Re:Zero Kara Hajimeru Isekai Seikatsu (WN)

Squeeze, make a noise and the dragon car keeps going.

Subaru was exhausted, and his consciousness was hazy, and he took hold of the reins, and did all that was in his form.

There is fatigue, the effects of injury and, more importantly, greater mental wear.

The treatment of broken bones and cut forehead is also smooth, and the left shoulder, which remains detached, complains intermittently of pain. In the mouth, the feeling of broken teeth is at the extreme of discomfort, and the clothes dirty with blood, mud and piss have conveyed the feeling of cold cutting directly to the scalp.

- Why, have you survived?

Subaru thinks while consciousness is in the abyss of obscurity, not falling into dreams.

Lem protected me, lost her, abandoned me by Otto, begged for my life unnecessarily, and even abandoned me by a white whale, treading defenselessly through the foggy streets of the night and falling out.

I ran into a dragon car ahead of me, and I'm taking the streets ahead with the land dragon who lost the Lord.

Where the hell is this road going?

What can you do to yourself when you arrive?

I have believed for myself that I want to protect, save, and help, and that that feeling alone is moving. But I was just misleading in beautiful words what I didn't actually want to see.

I realized I was a lump of meat made of my cuteness that spared my life everywhere.

When I left Rem in front of the white whale and ordered Otto to turn back, didn't I feel relieved pretending to be heartbroken by the opposing Otto?

If you become an opponent who isn't even rivalled by being like Kensei, you just die a dog when you get back. I don't even want a lem for that. - So you don't have to go back. You don't have to die, he said.

I want to believe myself that I didn't think of it that way.

But as a matter of fact Subaru begged for his life in front of the abominable subject, the white whale. He cried out that he didn't want to die, drooling his piss and crawling around, running away confused.

Back of my brain at that time, I never had the cheapness of a lem or anything like that. All I was thinking about was even how to connect my funny, pitiful life.

If you pick up your life as a result, you can do nothing with it.

I'm just breathing and wasting oxygen. What a stupid imitation of Lem to throw his life out to protect a man like this, too.

"That, but... the stupidest thing..."

She's nowhere else.

The merchants who were on the same path disappeared, and Subaru was alone.

The underground dragon does not wait for the instructions of Subaru, the passenger, but goes down the street as he exhorted himself.

Only that there was a moderately paved path was evidence that this was not an endless journey ahead, but a path that was supposed to reach somewhere.

Anywhere.

Take me where I will be.

In a throwing mood, Subaru finally lets go of his reins and lays on your stand. A dagger of the missed cross pierces just above his sleeping gaze.

Otto through the fog would have encountered, remnants of the raid by the Witchcraft followers.

What, like Otto, does Subaru not follow his fate to be attacked by witchcraft?

Or, if I had to still see the scene, would I still beg for my life the same way I did for a white whale?

Um, even if we put Petergius in front of us.

"Pepper, Giusu"

Pompous, with his name in his mouth, Subaru ponders the cavity of his own heart.

Calling the name of that madman, who tragically slaughtered Rem, mocked Subaru and was the root of all evil, never produced any ripples in his heart.

Until just a few hours ago, he said that only his endless anger at the man had given Subaru a heartfelt vitality.

Hatred had moved his feet forward, anger had turned its face upwards, and the will to kill had given Subaru the will to live. - Its filthy vitality is nowhere to be found now.

I lost sight of even the intention to kill, even the hatred, and what am I doing?

"What the hell am I..."

The wheel of the dragon car snaps, and a terribly tall sound scratches the tympanic membrane .

Subaru woke up softly with his face to the sound of even making him feel the pain.

Seeing, at some point the Grounddragon had stopped its steps. Naturally, the dragon car that was following the motion of the ground dragon has also stopped its advance, and the scenery that stopped moving -,

"Mori...?

Scratching forest roads surrounded by trees, dragon cars were proceeding through the ground of stripped dirt.

It's been awhile since the morning sun rose, and if you look up, you can see the sun burning Subaru's body shallow.

If you're conscious, twitch, that heat slowly creeping into your body.

"- That, Subaru?

Subaru was stunned that there was a high voice stunned by the pretense and it called his name.

Get yourself out and look down at the ground voiced from your podium to make sure there are a bunch of little figures there.

"I knew it was Subaru," "What the fuck, Subaru," "Dirty, Subaru," "Stinky, Subaru"

They also recognize Subaru and start pointing and laughing at his miserable state of mouth.

But it is not something that feels bad like mocking Subaru, but rather something that is only allowed in intimate patterns,

"You guys..."

