Dec 10, Ten Years Old Anjo Castle
Temperatures have dropped altogether, and the winter landscape is dyeing the whole of Yasukuchi.I was overlooking Lake Biwa from the watchtower.
There is not much wind today, and the calm water surface is shaking in the sunlight.When you hear it, the little bird's chirp heals your heart, and the vibrant voice of the people that you hear from the castle town relaxes your cheeks.
Because it has been a turbulent day lately, such a touching everyday scene seems like something special.
The difference between rich and poor, the difference in identity, the daily life where people smile heartily and welcome tomorrow.Everyday, as a matter of course, we can talk tomorrow.
In the previous life, it was a common occurrence, and in this era of the Sengoku, it was an illusion that suddenly was taken away from me in an unknown place.Their lives were built on a thin glass that never broke.
I... I didn't want to believe that reality.If you walk on the night road, you meet people; if you go to a distant town to do business, you meet bandits; if famine comes, a large number of people die; if you are driven out into battle, you do not know whether you can come back alive.
See you tomorrow.
This world has no guarantee that even such trivial promises can be kept.
That's why I've been working hard.The people have worked so hard to build a daily life without being unreasonably threatened.
The serene routine I wanted to protect before my eyes.It feels like a shadow has somehow been inserted into your heart when you say yes or no is the sight you wanted to see.
--Is my path right here?
When such thoughts upset my chest and I had an unexpectedly angry look on my face, a shadow approached me.
"Today, it's getting a little cold... sir"
"Snow...."
Turning to him, he saw snow smiling at him with one hand.
Excuse me, sir.
When you say no to the snow, you sit next to it and give it a sip of water.
It's white water.
"... ah... ah, thank you."
Receive the served white water and pour it into your mouth.Warm water enters your body as it drifts slightly.
Return the bath to your hand and take a breath.The white water adjusted to prevent me from burning seemed to warm my mind and body at the same time.
If you think so, the water at hand looks special for some reason.I was kind of worried about me.
Perhaps that's why... the gentle glance of the snow keeps making a faint noise.
"... I want to save innocent good people.I want to put an end to the unreasonably life-threatening turmoil.I want to build a Taipei world where everyone can live with a smile on their face.And some of those who want to be happy include the wicked... even if they have sinned, they have the right to sing peace if they pay for their sins.It is the rest of the job to give that opportunity.... that thought was a lie and a lie. "
--But....
"I couldn't forgive the others.I couldn't help but hate the public houses who took my father... everyone... from my precious family.As I screamed and scattered so much beauty, when it came to me, my vision was stained with anger, and an intolerable hatred ran through my head. "
--As the owner of the Oda family, as a person who aims for the world of Taipei under heaven... it's just not worthy.
When you mock yourself, that night's events pass your mind.The night he talked to the pine while being illuminated by the moonlight.I said, "I want to save the bad guys, too."The thoughts weren't wrong... they should have been.
But the day I lost my father... lost my mother... lost me from my grandfather's memory.Something broke in me.
When the Tokubei saw the names of the public houses that had been burned, a fire of hatred lingered in their hearts.While saying that it was my mission to give the bad guys a chance to atone for their sins, I didn't mean to forgive the public, but I was going to cut them off on the spot.
I didn't want to forgive you.
That day... originally, I planned to cut them off with my signal.
But on the verge of sending a signal. I noticed that the public houses in front of me also had families waiting for me to return.I noticed...
At that moment, my right hand trembled unexpectedly.
"Back to me."
Such an expression would be the most expressive of my heart.
The murderous intentions that had been rushing through your chest so far faded, and you fell into helpless self-loathing.I was embarrassed and couldn't help but throw away the wish I had raised so far with a two-letter excuse of 'revenge'.
I could have stopped the executions at the edge, but honestly, I don't know what would have happened if I hadn't prepared that second plan.
The Jubei... I stepped on the wish the beekeepers entrusted me with.They didn't want revenge.
"In order to subdue the Nagashibu family, I slaughtered their soldiers into a ploy.The Nagasobu army, which was close to 3,000, said that most of them had been attacked.When I heard that, I thought the whole of Shikoku had been acquired with nearly 3,000 lives. "
You can see yourself in a squeeze with a terrible face.
"A cloth stone to purge public houses.For that reason, I marched into the Nagasobu family, scattered 3,000 lives in the dark cod, and tried to justify my actions without evil.In order to build a world of Taipei under heaven, I massacred people out of a personal feeling of revenge for the public.Oh, my God, it's shallow. I was so embarrassed that I wished for Taipei in the world. "
Shizukushi, who conveys her cheeks, shakes herself as if she were drinking.The lid of the feeling that was stopping the weir was so powerful that there was no way to stop it.
Ideal and Reality.
While saying I forgave everything, I ran for revenge without being able to endure my feelings.I tolerate the death of my enemies while proclaiming it to build Taipei under heaven.Knowing that you can't save everything, you weep in grief for the life you've truncated.
With contradictory thoughts, your brain is about to burn out.Various emotions upset my chest and I didn't even know where I was standing.
The path to follow should be the right one.I shouldn't have made a mistake.Once you've stopped, your feet won't go all the way.
A steep journey ahead of you.It was as if there was no compass in the storm, and I fell on my knees unexpectedly as if I were exploring by hand.
A long time ago, my body and mind were all rubbed apart.
"The rest... what should I do?"
The faint sound of vanishing melts into a dark universe.No one asked me, but the words that just disappeared into the white girl's ears of happiness or misfortune.