Re:Zero Kara Hajimeru Isekai Seikatsu (WN)

Finding Emilia squatting small with her knees, Subaru gained an out of place relief.

One thing they found Emilia, another thing Emilia kept me here.

The certainty that it will only be here and the desire for it to be here. Both became fulfilled shapes, and it was found that the heavy stuff stuck in the back of nature and stomach fell.

"Nevertheless, you thought about it, Emilia Tan"

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"Sure, if you're here, nobody will find you and you'll be alone. In the first place, there are only a few people who can get in, and they don't want to get in all of them."

At least, aside from Emilia, there are three people who can put this place - in Echidona's graveyard.

One refused the 'trials' and hated the cemetery furiously, one entrusted the future of the 'sanctuary' to others by seeing a past that was not his own, and the last one was taken away by buying a witch's displeasure during the 'trials'.

Those otherwise qualified do not enter the cemetery to strictly observe the rules imposed.

Exactly, it's a hiding place behind consciousness that you won't let in except Emilia.

There is no response from Emilia to Subaru's honest and praiseworthy words.

She remains small and looks up to Subaru silently.

"- Neighbor, can I sit? Standing up, actually."

…………

"Silence is an affirmation in my locality. Okay, excuse me."

In his gaze, Subaru lowers his back next to Emilia after saying grandiose.

Two fists, opening the distance between nature and each other is the limit of Subaru's manhood and courage. It is not until we have narrowed the distance between our hearts with words and attitudes that we fill the distance from here.

Now it's clear, because there will be more distance between the two thoughts than this fist.

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――――

As we sit next to each other, a constant silence falls between us.

Subaru was tempered, waiting for Emilia's words, and Emilia stared at the side of Subaru in such an attitude, trembling her lips many times and hesitating.

"Subaru is..."

――――

"Why, are you here...?

"It's hard when you ask me why. I've been thinking about Emilia, and I figured out exactly where you are."

This is quite an honor.

Because at least in this' sanctuary ', I mean I was thinking about Emilia the most and I was able to guess exactly how she felt the most.

Most of all, if I had been able to be intimate with Emilia's feelings in the true sense, I'm sure I wouldn't have exchanged words in the cemetery like this.

To Subaru's answer, Emilia rounds her eyes.

Then I shook my neck sideways to say that the answer I was offered wasn't what I was looking for.

"No. No, Subaru. It's not how you got here... it's not how you get in here except for qualified people."

"Emilia, you're the one who forgot? On my first day, I was stepping inside to take out Emilia Tan, who fell inside. If a witch hates you like Roswar, it looks like you're going to be able to play your body just by going in, but I'm not that far. The floating sensation on the verge of arriving at the elevator just continues. I can't stand it."

"... yes, what"

No one can come in, thoughtless that the reading I thought was off. And a whispering glance worrying about Subaru who is still being attacked by vomiting.

I would be desperate to sort out the various things in me, but I am too healthy, painfully loving to be caring for others in situations like this.

"How... did you know I was here?

It's easier to talk and feel distracted than to be silent.

You guessed that during the conversation, Emilia looks at Subaru taking a deep breath and turns and mouths a different question.

Words are mixed with suspicion, giving up, and complications that are difficult to handle.

Abandonment is a throw, suspicion is a dark sensation. All very rare for Emilia to show - or Subaru might see it for the first time either.

"... Subaru?

"Oh, I'm sorry. I thought you were here for a reason. - And that's it. You know, there's nothing I don't know about Emilia."

"Liar."

I didn't try to tear it up, but the mild words are truncated with bassari.

Emilia, placing her jaw between her raised knees, tilted her neck and looked at Subaru. The emotions that soak up those purple blue eyes are now so extremely confusing that they are likely to swallow.

As loathing to be taken that emotion softly, Emilia distracts herself from looking Subaru, pointing her lips at her.

"I'm not deluded that they said it that way. - Even to me, even though you don't know me very well. I can't believe Subaru figured that out."

"Out of the blue, I don't see myself. Sometimes people look better, even at their feet."

I don't even call it a hands-on experience, but I often do that.

