Re:Zero Kara Hajimeru Isekai Seikatsu (WN)

- I don't want to die.

"Ha, ha, ha, ha -"

Exhale, unnecessarily pull your legs, exhale the grass and soil in your mouth as you fall, drooling your covetousness and blood reflexes from the edge of your lips, running through the darkness that you cannot foresee ahead.

The light of the crystalline lamp disappears on the other side, and darkness falls on the streets where even the moonlight is blocked.

The noisy silence echoes the cranium, and I hear nothing I can count on. My breath, even the sound of my heartbeat, is left in a silent world where I hear nothing.

- I don't want to die, I don't want to die, I don't want to die.

He kicks the ground and is certainly moving forward in the darkness. Yet the darkness that never clears doesn't even determine where you stand, and you don't even know where your groundtreading feet are headed.

I can't remember how many times I've already had my legs pulled and I've fallen. If each time I was off the first path, where am I headed now in this way?

There must have been a place I had to go.

There must have been people I had to meet.

There must have been some people who went for it together.

And yet now I was alone everywhere surrounded by endless invisible darkness.

"Somebody -!"

The darkness that overshadows my vision, the silence that interrupts the world, raises my voice in horror.

With a chopped throat, the voice should have reached the other side of the night, trembling enough to feel the taste of blood. but the payback for that scream is the trick of repeated painful silence.

No one. I've been left behind.

There's no sign of him coming back. Of course. Nobody wants to die.

If you're here, if you're back here, if you're within reach of this darkness, who will come back here knowing you'll lose your life?

I can see the despair plugging into my heart softly. The inside of my chest gets cold and my hands and feet start to move like ice water instead of blood that goes all over my body.

You are aware of the end, and your body refuses to resist.

But...

"I don't like... I don't want to die, I don't..."

The mind, the emotions, the soul, rejects the reaction of the flesh to accept the end.

Shake your head, wasting your time with destiny trying to push the end, dragging the hands and feet that are not conveyed by the fighting spirit, heavy as if they were packed with lead.

Proceed - No, escape. Keep running. No purpose. Run away. Everywhere, keep confusing me.

- Far, far, I hear noises from the other side of the darkness.

The air trembles, pushes the darkness away, and the end approaches with form.

Approaching behind. Then, trying to stay away, in desperate shape, he keeps running away at a turtle-like slowness.

Subaru thinks, exposing himself to an unusual and pitiful ugliness.

- How did this happen?

"The merchants here and the dragon cars - whoever sells my legs for gold, they're all bought by me!

The pedestrians, who looked at Subaru's "business conversation," let them loosen their cheeks in disgust, thinking that was a joke or something.

but as a manifestation of Subaru's will, the complexion of all changed to the appearance of Rem, who put up a bag containing the road silver that had been deposited and allowed his mouth to be opened and the contents to be seen.

From there, Otto takes the lead and starts running for a shove.

As a result, it was decided that ten of the fourteen pedestrians who were at that relay point would accompany Subaru.

At first it was difficult to discuss, but Otto's suggestion landed it beautifully, too. There's no harm in that way for all of us...

"Commissioned four people with large dragon cars and vehicles to carry their respective loads. Later, we will distribute agari via union in Wangdu. In this case, combine freight and sales,"

Summarizing a good and different assertion, Otto explained so while at the head of the ten who would accompany him with a face. While being the youngest, we all have an immediate way to convince ourselves, and furthermore the part where we have spoken in words sees our talent as merchants.

Of course, as a person, I guess it's the result of not missing out on a thousand opportunities to dispose of inventory that could shape the merchant's life.

"I'm glad you bought out my oil, but what other reason do you need dragon car feet?

Looking at his colleagues transferring loads, Otto asks Subaru to put his arms together and care about his departure time.

Take that, Subaru prefaced with "no," and then

"We're going back to Mazers territory. For once, I set up a son at my uncle on the Roswar border."

"I know you. Roswar L. Mazers Borderline Uncle of" Subhuman Hobbies ". Among the Lugnica aristocrats with the title, I'd like to speak with someone quite unusual."

