Seirei no Moribito

"My father and mother were killed, and I was sad. At first, that's all it was! I couldn't even think of revenge..."

It was sad to never see you two again.

So I cried many times, and it took me a while to feel positive.

That was one of the causes of the fact that it was too brutal for Lynn, who was still young, and had too many negative effects to accept.

Remembering the situation at the time, Lynn glanced at the “Spirit” with a hateful look.

In that glance, the "Spirit” is silenced by barometric pressure for some reason, and Lynn continues her words without thinking about why.

"Originally neglected from my surroundings, I was isolated by the loss of my parents' asylum. My grandfather, the guardian, turned his contempt on me, and the relatives who took me away, while treating me like a slave, took it as if I should be thankful for it. My life was different from when my parents were there... and I still believed there was salvation."

scorned, neglected, but Lynn did not turn a malice against such surroundings.

Sometimes I didn't quite understand what evil was yet, but under the influence of my grandfather, Lynn had a keen faith in the Spirit Tree.

The "Spirit Tree” is a godlike being that bestows favors on humans.

If we pray and remain faithful, both physically and mentally, the "Spirit Tree” will always be on our side.

Believing in that one sentence, which is the teachings of the “Spirit Tree” faith, Lynn continued to endure the malice around her, wondering whether this was a test given by God.

Bear, bear, bear.

I'm sure salvation awaits, and Lynn continues to endure believing in the "Spirit Tree" - only when her senses became paralyzed.

Young Lynn couldn't stand the situation.

"For me, Emilia and the" Spirit Tree ”who bounced off all of their malice, was the right salvation. There was Emilia on my side and the Spirit Tree that was the home of my heart, so I didn't have to go mad with hatred."

"Well, then! Why did you choose the path of revenge?!? You chose the path of revenge because you found out it was the Spirit Tree that killed your parents. That's... how could you serve the Spirit Tree...?

screaming in doubt about Lynn's past without the knowledge of the "Spirit,"

"It would be decided because salvation showed up, wouldn't it?

"Suck, y...?

Lynn still remembers clearly the first time she met Iselia.

Master Spirit Tree appreciates your faith. Hey, Ridinal Eileen?

It was as if the Virgin Mary were merciful, embracing a young child staring into the universe with vain eyes, and Iselia whispered that it was all right now.

At that moment, Lynn, who understood that he was gradually saved, wept quietly.

I don't have to suffer anymore.

You can't be heartbroken by your parents' betrayal, you can be crushed by your surroundings' malice, and you can't have any more hatred.

Believe me, I didn't doubt it.

"Iselia told me. The devout Spirit Tree faithful have the right to live happily ever after. To that end, we must eliminate the existence of an attempt to break this peace. The word became bigger to me than Emilia's. 'Cause, right? Nobody needed me, and I was even trying to get rid of this me, a follower of the Spirit Tree. Even if it's a one-sided and biased idea, there's no way a child can understand what it really means. I killed my grandfather just like Iselia told me. I let him kill my grandfather, who could be my only absolute ally, to keep me from going back."

Just because he was a stubborn and inconsiderate grandfather, I could cut him off as easily as I could cover my claims so far if I knew the truth.

That's why Iselia ordered Lynn to be the perfect “tool," and Lynn, who had given up her thoughts because of the relief caused by the emergence of salvation, did just that.

“Spirit” watched over Lynn's words about killing his family,

"... oh my god...!

It seeps through anger and aversion, and it remains self-preserving as if it were a lie that had been barometric until earlier.

"Even if you were neglected, your grandfather was the only family left... did you kill such an existence without question!

"... what are you taking for granted"

Lynn also carries the same abomination.

"I've never regretted killing my grandfather before."

somewhere vain and unemotional, whining lightly.

to the word, yet again the Spirit opens his eyes,

"... No, yes, you were. Grandpa, you were too late to notice your mistakes. If you think about what you've done, you won't regret it."

"If there's anything I regret, it's that I couldn't cut Emilia's connection... because neither did Iselia say anything about Emilia."

"It was the continued edge that brought her into this... I know, I know"

You are:

- I don't care about revenge anymore.

Because,

- You hate yourself the most and you can't forgive me.

Lynn opens her mouth to argue with the words of the Spirit, who understood everything from the beginning.

"... the boulder was created on its own by my deep psychology."

In the end, I could only find words of affirmation with irony.

I'm tired of keeping turning away from my true self.