Often they don't look at how unscrupulous, ironless and insensitive they are when they are getting hot. Sometimes it's the first time I've noticed it, pointing it out from someone else's mouth.

Once, as Subaru was, it was pointed out from someone's mouth, for the first time.

"Emilia, I was half believing in you and half hoping you'd be here."

"Half, half..."

"Because I ran around the settlement and couldn't find it. I thought harder about why I went somewhere than where Emilia Tan went. Then I thought it would be here. I'm so relieved to find you."

"... relieved, just did?

"Hmm?"

Emilia asks Subaru to loosen her lips in relief.

As Subaru frowned at her quiet, disappearing voice, she peered into the back of Subaru's eyes.

"You just found me here and relieved me?... Are you angry or not?

"What the hell, Emilia? Are you scared I'm gonna piss you off?

Subaru is about to erupt unexpectedly into Emilia's fearful attitude.

It remains the child's business to be afraid of being scolded as a result of being gone and being properly found where he is.

Now that I know her real age and her spiritual real age, I can tell you a little bit of a nod, but that was also her unprecedented behavior so far.

Subaru, however, shakes his neck sideways without worrying more about its discomfort.

"I'm not mad at you. I was in a hurry, and to be honest, I was super panicked, but I'm not angry. I'm glad to hear it, including what we found here."

"... well"

Subaru's emotions toward Emilia, who is gone, are not the same as his anger.

Assuming you felt anger, it was against Subaru himself, who overlooked the signs, that Emilia would go into extraordinary action.

The anxiety that could ruin all your meals is also being pushed away before relief now that you have found her in this way.

So Emilia's concern is nothing but concern. Yes, I was going to tell him.

"Angry, I don't."

I meant to, but it wasn't appeasement being put into Emilia's whining.

"- Emilia?

"Subaru, you're not mad about me. - Even if I'm angry, I won't give it to you."

The small, plundering voice, was trembling.

When the surprised Subaru frowned, it was already too late to notice.

Looking down, Emilia, who bit her lip, has her eyes open.

Tears all over its eyes so that it doesn't spill out.

"Why aren't you mad at me?"

"Emily-"

"I did something on my own, didn't I? Something to get you in trouble, I would have done. You stopped keeping your mouth shut and made me worry, didn't you? I don't know if you ran away or made me nervous... that's what you did. If they did that, you'd want to get mad, wouldn't you? Even Subaru, isn't he?

Blocking Subaru's voice calling, Emilia turns her emotions around quickly.

Emilia approaches Subaru in an attempt to assert the selflessness of her deeds and make her rebel.

Pressed by that impatient attitude of hers, Subaru finally realized that he had chosen the wrong word decisively.

Emilia wasn't afraid that Subaru would piss her off.

Emilia was afraid that she could not be blamed for her actions.

Because it's...

"How can you not be angry with me...? Aren't you angry because you're not expecting it? Look at me failing and still be nice to me... not because I'm not disappointed? Not because you think it won't work...?

――――

That may have been the very darkness that lurked deep in my heart, which Emilia had always been anxious about and still couldn't put into words.

I have tried "Trial" many times, and each time I come back with my heart broken.

Some people feel impudent about themselves like that and look discouraged by the failing Emilia, some of whom don't blame her, like Subaru or Pack.

While Emilia is saved by the presence of such subaru and packs, she must have fought an unexplainable anxiety all along.

I'm discouraged, because I was expected.

I feel impudent because I am disgusted with myself for not being able to resist.

Yet if you fail or fail, and you are nevertheless gently comforted, your heart will likely be burned with greater anxiety, even if temporarily your heart is saved.

Emilia has always been scared that Subaru and Pack will be nice to her.

"No, Emilia. That's not how I feel."

Subaru, who has gained too late an understanding of the height of the waves that awaken in Emilia's mind, speaks out.

We need to catch Emilia in this place right now. It's going to be tough. If she keeps rejecting me like this, I won't be able to reach out and catch her.

So for once, I can't afford to think about what to say, and raise my voice.

"I can't be mad at you because that's not what I think... eh"

"Then... Huh! Why! Why... you didn't keep your promise...?

"- Huh!"

A few words were sealed, and Subaru's expression was strong on the topic brought up.

