Re:Zero Kara Hajimeru Isekai Seikatsu (WN)

- If you realize it. Also, Subaru's consciousness was being led into a dark world.

Maoyang and the existence of a sarcastic consciousness. Any organ, such as hands, feet, eyes or ears, is lost, and the presence of Natsuki Subaru drifts through the void as a name only consciousness.

Even in this world, without the ground, I can't see the end. It's just darkness spreading, dyed in pitch black, and shadows covering everything.

But it was Subaru who was called here unconsciously, as before, but there was only one thing that was distinctly different.

In the evergreen darkness, which until now should have been even vague to remember and even difficult to have his own will, Subaru was able to clearly become aware of his existence.

No limbs or body exist and no will can be transferred to action.

But it was permissible to lead the will to thought and to think rationally.

If you wake up, you'll forget, the world of foam dreams.

A garden of shadows that always brings grief to Subaru.

Every time I come here, I meet him, I don't know his face or his voice, the presence of my dear 'someone'.

The darkness in front of me swayed, and I could see the shadows slowly creating the shape of a person.

Skinny flesh is born in pitch black, and the right and left hands are each clearly connected to the body and composed. Previously, only one hand existed to regain both arms, and the palm of birth had been stretched this way to seek the presence of Subaru.

Subaru's mind is fascinated reflexively by his desire to touch, to seek.

But I don't have the hands to respond, I don't have the mouth to say what I want to say, and I can't do anything about it.

Subaru can't touch her, nor can she touch Subaru.

Seeking Subaru How much time did she take to create her body just for that matter? How much time will both arms be stretched out and on top of sacrifice?

While unconsciously understanding that one scale, Subaru is struck by his powerlessness.

"- I love you."

A shadow was whispering love to Subaru, surely distorting its unseen expression with sadness.

I want to respond to that word, I have to respond. I want to reward you with my voice, with my actions, with my love.

I can't face the love I'm dedicated to, unless it's love. Yet...

"- Subaru"

Someone's voice was calling Subaru's name.

I realize that shapeless consciousness arrived from behind, not from the girlfriend in front of me. My eyes looked behind me that shouldn't exist. Beyond the darkness, a dot-like light floats.

The voice was certainly coming from there.

"I love you."

"Subaru"

Words are thrown at the same time. I want to reward love. I have to respond to the call.

Her voice standing in front of her, the voice of someone who reaches from the light behind her - as she is guided, as she is drawn in, Subaru's consciousness gradually moves away from the garden of shadows.

To the light to be drawn.

Like that Subaru's heart, the voice in front of him gives rise to a sorrowful tremor.

"I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you -"

- Please, Subaru.

Repeated whispers of love. Just pure thoughts, a name to be called.

Reminds me of my name. And it reminds me of someone who calls it that.

Reminds me of what I have to do. Reminds me where I have to go. - So I can't stay here.

"Love..."

"Now I'm sure you'll come and see me."

A mouth that did not exist, a will that could not be conveyed, was blocking the words and announcing the decision.

A silent voice. A distance away. Consciousness swallows from the world of shadows into the world of light, and disappears wrapped in a bright white glow.

"- Waiting."

Finally, leaving only that whine, Subaru's consciousness melts in the light -,

Consciousness rises from the sea of sleep, and his lid opens as he breaks through the surface of the water called Awakening.

The light of day crept badly into the awake eyeball, and the teary-eyed Subaru saw pale, purple blue eyes in his blurred vision. It's right around the corner, breathtaking distance, eye-catching beauty, real exhalation coming from my peachy lips - dying in a hurry.

"Near your face!?

"Wow, Subaru, you're up! Oh, good. Really."

It was close. That was Emilia's eyes, and her consciousness immediately went from obscure to full awakening when she realized that she had her face at a breathtaking distance. He looks at Subaru in a hurry, and Emilia is stroking her breasts howling with a strange face as well as the palpitations in this heart.

Chickshaw, cute. and chasing her tricks like that with her eyes, Subaru realized that the positional relationship between herself and Emilia was strangely angular,

"I fell asleep, Emilia, and I'm in the front seat. So, bearing in mind that there is a heavenly feeling under my head at this distance..."

"You don't have to check that weird. It's a knee pillow. Not comfortable sleeping, are you?

"How peacefully do you think I've been falling asleep? It can't be bad. There's no more reward for your hard work."

Don't hesitate to keep the weight of his head on his knees, Subaru makes him laugh at his tease. And Emilia watched Subaru grin like that and gently tightened her mouth loose in relief.

The air changes. We need to make sure we're safe with each other and talk more than that.

"Um, can I ask you what happened to a lot of things?

"I'm the one who wants to hear what's going on.... after the explosion of the demon ore that Subaru took from the dragon car, right? It's already been tough."

With her posture intact, Emilia lays down her eyes and talks about her pounding and backwards.

That Subaru jumped out of the dragon car without explaining the circumstances, and ran across the ground dragon much faster than trying to chase him behind. That Puck and Otto pulled me off trying to chase him and saw the flames rising in the distance and nearly knocked him out. That he hastily went beneath the great tree of the fallen Frugel in search of the appearance of Subaru, and found Subaru and Patrash to fall. That Patrash was apparently wearing it on top to protect Subaru.

"Patrash, what happened? I remember feeling like you were licking my face before I lost consciousness."

"I was still peppered after Subaru passed out. When I tried to treat him and pull him away from Subaru, he was so angry. of that pedestrian...... so much that if Otto hadn't told me, I might not have been able to start treatment"

"All the time, Patrash. Emilia, how rude of you... No, you were trying to protect me no matter who came. How loyal is a dragon, I'll fall in love."

I've only been dating Patrash for a day and a half, but the number of dead lines we've crept together has already climbed to the top since this world penetration. Sometimes that's all the loop went on at the training ground this time. In fact, I wouldn't have made it this far without working with Patrash. It was just a land dragon borrowed from Krush, but if Krush is going to reward me...

"Let's get a patrash, let's do that. Let's do this forever, buddy... so what about Patrash?

"The burns were terrible, but I don't think there's anything else in my life. I did the first aid, but now Ferris is watching me, including Mr. Wilhelm."

"Oh... Ferris is joining us."

Ferris' name comes out in the course of treatment talks, and Subaru relieves himself of his shoulder strength. Apart from a bunch of mean words and deeds against Subaru, there is no doubt in his skill as a healer. The treatment of Patrash will also take place without delay.

At the same time, the fact that his departure from the village should have been delayed by a delay has thus joined the

"Hey, have you slept with me for quite a while?

"I think it's about four or five hours. Had it not been for the dialogue mirror, I would have rushed to Wang Du looking for a healer."

With that said, Emilia's holding is one of the interactive mirrors that the Petergius and the others used. One was Julius, one was Ferris, and the other was in Subaru's possession, something she seemed to have borrowed from Subaru's nostalgia after she went unconscious. Probably because you realized there was a call from Ferris. Thanks to contact, Svalbard was treated as well.

"So I guess that means we're all rendezvous."

"So does Ferris... and Julius, too. I'm so surprised. Because I couldn't imagine Subaru and Julius together."

"There's a reason it's bitter than the mountains and bluer than the ocean, Emilia Tan. Explaining it from scratch is that I feel like I'm going to lose my temper..."

Emilia's surprised relationship between Julius and Subaru is difficult to describe in words. Or now Subaru doesn't really know what relationship he has with himself.

He is a hateful and irresistible adversary, a collaborator who likes not to be distracted but whose strength is certain, and a warrior friend whose backs each other's mistakes have deposited in circumstances that damage each other's lives.

I mean, if you talk about him in a nutshell...

"Me, him, I hate"

"Why are you suddenly saying one word?

"I tried to express my feelings for a guy who was hard on his brush tongue in less words than I did. I'm guessing the results.... What about everyone now?

More than that, it's itchy to keep talking about it and change the subject. Emilia smiled at Subaru like that and went on to say, "Yeah,"

"I'm taking a break until I've finished treating Ferris all the way through. But I think it's time to end it, so I guess I'll leave for Wang Du again... Looks like I need to talk to Mr. Krusch, and thanks to Subaru for his hard work."

"Ooh, I worked super hard. I used a pretty hackneyed in the Magiaway to break through. Even in retrospect, your stomach is so tight!

"Yeah, really...... thanks"

Honestly Emilia thanked me, and Subaru became instantly ashamed to make a statement that was on track to say "Ah, no". Nevertheless, it is true that the consequences of her actions have been positive for her. I don't need to hide it anymore.

I come to that fact again, and an honest emotion of joy overflows in Subaru.

I feel like I've had a lot more memories from that time I've been separating myself from her in the days before. Subaru overlapped Emilia's unknown time with just the number of repetitions.

Using what he had gained in that time to the fullest, Subaru got this moment. Those results were rightly laudable, and so was the confidence.

