Regressor Instruction Manual
Serra (4)
“Seraphim, Dominions, Thronous, and me. ”
“ ……. ”
“Seraphim, Dominions, Thronous, and me…. ”
Seraphim, Dominions, Thronous, and me.... It was a word that had been lingering in my head ever since I was born on this earth.
Always, always in my head. I don't know why, but I don't even know why, but I've been living with it over and over again.
Whispering like a spell has become common in times of anxiety. Just like that.
“Dory. Can you track Serra's location? ”
“Well, I don't know why you're so slow these days. I don't think it's even under detection magic. I wonder... if it was a big shock. ”
“That's right... ”
I had to put the words back out of my mouth. It was because I didn't deserve to be able to explain.
‘I was abandoned by my mother. ’
Or...
Because you were hated?
Either way.
They are born to be loved, to crave love. I've been able to realize that since I was very young.
I felt like I could feel it from the moment I met my father's face.
Oh, we were born to be loved by this man. You were born for your father.
That first moment reminds me so much of my feelings. It made me cry unconsciously.
I could feel that we were blessed, and I could feel that we were alive.
The gentle touch and warm voice that stroked my head made me feel the joy of my head exploding.
It was a very simple expression, but it made me feel so satisfied that nothing was comparable.
Of course, I didn't just feel happy. I don't know in English, but I saw his face stiffened when I saw Serra holding her hand tightly.
His father did not stroke Serra's head. I didn't look him in the eye, and I didn't say a kind word.
I just remember looking down without saying anything. It's like he's thinking about something.
Sarah didn't seem to notice, but it seemed that her father was thinking something scary at the time.
‘You've done something very sweet. Cherubim. It's you. ’
"Yes?"
‘No, it's nothing. Go inside and get some rest today. I think I need to think about your treatment. ’
‘ ……. ’
‘Welcome to the birth. ’
What I felt at that time was fear.
I will never forget the moment I felt that little anger in my father's eyes.
The fear of being hated, the fear of being abandoned, and the fear of not being loved by my father was more terrifying than anything else.
Afterwards, my father did not show that expression, but it made me realize that. If you really get dumped....
“There's no reason to be born again. ”
“What?"
“Can you imagine being abandoned by your father, by your mother? Porcupine?”
“N-don 't say such horrible things. Keru.”
“ ……. ”
“I... I'd rather die. ”
“I'm sure that's what Seraphim thinks. Obviously.”
“No, it's not abandoned yet. You never said you were gonna leave Sarah. My mother did. Jeongyan's mother sometimes says a lot of things she doesn't like... Sometimes she gets too excited. You'd better avoid it when you do... You didn't look normal today. It was definitely that day. ”
“Is that what Serra thinks? ”
“I don't know… but…. ”
“What if you heard the same thing from your mother? ”
“My mother is... strict... ”
“If.”
“It... must be sad. Maybe it doesn't just end up being sad... But my father asked me to bring Serra back. I'm sure there will be other actions... You're worried. My father killed Sarah.”
“My father hates Serra. ”
“What?"
“It's not because Sarah is a little slow or lacking in growth. I think he hates her. I don't know why... but my father never met Serra. He never stroked my head. He never told me he loved me. He never made eye contact. He always calls me lonely even when I'm in the Blue Guild. Sarah doesn't even know what her father's office looks like. He said he'd never been to Serra's training tour. We never talked.... ”
“ ……. ”
I don't know why. I thought I would never know.
“Sarah lives with her father. ”
“ ……. ”
“Then why... ”
“I don't know why. My mother never told me. I told my father once... ”
“What did you say? ”
“ ……. ”
“He told me not to cross the line. ”
“And…. ”
“That's it. Maybe he didn't want Sarah. Sarah's been with me since I was born. ”
I noticed the face of the snapper as it became more serious. Maybe you're thinking about the possibility that things aren't going to get easier than you think.
I feel like the atmosphere has become heavy for no reason. Dory's words, 'I'd rather die,’ continued to float around in my head.
Serra might be thinking the same thing. I thought I knew Serra well, but I guess I was counting on her feelings.
I don't know if I can predict what she's really feeling right now. It's so scary and painful just to imagine... How painful it must be for Sera. It must feel like the sky is falling. I'm sure you will.
My feet are getting stronger and stronger. Breathing is not rough, but it is difficult to breathe.
“Serra!”
