3.
What's the most luxurious thing you can see when you open your eyes?
Some might say it's a pale sky, and some might say it's an [unknown ceiling], but at least I can answer this question.
“Confucius.”
That's Raviel.
“Are you awake? ”
Raviel lifts a flimsy finger and touches my forehead, her little finger. I stroked my forehead, leaving a rhythmic sensation, with my first knuckle bone and middle knuckle.
“Raviel……."
“Hmm."
“It's been so hard...."
I felt like I was about to shed tears.
The world I'm standing in now is a spy world. Foreign currency, among others. This is where Kim Yul and Eugene live in the same secondary school. The group decides to stay in the home of the crystal for a while.
“I was going to dream... God. The tower. This human is just a crazy person who has been traumatized his whole life...."
Ubrica and the Amethyst (this side of the world) were also looking at this, but I couldn't stop clinging to Raviel. Now my heart needed a soft fragrance of white lily.
“My whole life is traumatizing? How is that possible? ”
“He's always in his head, always remembering the death of others. even by transferring it to them. [If I had been in that battlefield, I wouldn't have said anything, either. I would have been stabbed to death by the cavalry.] That way……."
“Isn't this just a delusion? ”
“I wish I was delusional... …. This crazy bitch, she really made it possible. You get the skills to move through time, don't you remember everything that happens to you, knowing everything about the world, taking that…."
“Mmm-hmm. ”
Raviel patted me on the back.
She was smiling bitterly.
“My wife must have seen something terrible. It's rare. It's okay. We were safe with nothing going on. You can lean on me a little more. ”
“Raviel……! ”
“No, there must be one way to take a long vacation. Didn't [Wonder Girl] say. This city is strictly segregated between the outside and the time. Take a week, a month, and rest until you want to. Confucius, if it's time to soothe you and me, I'd be happy too. ”
Eventually, tears came out.
How can my wife be so strong?
“I never saw my father cry. Ugh..."
“Is that so?"
“Wooger. I've never seen you before, but if you look at it twice, you can't say you're Abby." In that sense, I've been patient so far. I'll go to bed first... "
I said, "Oh, I'm going to stretch this out for you, Mr. Ubrica. ”
“Thank you, landlord...."
Ubrica thumped, the quartz (this side of the world) thumped, revealing each other's mass in the living room.
Now it's just me and Raviel on the bluffs.
“Raviel……."
“Speak, Confucius. ”
Raviel hugged me more comfortably as I became calm with fewer people. After kissing my forehead, Raviel slapped me with his knees wide open.
“It would be terrible if our Confucius could shed tears. But I can't get a clear impression of what I just heard in my head. Try to solve it a little more. ”
“…… Yes. ”
Prison.
I lay my head on Raviel's lap. I thought my head might be heavy, so I put some error on my head and reduced the weight to Raviel. Of course. I give my hair strength to designers even when they wash their hair at the barbershop!
“Cook."
Raviel howls overhead.
“Confucius.”
“Yes."
“The belly is cute. But not thank you. How heavy would your sleazy head have been if it had been so heavy? I want your weight intact. Honey, pull yourself out of your neck. ”
“Ugh…."
“Well done. Well done. You have to release your strength from your neck to make everything go smoothly. ”
Summer.
There was shade in the sky, and shadows on the bluffs. The sensation of the wind cooling twice on the clouds and rooftops was not bad. I feel good. I put my head to Raviel's knees as if I were trying to hide from the world.
“Good.”
Raviel laughs silently.
“My lover takes a long journey and returns unscathed. That was, like, a really good thing. I didn't know this at first. I've had a lot of good things in my life since the day I met you. ”
"......."
“What was so sad? ”
“The Amethyst...... The Tower is going to comfort all the people who are abandoned in this world. ”
The cool summer evening air flowed in the shade.
In the shabby courtyard of Hanok, there were weeping insects everywhere.
“If there's a child burning right now, show that child a different world. [If the passenger was with a child]. We create a world like that, and we live happily ever after with children. Hundreds of thousands, millions, tens of millions...."
“That sounds very divine. Is there a problem? ”
“... because there are those who want revenge, not happiness. ”
The summer breeze blows.
“The world is just a living hell. All the suffering I have suffered has come from hell, and it cannot be resolved, and it will not be changed. So the only solution..."
“[I will inflict more pain on him who did this to me]. ”
“…… Yes. ”
I leaned more against Raviel's body.
“The tower watches him suffer in hell, from beginning to end. Through skills, and not helping when you can, not stopping when you can, just watching. ”
"......."
Raviel's hand stops.
But it was only for a moment.