That's all I did. This is all I piled up. Finally, here I am.

So now I think Subaru deserved to make that stupid word of himself that caused that moment the right way.

If we look around, apparently we're on the carrier of a dragon car with an open front. There are no signs of people around, and only two people on this scene are Subaru and Emilia. I don't know what other faces were doing, but all I could hear during the silence was the breezy, and the world was just for the two of us, as cut off.

Oddly enough, the situation is the same as then.

Woke up from a wounded, unconscious state, in a place for two.

"I've been dreaming for a long time..."

In fact, many of the events that took place between that moment of separation and this loop - this final loop - are unrealistic as if they were dreams or something. With so many extreme conditions visited, Subaru was knocked down to a desperate Nara many times.

Exactly, all I can say is that those were a series of nightmares -.

"Bad dreams...... no, you're not"

"A good dream, was it?

Tilt your neck and Emilia takes over Subaru's words to make inquiries.

Turning to her words, Subaru recalls the days when she was determined to be a 'nightmare'. Though it was certainly a series of desperate situations, never laughing and looking back, and a series of occasions that I wanted to erase from my memory if I could.

Running into stupidity, behaving selflessly, pushing myself, being handily betrayed of my expectations, being struck by disappointment and despair, I fell into a breakdown of spirit, devoting myself to one end of madness, dominated by a waiver and throwing everything out - from there, I was rescued.

Doesn't mean it didn't. Without that, Subaru wouldn't be here right now.

So dreamy days, though it was time for all the painful things to come to my attention.

"Fine, it was real"

That long, nightmarish time is all that remains in Subaru.

I can make that past. But I'm not allowed to dream about it. Let's bring in all the consequences of the tragedy that your deeds have produced, as well as the consequences of the tragedy that you have invited.

Because that is the cross that Subaru should carry, imprisoned by the extraordinary power of common sense: 'Back to Death', which opened up the future with that power.

"How long have you been listening?

"I hardly heard anything. Julius told me to hear it from Subaru."

"That son of a bitch, seriously. Introduction"

So you're going to be concerned, or you're going to throw up too nicely assisted.

Subaru maligned Julius's measure with a wicked boy smile, exhaling.

Hold your breath gently, look at Emilia,

"You asked me that day," Why not? "How can you help me? How can you work so hard? I wonder why."

"Yeah, I heard. Then Subaru said I helped Subaru.... but I didn't do that. I haven't done it at all. I've just been helped by Subaru, and I can't do anything for you. And yet Subaru is scratched for me..."

"No, I'll take care of that..."

I'm trying to tell you what's going on, and I can't tell you enough.

I wasn't crazy. The man named Natsuki Subaru at that point, weak, stupid and thinking only about himself, believed it was right.

It's all about pushy solitary emotions, just something you can take.

Subaru knows the end of a man who vociferously claimed the existence of such selfish love. I had my own experience, and I broke that love with this hand.

Correctly, the figure of the person who made him try to prove the existence of the love he offered also burned in this eye.

"I was all about myself then. I'll admit it. I was just drunk with the guy who said," I'll work hard for you. "I thought if I acted that way drunk, you'd accept it."

"Subaru......"

"I'm sorry. I used you to indulge in joy. All the words were right then. I was wrong.... but sometimes I wasn't wrong"

I used Emilia for myself. Subaru affirms the cry of her tears. But I look back at myself in that scene that was denied, and I still can't give up just one thing.

"I want to help you. I want to help you. It's serious, it's true, it's not a lie"

"... yeah, I know"

Emilia nods at Subaru's words.

Then she shook her purple blue eyes wide, blinking only once and staring at Subaru.

And

"How can you help me?

Words said then. A few hours ago, the words were asked again.

Same now and again, the words offered for answers. Subaru has one answer.

"- I like Emilia, so I want to help you."

Straight back, staring back into her eyes, Subaru told it clearly.

- Kakku, the origin of Subaru's actions aggregates to even simple ones.

I want to help her, I want to be beside her, I want to help her, I want to see her smile, I want to be next to her, I want to live the future with her.

All in all, from head to toe to soul, all in the whole body, I like Emilia.

So Subaru crawls up and eats up, whether he dies in the eyes of death, many times as a fact, wounded and hated and tormented, and this is how he returns.

How far did you go to give just that many answers? I get stunned by my own foolishness additions and subtractions.

――――

Listening to Subaru's answer, Emilia chooses silence with her lips closed.

Svalbard, who was filled with accomplishments, noticed a great deal as he looked up at her calmly at Yamae.

