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Separating from the blushing Chihime and being led back to the Tengoku room by those in the castle, I decided to think about sorting out the situation and the next action to be taken.
But what doesn't capture my thoughts, my vision and my sense of smell, is getting in the way.
"Why are there so many sweets lined up in my room?
I grabbed my nose at the sweet smell and looked at it.
In the room there are various tables, large and small, where a variety of confectionery, from Western confectionery to Japanese confectionery, are arranged alongside each other.
I'm surprised some of them are even placed on the bed, which is the bunk, and next to the pillow.
I thought to the "original" owner of this room as I cleaned up all the things that caught my eye and all the mess.
According to the heirloom, Toyotomi Hideyoshi seemed to be a giant with a height of 197cm and a weight of 161kg.
"If you've been eating like this since you were a little girl, you will..."
And I sighed as if I was frightened.
And he thought, "Let's change history from here," and decided not to say anything extra.
That meant a small ambition to try "Hideyoshi Toyotomi was a tall good young man" in a textbook.
Well...
I don't care about that. Aside from Hideyoshi Toyotomi's future appearance, what matters is my future destiny, in other words, what my position should be.
The first thing you can be sure of is that it's a shame to lose your life with the fall of Osaka Castle.
That's all you have to avoid.
The answer is one thing at a time.
"Restoration of the Toyotomi Family".
Does that mean I won't let you create a "Tokugawa regime"...
But even if that happens, I'm really not sure my position will be guaranteed.
In other words, my presence is too big, and there is no doubt that the powerful people are entertaining me.
It's a big swelling over my eyes, to say the least.
It is normal to think that if something can be cut, I want to cut it.
This is troubling...
Perhaps there is no better way for Hideyoshi to survive than to succeed the heavenly men and make them obey the powerful ones.
But if that's the case, it means drastically changing Japan's history.
Are you sure that's okay...
When I could see what was so heavy on my shoulders, the melancholy black shadow overshadowed my mind at once from the mood of heartbeat earlier.
And...
Gali...
That happened unconsciously.
I took the "compateu" from the plate on the Western table on my right hand side and left it in my mouth.
I was unconsciously breaking my earlier vow not to say anything extra, and I couldn't hide my surprise in my actions.
And that was also the moment that led to the answer to one of my few historical questions.
"Well... the old Hideyoshi might have gotten his hands on something sweet to distract the pressure like this..."
I only know books and online, sympathetic to "real" excellence.
He is a heavenly man from birth, a puppet of many rulers and a clown of the common people...
I was never allowed to have "myself" at all times, more than his only heart, and be able to act of his own will - if that was "food"...
He would have even kept eating.
Only then can no one stop his will.
It may have been the only time that he, the little bird in the cage, was free to sprinkle his wings.
I put my thoughts in his heart.
Nature and tears conveyed cheeks.
"I want you to do what Lord Hideyoshi really wanted to do..."
I have no idea what that is right now.
But at least it is a fact of history that we were not allowed to challenge the rough waves of the times with "our own will".
Let's start there.
I will open this dilemma to my will.
When it was above all a sustenance for excellence, he did not believe so.
This is not what I learned at this point, such as whether small determination produces great ripples.
Still, if you have to take a step and nothing changes, let's take a step.
Let's crawl out, not inwardly, outwardly, little by little…
That's how I made up my mind.