Anna's confession made my chest bitter.
Of course there is confusion.
The memories of my previous life and the stories I was told were about a world I could never imagine.
To say that I've known about this country since my last life. And most importantly, that we look just like the characters that come out of something called the Maiden Game.
And that Anna Carroll, whom I knew, was her, not her.
Still, the desire to make it happen even when she destroyed herself.
Getting to that will be difficult as far as I've heard.
And Anna herself had noticed.
Besides, couldn't you have protected yourself if you hadn't escaped reality?
I foretold, "I'm sorry," as I took my seat, clutching her to the full strength.
"Well done."
Anna looked at me jiggly with a pocan look for a moment.
But right after that, I gradually twisted my face and whimpered like a child.
But it also started crying out loud, unbearably.
In the meantime, Anna told me desperately, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry," as she jammed her words over and over.
I didn't know anything about her.
She was alone in solitude.
I lost my memory of Anna Carroll and remembered my previous life.
And now I'm about to lose my memory of my previous life again.
Even though I went back in time, I went back to the people I knew, including my own parents, and Sarah.
But Anna came one day to a place where no one knew.
Without any explanation.
…… how anxious I was.
How lonely I was.
It's not like I'm going to be anything with her in my arms.
Maybe it's self-satisfying.
But she was caged alone in the shell in the dark, and now she's about to step out for the first time.
I'm trying to expose myself without armor for the first time.
When I think of her loneliness like that, I want to lean on her thoughts, above all personal emotions, that I have endured well by myself before...
That's what I felt naturally.
After a while, Anna seems to have regained some calm.
I let go of the arms I was holding and go back to my seat across the street.
Then, Anna turned her gaze straight at me without hiding her eyes that turned bright red like a rabbit.
"Thank you for listening, Mr. Rachel"
Ha-ha-ha look up at Anna's words.
Anna's gloomy impression until earlier makes her face slightly calm as if she had blown it off.
"Maybe you wanted someone to ask you.
That there was a man named Apricot. That I was alive... "
"Yep."
"Besides, I forgot.
The warmth of people, the kindness of people…… such warm emotions. "
Anna, who put it that way, is not here, after looking somewhere far away, she turned her gaze to me again.
That felt exactly like the moment she turned her attention to this world from a distant world now.
"I'm not asking you to forgive me.
Because I think that's all I've done...
I did terrible things to Mr. Rachel, to His Highness and to everyone else. "
"Anna..."
Anna's expression, saying so, gives a look of genuine regret for the past.
I'm sure she could only live that way.
But not from now on.
Now that I can't think of this place as the world of games anymore.
Maybe it's from now on that she really suffers.
I suffer from past and present memories, I cry thinking of someone I will never see again, and I am frightened by the fear that I disappear.
… What if I am?
It's just frightening to think about it.
Such suffering surely strikes her…… Just thinking about it makes me feel sad again in the back of my chest.
"What are we going to do?
"From now on...
Well, I have to think about what's going to happen. Oh, but I'll talk to His Majesty properly. He's not getting engaged, and he's not going to go to the neighborhood. "
… Will His Majesty hear that?
I honestly don't think Her Majesty would shake her head vertically for telling Her Majesty that.
She must have had a purpose and brought up the story of her engagement to His Highness, but even His Majesty has a purpose.
And that wouldn't be a story I just brought up, like Mr. Anna, ready to throw and hit everything, no matter what.
In Your Majesty it is no longer likely to be an easy story to hear where she said how much "I will stop now".
… I'm sure she thinks so much about it now. Speaking of which, I wouldn't think so.
She's, well put, straight.
To put it badly, it may be dull on people's malice.
I'm sure it's because the memory of the aristocratic society is faint.
… Your Majesty, honestly, is scared.
Ever since I saw it the other day, I've come to think of it in particular.
But I am certain that the future I want will not come... if I seem to be avoiding His Majesty.
Thinking about it makes me feel heavier.
Without noticing my dark expression, Anna uttered a powerful word, "That and".
"I'm going to take a good look at it in the future. People in this world."
"Yep."
"I don't know how long I can have an apricot memory. But Anna is definitely me, and so is Apricot..."
Same in previous life, same now.
Anna's feeling is something I wouldn't understand.
Because it's something I haven't experienced.
But I'm pretty sure Anna's starting to face herself right now.
"I'm still not sorted out in my head right now... I'll try to get Mr. Rachel to be friends with the real Anna Carroll again this time..."
"Yes, it's okay. It's not..."
In my words, Anna burst into tears again in her bright red eyes for a moment.
But when I forced myself to smile, I shook my neck slowly and vertically.
"I think you'll regret it more than once.
I'm sure I should have, I don't know why I did it. But you'll never get what you wanted again.
… Still, I have to live. "
"Right. Because you and I are being brought to life at this moment."
That's right.
I don't know who or what the intent is and who put my time back.
At the same time, I do not know if you have recalled Ms. Anna's previous life.
But surely we live this time.
Is it to start over, or does it mean something different?
I don't know why.
For her, I can't even imagine if it's a good thing that she remembered her previous life.
Maybe I didn't have to suffer to be Anna Carroll without remembering previous lives like before.
Still, some power worked on me and Mr. Anna.
What it means.
… After all, does it also have to do with the loss of my magic powers?
Again, he reiterated the need to know why.
about Anna at the same time.
She doesn't ask for forgiveness.
That must be what she will look back at herself and do in the future.
I suppose you want me to judge you by that behavior.
… I feel that way because I made a mistake too.
That said, what she did. That was an attempt to restore my engagement with His Highness to blank paper.
Sure, that's hard and painful for me. Even if Ms. Anna doesn't want her engagement to Her Highness anymore now, I don't know what answer Her Majesty will give.
But without this, would I have tried to face my last period?
Didn't you make it good without magic?
I guess I was in the position of fiancée of His Highness as I was protected by His Highness and given.
This is a necessary test for me as well.
You have to think so.
"It's time for you to excuse me," Anna said as she stood up from her chair, taking one small, deep breath.
And turned to me, bowing his head deep and deep.
After a few seconds of lowering her head, the next time Anna left the room with her face up, without looking down.
And in her missing room, I remembered seeing Anna's thank you earlier.
She thought words and deeds were not very aristocratic.
But the manners were sophisticated and I didn't think I wore them overnight.
I mean, between when she remembers her previous life memories and when she met me, maybe shorter than that.
I guess it's something I wore desperately, with the thought of blood seeping.
… One of the thanks conveyed her strong feelings so far.
Even if that was wrong.
Still, someday.
It would be nice if the day came when we could laugh at each other in a real way with her.
Am I wrong to think so?