Senpensekai no Madoushoshi

Overnight vacated from exploring underground dungeons.

He listened to Atashi's favor properly and Toslin didn't drink a drop yesterday. Well, I didn't originally like alcohol, I only drink it when it's a celebration or something, so I wasn't worried about that.

It seems that time is free until the next request, and Atashi and the others will each be spending time at the school again. At first I wondered why I was in this place or something, but when I started living and saw it, I found it easy to spend it inside.

It's quiet in the school building, it's beautiful, and the lunch is delicious. If there's anything you don't understand, you can ask Iris, but if something comes up that's hard to ask, it's a tremendous advantage to be able to find out for yourself.

"... hmm? Hmm? In this case...... how is it right to write?

Yes, this is the time, for example. Atashi is now doing something else with Kossoli, apart from the homework he is giving out to Iries.

Oh, I'm not playing anything else, am I? This is also a proper study...... or Atashi's motivation to study? It is what has become.

Actually, Atashi is writing to you now. No, 'I'm trying to write' to be exact.

To whom, of course, it's Toslin. Atashi is an idiot, so he's not very good at communicating his feelings.

Even then, if Toslin hadn't told Atashi his thoughts first, I'm sure Atashi wouldn't have been able to tell Toslin his feelings forever after finding some reason.

But I knew that Toslin and I liked each other, and then I became in a relationship with my lover, and I thought again. He said you can't keep it that way.

Toslin has been with me for ten years, and I guess... he'll keep Atashi aside. But you can't if you're sweet about that tenderness, I felt painful in Sorretta's somehow mountain.

I have to convey my thoughts. I can't convey them. But the words that convey those thoughts will fade one day too.

And if... if Atashi dies on an adventure ahead, I can't tell him what I think anymore.

I don't think Toslin will ever forget Atashi, but so that Atashi can't remember Mom and Dad's face, so does Atashi's memory.

So I wanted to make something that shaped my thoughts. I wanted to write something called a letter so scared that I couldn't sleep at night.

Write how Atashi feels now and give it to Toslin... Toslin can always see it. I can confirm Atashi's feelings. I can get you to remember.

Is it a little... heavy? Would it be selfish of you to want Toslin to remember Atashi even after he's dead?

……

A little, stop and think. And imagine. Next to Toslin, other than Atashi... where strangers stand.

"... no..."

No, no. Definitely not.

My eyes are getting hot and my tears are about to seep out jittery. The back of his nose hurt so much that Atashi looked around in a panic.

After making sure no one was there, I stuffed my eyes with crap and my hands. Once I was dying, I began to imagine Toslin after Atashi was gone.

Until now, I haven't really felt death, and I never thought about that. We've been together forever, and I believed that for no reason.

But it's not. We could always die. There is no guarantee that you will never die like the protagonist in the story.

"Let's write..."

After all, let's write. I don't care. You can be selfish. I can forget, because I'm too sad.

The content to be communicated has already been decided. All you have to do is write it on paper as a letter.

No, that's not all. I need to write it so I can read it beautifully. All the time, it's what's left.

Atashi wrote even letters on the paper for practice. When the bell rang two, three, and the fourth rang and the lunch bell rang, Atashi finally stopped his hand and raised his face.

"... Today, let's make this about it"

I just apply letters to words and write them, but that 'only' is very difficult.

But that's why I'm happy when it's done well, and... I'm sure you'll get compliments.

That's amazing, maybe you could stroke my head too.

……

Beyond the window, I looked out into the blue sky.

There are students on the ground who have finished their classes, some of whom are Toslin.

I knew I was surrounded by a lot of girls today. He's got a cool smile on his face and he's talking about something.

"... I know."

As much as that is the smile of going (approx.), I understand it properly in my head.

Toslin likes Atashi properly. Of that guy, I'm sure Atashi is special and the best.

Yesterday, my hands... they connected me.

……

But it doesn't matter if I'm convinced by heart or not.

Even though I know that's my fault, it's not funny that there's someone beside Toslin who's not me. Ailees or something is still fine, but someone I don't know about Atashi is next door...... it was a little different. It was so.

"Ha... let's go for dinner..."

Atashi snapped that way toward Toslin, who was surrounded by girls and headed back to the school building.

It's like an appliance......

... You can't even hear me.