“Indeed.”
Raviel strokes my back head slowly, as if he understood everything.
“I am the master of the tower, not just because you are unhappy. That's what you're trying to say. ”
“Yes."
“The victims' grudges will naturally be directed against the passengers. If the Towermaster is a god, or a god, he will try to take down more and more of his riders, beat, tear, trample, and unwind. How...? ”
“Yes."
I didn't nod.
I just left the weight of my head to Raviel, numb, expressionless, and my lips opened.
“That's what they say. ”
"......."
“I hope so. All the people who think they've been sacrificed in the kingdom want to return to themselves exactly the same, as much pain as they've suffered in life. ”
“That's ……."
“In fact, the tower sees the whole life of the person who brings back the damage. I know what lies and what lies are not. It's not just compassion, it's knowledge, it's embracing the other person's pain. ”
"......."
Mimi cries in the grass.
“There's always someone stabbed to death, burned to death, trampled to death in his head. Always. Always. I've been playing those memories with one side of my head all day. He's actually been stabbed, burned, trampled. It's screaming, Raviel. In the Tower's mind, only a scream is heard...."
“Yes. Was that our God? ”
Raviel sighs for a long time.
“[Wish happiness if you want happiness. If you want to suffer, suffer.] The simpler the proposition, the heavier the human will weigh, the more likely the rider will be to bear the weight of all mortals. ”
“…… Yes. ”
“That's terrible. ”
Raviel swept over my side of the head.
The red eyes looked right at me.
“In the end, the solution is also concise. Confucius.”
“... That's right. ”
“Those who seek happiness on their own, not on the outside. He doesn't need a ride. He who overcomes pain not on the outside, but himself. He also doesn't need a passenger. ”
“That's right.”
“Everyone has to bear their own misfortunes. Of course, there are very few people who can do it because it's only natural. How many people in the world can live their natural lives? They say it's natural, they say it's natural, they make what they need to do happen, they make what they need to do happen..."
It's hard.
Raviel mutters, looking up at the evening sky.
Maybe it reminds her of the [difficult] point of life.
“You've done nothing wrong." Confucius. "
“Yes. [You weren't born wrong], the tower said. ”
“It's a sad story. ”
Raviel skillfully picked a can of soda and asked on his lips.
A sip of thirst subsides, and she slowly says.
“In other words, it is. ”
I was wrong.
Oh, I'm sorry.
I'm sorry.
“Only he was born wrong in this world. ”
"......."
"Confucius.”
"Yes."
"Is the Tower strong? ”
I remembered the Milky Way looking up from the ruins of the Harlem family.
countless white butterflies flying. Starlight made of butterflies.
“Yes, very strong. ”
“Can you beat him? ”
“I'll win.”
Raviel looks down straight into my eyes.
“I demand a more solid answer from my man. ”
"......."
“I didn't love someone who might be in love. We didn't make a lifelong pact with people who might die together. I loved someone to love, and I promised to die with them. Confucius. If you were the moon of Ivan, you would tell me a little more. ”
“Yes, Raviel. ”
I nodded.
“I win. ”
“Win.”
Raviel's palm grabbed my cheek.
“The reason I chose you as my companion for life is because you have won. because it doesn't collapse. because I don't forget happiness. When the Rider will triumph using Samran's misfortune as a fertilizer, only triumph with happiness, Duke. ”
Raviel's face grows closer.
“Make all who are near you happy. Make me happy to be with you. Teach and train to be happy, to be happy with you. So fill this tower with all the happy. ”
“As hard as it may be..."
I smiled.
“Let's take it slow. Well.”
“That's how I fell in love. But……."
Raviel smiles.
“First of all, I want to make me the happiest. ”
We kissed.
“The landlord and Ubrica must have overheard.... ”
“The landlord didn't care about that. I've already checked.”
“What about Ubrica? She thinks of me as a real father. ”
“Indeed. If a father groans and screams, there may be a scratch on the child's pure heart. ”
Raviel howls.
“Honey, I don't want to moan. ”
Mmm-hmm.
“Raviel……? ”
“Why is that? My love."
“What are you doing with a thin towel...? ”
“I am trying to be considerate of you, so that you will not groan quietly. ”
“That's not actually how you care about Ubrica, is it? You're just doing it because you want to enjoy it, right? ”
“Shh."
Raviel slammed my mouth in a playful manner. Raviel's red eyes gleam like Ruby's.
“The child sleeps. Be quiet.”
What can I do in this situation?
I have to take my wife's brother's line.
I love you, Raviel.
I love you forever.
4.
The next morning.
“Ahhhh…… