Re:Zero Kara Hajimeru Isekai Seikatsu (WN)

"You're gonna cry. It's useless, huh? I've already made up my mind. If I decide to do this, I won't move. You said," Don't be pushy, don't be pushy. "

Stunned, Garfiel continued his words as he looked at Subaru, who opened his eyes.

The conditions in his mouth - hearing it, Subaru's inner heart is so stunned and confused. Because

"More importantly, you're going to say it...?

"Ah? Surprisingly, I disagree. How dare you, how dare you? I'm having trouble getting you to think of me because I was able to talk a little silly."

Garfiel distorts the edge of his mouth uncomfortably in Subaru's words, but it's the same with Subaru looking sinister and wanting to grudge.

In the first place, because the idea that Garfiel just denied me was based on the suggestions made by Garfiel at the time.

In the world before starting over, Garfiel has not been able to watch Emilia try 'Trial' and wear out, and has been interviewing Subaru to get 'Trial' instead. For Subaru, who thought Emilia had to survive the 'trials' by the time she was stubborn, the idea was the Blue Sky Thunderbolt, and I adopted it because I thought there was more than a reason.

"There's all kinds of emotions swirling in me that I can't drink... but I'll forget about it now. How can you disagree with me? It shouldn't be too bad for you to bottom-up the possibility of liberating the Sanctuary."

"Well, if you're going to fully affirm Baba's policy, you know it would be more efficient to take Mei's suggestion, right? - But I absolutely hate it."

"What the fuck is that kid saying...!

There is no reason for Garfield's words to put his arms together and turn away. If you're just saying things with emotional theory alone, there's no reason to talk.

As I've been telling you and I can tell, this person named Garfiel has a pretty moody part - if I may be more precise, a large part of his mood up and down depends on his values. I can't guess the general theory, so I don't know what works.

"Mr. Lewes......"

Subaru speaks to a young looking old woman who watches the situation in silence, not in Garfiel, who is not going to fit in. but when the crown is pointing water at Subaru, he waves a rash sleeve with no tip of his hand.

"If this happens to Garbo, we won't be able to talk about Nong anymore. Unfortunately, there's no such thing as a" sanctuary "where you can hear what you have to say. Why don't Sioux Boy try it?

"You don't have a suicidal habit of challenging guys like throwing dragon cars.... shit, what the hell"

I don't affirm Garfield's assertion, but I guess the crown, who isn't aggressive or aggressive, also agrees with him on the inside.

The crown also believes that it is still Emilia who should break through the 'trials'. I don't know how much respect she has for Roswar, but you can assume that Roswar and the drop point see the same in the fundamental part.

Still, I can't help but think that if Garfield had followed me to this side.

"... Subaru"

It is Emilia who looks up to Subaru with unspoken emotions and speaks out for concern. She reflected the side of Subaru in those purple blue eyes,

"Wow, I'll do my best, so Subaru won't have to. Hey... yes, I was just surprised because it was a little sudden, if I knew what was going to happen..."

"No, Emilia Tan said you didn't have to. That stubborn bastard let me try to convince him somehow. That way, I can't believe it's a 'trial'..."

"Subaru is..."

Emilia is likely to lose Garfiel's say due to her weak hips. Inspired by her weakness like that, Subaru tries to wriggle his reasoning around and arm his speech. But that's how Emilia starts preparing for the argument in her head against Subaru.

"Svalbard... Yeah, Svalbard, too, can't you leave it to me?

"... Huh?

"Wow, he said he couldn't leave the 'trials' to me because I showed him where I couldn't... because that's how he thinks, instead"

"No, I'm not."

"Yeah, I'm worried about Subaru, something I know. Subaru got over it properly, but instead of me getting over it... um, I didn't even decide I was ready to face it... 'Trials' is what the name is, 'Past'..."

Subaru denies it, but Emilia won't accept it by shaking her head sideways.

Negative emotions float in her eyes, her lips shaking shallow and her white cheeks losing more blood. The way the word became unstable showed that the 'past' named 'trials' was recalled behind its brain.

- That's enough to make her more accommodating.

"You don't have to remember -!"

"But we have to face each other, 'Trials' can't be crossed! Yes, that's right... we have to cross the 'trials', we have to cross the 'past'... we can't be kings. Neither the villagers nor the people of the 'Sanctuary' can let you out..."

