Re:Zero Kara Hajimeru Isekai Seikatsu (WN)

Everything disappears into the white world.

I'm not sure if my frozen flesh has melted, shattered again, or will remain in the ice statue forever.

It didn't matter terribly to me right now, such as the end of the flesh that was left behind.

Clearly, there's only one thing I could understand.

I repeated, repeated, each time I saw an unbroken end, and each time I repeated, I made the situation worse, finally breaking with this hand what I wanted to protect the most, and I finally realized.

- Natsuki Subaru doesn't expect anyone, not even himself.

The feeling that the five senses that I should have lost suddenly came back was not something I could get used to no matter how many times I felt it.

The cold air creeps across to the core of your body, losing even the feeling of cold and sinking everywhere and everywhere into the white darkness.

The feeling of losing everything clears up on the sieve, and after the blink, everything may come back to normal.

The hands and feet that hurt so much get blood, and the nerves that are invaded and exhausted are usually driven as if they forgot to suffer or something. The cold air that stabbed my skin disappeared, and the sun was as hot and humid as it would have been if I hadn't swept my sleeves.

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"-"

"-"

Sound flies from right to left into the stand-up mess, throwing in a workload demanding a relentless return to hearing that should have been dead.

Subaru confirms the movement of his hands and feet while handling the murmurs that do not exchange those meanings. Both arms lowered into two pieces, the right foot that became like Kenyama, and the left foot that could be played by piling, are safe. Steep firmly on the ground, the clenching fists are made hard and strong.

Everything's back to normal. Lost control of his own flesh returns, Subaru relieves.

And more importantly -,

"Subaru, what's wrong with being depressed?

There was a blue-haired girl leaning over the counter and looking at herself worried.

Abandoned by everything, beaten to powerlessness beyond help, and desperate for the despair and loss that he deserves, he dogged back to death without the art of exchange.

"Rem."

"Yes, it's Subaru-kun's lem.... What's wrong with you?

Depending on the voice calling himself short, Lem then creeps the counter out of the store. Coming forward to Svalbard, he stretches his hand toward this face and touches his cheek.

frowned upon the care, and Rem, when he grieved over his righteous face,

"I'm sorry, I didn't realize. You're tired. Rem is disqualified to forget his job and immerse himself in something else."

"I'm tired... oh yeah... right"

Cover Rem's hands touching his cheeks from the top with lifted hands. Rem raised his eyebrows as surprised at the touch, but put it on hold on Subaru's expression and voice, which cut him short.

I didn't even look at how she looked like I said something, and Subaru was certainly the presence of Rem in his palm - to dwell on its warmth, not to miss it.

"As a falling, rubbing it off... I'm tired, dude"

Still, because she's certainly here that I should have lost.

"- Subaru?

- No more, Subaru decided not to let go of that in front of him.

We pass the clutter early enough and down a loose slope.

Face the smoke of the dragon car passing directly beside you, but Subaru's gaze is straight. Aim for the place you want, and there is no stray foothold to move on.

I think Subaru has been lost in these repetitive days so far.

Lost in his own way, lost in the place of Emilia's heart, lost in his existential significance, lost in what to do to grasp the best future, lost in the vortex of madness, lost in life and death, lost in the other world if he pokes more.

But that's how Subaru, who didn't even have a decent sense of how to proceed with one leg, is now pushing with unprecedented clarity.

I finally understood.

Loop, repeated days, were not in vain.

What happened in a world where the third world truly cornered Subaru, physically and mentally, clearly taught it.

What Subaru can do.

What Subaru needs to do.

"-Yeah!"

The clear eyes of stray look to purpose, and kicking feet in the ground to trample on is powerful.

My body is light. Freed from anything that could be the weight of my heart, there was nothing to fear in Subaru today.

"Subaru, listen to me."

Draw your arms, and when you finish down the slope, now head for the main street - that street, which boasts even the largest road width in the Wang capital. Go through like sewing between people who hang out with each other and go against the crowd waves.

In the face of the familiar path, Subaru's momentum only increases. The feeling of deviation is reflected in the breath, in the footsteps, in the flesh that bounces.

into the shade on the fence, Subaru looks up at it, a cause that blocked the sun.

At the end of his gaze toward the top, he had been taught that it was the walls surrounding the king's capital that covered his sight, and the main entrance to the king's capital that connected the interior and exterior, which were the sections of that wall - the letters engraved at the top were still unreadable combinations of the letters "C" and "B", marked "Rugnica, the king's capital".

This means that Subaru's - No, the two figures are now at the main entrance of the Wang capital,

"- Subaru, yeah!