I smile bitterly at Otto, who cares about his reaction as he looks at this one up there. If it was Ram who heard about that now, it would be an assessment of anger and mind.

"I'm not going to deny it. It's true you seem perverted."

"I'll tell my employer. Hey. No, it was the way we talked because we could expect that kind of answer. Still, Mr. Natsuki doesn't look like an aristocratic servant."

"I'm still an apprentice. The only thing I'm getting is sewing and bedmaking."

Whatever.

"Let's just say I believe it's Uncle Neighborhood's use... how can a dragon car be used for this? If you were a net, borderline uncle, you would have your own dragon car, too, right?

"Like I said, I have numbers. There is a lot of stuff to put on, so it is desirable that it be empty in the vehicle if it can be done. I can't help but buy oil for Otto."

"He said he was grateful. So, the goods to be transported..."

He laughs at his mouth, and his hands are stirred up in this mood. but behind his narrowed and loose eyelids, his eyes froze his emotions and peered into this one.

He doesn't believe me from the head in the identity of Subaru's spoken use of the borderline uncle. On top of that, whether it's true or false, it looks like he cares about the dangers of what's being carried.

That can also be taken as a natural concern.

If the identity of being a squire of a frontier uncle is true, it is carried such that an external human being must be hired to carry it.

If the identities spoken of on the contrary are false, they will be the feathers responsible for one stick of the deeds of the people who deceive the officials of Uncle Borderline. To the fullest extent, it is natural for him to pay attention.

And I can't wait to be turned down because of that suspicion.

Subaru therefore decided not to cover up why he hired them.

"The goods you carry are people."

"Human?"

"Jesus. I mean, he's human. There is a village near Uncle Borderline's mansion. It's a small village, and there aren't hundreds of villagers all combined. I want to get on those people and move around."

That's why Subaru hired the flashing ottoes.

The dragon cars that Subaru and Rem ride are quite large, only for heavy-duty luggage hauling purposes, and dragon pulling vehicles are quite sizeable. Story of a store person tells us that even if a dozen humans are on a vehicle, it's easy to pull them off.

"Humans...? No way, but you're not asking me to carry the body, are you? If so, I would very unfortunately decline."

"... I want to take you guys so you don't"

Then, with multiple dragon cars, it should also be possible to get all the villagers out.

Initially, before encountering the Ottos, Subaru, anxious to rendezvous with Emilia, had completely lost sight of the villagers' escape legs.

Had we been late in realizing this, worst of all, only the humans in the mansion, including Emilia, and the children of the village, could have been transported to the safety zone in a dragon car and forced to make multiple round-trips in readiness for danger.

In that sense, it was a prank of fate and a coincidence that rarely worked favorably against Subaru that I was able to meet the Ottoes here.

You can't deny your disbelief in Subaru's words, Subaru untied the arm he put together in Otto frowning in confusion, "Actually," and then prefaced,

"We're going to have a massive mountain hunt around the perimeter of Uncle Neighborhood's mansion in the near future."

"Mountain hunting, is it?

To Otto, who embarks himself on the unexpected word coming out, Subaru pulls his jaw with affirmation, and when he creates a mysterious face,

"Warcraft and juggernauts have been around for a long time. Until now, I have spent some time united, living separately between people and warcraft... The other day, there was damage in a juggernaut that crossed the border. That's a lot of noise."

"So we talked about mountain hunting? But......"

To Otto, who tries to eat down to see if there's anything to catch, Subaru lets him keep his mouth shut and try to wrap around his right arm sleeve. And Otto, who saw it, "Ugh," bit the surprise in the back of his throat.

What his trembling eyes captured were the two arms of Subaru, dark in color with remnants of lacerations caused by fangs and nails. A number of other indelible wounds remain engraved underneath the garment.

"In the favor of Uncle Borderline, I was dying to be treated in Wang Du. So, the treatment went down, so I was on my way home."

"I see... so. No, but why would Mr. Natsuki arrange for a dragon car on the road without Mr. Borderline swinging around immediately?"