Touch those shoulders and speak hard, but Emilia, waving her head, doesn't listen to Subaru as hard as she can. On the contrary, the more words of restraint are spoken, the stronger the will becomes,

"It's not just sweet on Subaru, I can't stay. Something I can't stay. Not long ago, Svalbard got all that scratched up and still worked hard for me... I, Svalbard again, was going to make me carry everything..."

"That's okay, so. It may sound bad, but it's held. It's held. Would you prefer the right material? I'm more compatible with this' trial '. That's just it, it doesn't mean anything more. Because I'm going to be able to do it, I'm more certain and faster. That's not what I'm supposed to do. Emilia, there's always a chance for you to work hard on Emilia."

"Isn't one of the important things about that opportunity right now? Turn away from the unpleasant, keep running... so, me, what happens?

- How good would it have been if I could have yelled, "What can't I do to escape?"

Run away from the unpleasant, turn away from the hard, turn your back on the painful, and if you can live in peace with it, that's not bad as one way of life. Subaru himself, that is how he has lived at a distance from many of the hardest and most arduous.

So even if those ways of life - even if they were weak, I don't know if they were anywhere near blameworthy or anything like that.

And yet, now. Now is the time when Subaru should have affirmed his stubborn heart against Emilia, his unfettered weakness, knowing his weakness...

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I couldn't get the words out of my mouth that I was supposed to know why.

To the silent Subaru, Emilia closes her eyelids and looks down. I don't know what Subaru should do with the temperature he feels as hot as he touches both of his shoulders.

Watching the two of them like that,

"Ha. That's how we push each other. Wow, for what I'm hearing beside you. Doesn't it sound like Emilia has a minute? In fact," Trials "is prepared for Emilia to challenge. Squeeze out from the side..."

"Let it go! You... you don't know anything yet..."

"Ah?

I don't even know how I feel about this one, and my anger explodes on Garfiel, who says so freely. Garfiel is hit with Subaru's anger, creating swordswallowing signs.

But Subaru also looked at Garfield's noisy attitude without fear.

"That's how you push it, and you don't know what's gonna happen? Wounded, tormented and polished, can you just look where it happens and be fine?... What have I been up to?"

"... what are you suddenly saying?"

"It's just a condition. I'm just thinking about it, and I'm not thinking about Emilia at all. It would be a huge achievement to survive the Trial. But the scratches that can be worn between then and then, the tears that shed, they're not in the books.... of his own accord."

Despite watching Emilia wear and tear nearest in the last world, Subaru never uttered a word to stop her from weakening the 'trials' before.

If she were, Emilia would do it, and push her through suffering, corner her, push her in until she had polished and cut it off, and the end she finally realized when she was told to do it. There's no place for barren emotions to go for the person who made me realize that I have to say this back.

The troublesome nature of the phenomenon 'Back to Death' was badly pierced by Subaru today.

And a situation where you just know the facts that happen ahead of time. If you mouth words that are lacking in such information, and all the emotions have preceded you,

"What... I know, Subaru"

"Emilia?

If I looked up at the feeling of being pulled off my sleeve, Emilia would be looking at Subaru with her eyes open. Emotions swirl in her purple blue eyes, which drown in floating drops of tears and become invisible.

Emilia shook her head small and sideways, "No, no..." as she refused something.

"You know what? Subaru, wow, my... you know my 'past'?

"Wait, let's calm down. Let's take a deep breath. I've been having a bad conversation since just now. So."

"I didn't... I didn't mean to... I just..."

In the cemetery, Emilia returns to the same state as shortly after she finishes her 'trials'.

Words that werewolve, confuse, and run their mouths begin to rupture apart, and the moisturizing purple blue eyes reflect the subaru in front of them, yet they are not seen.

She stretched her fingers and pulled to scratch the hem of Subaru's clothes to ru,

"Everybody's got me... so my mother's got me... but no. Really not. The truth is, it wasn't. At that time, I... the truth is... eh"

"Emilia, what..."

With a desperate voice, Emilia runs her mouth as she takes it away. I can't figure out what that her agony means, and Subaru just has to pray that it gets to her tongue with pointless sincerity.