Fingered by the familiar village children, Subaru shook his throat.

It's a face I know. That's the face I've seen several times in the last few days. All of them were distorted by pain and mourning, faces I could only see where they were no longer moving.

It was a children's smile, living in a village near the Roswar Mansion.

With a sharp face up, Subaru gazes at the end of the forest road, over the hill.

White smoke saw evidence of life rise, Subaru noticed.

- I wanted so much, and I finally got to where I wanted so much.

Subaru only made it when he lost everything, despaired of everything, and gave up on nothing.

"- Subaru?" "Hey, what's up?" "Ah, it's dangerous!

I can see the children's voices getting higher and guiding this one.

Okay, but I'm too heavy to support my body anymore.

Subaru's consciousness also falls quietly and deeply so that what he was stuck with breaks the sound away from all his troubles.

"Ah, fall -"

- Fall, go.

- When Subaru woke up, the first thing he saw was the white ceiling.

Simple ceilings with only crystal lamps installed are rare in this mansion, where there are many over-decorated rooms, and you can feel your own little citizen choosing to be there in your own room.

What was under my head was a pillow whose solidity and height did not suit my skin at all times, and I knew immediately that I was laid to sleep on the sleeping table, sheeted loosely to my shoulders.

Whatever terrible condition you are in, it is Subaru's constitution that awakens your consciousness immediately from awakening. Slowly look inside the room and make sure that's the room you spent many days sleeping in. And along the way,

"- Ah."

There was a girl sitting in a chair beside her bedroom and quietly dropping her eyes on the book.

A girl dressed in a black based apron dress with bright white prims that adorn her hair to the shoulder. The cute, neat side is sincerely extinguishing emotions, and some strong beauty is making its height known internally and externally.

As soon as he realized what it looked like, Subaru woke up to jump, taking the hand of the girl who hadn't noticed this one's wake and startling her.

The girl opens her eyes to a sudden act of Subaru and looks at Subaru's face with solidity. Subaru was relieved that his face was attitude, and his manipulation was what he wanted,

"- What are you touching, Balus?"

Fantasy is shattered by the feeling of a cold, unshakeable hand, by its voice.

The reunion with the girl I thought I'd lost was a fiction the moment I realized the girl's hair in front of me was peachy.

Subaru wanted to meet the girl and two melons, twin sisters with different hair colors only.

"I know I'm glad to see Ram for the first time in a few days, but it's more like an male than a manly man to jump on his instincts like that. Kedamono."

Turn a contemptuous look and move the chair so that the ram stays away from the sleeping table. Its gaze and the coldness of the words made me feel a clear difference from my sister who looked just like me.

Instead of reuniting with her she asked for, Subaru once again thinks of her arrogance. Are you saying that it wasn't even myself who had thrown away that qualification, even wanting it?

Ram frowns in a strange way at Subaru, who pushes silence, bites his lips and leans down.

If you try it on her, that's just a light mouth on a level equal to an awakening greeting. The usual Subaru would have responded with a loud and lofty reaction. A twisted nose for each other. Despite this, Subaru is silent with a serious face, rather than coming on it.

"Hmm. - I don't really want you to do anything that's not a lamb pattern."

As I said, the outstretched hand of the ram that I had leaned over held this head from the top. And when you slide your finger into Subaru's short dark hair, you start stroking it slowly.

Quiet, carving a serene rhythm, soothing Subaru's heartbeat It has been full of mercy and hard work and has given Subaru an unexpected upset to know a girl named Ram.

"That's the face you're thinking about being rude, Balls. Surprise?"

"Surprisingly, yes.... If I'm weak, you're the type to chase me."

"Though no maid should be as good at reading the atmosphere as Ram. It's only malicious to wear the current balus. I'm gonna put this behind me, and then I'm gonna bump the next minute I've accumulated."

"Correct me, you suck after all"

In response to the rum that heralds the hoax at the next contact with Tiger Sight, Subaru, however, experiences with her skin that mercy does not disappear from the feel of her fingertips.

They're sisters, even though everything is different. Subaru's chest is so tightened that its quality of compassion is transmitted to be homogeneous.

There's something I have to tell you, and that's not an avoidable story.

No, it's a story we shouldn't avoid. At least that's about it, you have to be able to.

"Ah..."

My finger leaves Subaru's head in confusion about how to tell him, what to tell him from, and the remnants of his name leak out of his mouth as a sound. I hurriedly put my hand on my mouth and blocked it, but it is much faster for Ram's eyes to glow in the prank when I heard it.

She sees Subaru, who looks badly punished, flushing that light in her eyes,

"Did you want me to do more?