'Promise' spoken by Emilia. That was nothing more than what was being exchanged between Subaru and her last night, and whether it was fulfilled correctly or not -.

"Until morning, I asked you to hold my hand! Subaru, too, promised me you'd understand... how could you let go of my hand? Why didn't you keep your promise...?

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"Shh, Subaru... Pack, promise... break it, I'm going somewhere. Put me down, I'm going somewhere...... Liar. Subaru liar. Pack liar... liar, liar... liar no..."

I am fiercely rebuffed with tears for rebelling my promise.

Lie down, tear-spilling Emilia hits Subaru's head on the shoulder, and a powerless hand slaps this one on the chest. Power, etc., equals no. Yet I had the pain of being struck out.

This is all Emilia's pain, which Subaru hadn't noticed and overlooked.

She was unilaterally showered by Subaru and Pack.

"Ya, the promise is important... I told you before, before! For a spiritualist, the promise is important to me... so he wants me to keep it... that I couldn't keep it, Subaru should have apologized to me... yet again, the promise, I broke it..."

"... Emilia"

"Breaking a promise is, no... lying is, no... you have to keep a promise... because if you don't... otherwise, I... to my mother and juice..."

With his face pressed against Subaru's shoulder, Emilia's emotions seem to have lost their way. Thoughts were shattered and screwed up by the rising emotions and the sadness of betrayal.

The obnoxious words broke apart, and Emilia said in a voice like a child crying,

"No lies, no... no..."

Spilling voices are shaking in sadness and Subaru experiences the pain of being scratched inside his chest.

'Promise' - that's a word that resonates with many different meanings between Subaru and Emilia. Sometimes taking it lightly, Subaru hurt Emilia and created a groove between them.

Confirming the meaning of the promise after the reunion, the two of them should have made a commitment in the form of a bond.

Yet once again, 'Promise' does not sound gentle, but binds the two with harsh weight.

Above all, the way Emilia talks about 'promises' is too unusual. Something, an important part of Emilia's backbone, is tying her to a promise.

――――

Burying her head between the knees she held, Emilia is still crying.

With every second that makes her so current, Subaru's heart is chopped into guilt.

I desperately thought about what to say and the sound of a sob in my ear.

Should I say an apology? Should I behave like I understand? Should I comfort you diligently? Should I tell him how compassionate I am?

Thoughts circle through Subaru's head, and he can't even grasp the signs of handing the right answers.

What, why, what to do, what to do is best...

――――

Think, think, think, Subaru eyes in swirling thoughts, and.

I felt like I could get to the answer to what to do.

"Emilia. - I like you."

――――

That was a terrible, misplaced word to utter on this occasion.

"... Huh?

Emilia, listening to Subaru's words, raised her face with a grumpy voice.

I still open my tearful purple blue eyes and Emilia's gaze captures Subaru. A statue of Subaru that looks distorted on the droplets - so keep your mind strong enough not to waver just to face it.

Because there are no more strays in the words to be conveyed.

"Every night, every night, I get stuck in the same 'trials' over and over again. What's" trials "? I guess it's just the past. After all, you'll never get caught up in it."

"... Ah, let's"

"If I'm going to do it instead, it's something I have to do, so say something and be mean. Anyway, if you can clear it, if the results are the same, it's just the tip of the mouth. I want to see you lose again and again."

"Su, sooo..."

"When there are no more pets and guardians in the quote, can't you even stand and walk decently on your own? Do you cry hard and worry about everyone, throw out your role too and go to bed unfaithful? Come on, you can't go out with me."

Emilia's eyes open as if she saw something incredible in Subaru's words like throwing up and throwing up. The moist eyes even lost sight of the surprising less tears, and the lips tremble weakly without being able to utter meaningful words.

Without a doubt, no more, Emilia's heart was broken.

Never before has a human being named Natsuki Subaru been mutilated before, before, before, malice and disgust never directed against her.

The expression of a pulling distorted Emilia.

It's not tearful sorrow, it's not eclampsia fury, it's not a void to be beaten by a giving up.

I get a curse I've never been showered by, and Emilia's expression changes. That was something completely different, not even the look that any of us deserved.