In front of Subaru, where nothing could be done, there was a shadow that moved on the lid. It's

"- Ram."

Lamb circled behind Emilia to slip, without responding to a short call. She plugged Emilia's mouth from behind with her softly stretched hand, only "excuse me" with a small voice as the silver girl faintly opened her eyes to surprise,

"......"

All the while, Emilia's body collapses on the spot like she lost her strength.

Reaching for Emilia, who falls directly in front of her, she hugs her and Subaru exhales softly in relief. Then look up at the ram that did it,

"What have you done?

"Quick way to calm it down. Will Balls be angry?

"I told you it was forceful, cousin... but I think it was the best. Don't be evil, take care of yourself."

"It's a strange story that Emilia is going to apologize to Balth for her convenience. Since when did you cede Emilia's guardian from the Great Spirit?

"I don't mean to..."

No, trying to say, Subaru finds the objection unconvincing.

It is true that under some circumstances Puck has not shown himself, that Subaru is watching Emilia more attentively than usual. Sometimes I know her wearing out from trying "trials," and that feeling will be even greater.

And Emilia also seemed to have a more realistic sense of leaning on Subaru than ever by not having the great spirits she could rely on beside her.

Whatever.

"If I have to protect you, this is the end of the story."

Emilia forced to sleep at the hands of Ram. Seeing Subaru hold her gently, Garfiel throws up like that when she squeaks her nose.

His voice was slightly absurd by that attitude, but Subaru accidentally shut his mouth in the wake of Emilia's faint squirting in his arms. As it is, there is nothing better than losing the opportunity to argue and dropping off Garfiel, who turns his back on this one.

"I'm not going to make an exception to today's 'trials'. Starting tomorrow, it will be Emilia again. I won't admit it."

Stripping his teeth and saying it off, Garfiel leaves the house of the crown. A little shadow behind it - the crown goes on again,

"I'm sorry, Sue Boy. But Non agrees. The sooner we liberate the Sanctuary, the better... it will be convenient for Roz and the others to follow his thoughts."

"Convenience..."

"Even with the liberation from the Sanctuary, it doesn't change that Non and the others will continue to be in asylum as Roz Boy and the inhabitants. Then I want to avoid any exceptions that might upset your mood. I don't want you to feel bad."

There is a genuine thought in Ryuz's statement as a resident of the 'sanctuary', which made Subaru lose all the more room for objection.

When Garfield and Lewes, two people on the 'sanctuary' side, disappeared from the room, it was not attempted to take the form of a member of the Roswar Mansion + alpha that was left here.

"So, what does Otto think of this situation when he's an alpha?"

"It feels so bad to be cozy and ahead of you, you're trying to do this in silence. You can pull me in. I don't want you to stop. … However, if you're honest with me about what I was hearing, I think what Mr. Garfield and the others are saying is more accurate."

fingers up and told the story Otto nodded several times as he watched Subaru kneel,

"The same goes for Uncle Borderline, and he has a position as Emilia-sama's candidate for king. I do know that even if Mr. Natsuki substitutes for" Trial ", that would mean Emilia's handles… Regardless of the third parties who will hear the story later, can you get the satisfaction of the parties who are staying in this" sanctuary "now, that is, support?

"... I know the rationale behind it. Whatever you think, Emilia is much more situationally beneficial to liberate the 'sanctuary'. But..."

"Dear Emilia, can't you get past the 'trials'?

A lamb that speaks so lightly as to kick through the mumbling Subaru hesitation. Subaru, instead, had a calm face in the way he said he had no body or lid as clear as that.

"From what I've seen, I think it's tough to get results in the short term. You guys know what happened in Emilia's past, and I can't help talking about it without knowing exactly... but it's not even a situation where you can take that much time, right?

"At least I'd like to finish it within three years of seeing the King's race settled."

"That's too long to talk about."

I know it's a light mouth kind of thing, but it's what I say in the face, so I'm going to crush the real possibility. And realizing the meaning of Subaru's words and nodding,

"There is also the burden of those who have evacuated, and the food situation in the 'sanctuary'. In the long run, I was wondering if it would be realistic to maintain this number."