Lynn exhaled to quiet the anger she was exploding,

"... I still have feelings that I can't forgive. I have both the desire to take revenge on my beloved parents and the resentment that my life has been ruined. But......!

If you remember everything and think back to those days that Emilia normally spent laughing,

"... I am! I just hurt Emilia, thinking Emilia was important... and at the end of the day, I got Emilia involved in my life... and I let her die. No, I killed Emilia."

I am not false that Emilia was important.

But Lynn, who was mixed up with various emotions, made the wrong choice at the end when she was presented with her death before her eyes.

That's what

"... I was scared. There was fear in dying here... so I wanted to justify myself that I was going to die for Emilia, I did!

I killed the scattered people, and now I wonder what I can do.

I've never felt fear of dying before.

Even so,

"I just wanted Emilia to be happy! Don't mind me, I just want you to live for yourself... but there was no way I could imitate that I would expose myself to death in front of you!

I'm sure if it was Lynn who was pierced with a flaming dagger, Emilia would have been unable to forgive herself for life.

I hate myself for the rest of my life for not being able to protect Lynn, for remaining helpless.

Lynn was scared of it before her immutable death.

Think only of Emilia until that moment when you're mad at anger,

"... I don't know anymore, I..."

Lynn vomits a weak sound she never leaked to anyone with a distorted face that still seems to cry.

"Hate..." "The Spirit Tree”, "The Knights" and I (...), all of them, I can't help but hate the whole world! But I don't have the strength or the energy to make it happen anymore... and I can't forget my revenge! You trample Emilia's wishes. But if you don't kill them all, you're going crazy... and you still have reason to just go crazy on me, it makes my head laugh!

This thought tied Lynn up like an intense allusion that Emilia could not erase even now that she was resurrected.

The "Spirit," who is also Lynn herself, weeps quietly from those red and black eyes, like Lynn's replacement, who cannot afford to be sad enough to cry,

"... Still, you want power."

"... oh yeah"

"... turn your back on her wishes, before you end up scorching yourself with hatred... so that the spearhead of that hatred doesn't turn out for her... revenge, you get drunk. I won't let you get out again, sweet pleasure... you gave yourself up."

Filling the distance that was open, the "Spirit” holds both hands of Lynn.

That hand is much colder than you might have imagined,

"... don't worry. You've been crazy for a long time now."

Its cold, it was very comfortable.

"I'm just losing sight of myself because I've accumulated too much emotion. You are much stronger than you think you are… I assure you. 'Cause I've been watching it."

……

"You bled too much. You'll never be able to go back… you'll never be happy again."

"... I know that from the beginning"

"Ha, you did"

squeezed his hand gently, grinning gently. “The Spirit” gazed,

"But this“ Spirit ”thinks of you as the owner of such a pure and beautiful heart. It's a completely colorless, empty, blank world, but it's beautiful because nothing exists."

"... I'm not a personable person"

"Yes, it is. I'm a sad, pathetic avenger, let's bloody and slaughter. And it's evil that should be wiped out by justice."

Still, the “Spirit” draws a gripping hand to his forehead.

"The" Spirit ”has good and evil emotions and a solid personality because it is a being born out of your deep psyche. And the Spirit of Evil, born of Evil, is destined to be eliminated if the same Spirit knows about it."

"That, I guess...... because it doesn't have good and evil,“ the Spirit ”is accepted by people"

"Yes, this Spirit helped evil by knowing it was evil... like a fallen angel."

"Fallen Angel, or... So you're saying“ Protector ”is an angel?

"I can't dye that white wing in any color, that's what you'd call it."

But they will be no stranger to evil again.

Is it allowed to exist because the "Spirit Tree” acknowledges it, or is it not exposed as evil?

Either way, Lynn decides to remember to look into the questions that remain in the corner of her head if she has a chance.

"... why were you giving me strength... protection?

Why did the "Spirit” give shelter to Lynn, who could never be called good and who can't remember doing what the “Spirit” has loved?

To some question like this now,

"I've decided to do that. Because you needed the Spirit."

With a full grin, "Spirit” replied.

On that smile, Lynn smiled unexpectedly, feeling as bright as Emilia,

"... hey. What the hell was I supposed to do?

It's a lot lighter than before, so I ask.

“The Spirit” shook his hand, leaning his neck as it was, roaring,

"... right"

I can't fit in,

"- Shall we pretend to be on their side (...) to kill one or more" Protectors ”?

“The Spirit" answered innocently, without hesitation, the answer that Lynn wanted most.