"I'm not a child. I don't need it..."

When I slap my hatred, the rum that I heard about it laughs with my nose for a long time "ha". Would it have been nearly two weeks in physical time to see her trick like that?

"You look like a child crying, I often say. The way you tend to be mean and the toddler itself."

With a subaru immersed in sentiment, Ram says with a gaze from the top as he shrugs his shoulders. After seeing Subaru's mouth spin like that,

"Bye, Balth."

"- Oh."

Move the chair in front of the corresponding Subaru and a ram sitting in the front stares at this one.

It's like a gaze trying to see through the back of your eyes to your heart. Naturally, in Subaru, shrouded in uncomfortable conditions, Ram set aside a beat of time to

- Let me talk to you.

"It looked terrible. If you think you got in a dragon car you don't know about in the village, you have a half-dead, thin dirty balus. When the villagers came to the mansion to call for rum, at first I thought it was a joke or something."

Pale, Ram looks back at the flow until Subaru is unconscious and charged into this mansion. She points to Subaru, who listens in silence,

"Off shoulder and cut forehead. The broken ribs are tangled, but I'll open them if I can't. I disposed of the clothes dirty with blood and mud. - I'll keep my mouth shut for Emilia."

"... oh, that helps"

To Subaru responding with a plundered voice, Ram shrugged his shoulders and looked bored.

As for her, she would have been a belly trying to shield what was now and impose a difficult challenge on Subaru in the future, but the subaru at heart is not going to do the same with this.

With that kind of room in her belly, Subaru confirms that the injuries are healing as Ram pointed out. The left shoulder moved without any problems with the faintly painful ones, and there was nothing left like discomfort on the forehead and chest. Healing magic varies. The problem is,

"Mine, you healed my wound..."

"Dear Emilia,

Lightly, Ram mouths what Subaru was concerned about.

She laid her hands on her hips, "You won't have a choice," she foreshadowed, then turned her worried eyes to the nagging Subaru,

"At first I asked Master Beatrice, but she turned me down. I knew I was afraid of it because it was difficult for me."

"Um... did Emilia say anything?

"That would be something you should talk to yourself about."

Ram answers coldly to Subaru, who had done his hand on his shoulder that was off and asked in horror.

Subaru shuddered his shoulders at the low temperature of that gaze, and Ram sighed at Subaru for such a pitiful reaction,

"Lamb doesn't know what happened between Emilia and Balth in the king's capital. Something happened, I have some idea, but I haven't heard the details. I'm not even interested. If you look at Balth's reaction now, you must have done something that Balth wasn't busy with anyway."

"That's spicy."

"I think it's a proper assessment, though? At least for a heckle who doesn't have the courage to step into a story that's hard to cut out and fortunately eats this up on a different topic and postpones it."

I spot this psyche by the time it's completely skinless, and the rum tinkles my nose.

They poke at the stars and beat them relentlessly, and Subaru doesn't even make a grunt sound.

I know what she's looking for. Anyway, Subaru is back, and his presence is not there. Topics that should be cut out without one or two originally.

Is it her kindness, or harshness, to not speak of it this way and wait for Subaru to speak from herself? - Probably a gentle, harsh concern.

Forever, I couldn't be sweet about it.

That much of the distinction is also found in Subaru. More importantly, there are as many things we need to talk about. I do.

So Subaru breathes, lets his gaze wander, twists down all of his own flesh trying to buy time with a breath that finally plunders,

- Lem's dead.

The moment I mouth it, something softly falls out of Subaru's chest.

It is deep in the chest, something that has always been grasped as a heavy mass, falling into the stomach, losing its shape and claiming its existence the moment it utters the word now.

I realized what the chunk was and how hot it felt to convey my cheeks.

It's a plea for lost lives, whether it's sadness or regret.

Until now, only at the tip of my mouth was I allowed to finally admit it and finally swallow it, understanding it to blend into my mind and body.

- I let Lem lose it.

The tears spilled.

And I realize. Finally I realize. Subaru, many times, let Rem die. This is the fourth time Subaru has gotten her death as a real feeling, including a loop in a previous mansion. Four times, I realized I'd let her die.

This was the first time Subaru had wept for her against her death.

I wept for her, so that doesn't make Subaru's deeds acceptable.

I spent the time she made risking her life for no reason, begging for her life by snarling at the person who killed her, even turning away from that fact and fleeing to this point.

Because I saw that ugliness of myself, and I couldn't look away and get away with it, so at least, it's just about her devoting herself like that -.