"Well, that's what happened. Even though you're suddenly stressed out in your evacuation life, if you're not satisfied with food there, human discontent will soon explode. Even the 'sanctuary' guys don't make sense to keep surrounding hostages until their own dietary standards drop. - At least, everyone."

"Is it possible that the garf could be a discount to the villagers?

And it's the rum that's been asking me to be somewhat more vocal.

Subaru frowned feeling something unexpected about her reaction like that, but she also felt herself uncomfortable with her current attitude, stroking her forehead with her fingers to delude her,

"Not much to think about, but that's also possible if you're a girlfriend's personality. That's because if you're in the ground, you won't hesitate to follow the priorities within you."

"Well, that's what you look like. I agree. … so I'd like to suggest we free the hostages from the 'sanctuary' before that happens"

Last time, in the context in which the proposal had been passed, there were conditions which were secretly exchanged: 'Subaru is to be tried'. Negotiations are expected to be considerably more difficult on the same proposal this time than it is not working. Still think this one will win the concession eventually,

"At any rate, if the" sanctuary "people are really pushing Emilia to do the" trials, "I want her to do enough to save me the worries for that."

"... unexpected. I thought Balth would disagree more like an unheard child."

Ram gives such a terminal sentiment to Subaru's attitude in an attempt to remove Emilia's anxiety about being 'tested'. As he nodded at it, Subaru prefaced with "Nya,"

"I'm sorry to bother you and I regret it... but riding Roswar's thoughts is the most sensible thing to do. Oh, yeah. If Emilia can even look away from scratching, it's better to keep going."

"I knew it would scratch, and I still let you walk. You're a ghost."

"I didn't know ghosts would tell me. I've changed too. It's just... no, fine."

Say it, shut its mouth and Subaru shakes his neck to the side. Ram frowned at that badly toothed attitude, but I'm not going to put the ahead of him from there.

Subaru still hugs Emilia in her arms to keep her awake. Light. Unconscious humans say they feel heavier than usual, but still her body is as light as a feather.

I wonder how much of this thin, tiny body you're holding in your arms.

"Ram. If I put Emilia to bed in her room, I want to talk to Roswar. Can we go?"

"Master Roswar is in a state of quiet. I told you not to let anyone in for a while..."

"I want to talk about 'trials'. It's not obvious that we can talk about all this with guys like me and you who have lower positions. I need a brain opinion."

If we feed on the 'trials' in this way, Roswar will also have to take away the sign of visiting apology and face Subaru. I've already experienced that in the last loop.

Lamb often meditated to indulge in Subaru's words, but eventually when he exhaled like tired,

"I'm going to ask Master Roswell. Balus puts Emilia on the bunk... so she doesn't imitate anything funny."

"What are you doing to me in serial mode? I didn't even think of it, but my knee shook out consciously that you were feeling Emilia Tan's softness directly because of what you said, what are you gonna do?"

"Otto, keep an eye out."

"Yes, I did!

Subaru's bullshit is snatched away and Ram leaves the house when he briefly commands Otto. Two men and one beautiful girl to be left behind. In that situation Otto remained in the salute pose, and when he looked at Subaru slightly,

"Please take Emilia to her bed. I'll help you with anything."

"Before that, what's your obedient attitude to that ram..."

"Hey, look, Mr. Lamb, you're from Uncle Borderline, right? If you think about it, your heart is better than Emilia-sama Natsuki, and if you sell it to Ram, you can see hope in your relationship with Uncle Borderline, hehe."

"Is there anything you can do to shift from your early impression of a competent merchant to a little rogue? You'll be treated like a disturber and slaughtered in the dark now, won't you?

Subaru sighs and brings Emilia into her bedroom as she mentions a change of cash otto. Gently rework the sleepy sheets and let her sleep there slowly. and

"Oh..."

As I tried to get away with the sheets to my shoulders, I noticed that her fingertips had not picked the hem of Subaru's clothes. To the feel of its unreliable fingertips, Subaru gently takes it off with a sense of love. and wrap the removed fingertips with both hands,

"Wait, Emilia."

――――

"I'll take care of it now. I hope you don't have to cry or suffer any more. I'm sure."

That's all I swear, Subaru releases Emilia's hand.

Get up, look back and go to the exit of the house. - Go under Roswar.

Because there are too many things you have to ask the demon.