- Emilia's mouth gives me a terribly thirsty grin.

"Oh... right. Even Subaru... I mean me, I think so, naturally..."

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"It's just terrible, I can't help it if they say it... it's something. Me, ever since I came to the 'Sanctuary'... yeah, long time ago... annoyed, just... so I..."

"Right. Since the Sanctuary came, there's not a single good place to be honest. I'm not talking about people, either, but it's too harsh to do that. I don't know how to follow you."

Subaru affirms Emilia's self-denial of trembling.

I took it and stuck it making noises that drew Emilia's throat. Whimpering, sipping something similar to it, Emilia still had a painful grin,

"So I... to the pack, to Subaru... see, let it go, naturally..."

"Sure. After all you've done, you still don't see any signs of improvement. It's only natural that I feel stronger if I don't care what I do."

Emilia tries to come up with an answer to the denial given by Subaru.

Straddling the termination of that answer, Subaru credits her with spiciness.

"- But"

Towards the end of it, Subaru cut the word of denial.

Emilia looks up and sees Subaru. The only emotions that come to my eyes are those that Svalbard understands.

- That's the same emotion Subaru once floated around, so.

"I like you. -Emilia."

Subaru will not let Emilia escape in the same words as what once did not let Subaru escape.

With the long lashes that edged her eyes trembling, Emilia had been deprived of consciousness by Subaru's words.

Subaru faintly loosens his cheek at Emilia's appearance, which stiffens and even stops thinking.

No relief, no derision, of course. That's sad, if you say so.

I miss everything so much that I want to scream out, including what Emilia was looking for.

"I like you. I like it, I like it, I like it, I like it as much as I can't help it."

"Hey, what... suddenly, tell me..."

"I like that silver hair that's super beautiful, I like the moisturizing, gemstone-like purple blue eyes, I super like the voice that makes me dream just to hear it, I can't wait to have too long hands and feet, white skin, height difference, I just can't stop being thrilled with it and I like it and it sucks anymore"

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"I like where you're a little out of it, you're cute where you work so hard for everything, I respect that you can be desperate for someone, I don't think you can leave me to scorn about myself, and I think it would be great if we could feel all your emotions together next door all the time... I've always thought"

"At a time like this... don't be ridiculous!

Even, the thought of Emilia overflowing as she slipped out of her mouth.

Svalbard speaks it off, and Emilia screams her voice absurdly.

Shaking her shoulders, frowning, Emilia was revealing her anger at Subaru's attitude, which ruined everything she had ever done, trying to swap stories, trying to escape strangulation.

"Why are you suddenly telling me that! That's not what we were talking about! Shh, Subaru said I couldn't do it, 'cause it's not enough at all, that's how you said it! I can't go out with him anymore, I can't watch him..."

"Oh, right. The fact that you show me that you can't do that much, the result that makes me want to sigh even if it's just my mouth, I'm just short of heart, so I'm almost out of love. If that's not Emilia."

"Why!!

Subaru denies the most important part, while affirming the incompetence of the results.

Emilia raises her voice so that it does not fall in her heart, as it cannot be forgiven.

"It's all, it's me who can't or can't save you!? And yet, how can you overlook it? How could you allow that? Why..."

"If it's just that answer, I've said it many times already. Because I like you!

"- Huh"

Subaru also raised his voice to Emilia, stuffed with tears, poking his face at each other again.

Emilia turns upside down to be pressurized, but Subaru packs the distance just like she dropped. It's no different to stare at each other, at breathtaking distances.

"I like you. So no matter what pity you show me, I feel like I've discovered a new side of Emilia, and even if I'm not strong enough, I'm going to support you because this is where I'm trying, and no matter how much you dislike yourself, I'm not going to hate you."

――――

"Whether you are worried that you should be disliked for your impudence and pity and be denied as much as you are around... I will keep expecting you, and I won't let you go or look out for you because of your weakness"

Emilia's eyes shake.

That is the weakness of the gaze that was staring at Subaru earlier - that was put in there, accepting denial, enjoying giving up and sinking into grief and mourning.

Emilia wanted to be denied. Sometimes being recognized together with others makes me feel like I'm being saved for the first time by knowing I can't save myself.