Until then, his leg, which had followed him crumbly, stops and he is forced to shake off the arm he was grabbing. If that's how we get disconnected from each other, then the servant Subaru will have to stop his legs too.

I stopped, looked back, and Lem, staring at Subaru, shook his eyes in confusion,

"What's the matter? What happened? You have to explain..."

Lem's plea to put his left hand on the right arm that was being grabbed, no heart or to make himself smaller.

Hearing the words, Subaru is convinced that her doubts must be natural. From her point of view, she was suddenly forcibly brought here by an unusual Subaru. There is no explanation for the road so far, and it is natural to get angry if you are made to hurry.

"Oh, I'm sorry, Rem. Hey, I was in a lot of a hurry, too. Gosh, here's the thing, there's so much to think about. So I skipped the explanation, sorry."

"I'm in trouble now. I know Subaru thinks a lot about you, even Rem, but I still need to tell you a word.... I don't hate being forced."

Put your hands on your cheeks and a slightly red-dyed lem leaks a soothing exhale.

Seems that the discouragement in Subaru's voice overheard the calm standing back and decided that the odd attitude earlier had been a whispering overthought.

I see, it's not a story that I don't even understand that concern if I look at her relief.

Subaru's degeneration shortly after "Back to Death" would have been dramatic for Rem, who only experienced a few seconds of events.

In fact, there is a difference between her and Subaru in the accumulation of 'seconds' and 'days'.

Even Subaru has stacked that 'few days' three times, shaping it now. Besides, if you calm down and look back, Subaru's inner depression during this period should have been enough to make me want to turn away.

He was disgraced in the place of the king's election, half-killed by Julius in the battalion, creating a deadly ditch with Emilia, and left behind by the king's capital to lose sight of his existential significance.

When I spent some time in Kursch's mansion looking for answers that I couldn't find to what I could and what I had to do.

Such an abrupt stray of Subaru literally cleared during the blink of an eye. The blue sky thunderbolt would also be a good place from the lem.

"I'm sorry, take it easy. It's all right now. I feel like I was showing you all the crap from being dented or dented, but I finally figured it out."

"No, because it's not bitter for Lem to be thinking about Subaru.... finally figured it out, huh?

Rem also responds to Subaru, who speaks with his lost clear eyes, with a voice that plays.

It's been a really long time since we've had this kind of interaction, and Subaru's inner heart can't hide a whisper of joy.

And Rem's question following the word butt, Subaru nodded "Oh," to it,

"I'm so worried and lost, and I'm honestly sorry I bothered people. I'm half in the mood, but I finally figured out how to fit in circles. No, when I think about it again, I saw it from the beginning, and you were supposed to tell me... because I'm sorry I gave up, me"

"I think that's the nice thing about Subaru..."

Subaru smiles bitterly at Rem's words as he clouds his words small.

Then he looks up at the sky and pours its breadth and height into the back of his eyes. It has always been the same, and for a world that kept looking down on Subaru, there must have been some more time.

But I can finally finish the time that makes it so painful.

The answer has always been right in front of me.

No matter where Subaru went, no matter what reckless attempt he made, no matter how far he ran to the foolish act, he was following me without complaining about his back.

Yes, sir.

"I made up my mind, Rem."

Straight, stare into the eyes of a girl who stands within reach.

Blue hair to the shoulder shakes in the wind, reflecting Subaru in clear eyes.

The black based apron dress that wraps the small body has no futile embellishments and embodies her noble nature. The white prime decorating the top of the blue hair was resolute and the small, neat noticeable nose delicately decorated the shape of the adorable girl.

"Yes, Subaru."

Peachy lips draw a smile and narrowed eyes gently draw an arc.

The spoil of the sounding voice was full of charity that seemed to melt my brain, and I perplexed everywhere into Subaru, who was about to utter just one word.

"First, let's rent a dragon car. The reception is a little crowded in the king's race, but I think we're gonna have a little bit more time after noon tomorrow."

I prefer a fast legged, able-bodied guy.

We need to keep running. There's a guy who can run day and night, lightly, without having to rest.

"Dragon car, is it...?

Lean your little neck and repeat the word Subaru's mouth.

What comes to mind in those eyes is confusion, and I guess she doesn't see the conclusion of Subaru's story, which rushes a little too far ahead.

But Subaru showed the gate by hand with such a bare gesture that she did not realize her temptations,

"While you're choosing a dragon car, you might want to buy in some food for your free time. Oh, I don't like people of blurry lineage, even for mobile food. Just water if you want to eat it."