"I... can't do anything. There's fog on the street... the white whale, it's out. So Rem tried to get me away... but everyone else dragon cars were left in the fog just me... so hurry up..."

I can't put together what I'm trying to say.

Whimpering words don't turn the rhythm, and they don't engage well before or after conversation. I couldn't stop making excuses, and I felt like that was molesting Rem's end, and I couldn't stop Subaru shutting his mouth and giving up talking with momentum.

I pleaded guilty. Let's be punished. To that end, give a solid explanation -,

"Who are you talking about, Rem?

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What, they said, I didn't know.

"Oh, uh... what?

The meaning of the words in Ram's mouth cannot be swallowed, and Subaru hears them back with a loose voice between them.

Remutte da renocoto, what does that mean?

But Ram shocked Subaru's face like that, again, as if he were saying it was Subaru who was saying something funny.

"Who are you talking about, Balth?"

I haven't moved one eyebrow to my twin sister's name and have been asking who it is.

"So, nobody's anything... don't be silly...! What's your sister's name? It's Rem, isn't it? It's Lem. It's Lem."

"Lam's sister......"

With his fingers on his lips, Ram glances at him to seriously think about it.

Just do the trick of remembering it that way, it's already unbearably bad for Subaru right now. Yelling at me about what I'm doing, so much that I want to slap my sister into the streets where I can get fogged right now.

And after a lot of silence,

"Ram's sister's, Rem. Oh......"

"You remembered!?

Jumping at the exclamation, Subaru opens his eyes as he saw the light. but Ram nodded one at Subaru like that, and then made a terribly white gaze,

"There's no way I can remember the fact that there is. Ram has always been alone. You can't even have a sister."

I unequivocally assure you so, without any thoughtful attitude.

to that attitude of hers. Subaru shook his neck to the side, murmuring, "Such an idiot,"

"What, say, ru..."

- Lamb doesn't have a sister.

Its mouth is hiding something, or it's forcing its emotions to freeze, a terribly cold, natural word and deed that is far from such an expression.

- In her, really, the presence of her twin sister is gone from the ground up.

"Without Rem, what would the noise of the Warcraft Forest be! Me, Rem and you, juggernaut..."

"There's something really wrong with you, Balls. Though handicapped, it was only half Balth's contribution that made it possible to exterminate the Juggernaut herd, and all that remained was Lamb's efforts and Roswar's help.... there's no slipping gap between a living sister named Lem."

Ram, who tries hardly to acknowledge the presence of his sister in Subaru's defense.

She also seemed to have a different outcome in her than Subaru about those repeated days of backsliding that happened at the Mansion.

Subaru ran around with the thought of spitting blood reflexes, proceeded with Rem, protected by Rem, and went to the woods with Ram to save her who had gone ahead, where she burned her soul with her life in jeopardy. What should have happened is smeared in her in a false way.

I don't know what that means. I don't see how you can answer that.

"I'm not even kidding... I would be too bad at making it a nightmare..."

"Rams are always serious. You must be dreaming of Balth."

"Bullshit, don't do it -!"

Fueled by the attitude of the ram, which has no island to attach, Subaru gets off the sleeping table as he jumps the sheets. Still, the body, which had not lost its strength, fluttered its lower body, but still an unstoppable fierce emotion raised its face up, avoiding a future in which it fell unnecessarily.

"Balus, if you're still up..."

"Ugh! Shut up...... shut up and watch!

A ram that looks fluttering Subaru and reaches out. Shaking that stretched out of her hand abusively, Subaru took steps to make sure every step of the way, leaving the room to jump out when she gained the certainty not to fall.

Subaru was put to sleep on the second floor of the floor used by the servant, in my room, which is addressed to Subaru. Although there are many rooms available for servants, in fact only three people fall into that role in this mansion, so most are spaces that are vacant and played.

Subaru, knowing that any room on the same floor is such an empty room, passes by without looking as if nothing were in front of those doors.

Ahead of us is the staircase hall, where we go fast for the upper floors. Along the way,

"I'm not even back in strength, but if I keep pushing myself, I'm gonna fall and annoy the ram."

Rams following from behind throw words like that, but Subaru, who walks angrily on his shoulders, has no ears to listen to. Took considerably more time than usual to climb the stairs, Subaru leads straight through the aisle on the third floor of the mansion to the room where he has gone through many times.

The third floor of the servant building, the third room from the west staircase - where the answers that Subaru's thoughts shouldn't be nightmares or delusions should remain.

Standing in front of the room, grabbing the door knob pushes open at once.

I don't need any hesitation. If we take the time here, that's all Subaru's mind will be given the opportunity to be scared of. - I don't need time to worry, confuse, etc.