I know that, but I also know that they'll pull their hands from it.

Because once Natsuki Subaru also tried to let himself go in the same way and still couldn't get him to let him go.

"I glanced at you. All the good things about Emilia look shiny to me. Of course, I know it's not just a good place. You... you're not an angel, you're not a goddess, you're a normal girl. You want to cry about hard and painful things, you want to avoid unpleasant things and you want to do it if you can just choose to be easy and fun."

――――

"But I like Emilia a whole lot, including the weak and the ugly. So... I'm still not disappointed in you."

"- Oh, no! Or you're being too presumptuous!

Spinned from Subaru's mouth, form of thought.

Asked to keep putting it up, Emilia disputes the confusion without seeing it.

"I can't believe you denied it that way and told me a lot that you couldn't, and you still like it...... and I can't believe it! How could Subaru believe me like that, like... something I have no idea!

"No! You're wrong because of your head! I can believe it because of what's going on, that's why I like it. - That's not true. I like you. So, I can believe it. Here it is!"

"Just because you like it doesn't make it a reason to believe it!

"-! If you just can't believe you like it, then who likes it and has to come to such painful thoughts to help a troublesome woman like you!

The voices get higher and each other's emotions bump into each other.

If Subaru rises with his hand against the wall, Emilia also rises to face each other again.

At a distance where their foreheads are likely to bump, frowning at each other, Subaru and Emilia bark at their emotions.

I spit, I blush, and I say, "You're wrong," and I've never bared my voice and exchanged words before, two of them.

"I like you! As crazy as I get, I like you as much as I can die! So I put up with the pain and the pain and I'm still standing in front of you even though I'm going to throw up!

"No! I didn't ask you! Just sayin 'something unsolicited...... Subaru is the one who hasn't thought about how I feel! That's how... Subaru stands on the arrow because of me and it's always scratched... I have no idea how you feel about watching!

"You know what I mean, I haven't even thought about it! All I'm thinking about is how to cool off in front of you! I don't know how to look the best in your eyes, or how to make you the happiest result...... people are struggling with this, look cute as you wish!

"Don't say it like a doll! If that's how you think I'm gonna please you... why are you breaking your word! What you asked for, if you could protect me, that would be fine! Why, you won't do it! You really don't like me!

"I like it!!

"Liar no!!

Emilia's high voice overlaps Subaru, who punches her head in a yake-fucking-sensation.

How far do you think you once went to put this thought in your mouth? How many obstacles Subaru has overcome in order to convey the words to be conveyed.

Confessions of love scattered as cheaply as they seem, but all of them genuine to Subaru, full of spirits, real to the point of a piece of soul.

"I'm not lying! I like you! You're the one. What do you think of me? Don't take all the attitudes you want! Whenever you act like you have a cute face and a pulse, you know how much I'm shaking my heart! Just kidding!"

"I'm not kidding! You're making it normal, but don't say anything weird! I have so much to think about right now, I can't believe what you think of Subaru... I can't think of that! Don't do this! Don't bother me!

"Which one of you is bothering me! Me! You!

"In Subaru! It would be me!?

It's a collision of emotional theories, with no shards of logic.

Subaru and Emilia argue loudly for each other's emotions so that a child with eclampsia can curse at each other's eyes.

The dim, narrow graveyard echoes the voices of the two of them, echoing the noise since its establishment in a place that had been filled with silence for a long time. We bump into each other a fierce outburst that is likely to knock them up to their sleeping existence in the cemetery, and the two end up in a rough, barren argument for breath.

"I don't care what they say anymore, I can't believe it! Subaru is a liar! You broke your promise, and still you're fine with putting your face in front of me... come on, you thought you didn't notice! I've been watching it right! Because I've been watching properly to see if Subaru will keep his promise to me!

"You're not doing anything wrong! You pretend to be weak, imitate people, and you don't feel ashamed!

"To a liar who broke a promise, you don't get to say that!

"It's not about me breaking my promise and this!

Emilia makes her cheeks red in anger at Subaru, who tries to switch issues fine. My emotions shake off, and instead, words don't come out.

Emilia takes many rough breaths and exhales words to squeeze them out.