In the name of experiential learning in the age of compulsory education, there was a class where I actually tried saving food and simple portable food, but subaru is a disgusting memory that both have to be evaluated as' none '.

In the original world where the seasoning relationship developed, so the degree of flavor such as preserved food in the case of this world is not reliable.

"No, but on the contrary, the possibility that magical forces work and instead preserve food is delicious is also slightly preserved......!? The mayonnaise could have been created, and the spirit could be breathing before you go out and try and throw it..."

"Uh, Subaru?

"Mm-hmm. Oh, I'm sorry, I was running in a bit of a weird direction with my thoughts. What's up, man?

Correcting a story that started off on the sidewalk, Subaru looks at Rem with a gentle smile on his mouth. Slightly bent over and gazed at the girl in front of him.

To that worthy Subaru attitude Rem pushed only slightly, then as he shook his lips and shook off his strays.

"Um, I'm sorry. I don't know what Subaru is trying to do because Rem doesn't have a good idea. Um, what...?

"Oh! Oh, my God, I'm sorry! Sorry, I didn't even notice! No, now I'm totally gonna tell you what I'm gonna do. I was gonna make plans, don't be ashamed!

Knee slapping, Subaru makes himself laugh openly at his fall.

And after I laughed at that clumsiness,

"This is what I do after all the things I've been reminded of and thought about and, well, the answer's been out for a long time."

Bitter laughter, right bitter laughter.

Licked the bitter juice. I bit off my regrets. He wept irrationally and unceasingly, and was cruelly fated to apply it to himself and to the blood of others, and to the earth.

The answer to all of that is now clear.

"Rem."

Calling the girl's name, Subaru slowly reached out to her.

Seeing the hand offered, Rem awaits the next Subaru word. Subaru put the rising thoughts on her tongue as she responded to that posture -,

"With me, let's get out of here. Everywhere."

He made it clear that he had defeated his destiny.

"... huh?

You didn't know the meaning of the words you were told, the only thing that leaked out of Lem's throat was exhalation like a plunder.

Subaru shook her neck sideways, thinking she couldn't help but react like that.

"From now on I will leave the King's Capital, all the way west... or head north. I'm talking about not being allowed into the southern empire, so I only have one candidate. Personally, the West is a push because I don't like the cold."

"Hey, no, you know..."

"I don't think it's going to be an easy trip because the distance and maybe the blur are vague, and the cut-off departure is a good place. Oh, and what if I don't think I can return the dragon car in the first place? Should I buy it out, rather than lend it to a dragon car shop or something?

I suppose it's a car rental kind of system, but the finesse around it is negligible for Subaru, who hadn't reached the licensing age. I don't even know what kind of writing will be exchanged last time Lem wasn't accompanied to the occasion of renting a dragon car.

I don't think the store is doing business without considering the possibility of getting away with it, so I think the conditions are being exchanged well.

"Ma, wait!

And Rem waited for Subaru to think.

With her hands on this one, she uncommonly felt a sense of impatience in that expression,

"Running away... what does that mean? The way Subaru says it now, it's like he's about to leave for a country that's not Lugnica..."

You can't hide the half-heartedness. You state your guess, and then Lem faintly brightens his expression when he leaks his voice, "Ah,"

"Hey, did you come up with something awesome again? Something like that to help Emilia and Roswar..."

"That's not true, Rem"

"Eh -"

Like a scratch. Let Lem draw a future diagram that he believes too much, just as he hopes the sincerity of Subaru's words will be.

But Subaru shook his head quietly against it and spoke clearly of the denial.

"I told you, run away. Even in Wang Du, I can't do anything. or so, powerlessness does not change when we return to the mansion. - That's what I found out."

Powerlessness, emptiness, the irrationality of the world, was weighing heavily on Subaru's body.

But what about the lightness of this body if you admit that the more you tried to deny it, the more tangled it was, the harder it was to move.

"So let's run away with me, Rem. I can't stay here. Everyone kept telling me that. I don't want to admit it, I've been desperate to deny it... oh, yeah. I was weak. Nobody ever needed me."

I think he was complacent.

I was making a mistake. I got it wrong, I was on track.

I made a mistake because I felt like I was lucky enough to be able to save someone twice after falling into another world and just being given the power to start over with my destiny.

He said he didn't have the power, the thought, or even the credentials to be able to help someone.

"Oh no..."

"I didn't come. Clearly, I was told. - They kept telling me."

I don't need you.

In the first world, Subaru flew out of the Krush mansion ignoring Emilia's wishes. I didn't even listen to Rem to hold back, and the result of the invitation was that catastrophe.