"Uncle Borderline doesn't move residents, he's just going to clean up. But as you can see from my body, there's a chance that the Warcraft might have done something in case. That's why I want to keep it insured. Not that I don't trust my husband."

When I lay my eyes down and told him I was sorry, Otto shrugged, "Ugh," and then after a lot of silence,

"Okay. I even stepped in and listened to what I didn't want to be asked, and I'm sorry. I won't talk about the wound, and I'll explain it to everyone."

Looking at Subaru with care, Otto floats something bitter in a person's good-looking face. You feel guilty for unintentionally stepping into Subaru's wounds.

As a merchant, I feel a little too sweet.

"Don't worry about it. I don't mind everyone telling me the same. Much better than being weirdly suspected."

Otto, who seems to have a good root, nodded, "Yes," if that convinced him.

Seeing that, I think I'm much more of a bad guy with my fist tightened up inside.

The camp for the camp where the pedestrians were gathered was left about an hour after the negotiations were over.

Each load was transferred to four dragon cars, with nine lighter dragon cars and merchants on the carrier. Ten people are accompanied by the remaining otto loaded with oil. Eleven dragon cars combined that Subaru and Rem ride - it will be quite cramped, but it should also be possible to get all the villagers on board.

Remaining in the camp, breaking up with the residual group that it will be morning before heading to the Wang capital, Subaru and his eleven dragon cars leave the streets in the middle of the night.

The residual group has a skinny merchant who introduced Otto to Subaru - Ketty remains, and I don't think he has the edge to make it with him waving.

"It's only too late in the morning to keep running for half the night and enter Mazers territory"

Otto walks side-by-side in a dragon car and calls this one out to the side.

Even though he doesn't seem to be so vocal, it's also apparently the wind protection and potency of the ground dragon to reach this one. Being unaffected by wind and shaking would even interfere with these things.

It honestly helps to wrap a sandproof cloth around your mouth and not have to speak up for Subaru, who has difficulty breathing. Nodding, "Sorry about that without a break," Subaru replied,

"No! There's nothing to complain about. I would be invincible if I could dispose of the stock and have the fare bounced. Three days and three nights, I've run through it!

"You fell asleep right after the negotiations. Right."

"That!? I read my mind or something!?

He smiles bitterly at Otto, who wanders around telling him about the iron plate story first, and then Subaru sends his gaze toward Rem, who holds the reins.

I can't see the look on Rem's face more than usual, covering the bottom half of his face with a sandproof cloth that Subaru rewinds and looks straight ahead. That is a somewhat unpleasant situation for Subaru, who, though expressionless, was complacent that she was becoming quite aware of her emotional movements.

Especially now that I can't help wondering what she's thinking.

and

- Subaru-kun.

…… Oh, oh, come on, Rem. Anything wrong?

He is called out by himself where he was looking at Ji and his side, and Subaru bites the surprise in the back of his throat and then speaks out in the guise of a deliberate serenity.

heard it, and Rem shook his neck to the side with a small "no," then

"It got quiet, so I thought you were tired. It's a little shaky and the sand is terrible, but if you want to sleep, you'll be fine sleeping. Because Lem is watching."

"Sweet for your words, I just want to say, my eyes are closed. Besides, letting Lem work is way too bad."

"But Subaru is sick."

Subaru can be silenced by the attitude of Rem, who cares about this one and can stand.

The way you say it is soft, but the will is hard and stubborn. At the very least, it is absolutely impossible for Lem to play such a role on this dragon car that Subaru would be burdened.

Whenever he is so tenderly treated, an indelible thorn pierces Subaru's chest.

You're so sincere, you don't know what Rem's sincerity is, you want to know it, you don't want to know it, and your conflicting mind twists.

"Rem, is..."

"Yes."

Second, the anxiety was out with his mouth shut, calling her by her name.

Clearly that seems to have passed on to her, and she responded immediately, waiting for the next Subaru word.

Unexpectedly, the source of anxiety that stepped in. Now we can turn back in a "nothing" word, and Lem won't be pursuing us. But it was visible what Rem would not think and do not pursue, which would be boring without knowing.