I stepped into the room without a knock or anything, and there was a simple but carefully decorated, girly room...

"... lying, you know"

Nothing, there wasn't.

Only the bedside, shaped like the rest of the room, and the small desk installed in the back of the room, are in the stepped in room. Although her room was certainly simple, it didn't mean it was like a mass of individuality, like this one.

"That should be...!

Looking around the room, Subaru flies out in incredible ways. The ram standing beside the door ignores silently looking at this one, and counts the number when he shows his face in the hallway. Number three from the stairwell, you can't possibly count it wrong, and it's just the number of times you can reach it without counting it in the first place, where you took your feet. I can get there with my eyes closed.

- And yet, why?

"Bulls, are you ready?

I guess she figured out what Subaru came to find out.

I can't find what I was looking for and Ram quietly asks on the side of the stunned Subaru. The look was engulfed with pity, and I could see from her usual, unthinkable, that she had guided Subaru through herself.

As painful as that can be, Subaru can't help but understand.

"Rem... here..."

- He wasn't in this mansion.

shook his head, Ram looked from the front at Subaru clouding his eyes, "And," he continued his breath,

"Lamb doesn't have a sister."

Now it was time for her to say it again, as she stabbed Todome.

- Subaru had disciplined himself that he was responsible for Rem's death.

Rem gave his life for Subaru. Subaru must bear that responsibility. And it's too heavy to carry. I would have thrown it out and run if I'd ever taken it, and finally, I was about to take a step.

"I have..."

- You don't even deserve to beg forgiveness, do you?

Everything pushes Subaru away. Everyone and he all leave Subaru behind.

The behavior I did thinking it was for Emilia was unacceptable to her and jumping over the groove of birth has yet to materialize.

Throwing everything out for Subaru, Rem sprinkles his life spectacularly every time he repeats it. If we try to take responsibility for that life, the world will take away even that responsibility from Subaru.

Time, the world, witchcraft, white whales, every obstacle stands in Subaru's way.

I wonder why. I wonder what's wrong.

How can the world be so cold with itself, and every thought betrays itself?

It's

That's...

Bulls, go back to your room.

Rahm says to Subaru, who stagnates his thoughts with just an even bar.

She leaned over and pushed Subaru's back toward the stairs,

"You're going to be tired, so there must be a lot of things out there that you don't know. Go back to your room and watch the rest of your dreams go on in bed. Rams have been called, so there's something I have to do. I can't just stand on the balus."

Even before Subaru, who is thus swallowed by shock, Ram's judgment is harsh on Subaru. She doesn't tell her to rest, she comes to do her part.

Pushing his back hard only once, Ram went to the opposite staircase as he pushed Subaru. Look back before you get away from it, and finally instruct "Go back to your room and sleep". Now it is time to walk away from the spot and Subaru is left in the hallway.

Fluffy, it is in the direction of the private room as Ram told me to proceed with a swinging foothold. Or she's right, if you lay on the bunk and sink your consciousness, you might escape the kind of loneliness that makes you despise everything you've got right now.

It's a bad dream, I'm sure. I go into bed to dream in my dreams, because it's a funny story, but it doesn't seem bad if you're going for dreams to counteract dreams.

More importantly, if you shift your consciousness to sleep at least, can you say goodbye to the noise that scratches you repeatedly and repeatedly through your skull like this?

You can run away. Because you ran, you ran, you ran, you ran, you came this far. In the same way, as always, if you run away and keep running away and confuse yourself...

"Run... what happens..."

Squirting, Subaru's feet stopped on the verge of descending the stairs.

Desiring to escape, he pulls the foot he was about to step downstairs to escape, and Subaru lifts his jaw gently, looking in the opposite direction as he descends.

Run away. It's not something you can handle. Once again, Subaru almost betrayed Rem.

Why did she protect Subaru and let me escape the white whale?

To make Subaru accomplish his purpose. Subaru's purpose is to keep those living in this mansion out of the hands of witchcraft demons.

Now, if you're going to abandon that purpose and throw consciousness into the escape, it's...

"It's more cowardly than begging for forgiveness..."

Looking back, turn your back on the stairs you were about to descend.

This time, there is no stray in the footsteps that have gone forward and forth. Subaru passes through the girl's room where even traces of existence have disappeared, to the same staircase where the ram disappeared. The upper floor of the building, which can only be headed from there, awaits the reason Svalbard has returned.

Step slowly down the stairs you have reached and head up to make sure every step of the way. Up the spiral staircase, cut up ahead is the door that leads to a room.

