her reaction, Subaru is surprised at what has touched her harp line in her earlier remarks.

I guess that just reinforced her uncooperative stubbornness and caused things to get worse this way.

I meant to be sincere, but that got behind me.

As a result of repentance, I cannot repent, but I have not subaru the delicate spiritual structure that worries me even now.

I'm no longer used to doing things under these circumstances, such as doing something and going behind my back. Was there enough in this five-time world to remember that the dice I threw made a good appearance?

If you think so, you can chew up a smoky weak heart or something. In other words, the weak self who could have stopped at that has flushed it all down with snot and salivation on Emilia's lap.

I decided I wasn't weeping. On my lap instead of in front of my favorite girl, I suck as a guy or something that cries in such a place.

It's mean, because it's a boy.

"Listen, Beatrice. I know how you feel about wanting to keep things away from me. I don't know what kind of disrespectful bastard I was just a day ago."

"If you know that much, you know Betty's answer."

"The belly wound, you're the one who blocked me, I appreciate it. You wouldn't know, but I'm full of cousins who have to thank you for the mess, and besides, I still have to rely on you to turn my neck. It's pathetic. I can't help but be miserable. But you're the only one."

Spit out all the words that come to mind, like tatami.

I am aware that it is a selfish statement, not a little caring for her heart with a forceful push, and still Subaru bows his head.

Looking down at the words that do not get Subaru's guidelines and their dripping heads, Beatrice snorted as small and usual,

"I mourn for my lack of strength and crawl all the way to the ground, wishing. Don't you have any pride?"

"I could clearly see what was important. Ten or a hundred heads, slap them on the ground. I'll do as much as I can if it's enough."

I don't have the proper pride to stick to my shortness.

With his head down, Subaru doesn't even change his plea posture.

I know it's a cowardly means. In a world that has been repeated five times, Subaru has met Beatrice many times, and each time he has continued his rhetoric.

I know because I'm the person who's been in charge of such a relationship. A girl named Beatrice, even if she has a superficially pushy attitude -.

"Surface, raise it."

Somewhere, like giving up, a gentle voice reached his ear, and Subaru thought his lowly plea had arrived.

I feel that dwarf of mine again and even self-erupting into an act of sincerity disguised as sincerity towards her. But it is also true that it was a necessary process. We have to cut it off.

More importantly, we have to decide that we will use all the means that we can use to get the future we want...

"Bear......"

"Do you want some?"

"Bubeh."

but abruptly impending stiffness strikes me in the face that cemented such a sad resolve.

Only the neck leans backwards as it is in the ground-bottom position, and the resulting unspeakable sound echoes in the forbidden library, and the voiceless scream woodspring.

Svalbard hitting around with the opposite posture of shrimp.

The damage that struck the cervical vertebra was incomprehensible, stifling and wandering his gaze, involving Beatrice and his gaze raising one foot in an arm-wrapped position.

Understood. The girl buzzed the face of Subaru, the unforgiving Yakuza kick.

"Whoa... this... whoa!

"I don't understand how cheap it is to think about how much Betty can do when you've got a hundred heads rolled over. No matter how many copper coins you collect, you will never reach one of the holy gold coins. I wonder if you'll find out."

"No, even if you collect thousands of copies of copper coins, you'll reach Holy Gold coins. That's what we're talking about when we compare it for value, right? Are you okay with the math or what?

"Would you stop looking at that poor child like you're looking at him! Not the eyes of the guy who was trying to rely on Betty until just now!?

Gyagi and mumble, the tongue battle begins between Beatrice and Subaru.

An attack that does not begin for the same reason as once, in a world that has been repeated many times.

As I keep arguing with her I'm used to doing, the sad readiness that was only in Subaru seems ridiculous.

After such an exchange, the end of the tongue battle is quick -.

"Okay, let's cut the trump card. If you help me, I'll put up with your manadorains a few times."

"It's not worth your mana as much as I say, is it? Certainly better than regular mana...... I wonder if it was compatible or if it tasted better."

"My mana has a proven track record of aspirating packs too. I mean, indirect manadorains.... you know what that means?

It was tightened when Beatrice, who changed her complexion, nodded with remorse as she bit her lips against Subaru, immersed in a sense of superiority that carried the negotiations to her advantage.

A lot, I think Subaru looks back at what was a missed settlement between them.

Of course, by bringing it into such a flow, we had no choice but to attach our cooperation to Subaru.

- I knew the little wizard had it figured out that way.