Then we should be clear.

"Rem, do you have any doubts what I'm doing? I didn't explain anything to you. What about witchcraft, how we hired merchants."

He bit his teeth, pressed a weak noise to kill him, and held down a voice that was anxious and about to shake to make an inquiry. All this time, it's something I've been dying to hear and afraid of.

Hearing that, Rem closed his eyes only once,

"From Master Roswar, I am told. He told me to respect Subaru's will for everything he did in the capital."

And I froze my emotions, peeking into my face as a servant and answering that.

Hearing that answer, Subaru makes his face tense with agitation.

Obey Subaru's words because Roswar commanded so.

Then it's like,

"I was told... from Roswar...?

"Yes. I'm not ordered to do anything specifically, though. He told me to follow Svalbard's policy to do anything in the Wang capital. And Lem was going to do whatever he could."

Rem's words to supplement me somehow don't come to mind well.

Just pale, it keeps ringing in Subaru's head when

"Roswar's, orders..."

Because she does not differ in Subaru's actions, and it is his life, his master, that follows it.

Does that mean that her obedience to Subaru so far is not her sincerity?

No, on the contrary, even with Rem being next to Subaru like this.

"Subaru?

Rem leaning his neck this way is faintly frowning when he wonders about Subaru, who has been pushed to silence. Even the glance of seeing Subaru for that worry had prevented Subaru from taking it with honesty now.

Isn't it all because Roswar's orders are in mind that he cares so worryingly, that he softly supports Subaru who is about to fall, that he will always be beside Subaru who is going to be lonely and mad, and that he will follow him to affirm Subaru who does what he believes is right?

To put it more extreme, I wonder if Rem has genuinely acknowledged Subaru's deeds.

"- Huh"

Nausea creeps up and Subaru accidentally swallows the sour that runs up his stomach. The vomiting sensation caught in the body lost its place of destination and went wild all over the body as it became a bomb that contaminated the whole body with fear.

My hands and feet are paralyzed, my vision is blinded, and my brain miso itches and I can't wait. The urge to smack your skull right now and stick your finger inside and scratch makes your breath rough.

However, fingers stabbed in the scalp do not stick through the skull. I just had to tooth itches that didn't fit and continue to withstand the pressure of getting my stomach eagled.

I don't want to think about anything. I don't want to think about it.

The more you think about it, the more you think back, the more you seek, the farther away you will be from what you wanted, the more ideals will turn into dreams, and hope will be repainted with despair and disappointment.

"Subaru?

I didn't like it. I was sick of it.

I don't want to think about it. I don't want to doubt it. I don't want to believe it. I don't want to be betrayed.

Embrace your head and shut off all of your reactions from the outside world and lock yourself inside.

Rem called Subaru's name a few times, but you thought Subaru, who took that position, was trying to sleep, stopped speaking more than that and looked forward again.

At this time Subaru was finally, truly, alone.

"- Le Kun. I'm sorry, please wake up. Subaru."

There was a sense of consciousness being shaken up in the call.

Signs of someone's hand touching his shoulder. When I lifted my face and rubbed my blurred eyelids with my hands to ensure my vision, it was in the face of a girl I was used to seeing that began to clear.

"Rem, huh? Hey, what's up?

Consciousness surfaced from unconsciousness, and as soon as I recognized her, the back of my chest hurt dull. but not overwhelmingly.

While distressed not to put it on his face, Subaru waits for Rem's answer, who was reaching this way. After she apologized with regret for waking Subaru up,

"It's time to get to the branches of the street. If it's bright, it can't be the wrong way, but now the only thing I can count on is the light of the crystal lamp."

What she points to as she says is the ground dragon that still kicks the ground in a heartbeat - the lightning of a light emitting crystal lamp, mounted under its thick neck.

In this world where lighting devices such as exterior lights do not exist, night vision is ensured by the luminosity of ragmite ore or the light of flames such as primitive pine lights. Or more naturally entrust it to unreliable things like moonlight.