When he laid his hand on the door knob of the door, Subaru noticed the heartbeat was slightly quiet.

Earlier, when I stepped into the lost girl's room, the heart that was so loud is now carving a terribly quiet rhythm. I can't tell if that's because it's calming down or if it's going through a beating and it's sinking heavily.

But...

"Give me the courage, Rem -"

When I uttered the name, only a tiny force dwells in Subaru's hand.

It moves the knob on the door, which was too heavy to be frightened, and loosely opens the door, which seemed to be tightly closed.

And beyond the open door, the girl who was on her desk looked back at this one with only her neck,

- Subaru?

Subaru closes his eyes when he hears the voice of the silver bell calling his own name.

A terrible, unspeakable emotion tasted his chest rushing through his body, and Subaru finally remembered.

- That I came back to hear her voice.

Girl with purple blue eyes shaking silver hair and clear white skin. She soaked a sad colour in her gloomy beauty and stood up - Emilia said.

"... why are you back?"

- That sounds helpless and weak, and Subaru is only deprived of consciousness by the voice over the content of the words.

Emilia shivering her lips and lodging a powerless light in her eyes. Two weeks in physical time, about a week in real world flowing time - that's all she was supposed to be away from, but seeing Subaru made her look just a little smaller.

I feel thinner than the last time I broke up. The colour of fatigue is dark on the voice and eyes, enough to make you wonder if you are not sleeping.

They're cornering themselves that way, and more importantly, they're cornered by outside interference, Emilia. Subaru has an idea of why. Because there is, and this is how Subaru came back under Emilia.

So,

"Let's go, you shouldn't be here"

Step in, ignore Emilia's inquiry and Subaru reaches out.

In that forceful attitude Emilia opens her eyes thinly, pulling herself slightly to distance herself from Subaru. spreading what should have shrunk, Emilia shook her head at Subaru frowning,

"He said he was going... where. No, for what?"

"Not here. Anywhere. If they ask me what it's for, I'll do it for you..."

"Also, is that it?

Emilia said in a disappointing voice to Subaru's answer.

She faintly moisturized those purple blue eyes, gazing upwards at Subaru holding her mouth,

"Suddenly I came back, scratched and worried. - Weren't you being treated for Ferris in Wang Du? Why are you here now?"

"There was a lot going on! It's the mountains I'd like to explain, but I don't have time for that. Please, listen to me. Together, from this mansion…"

"You said you couldn't, right? I said I couldn't believe Subaru.... I told you."

He shook his neck sideways, and Emilia refuses Subaru with a trembling voice. It is a continuation of the exchanges exchanged between the refrains of the royal castle and, more importantly, a repetition without progress.

Subaru's thoughts of death are not passed on to her, and Subaru doesn't know how Emilia can't understand her thoughts.

Still,

"If you don't like it, I'll force you to take him. After a few days, I don't like it, but I know I'm right. So......!

"Wait, wait, Subaru. What's wrong with you? No, you didn't. I... me, Subaru..."

"Just shut up and listen to me!!

The moment she yelled, Emilia shuddered her shoulders small.

Unbelievable, in front of Emilia, whose eyes widen, Subaru breathes roughly as he yells momentum, staring strongly at Emilia.

"I can't if I'm here. You regret it. Absolutely. It won't do anyone any good. No one is saved. I don't want to suffer anymore, and I don't want to cry!

"What, are we talking...? Subaru, I don't know."

"Shut up! You guys... you just have to do what I say! That's how it works. That's right! How come no one understands...!

Scratching his hair Subaru arranges a curse to spit out resentment for all the irrationality he has ever bumped into, not at Emilia in front of him.

Subaru's remarks, eclampsia and absurdity of voice, would have made no sense to Emilia. But for Subaru, there were only occasions to spit out on this occasion. All the irrationality Subaru encountered - only in front of her, its starting point, this was something she could not spit out.

Seeing Subaru complain in tears, Emilia faintly lays her eyes down.

Then she whined, "I'm sorry," and then

"I don't know what Subaru is talking about. I can't understand you. I want to know for you, but I don't have time to do that for you either.... because there are so many things that need to be done. So..."

"It's not gonna work."

Blocking words, Subaru tramples Emilia's thoughts in short words.

Emilia breathes small and repeatedly blinks as if she just can't accept Subaru's words filled only with malice.

Subaru got the feeling that she was looking at herself as if she were mirroring. I was going to start. Empathy of being frustrated with that wish, though.

It brings a terrible, cruel, sweet feeling to Subaru,

"It doesn't work. You can't. Fail. There's no way I can do it. Not at all. It's just a mouthful. I can't. I can't be saved. You will stack up impotence and recklessness and see only the same number of bodies. - That's your future."