In the second world, he didn't even pay for the tsuke that created that sight, and spectacularly scattered Rem's life on the quote of escaping reality, once again, nobody could save him.

The third time the world produced the most spiteful results. He involved a pedestrian on the road, swallowed Rem by a white whale, and took Emilia's life with this hand. Witchcraft would have been all killed by the pack, but if, after Subaru's death, the pack had directed that fierce force all over the country, the damage would not be the same as before.

Earlier, if that's the only way back to the days that we can't start over, the king's race at the Royal Castle - couldn't it have even helped Emilia on that occasion?

Instead of standing next to her, she pulls her leg over her mouth pinched on the side, and instead of salvaging it, the knight of another candidate beats her to the end by no skin. By the way, I broke up with Emilia and hurt her by bumping into words I wasn't supposed to bump into.

"... Kuha"

I found I could play a thirsty laugh with my throat.

It's a masterpiece in retrospect. I can calmly reflect on my actions, my thoughts, and I can clearly feel the plague.

- You want to be for Emilia? Should I be able to save someone? If it weren't for me, we'd all be wasted?

What a paranoia. What a mistake. Woohoo, what arrogance.

It's nothing more than a fool to make Emilia's position worse, treacherously betray her heart with this one in mind, and let Lem die every time he follows me, such as what Subaru did.

Wow, we all must have known this was going to happen.

So, guys, tell Subaru to keep him company. Don't do anything. If I don't need your help, just pull in and tell me to disappear.

Everyone around you who said that to Subaru knows more about the future. You should know, but you can't do anything, you don't know, it's a big difference from Subaru you don't understand.

Hey, isn't everyone looping?

"Otherwise, like me... who would expose you"

It was miserable. I felt so sorry for myself that I couldn't do anything more.

Dodo can be docile enough because he prepares himself to be laughed at by people and behaves like he is. Then Subaru, who was unconscious that the audience was pointing at him and laughing at him, is not even a dogma. - He was just an irremediable fool.

"So I decided to be gone. That should do it, that's okay. What have I done, there's only one corpse... more depending on the case"

Corpses, corpses, corpses, corpses, corpses.

Someone's body I don't know. Someone's body I know. The body of someone important. The body of someone important. Someone's body I believed in. Someone's body's body I wanted to believe. - Somebody's dead.

I was sick of it.

Why do I have to be seen like this? You've suffered so much, don't you think you've been rewarded? I know Subaru that such a thing is a dream story, such as that efforts will always be rewarded or that everything will be fulfilled if goals are set.

But still, even if it's just a whisper, is it wrong to wish to avoid the worst?

"Let's get out of here, Rem. Me, you, here... you shouldn't be in this country."

Throwing everything out, scorning everything, Subaru decided to escape.

And to that escape, to the decision that every thing would give me a back finger, the girl in front of me - only Rem, trying to take me with him.

There was something I couldn't let go of, even if I tried to throw it all out.

Loneliness is scary. Loneliness is horrible. Even in this broad world, in a dark world where I know nothing, and I know it's the right thing to do, I couldn't allow the horror to abandon asylum and run alone.

So only she, only Rem, had the expectation that she would come with me.

In the repeated days so far, only she kept me with Subaru. The ugliness I exposed, the outrageous words and deeds, the untargeted way of life, they've seen it with me.

Because of that girlfriend, Subaru thought it was worth the last bet.

Three times in repeated time, Subaru let Lem die in all the worlds.

In order not to let her die, we must not return to the mansion. Whether you reach the mansion or along the way, she will have a spectacularly life-scattering end.

So you want me to hold her back to the king's capital? It won't. Even as she spends her time in the King's Capital, if the Roswar Mansion's anomaly is passed on to Krush's mansion, she will fly out of the King's Capital to save the territory.

And I'm sure Subaru can't stop her when it does. Only Subaru will be left in the Krusch mansion, and they will hear the upside after it is over.

That's how you lose everything, and you can clearly see who you are when you're empty.

To keep Rem from dying, Rem must not know anything.

If you really want to save Rem, you shouldn't stay here.

"Even if you say that suddenly, Lem has..."

to that Subaru plea, but Rem shakes his neck small and sideways.

It seemed like a method of denial, but in fact it represented her stray.

Subaru's words are too abrupt for her to be digestible. More importantly, Subaru gives too little information as a judging material.

Suddenly they throw anything away and try to escape, but there's no way they can snort.

But while he understands the irrationality, Subaru still has to convince Rem.

