Chapter 1868 - 1870: You Love Yourself More Than You Love Her
At this moment the two of them were already in the carriage, planning to go to the Han Family first. After all, here Yang Qiu only knew Wen Nuan, and besides, they had also come from Wen Nuan’s place today.
It was already dark, but by the moonlight shining in through the carriage window, Guo Feng could still see the grave expression on Xiangxiang’s face. Exhausted in both body and mind, he spoke up, "Go ahead."
He only heard Wang Xiangxiang say, "Actually, I don’t think you really like Xiaotian."
Being denied like this, Guo Feng almost burst out in anger, flatly refuting her, "What do you know? I like her. If I didn’t like her, could I have done all this up to now?"
Seeing Guo Feng like this, Wang Xiangxiang shook her head and said with a slight sigh, "You like yourself more than you like her."
"No, I like her more than I like myself." Guo Feng continued to deny it. He didn’t even want to keep talking to Xiangxiang. He was a bit annoyed now—what was he doing discussing such things with a maid?
"Stop talking. You don’t understand!"
Wang Xiangxiang’s lips tugged into a faint smile. "I don’t understand? I understand better than you do. What are you so ashamed and angry about? I haven’t even said much yet."
Perhaps it was the difference between men and women.
How had Wang Xiangxiang not faced choices herself? Back when Li Fuyou was threatening her, she resolutely chose to marry Han Yongsheng, simply because she didn’t want the fact that she had been persecuted to be exposed, didn’t want the Chu Family to be shamed because of it, because she liked Chu Lian.
She thought that Xiaotian’s choices could not be said to be wrong either. When she chose to leave, it was for Li Fugui; when she chose to marry Guo Feng, it was for Li Fugui’s child; when she chose to stay by Guo Feng’s side, it was still for Li Fugui, because she had to repay him—for the child, for Li Fugui’s property.
Everything was because the one she loved was Li Fugui.
Guo Feng had already lost from the very beginning.
Hearing Wang Xiangxiang say this, Guo Feng actually wanted to listen and see why she would say such things. He was unwilling to accept that after all he had given, he was being judged by Xiangxiang as someone who loved himself more than Xiaotian. "Go on."
Seeing that Guo Feng was willing to let her continue, a smile hovered at the corners of Wang Xiangxiang’s mouth. She felt there was still hope for Guo Feng, so she went on, "I said you like yourself more than Xiaotian because you only ever think about yourself, and never take Xiaotian’s feelings into account."
Those words made the fire in Guo Feng’s heart flare up again. How was he not thinking of Xiaotian, how was he not considering her feelings? But he still held himself back and listened to Wang Xiangxiang continue.
"For your own sake, you just want to keep Xiaotian by your side. Haven’t you noticed what she’s been like since she’s been with you?"
"Isn’t she gloomy and depressed all day long?"
"Isn’t she uninterested in everything?"
"Doesn’t she even cry often?"
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Wang Xiangxiang felt that this was probably what it was like to be separated from the one you love; at least she herself had been like this back then, so she said these things.
Faced with Wang Xiangxiang’s questioning, Guo Feng was somewhat speechless. Xiaotian was indeed like that, but he had tried very hard to make her happy, though the effect had not been very obvious.
"You see that she isn’t happy, yet you still trap her at your side. The only one you love is yourself. If you truly loved someone, you wouldn’t bear to see her suffer like this. If you truly loved someone, you would find a way to make her live happily, live well. Even if she was with someone else, as long as she was happy, just seeing her smile would be enough."