That was blacker, uglier, despicable, to spit on - it was pleasure.

Every word I said, every word, shook her eardrum, I can feel the pain in that expression, the crack in my heart, the blade plunged into my thoughts.

At that moment, everything about her is directed at herself. Only that moment of time now was there the dark joy that everything in Emilia was dedicated to herself.

They are made unhindered in their determination, laughed off in their readiness, obstructed in their doings in a vicious manner, mocked for their inaction in the past, and proclaimed that their future is dark.

Seeing Emilia flirting with every one of them, Subaru is...

"Why?"

Pompous, Emilia shrugged.

In the words of Subaru with no heart, Emilia makes that look strong with sadness, with the pain that only darkness can tell you about the future that awaits. But I don't know that her purple blue eyes cloud even then.

fascinated by its monstrous brilliance, the world reflected there - that is, seeing her stare Subaru herself reflected in the

"Why is Subaru crying so painfully?

- I realized I was in tears, with a distorted grin.

――――

I could see everything jumping back.

If you weep and think back to every word that trampled her thoughts, nothing, it's all a bunch of words that come down to Subaru himself.

It is the same for Subaru to be denied determination, readiness, action, past and future.

I feel like it's useless to do anything. I also know I can be rushed by the sense of duty that I have to do something. No one knows what to do with it anymore. I don't know, but if you do,

"I... sent me so far... no, for Rem who brought me so far, for Rem's sake, there's something I have to do..."

"Rem?"

Terrible Subaru words. It doesn't quite make sense. I hear that, and I lean my neck towards the word Emilia came out of.

Because the language of the word that came out of her mouth was something of the kind that was spoken by those who obviously did not know the meaning of the sound.

- You, too.

"Huh?"

"You forget Lem, too..."

Even the twin sister forgot to exist, and even the traces that should have disappeared, and even the person who was the reason for risking his life to return, doesn't remember the child.

Her days, time, thoughts, life, wishes, then where does it disappear?

That smile, that anger, that tear, that touch, what about everything that makes up that child?

- Okay, I'll tell you everything.

Coming out with my mouth was such a word as a blowout.

Eh, and Emilia comes to a surprise at Subaru's words. Looking up at that girlfriend's face, Subaru reaffirms the source of thoughts thrusting herself so far.

As long as the thought of her disappears to the other side,

"It's better to expose everything and throw up blood reflexes"

Decide.

To reveal everything, to tell the truth, to reveal in one's heart.

Subaru's eyes changed and Emilia, who guessed it, breathed.

In front of her, Subaru put his hand on his chest. Fast beating. I understand beforehand what happens as a result of what I'm going to do now, but it's a dead fear.

That's pain. That can also be so painful that it can be insane.

You continue to be extended the pain of being crushed by your heart and not being able to raise your voice when it may end.

But I think so.

Did you find out? Is that a problem? What is it compared to this suffering, such as pain?

You don't believe me, you don't understand me. More importantly, as long as we endure such suffering as no one remembers Rem's existence, it's nothing like pain or anything.

- You can come if you want. About the heart, I'll give it to you.

"Emilia. I've seen the future. I know. I don't know why, I... I'm 'back to death'

In an attempt to uncover everything, the moment I spoke of it, the impasse still came.

As we see it, the movement of the world gradually stagnates and eventually stands still. As soon as the scenery begins to lose color, all the sounds that should have been before disappear. The sound of the wind, the breath, the heartbeat, kept away, never came back.

Consciousness leaves behind whatever the five senses may be, and Subaru isolates himself from the world.

- And let that isolated Subaru be left alone, and the palm of mercy, which I did not even seek, slowly appeared.

The blackness of birth constitutes the shape of the arm at a quiet but slippery rate.

Until now, only the right arm was clearly in the shape of an arm. But even the left arm, born to chase it, creates a firm shape to the shoulder in front of Subaru today.

My hands approach Subaru, my left hand as always loving this one. The remaining right hand enters the chest like a slip, sliding through the ribs and reaching the heart.

Slightly, the feeling of the heart being swayed in your palms makes your whole body run scared.

Unlike before, which inflicts severe pain on one thought, Subaru's precisely life-grabbing black cunt treats Subaru's readiness as if he were trying to break it with extreme fear.

The pain that is supposed to come does not come, and a quiet fear begins to sprout in Subaru's heart.

Unlike previous actions of the shadow, the behavior that began to wield subaru. It will determine Subaru's heart more than ever, and it will also bring pain in a different way than before.