"How... how did you break your promise...?

"... I think it's bad that you broke your promise. It's true I wanted to stay with you till morning, holding your hand."

"I didn't ask you that. - How did you break your promise?"

"... I can't tell you"

Eating and tying his teeth, Subaru responds to Emilia's questions with bitterness.

Emilia exhaled for a long time at the attitude of trying to do the questions over this period.

"You don't keep your promises. Nor can you tell me why you broke it.... so you tell me what to do. I like it, if that's what you're gonna say... really, yeah! Otherwise I... I can't believe it..."

"Emilia."

"If you keep your word and stay with me until morning! I'm sure they believed Subaru! Believe Subaru, they must have deposited everything! But Subaru broke his promise... so I can't do it anymore... and Subaru and Pack are leaving me..."

Sneezing her face, Emilia plugs her fingers into her own silver hair and leans down on her face.

Earlier the passion changed the heat, the spear, and Emilia scratched her own body,

"I'm missing the pack and I have a view in my head.... in my head, the scenery I don't know, the conversation I don't remember, keeps overflowing..."

――――

"I've always meant to remember properly, but I just don't remember coming out... but that's certainly my memory... every time I remember, every time something comes out that I should have but forgot, I get anxious..."

The memory Emilia talks about - it's the real memory that Puck dragged out in exchange for her bond with Emilia, the one she wanted to turn away from.

To seal the past that I don't want to remember, Emilia was trapping her memory by liding the pack. The contract with Puck is broken, and the memories of losing the neck tree are overflowing, filling her insides with real memories.

But it's dramatic enough to mean her own perversion.

"I finally realized that I was leaning against the pack and running away from all things... the pack must be gone to teach me this. But I'm afraid. Afraid. Without the pack, there are so many real memories... it seems like I'm not me anymore"

――――

"When all these memories are overflowing... I, I'm sure it will be different me. Now I'm thinking of memories different from real memories as my beginning... but if I remember my true beginning... I'm sure I'll disappear after walking so far..."

Using false memories as a starting point, Emilia's readiness and determination have been shaped.

Then what happens to Emilia's present readiness and determination, when she regains her true memory, when the shape of the beginning has changed, the journey she has taken so far?

"- It's not the first or the middle that matters, because it's the last."

――――

There was a sound in the back of my brain.

The distant voices you should be used to hearing are familiar to Subaru, but the voices of those you will never see again.

At the end of the parting, the words offered to Subaru as homework.

Oh, you do - I think so.

No matter how it starts, no matter what journey you take, until the end of the day, who has the right to decide whether it was a mistake or not.

"No matter what memories Emilia remembers, nothing will change. I like you. All the time, whatever you want."

"- I don't believe it, I can't. I like Subaru because that's what he says to me... yes, even if he's gone, he's still like that..."

"I can tell you. Whatever it is, you won't be gone. I like you."

"... a liar, you. And he made me believe it, and he didn't... you..."

- Then I'll make you believe it.

With a trembling voice, with trembling eyes, Emilia tries to reject Subaru.

It is not conveyed in words. Even attitude doesn't convince me. Then I no longer see a way to convey my thoughts other than by showing them in action.

So,

"Suba..."

"If you don't like it, go ahead."

Distance enough to breathe - no, distance enough not to even block the breath between them.

Reaching for Emilia's shoulder, Subaru turns to her. Seeing the approaching Subaru, Emilia puzzled her eyes and stiffened her body.

One second, wait.

That's it, if you're gonna shake it off.

――――

But Emilia closed her eyes.

Subaru doesn't know if that was giving up or if it was the end of being lost.

"- Uh-huh."

"- Bu."

Each other's breath is intertwined, Emilia stuffs her breath and Subaru frowns at the pain.

The noise rang small because of the momentum and the bumping of teeth. Be the first to taste the painful faint pain, but it quickly disappears from even a corner of your head before intense fever.

Soft lips. Mouthfeel just to touch.

It's the first time for Emilia, and the second time for Subaru to talk to her.

Cold, not like the first time it tasted like 'death'. The second kiss tasted like hot 'life'.

"-"

Neither, my lips separated.