"- I see what's going on. - I see."

Roswar nodded so, touching his hand on his chin and listening to Subaru's long story in silence.

The place is one of Roswar's quiet private houses, and only two of them are indoors, Subaru and Roswar. lying on the sleeping table, waking up only the upper body and looking at this one. Subaru kept his rugged gaze on Roswar,

"That's why I think it's best to be a dropping place if you want to include the views of the Sanctuary as much as possible."

"Ma'am, it is true that at the time Emilia entered the 'sanctuary' junction, the thoughts of the Garfiels became the same - teasing. In order for Emilia herself to go outside the 'sanctuary' - no, we need to overcome the 'trials'. If an insurance hostage is going to waste food, it makes sense to let go..."

"I think it's a story I put through. Nothing. I'm not throwing out the 'sanctuary' issue or sending it forward. It's just that we should sharpen it, except for the purely necessary part."

"It's a good way to put it. Doesn't some of you have these concerns? If the prospect of liberation of the 'sanctuary' stops, or Emilia-sama's heart fails to withstand the 'trials' beforehand, the hostages can also be materials of intimidation against Emilia-sama. I guess I'll get rid of those worries first..."

Rosewar looks Subaru with one eye and yellow eyes. his words, swallowing their contents. Subaru nodded in arms,

"No, I'm sorry, I wasn't thinking that far. I mean, I'd pull it off a bit at the point where such a horrible idea comes out right away."

"Ahhhh? Thought about it, thought about it originally? This is rude. That's what I can think of."

Roswar laughs to delude pessimism beyond his own degree. Turning his white face to that grin, Subaru doesn't think Garfiel will do just that much.

Someone who can see some stubborn, inconsiderate, somewhat incomprehensible parts, but does not dye his hands for incomprehensible imitations and acts that are also ethical.

Just a few days of dating, but Subaru appreciated Garfiel that way.

Whatever.

"So, Subaru-kun, how about me?

"I want you to talk about this now, if you can, not from me, but from Roswar. Thanks for this time... I think I'm going to have a bad fold."

"So again, what do you mean?

"I want Garfield's bastard. He doesn't like me. I'm not giving up on persuasion, but I know it's tough to talk to you tomorrow."

I remember the sharpness of gazing at Garfield's Subaru when we broke up.

An eye full of hostility and disgust, as if it were even a parent's vendetta - I don't see why I can turn that around. Did you do something unforgivable in his fashion, or did you say something that defied his beliefs head-on? Either way,

"He's getting emotional. He can deny it without a heads-up just because of my opinion. Besides, Mr. Lewes is going to accept it passively if Garfield says so. If you see the possibility of that happening, let me skip that possibility."

"That's where I come in, wow. Oh, that's good. I'll talk to Mrs. Lewes and Garfield from my side. Garfield hates me, too, so I don't know if I'll be able to talk to him soon."

Following Subaru's suggestion, Roswar undertakes it in an easygoing manner.

Subaru leaks a soothing exhale in that comforting response. In the meantime, one of my worries now is going to be resolved. If there are any remaining problems,

"Ah. Is that all you have to do for me?

"No, not yet. - We haven't talked about the heart of it yet."

I set foot on this occasion, the most important story had not begun.

Roswar tilts his neck, dropping his long flowing hair on his back with his hands and one eye. Is it a habit, Subaru corrected his spine while his yellow eyes stared at him.

And

"The 'trials' at the cemetery show Emilia the 'past'. Do you have any idea what 'past' he's in pain of seeing?

That's how Subaru cut into the 'past' that Emilia was desperate to hide.

Roswar, who was questioned, also closes the lid of the yellow eye that was open, pulling his jaw slightly as he contemplated. As it was, Subaru waited, listening only to the sound of a constant silence falling indoors and a sense of impatience scorching himself in a world without sound. As such,

"Asking me that directly, without asking Emilia, is a cowardly thing - don't you think?

"It's a relief. If you want to curse me for being a coward, do what you want. Even I want to know everything about Emilia from Emilia's mouth if I can. But..."

There's no way you can subaru it, such as hearing directly from her what she tries to hide, with so many tears, so spicy.

However, until then Subaru had no hesitation in uncovering the secrets she was trying to hide, even if she was in pain of conscience.