Subaru is about to scream with his immobile throat at at how to inflict pain different from what he had imagined. But a tooth that doesn't move refuses it.

The pain, the fear, even if the unknown afflicted Subaru, would never point down.

Otherwise you won't be rewarded. Otherwise it will not be tolerated.

If Subaru, who is responsible for her death, tries to beg forgiveness in this world where no one remembers her existence, it cannot be anything but her own soul.

All you have to do is bump everything you want, pain and suffering.

Subaru instead spits out something of his own experience and takes back everything he was supposed to get. So, the rush with the black one is over.

It's dim when it comes to aerobics, and too much to lose when it comes to decisions.

But it was a resolute determination for Subaru, which never solidified before.

- This determination, readiness, will not be so easily shattered and so forth.

Staring at the heart-wrenching black beard, Subaru waits for the impending moment to kill his breath. However, he does not always have the slightest impression of hitting Subaru with malice. You can do it at any time, so you can be there without doing it forever.

In a stagnant world of time, if you are challenged to a war of attrition, you have no choice but to fight until your spirit wears off. Now even in a state that is out of blood and unthinkable, such as breaking, it all comes time to be broken and swallowed up by giving up and hope for an end. - That idea is too sweet.

Hours, days, I'll put up with your predicament.

It's not like Dada has died many times. If you're not dying, I'll put up with it as much as it hurts.

I'm ready for Subaru like that...

"- Ah?"

Suddenly, colors began to float in the stagnating world.

The pain, which was supposed to be visited, ends only with a bare gesture of its appearance, disappearing wherever it becomes. Under the remaining Subaru, the sound, the color, and the time were steadily returned.

The breath, the heartbeat, 'naturally' began rampant as the world's moving sounds surrounded Subaru and mocked the bewildering Subaru.

Without knowing the true intentions of the black jaws, Subaru blinks again and again.

But even if you suspect it's not some mistake, or if you're wary that after the blink that stagnant world is waiting for you again, the color of the world won't change that.

Is it true that before Subaru's constant readiness, the Black Ones understood the naivety of their own deeds?

There is no way, on the other hand, that makes me laugh so much, that the possibility of my own determination calling for undesirable results did not make Subaru do it.

Still on my chest, I still have the feeling that my right hand in the black wax was holding my heart softly.

If that thing had been gripped, by now...

――――

That much thought led Subaru to doubt.

I clearly remember my right hand gripping my heart and plotting to break Subaru's heart. But in the meantime, the first left hand I touched my cheek, where is the left hand out of consciousness -,

"- Huh."

Before the answer to the question arose, Emilia in front of me groaned something.

Drawing consciousness back into reality to that her voice, Subaru recalls the continuation of the words he had to speak.

Although the unrealistic tranquillity was causing the upset, as if it were a dream, it is nothing but a turnaround given the impact on what Subaru tried to do.

Forbidden to explain the situation, the time tied to a constraint to be called a curse is finally over.

It is now time to reveal everything, share the future we have gained, and act to obtain the world we all want and want -.

"Ah."

Emilia's body leaned forward toward Subaru.

Unexpectedly reach out and take her body. Subaru is slightly upset by the warm, soft feel on his palms -,

Shivering.

"Huh?"

Sneeze, sneeze, sneeze.

"- Amiri?

Sneeze, sneeze, sneeze.

Embraced, Emilia's, mouth to mouth, blood, massive, overflowing.

- Where was your left hand disappearing while your right hand touched Subaru's heart?

Keep your face on Subaru's shoulder and Emilia's vomiting won't stop. An overflowing, bitter amount of blood dyes Subaru's body bright red, lightening Emilia's body.

"Stop... Huh? Hey, huh?

Her face turned upwards in an attempt to stop the blood being spit out, her neck moving without its power, her sloppy, drooping shoulders, her eyes losing light, telling the story of it all.

- In front of Subaru, now Emilia, lives.

"Ohhhhhhhhhhhh -!!!!"

The screaming woods spirits.

If you can forget everything by screaming, screaming so hard that your throat can be ripped open, tear it down, and take it away from me right now.

In her arms, Emilia's body becomes lighter and less powerful.

The blood that is spit out does not stop. Subaru's body turns red, more and more red.

- When your right hand touches Subaru's heart, your left hand belongs to Emilia.

The determination, the readiness, the action, the past, the future, is trampled by ridicule.

A resolute determination, just consolidated as it was shattered, crushes Natsuki Subaru into the abyss of despair.

- Screaming pulls tail high and high and never disappears.

Subaru finally, finally.

- I killed Emilia.