For a groundhog at night, I don't think its ragmite ore alone can run far enough down the road.

"Hate, you hardly look the same to me. There's a small one on your stand, but I can only see it on hand."

There is something dedicated in the dragon car's vehicle, but it is not enough to bring light to your table either. Whatever.

"So you're talking about losing track?

"No. I want to check the map before I can't figure out the way. There's a map in Subaru-kun's underfoot shipment, so I'd like it out."

"Underfoot, this one"

Explore the darkness with your nail tips and hand over it that hits your foot.

of such weight. I hold it up on my lap and try to pinpoint it by sticking my hand inside,

"Ugh... hey I don't know which one is the map. Well, if you find the map, don't you see it's this darkness?

"Don't insult the ghost nights...... but I'm not that confident when it comes to nights......"

Rem clouds his expression, wondering what's wrong. And there was something flashing on Subaru's head in the dark on the pretend. Speaking of which,

"Wait a minute."

Speaking to Rem, Subaru brings out a sachet of those with his personal belongings. Inside, there is a hand wipe brought to the lem, a bag with a small allowance, etc. scratch your hands in search of the feeling you seek in it,

"Found"

It feels cold and stiff in the hands of the extruded Subaru.

I can't confirm that in the dark when I take it out. Rem tilts his neck, but Subaru took it a long time ago. When he opened it in his hand, he pushed the power button in.

"I haven't turned it on in a while, but you're off. … oh."

After a lot of silence, the 'startup' effect floats on the screen. Then, exactly one second later, Subaru's hand was illuminated at once by a dazzling light.

to the sight of a painful brightness, raised his eyebrows as Rem was surprised,

"Subaru, what's that?

"Lost technology, no, it's a phone call for future technology. Barely, but alive and above all."

On activation since the first day of a different world summons, the phone was dazzling as the power was about to go out.

When Subaru fell into this world, it was one of the original world goods he was able to bring in. Although I brought in some other personal belongings, usability would probably be high on this phone out of group. Most importantly, it is also subject to the limited condition that the battery be held.

"I cut it off because I don't know if I'm going to have a occasion to use it, but I didn't think there was going to be a useful day with light handling"

Appreciating civilization in a different way than it should be, Subaru illuminates the contents of his luggage. In a light poured bag, as soon as he found and retrieved the rounded map, Subaru offered the map to Rem's lap,

"I'll light it up, take a look at the map"

"Yes, thank you"

Subaru breathes small so that she doesn't see him, doing it by illuminating Rem's sight, which drops her gaze.

Apparently, you're doing well without this shivering inner borough, he said.

"Mr. Natsuki, what is it, that? I've never seen it before."

Otto is the one who sounds like he's going to turn it upside down and is interested in Subaru's phone. Otto, worn to the left of this dragon car, peeked into it as he embarked,

"I've never seen crystalline lamps...... no, like not crystalline. I mean, I've never seen the material in the first place."

I was invited by an excitedly discerning otto, and another dragon car that was a little behind on the right came onto me. Likewise, the person with the bandana wrapped around his head is the one who is stretching his neck and peeking. but he also lights his eyes like a child not worthy of that age and nails it to his phone in Subaru's hand.

Usually, I like their reaction and beat even one of the light mouths, but I don't have the loose ends to do that to Subaru right now.

I shook my neck sideways, and Subaru foretold to the two who wanted explanations, "I'm sorry, though,"

"It's a secret tool brought to you by Uncle Borderline. This dish could go missing if you find out more. You should forget what you saw."

"Wow, what, the only thing behind that money stinks"

Subaru chewed his teeth on the inside, looking instead like it had attracted Otto's interest. But that conversation is blocked by Lem, who raised his voice, "Okay," he said.

As she raised her face from the map, she pointed ahead in the direction of progress,

"A few more runs away, there is the great tree of Frugel. If you follow the northeast street from there, you should get into Mazers territory."

"The Great Tree of Frugel?

When Subaru tilts his neck at the unfamiliar word, Otto, who still has a rough nose, puts his finger up, "You know what?