The faces we were in contact with go away and stare at each other forgetting to even breathe in each other.

Uplifted cheeks. Moist eyes. I also have a swinging face in Emilia's eyes.

Subaru, who returned to me before that pitiful face, breathed as he remembered,

"I like you"

――――

"No matter how bad you look at it, or how you say it this way, I still like Emilia the same way. Whatever happens, it doesn't change - so I've always believed in you. If that's what you mean."

"I like it, so..."

Take over the end of Subaru's words, and a dazzling Emilia touches her lips with her fingers. Tears flooded through her soft lips to make sure she still felt there.

Tears that transmit white cheeks fall as if they were the Shizuku of the Moon.

"It's natural that memories that I don't know are overflowing and I feel anxious. I know I'm about to come out and feel terrified. But I'm sure that doesn't make the path Emilia has taken disappear or change her mind."

"How can you say that...?

"It's not the first thing that matters. Because it's the last time. - My, the most respected woman in the world said."

Usually to the most unpredictable habit in the world, to a mother who tells you the most important thing in the world.

Because I don't know exactly, but I want to know.

I wish I could figure it out with you, because I have a kid in front of me who wants to think so.

In front of Emilia standing anxiously, Subaru lets her shoulders shrug in an easygoing manner.

I don't know, like kicking that anxiety.

"It's okay, Emilia. Whatever you remember, I'm on your side. You just have to forget about Taco and everything. If you're still afraid, let's find it."

"Find... what..."

"It's like I can run Emilia the way I like it, and Emilia can run without worrying about what's around her, it's important."

For someone, Emilia spares no effort in giving herself away.

That's how other people prioritize her, though she's noble and beautiful and loves Subaru.

The word 'for someone' is terribly sweet and terribly sad.

Because I'm sure my feelings for someone who can't see my face won't reach the feeling of thinking of someone who can see my face.

"My cousin expects that important feeling to be directed at me."

"My... important, feelings..."

Is Subaru's words not in his ear, Emilia lays her hands on her chest and lays her eyes down? She stretched her fingers where the crystal stone was, until now, the dependent price of the pack.

Now that the bond is shattered, I stretched to be sure. I won't touch anything there. Fingertips that just scratch the void. But Emilia held that hand tightly,

"I got all this memory back in there... I wonder if there is, my, important feelings"

"Oh. I'm sure there is. Why do you keep walking?"

"-"

Half-heartedly, not so much suspicious, but still not a fully convincing look.

Seeing Emilia faintly pulling her jaw, Subaru looked up at the ceiling with his eyes closed.

Words when I was pulled up the same way, I felt more powerful.

With kinder words, with tougher words, with stronger words, I feel saved.

- Am I capable of helping Emilia?

――――

That's too badly dressed to ask in words.

I exhaled, and as soon as I weakened, the ill mood I had forgotten had rocked Subaru's root. Unexpectedly touching the wall, I can almost enjoy it.

"Subaru?"

"Nothing...... I just want to be strong, but it's everything. Pretty bad right now. In the meantime, if we're gonna keep talking or discussing, I think we'd like to do it outside."

"No more... you don't mean that"

Emilia's lips faintly smile at Subaru, who lets her stretch with a blue face.

It's just powerless. That's intense fun trying so hard to pretend to be what you usually are. As yet, there is no clear answer in her. The anxiety hasn't been wiped off.

Walk out toward the outside of the cemetery with your hands on the wall.

On the back of a walking Subaru, Emilia's hand is stretched back and forth wondering whether to touch it. The touch of the lips ahead seems to have greatly affected her just as well.

Now that I think about it, my face gets hot when it's something I did something bold.

It's just that a bunch of those sentiments, they're leaving now.

――――

For Emilia's sake, when Subaru is on Emilia's side, the best thing to show.

It's about fulfilling the role you set out for yourself, protecting her and her thoughts.

So...

"I have to do what I have to do."

Outside the cemetery.

The bright sun greeted the two of them as they walked out of the dark.

And

- Hey, you made me wait.

"Shit."

That's what I said, tongue-in-cheek in frustration with Subaru raising his hand.

- Don't wait.

- I dyed that whole body with blood, and Garfiel stood there in hostility.