Shi ni Modori, Subete wo Sukuu Tame ni Saikyou He to Itaru

"Have you - have you ever really waved a sword?

To my question, Mr. Yulina frowns.

"Seriously, you say? What's that supposed to mean?

"You're right. You probably never really waved your sword."

When I assured you so, I just revealed my anger.

"Don't be ridiculous. I have been waving my sword every day. It will be decided to wave one at a time and to be serious."

Mr. Yulina goes on to say things in a risky way.

"Eric, I fought you and found out about your sword. Perhaps you, like me, kept waving your sword for real every day. I thought you and I would know that if we crossed swords..."

The word had meaning in discouragement, not anger.

I did learn of Mr. Yulina's sword in that duel.

I also know that I really waved my sword every day.

But that's not what I mean.

"Mr. Yulina and I are not serious. By comparison, I'm more serious about it."

"What... are you trying to tell me I didn't come serious?

If I had a sword, I could still see that I was so angry that I was about to be slashed.

"Did Mr. Yulina ever - ever kill a person?

"Get people...?

You'll be questioning the question again without my thumping.

"A sword is a tool for killing people"

Protect yourself, say wave your sword to protect your loved ones, but that means hurting someone other than yourself or your loved ones.

"Did Mr. Yulina wave her sword every day ready for that?

"... ready to kill people, you mean?

"Yes, it is"

……

Mr. Yulina can't answer.

That would be so. None of the Knights would be ready to kill people and wave their swords every day.

I've killed people before.

"-!"

You probably would have guessed in my question, but I'm still a little surprised.

I killed Felix, who has attacked the village in this world.

Even in previous life, he has slashed and killed dozens or hundreds of people standing on the battlefield.

And I have no regrets at all.

That's the path I chose for whoever I wanted to protect.

But still, killing people can't be justice.

"Of course I didn't kill them indiscriminately, I only killed them when they were evil to me. Otherwise, you won't be able to join the Knights."

"... right"

I'm a little horrified by my words, Mr. Yulina.

That's right, I wouldn't be able to sleep at night if someone living in a room with me from today was a pleasure killer.

"I used to wave my sword every day ready to kill people. This is the real difference between Julina and me."

"... you mean that. For you, my sword is equal to playing."

That's the polar theory, but it might make sense.

I don't think there's any point in swinging a sword that isn't ready to kill people.

"I thought you'd never lose if you were a man of your generation... not yet, neither have I. I never thought of waving my sword so ready. I just enjoy being strong, so I didn't want to lose, etc."

"Normally, I think so."

Back in my previous life, I became strong thinking that if I wasn't stronger, I would die, that no one could protect me.

I have waved my sword with that readiness, thinking I need to be strong in this world as well.

"I want to wave my sword with that readiness right now... I think so, but I guess not"

A sword is a tool that kills people, even if you think so, you usually won't be able to be that ready.

Unless, like me, you want to risk your life to protect something.

"Will I be able to wield my sword for real one day too...?

"... if you have something you really want to protect, you can do it."

"... something you really want to protect,"

That being said, there's not going to be much like that.

At best, my life, my family's life, that's about it.

Besides, that would never be possible just to think about it now.

If you really don't put yourself or your family in danger, you won't be able to seriously think about it.

"I don't want to lose now, I think it's enough to want to be strong. Besides, that's not why you lost to me, is it? I'm not sure it's the strength of my thoughts."

"Right, I thought the reason I lost to you was technical, and mental. If we work it out, we might beat you one day."

Did you look back at that battle and figure out what you were missing?

The power to analyze such a self is also an absolutely necessary force to be strong.

"Training begins again tomorrow… I hope to work with you again then"

"Of course, I'll take it. It's not that easy to beat."

"Next time...... no, I'd rather not say anything unrealistic. But one day I'll always win"

That's what Ms. Yulina says, and she smiles a little and offers her hand.

I take that hand too and smile back.

It was not a weak handshake at the end of the duel, but a powerful handshake this time.

"It's time for dinner. Shall we go to the dining room?"

"Right."

I was being guided, but is that already the time?

Well, I left the village this morning, and as soon as I got to King's Capital, I met with His Majesty, and when I finished and came over, it was a duel.

We had a pretty thick day.

In the cafeteria I was just led to, I was supposed to walk forward in a general sense.

I usually got there because I don't have that much memory or I'm directional tone deaf.

There were already quite a few people in the dining room, each of them getting a meal and taking their seats to eat.

Me and Mr. Yulina get a meal, too, and we take our seats face-to-face.

Eating while we chatted for a while, I heard him calling my name.

"Eriku! Let's eat together -!

It was Tina who approached me with that in mind.

Tina, who sat next to me without hearing my reply, quickly began to talk about what was going on while I was gone.

What did you buy when you went to the city and did something?

I hear you talk to me with a full smile, with a gavel, too.

"You guys are really close."

That's what Mr. Yulina, who was sitting face to face, talks to me to see how we are.

"Well, we've been dating since I was 0, so we've been together for sixteen years."

I've had my memories since I was 0... it's been tough, cuddling hard on me when I was 0, so I almost died many times.

"I don't have that kind of opponent... I'm a little jealous."

"Mr. Yulina... it's okay, because we're going to be spending time together"

"... right, Eric and I are going to get along. It's not like the men I've seen before."

That's not a different personality, I just feel stronger than Mr. Yulina... well, I'm honestly glad you said that.

"Mmmm... you two are getting along"

"Hmm? Well, a little bit."

I listen to me and Mr. Yulina, and that's what Tina says as she swells.

Can you tell me we're getting along even from Tina's eyes?

"Hey, Eric, give me your ear."

"Hmm? What?

Tina put her face in my ear and with a small voice,

"Just because we're alone in the room... if you wake up weird, no?

That's what I've told you.

I'm surprised, I let go of my face, and I look at Tina... with my eyes losing the light that I sometimes show, I'm grinning nicely.

"Wow, I get it..."

Even though I didn't feel like it at all, I somehow feel like I'm doing something wrong and I'm being respectful.

Scary...... Tina, seriously scared......

In front of me was Yulina, eating a meal and tilting her neck when she saw how I had changed after I slapped her in the ear.