"The big tree in Frugel is the name of a big tree that pokes a cloud that soars in the middle of Reefaus Avenue. Poking clouds is too much to say, but it's actually quite a size. Hundreds of years ago, a sage named Frugel planted it."

"So you're Frugel's big tree. I don't know why you planted it or what's going on around it."

"Hey, it was hundreds of years ago. And Mr. Frugel is also a stranger to what he did besides plant a tree."

Subaru wondered where the wise man was at that, but he wouldn't put it in his mouth.

As a result, running straight for a while, it became increasingly clear to Subaru's eyes that there were large trees that soared beyond the night.

"I see... this is awesome"

If we were to compare in the original world, would the 'millennium tree' class Oki, which we have seen in TV features and so on, be comparable to that?

This tree is hundreds of years old if Otto's story is correct, but there is a difference in the rate at which plants grow, and the ambition comparable to theirs over a short period of time is in Dai Tree.

A trunk so high that you can't see the apex even when you look up. The number of branches stretching to protrude into heaven is enormous, and the growing leaves also boast the amount they deserve. Supporting thick, hard trunks are the many roots that crawl through the earth and sink into it like a swooping serpent.

It's not in the Great Forest, there's only one big tree standing in the plain, so it's not as prominent as a landmark.

Side by side Subaru, distracted by its size, Rem slightly changes the path of the dragon car by judging the reins cool. Now, as mapped, I guess we'll run northeast into Mazers territory. approaching, and eventually with his eyes on the distant great tree. Subaru was

"You left a battery, and if you could afford the feeling, you left a picture."

Peek into the screen with only one battery left and groan with regret. I heard Subaru squeal like that and say, "What!?" Otto asked back, "It's nothing!," he returned in a grumpy manner, lowering his floating hips to your table.

And disconnect the consciousness from the great tree, and Fu Subaru realizes.

"That, where was the Bandana guy who was running on the right side until just now?

Even as I turned my gaze, I couldn't see who was supposed to have been there.

Suddenly it was delayed, Subaru confirmed slightly backwards, but there is just a dragon car running backwards of the Bandana figure, pompously only missing that part.

"No way, you must have looked up at the tree and slipped away"

"What's up, Mr. Natsuki? What can I do for you?

"Whatever you're looking for, it's one of you. Where's Bandana's fitting sinister husband who was running this side until just now? Are you climbing a tree or something?

Hit the irony in frustration with the swallowing otto, Subaru blames the fall.

but Otto, who was hit with Subaru's frustration, looked decent, tilted his neck just as if he didn't know what he was talking about,

"What are you talking about, Mr. Natsuki? No one was running on my other side."

- What?

Not knowing the meaning of the words spoken, Subaru shudders without even being able to speak to him.

I don't see any bareback or anything like joking about Otto staring at Subaru who pauses like that. He answers that, in a heartfelt wonder, after taking Subaru's remarks.

But that's what Subaru doesn't know what it means.

"What are you talking about, you. I would have looked at my phone curiously with you earlier. Stand still with your coveted face."

"Oh, you say cell phone, that. I mean, can you guarantee my personal safety when I hear about it?"

"You're not making it up!

Only a sip of otto trying to gently flush Subaru's words, Subaru looks to the right. There, as always, the blanks widen, and I don't see any existence that should have been there.

But he couldn't have been there. His face and voice, Svalbard remembers.

――

And while I was staring into a space of nothing, my vision blurred.

Subaru blinks several times, feeling as if Kasumi was in front of him. but I still can't wipe that discomfort away.

Blurry darkness remains the same, side-by-side next to Subaru, and that doesn't seem too creepy and fuelling anxiety.

So Subaru reopens the phone that was folding and illuminates the space to the right.

In search of the remnants of the person who was supposed to have been there, I wanted to know who the inexplicable sensation was that I couldn't erase somewhere.

And in the light that is illuminated -,

"- Ah?"

Subaru floated in the darkness, eyes too huge.

The roar roars across and fogs the Reefaus Plains.

- On the Reefaus Plains, there is fog.