The limit of the amount of information that can be given is no longer known to Subaru.

Whatever you talk about, I feel like it's going to conflict with the witch's curse.

Whatever action is taken, I have a feeling it's going to be a sacrifice of irrational fate.

It's blocked. It's blocked. I was trapped in a fateful trail.

So the only way I can hit Subaru is by pleading. Even, I appeal to her conscience. While she understands it's cowardly, she knows she's exploiting her dependence on Subaru.

"I don't have time for this. I think it's really bad that it's sudden. Really, really. I sincerely feel bad for you.... but pick me."

"Choose......"

"Me or other than me... pick me"

Amid the lack of information given, which was also abruptly said, my cowardice at pressing for such a choice abhors the impending situation.

But it was also true that it was inconvenient to give Rem time to think slowly. I cannot say enough to Subaru that I have not used this situation to my advantage.

With limited time to think, put the dependent subject Subaru, who pleads in front of him, and what judgment Lem will make with it - the odds were, there was.

victory, or it could have been a hope close to grief.

If she's Rem, she's the only selfish hope that she'll allow Subaru's corruption to escape.

"Let's get a dragon car and head west. Leaving Lugnica, all the way west...... was it Kararagi? So we buy a little house and we live together."

Quickly, Subaru begins to speak of an imaginary future diagram.

It's mediocre, serene, in a future that's bound to be unrelated to irrationality or cruelty.

"It's bad for Roswar because he got to the road bank, but he decided to just borrow everything and give it back one day. In the meantime, if I have a life plan, I'll make sure I work properly too.... I've never worked, but I'm sure I'll be fine"

Pull over high school graduates.

On the rooted indoor physique and not even part-time experience. The same is true of the work that has been done since coming to different worlds, as well as the hands-on learning of children if the lower work apprenticeship at the Mansion is at best.

I'm sure it will be difficult to get a decent job, but let's get a job even if we stick around. It's totally easy compared to pain, hard, and dying.

The more I think about it, the more open Subaru's future is.

How happy that is when you think of the days when you were scratching your feet and causing the worst disaster for just one future.

"Even with caution, I'm sure I can work hard with you. If someone just smiles and waits at home, and you think Rem will wait for you no matter how tired you are...!

Even if you were to be fingered by all the people who left you on the run, if Lem were next door, I'm sure you'd be able to stand it.

So, please, I have nothing more to wish for...

"Pick me... ugh"

As squeeze out, keep your hands out, plead.

"If you choose me, I'll dedicate everything I have to you. All my life, it's yours. I'll give it to you, I'll live only for you... so"

I can't see Rem's face standing in the front right now.

I don't have the courage to see what they look like. I don't have the courage, I don't have the shards. If that had happened, I'm sure a more different end would have been achieved.

Because there's nothing left for me to be timid, cowardly, and pitiful.

"Run away with me... with me, live... eh"

I beg you not to die alone, from the bottom of my heart.

With a thirsty voice punching his own length of mind, Subaru's heartbeat is fast and his breath is rough.

Fatigue, like a full-fledged disease, and beaten spiritual depletion were hitting Subaru hard. And silent time pressing it against Subaru who exchanged it.

No reply from Rem.

The murmuring noise is far away now, and I don't know how my surroundings see the two people having this conversation in front of the public - nothing such a trivial thing comes into consciousness now.

Unfortunately, Subaru faintly opened the eyes he had squeezed and asked for the look of Rem standing in front of him.

Or on that look, indulging in the fear that the answer might be floating.

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Silently, not even realizing what Subaru was looking at, Rem was pulling his lips together.

While the expression seems to be trying to create a faceless expression, faint imposition occurs between the eyebrows and in the eyebrows, which does not keep it in its usual state.

Lost, confused, hesitant, but I could see it swirling in her.

Now many of the words Subaru has spoken are shaking Rem's heart big, strong and fierce.

The silence lasts a long time.

Or a time that feels like eternity twists and squeezes a sense of impatience that ignites Subaru's back.

Eventually, however, that time will come to an end.

- Subaru-kun.

A gentle, loving sound was calling Subaru's name.

The moment he heard the tremor, Subaru was convinced that his plea had arrived.

She accepts Subaru. It forgives Subaru's weakness, flips it and embraces a human being named Natsuki Subaru.

The feeling of the universe is raised. For the first time, I felt rewarded.

And Subaru looked up,

"Rem can't run away with Subaru."

Clearly, my wish was rejected by Rem, who looked terribly sad.

"Because."

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"Future stories have to be laughing, right?

With a crying look, Rem once said - what Subaru said.