“S-serra! ”
“Where's Seraphim? ”
“Sarah! Where are you? ”
“Ah... still can't locate it? ”
“Wait... I'll look for it. ”
“Not like this. Let's split up. ”
“Yeah, I'll be in touch. ”
It was shortly after a very little time that I noticed a small light in a long, dense forest.
After calmly contacting Dory, she slowly approaches and a small, shimmering light flashes into her vision.
A small cave in a large tree, a circle around the tree, reveals Serra crouching there.
I couldn't see my face because I was keeping my head down, but I could see what was going on with my shaky shoulders.
Maybe you should talk to him. Did you notice I was here?
Many thoughts passed, but I stroked my head silently without saying anything.
“Are you all right, Sarah? ”
“ ……. ”
“You okay?"
“ ……. ”
“I don't think you meant it. Don't feel bad. Sarah.”
“ ……. ”
“Jung, Jung, really? ”
“Yeah, so did my mom. Jeongyan's mother seems to like Serra a lot... That's what she always said. ”
“Really?"
“Yes.”
“My father is worried too. ”
“ ……. ”
“Let's go back.”
“ ……. ”
“Being here doesn't make a difference. Let's talk to him together. Apologize to Jeongyan's mother... and ask her to forgive me... and seriously tell her that she can do better in the future, and she might forgive me. ”
“Th-that way... Is it gonna be okay? ”
“Let me tell you... ”
That's when I heard my father's voice.
- My dear children.
The voice in my head. It feels like my body is trembling by itself.
- Today I want to say a word as your Creator, not as your father.
“Yes... yes. Father.”
“Yes... ”
- I love you guys.
“Thank you."
“Sense, sense, thank you. ”
- I unleashed you upon this land to love you. I wanted to experience a lot for you, to give you gifts that you couldn't have in your past lives. I sacrificed myself to make you, too, all for you. To make you people I love loved, I gave up so much and took so much responsibility. It is not a burden. My children. I just want you to know how much I love you....
“Ah... ah... How can we doubt my father's love?" ”
“Oh, Father... Father... ”
Tears fall from my eyes. Seraphim was the same. It was a misunderstanding. My father told us...
- But I can't love only you. I don't think love comes first, but I want you to understand that I have to love your mothers even more. They are the ones who made me who I am and who made me who I am. Yeah, so is your master, Thrónus. They are my people whom I truly love.
“ ……. ”
- That's why I have to think about it. I gave my mother to you... because I wanted you to be loved by them, but on the one hand I wanted them to be happy because of you. Some of you, of course, seemed to have made them happy... but some of you didn't. I don't want you to make your mothers unhappy. Seraphim, I'm sorry, but I may not have a choice. Maybe I should give up on you....
“Forgive me. Father, please, I beg you. Forgive me, Seraphim. I will pay for the sins of Seraphim. So Seraphim... ”
“Ah... ah, ah... ”
- Your love for your brother always breaks my heart. Cherubim.
“No, no... Ugh... Father... Please think again. Please, please, please! ”
- You always sacrifice for your brothers.
“I'll carry it. I will bear Serra's sins. ”
- I don't want to see Cha Hee Ra sad. The sin you bear is not Sera's.
‘Ah... no. ’
I'm confused in my head. A lot of thoughts have crossed my mind, but I can't find the answer.
What should I do? Mother, if my father really abandoned Serra, what should I do? Mother. I....
‘Whatever you want. Perrin.’
Seraphim, Dominions, Thronous, and me.
"Live your life. Do whatever you want to do, do whatever you want to do. That's what makes me happy. It may sound childish and unanswered. It's always fun to live childish. Close your eyes quietly and listen to the voice that is echoing in your head. Then you'll know the answer. You can be who you want to be, and you can do whatever you want. ’
Seraphim, Dominions, Thronous, and me.
‘At least that's how I live. Cute Perrin. You're with me. Even if you don't want to. ’
Seraphim, Dominions, Thronous, and me....
"Right?"
“Run away. Serapim... ”
“Well…. What?”
“Here. Run. ”
“Er... ”
“Hurry!”
- Making a foolish choice...
“Forgive me, Father. Please."
It was then that the Sword of Tsuronous was pointed at his neck.
“Don't move. Keru, Sarah, so are you. ”
“Thrónus?”
“ ……. ”
“You. I was about to disobey my father. ”
“ ……. ”
“Answer me. Traitor.”