- That's me. Seriously, I confess, I'm waiting for a response, right?

For Subaru, who was neither confessed nor given a confession in his life, this is the first outrageous thing he has visited in his life. Lies, I was ever confessed. It's also in this world, to a cute cute little lem. But it's a different matter from this. The stories of love for Rem and love for Emilia are a different matter for vectors together.

And when Subaru was bored inside without changing one's expression, Emilia's expression collapsed on the pretense. Bite the lips that were closed, slightly narrowed the purple blue eyes that were wide open, which also seemed like it was going to cry out now.

"Wah, I... half-elf"

"I know."

With a trembling voice, Emilia reaffirms that it is too much now.

Breathtaking at Subaru's answer, which she couldn't get in between, then she shook her head,

"With silver hair, with half an elf... I'm neglected and hated by all sorts of people because I have witches and looks with me. Really, wow, they hate me."

"I was watching. I know. They're the blind ones."

Ridiculous because it just swings by its appearance, and it resembles the great sinners of the past, etc. Don't look at one thing about her essence, who can say she doesn't like her, etc.

"I don't have friends or anything because I don't have much experience with people. Sometimes I say weird things because I don't know the world... and because my hair is different almost every day because of the contract and why I have to be king... wow, so selfish..."

I have a glimpse of her hurry in the part where she tries to line up her faults and even says things she doesn't need to. That's how I try to affirm my lack of confidence in myself in words or even weakness. It's loving now. So,

"I like you no matter who Emilia tells me and what she thinks of herself. I love it. I super like it. I want to be next door the whole time. I've always wanted to hold hands."

"Ah..."

"If you say ten things you don't like, I say two thousand things you like"

I woke my body up from Emilia's knee and looked into her eyes at the height of her gaze and said:

Open your mouth small and tears accumulate as you look into Emilia's eyes looking at Subaru. of the large grain. It poured out at the same time as the blink, telling her white cheeks to draw a transparent trajectory.

"That's how I want to treat you, my 'special treatments'."

"... for the first time in my life, I'm happy to be treated special"

With an outstretched hand, gently hold onto its flowing tears. Emilia's palm touches Subaru's hand touching her cheek from above to swap temperatures with each other that are terribly hot.

She glanced, feeling Subaru's fingertips on her cheek.

"Why, two thousand?

"A hundred times is not enough to express my feelings."

When Svalbard laughs when he shows his teeth, Emilia also peeks into the look of a crying laugh.

That smile is so dazzling, even spilling tears are like jewels, and it's funny how cheap of a man I am to get so much satisfaction with one smile.

Laughing that way, Emilia rubbed her cheek against Subaru's fingertips,

"Glad. Really, glad. I can't believe I like someone, 'cause I never thought I'd have a day to tell you."

In her previous days, 'special' meant discrimination as it were.

So she was terribly afraid someone would treat her 'specially'. Subaru treats her 'specially' while she knows how she feels like that.

No matter who else doesn't, only Subaru is in this world.

"What am I supposed to do? Subaru is telling me how he feels... and I don't know what to do."

"You don't have to rush. Because I don't want an answer right away. In a proper way, and it's up to me to get an OK."

Lack of experience liked by someone, she is adorable with that part like a toddler. I wouldn't rush that girlfriend and ask for answers.

I want to be the one who can direct that thought when she understands more firmly what it means to be liked by someone and finds out that she can love someone again too.

I strongly think he would be such a man, qualified to turn that thought.

"Don't worry about it. I... I'm just so glad to hear it. So happy, so luxurious..."

"Fine, let's do it, luxury. I don't have a problem with how much happiness there was, and if it overflows, I can just hand it out."

- So.

"You can take your time, Emilia. Take your time, relax, and like me. Because I'll try to mellow you while I walk next to you."

Hih, and Emilia's throat rang small.

Keep her hands on her cheeks and start pounding her indelible tears.

Reaching out, Subaru stroked her to comb her long and beautiful silver hair.

Soft, soft, gentle.

While doing so, Emilia kept crying all the time.

Subaru kept stroking about such a loving girlfriend the whole time.

- Under the evening approaching sky, Gentiles and a half demon with silver hair turn to each other to exchange thoughts.

Long and long lasting, repetition of misery and despair.

Time for calm and quiet, finally gained through it.

This is just a story to get this time.

I've gone far, kept making mistakes, kept getting lost, that's all the stories.

One unsure boy conveys his thoughts to one unsure girl.

I just worked hard for that - that's all the story.