"There's something about me wanting to know about that kid, and there's something I need to know. If it's available for that, I'll grab a straw or whatever."

"I've been told all sorts of things before, but it's my first experience with straw.... Come on."

I laughed it off small, and then Roswar's expression disappeared into the fudge.

He exhaled briefly and then stopped breathing, reflecting Subaru in his different left and right colored eyes. In the gaze of its different colors, Roswar touched his forehead with his lifted hand.

"That Master Emilia is a half elf. Oh, the fact that the presence of a half-elf is influenced by the" Witch of Jealousy, "which is terribly discriminatory. This is the story you already know. Right?

"... oh. I would know if Emilia had been treated unfairly with it, if she'd seen how she behaved in the royal castle or something. Even the bad chest shit, they're face-to-face."

A wicked figure of witchcraft floating in the back of his brain. To Subaru, who drives that imagination away with one swing of his head, Rosewar went on to say, "Ha-ha-ha,"

"Sure, it was the half elves that were particularly badly oppressed - but... things just don't fit in. Sometimes Subaru-kun sees elves in the king's capital?

"Elves? Isn't that half?... No, I guess I haven't seen it"

With his hands on his chin, Subaru looks back at the world by summing up his previous memories. but in a world that has been repeated many times, I don't remember seeing an elf in Subaru's consciousness - a populist species with the characteristic of beauty and slightly longer ears.

Roswar responded briefly to such Subaru's answer, "Right,"

"Only half an elf has been subjected to severe repression all over the world. It is also a crack in the cause of the birth of the half elf, because the spear was also pointed at the elf."

…… No, whatever it takes. That's too much foresight. And if that's the reason... "

"Do we have to eradicate human beings? Too bad - but in this world, there are more human beings than sub people - there are a lot more, and the state is bigger. The consequences of such a widening gulf between the sub and the human race will follow the" sub war "- but it doesn't matter now."

"So what happened to Elf's oppressed past?"

Subhuman warfare, a phrase never heard of pops up, intrigued yet Subaru returns the story to its original course before shifting from the point of view. Roswar pulled his jaw and shook his head to the left and right as he said, "Tsuh-ma-ri,"

"Not only can a half elf not show his face in a place like the king's capital, but its parent species, the elf, is also hard to show their face to people again. I don't know if you'll ever see the face of an elf in the king's capital, but it's a big influence."

"That... convinced me. I did, but how do you connect?"

Subaru inquiry for conclusions. Besides, Roswar kept his back on the pillow like a lot, and when he looked up faintly feeling the softness of being pushed back,

"With the extension of half-elf discrimination, elves were also worried about being oppressed everywhere again. Wow. When that happens, where can the elves live - no wonder"

"An elf is no... if you promise, it's an image of you building a settlement in the woods or something. Hidden in the woods like people don't step in, hunting and stuff."

"I don't know where I found out, but that's roughly the idea - no. The elves are chased through town, and that's how they start to live secluded in the depths of the woods. Wow. - The Great Forest of Elior, the place was one of those elves' dwellings"

To the lid, Svalbard's shoulder trembles when he realizes that the tone of Roswar's voice has changed.

Naturally, the illusion is even cold like the temperature in the room suddenly dropped. That's why Roswar in front of him, the unspeakable power of his words, makes him think so.

And the name of the land he spoke of. That sounds familiar.

- Ellior Great Forest, which is a name that has emerged many times during the discussions exchanged at the Krusch Mansion, a land under the control of the abundant Roswar of demonic ore. And

"It's icy now and no one can get near it or anything..."

"The freeze on the Ellior Great Forest began, and spread, to events that will be more than ninety years old on record. An absolute zero-degree world that freezes everything and freezes every creature. - She lived alone in such a world."

Like affirming Subaru's anxiety, Roswar tells him to erase the usual mild sounds from his voice.

Ninety years. Too long years. And the person that he was there. From the stream of stories Subaru asked for, I can only think of one answer to that.

And Roswar speaks clearly against Subaru, who loses sight of the words.

"- Behind the Great Forest of Elior, the Elves, who lived there, have been ice pickled from settlement to settlement and still stop time"

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"Except for one half-elf girl who made that mistake..."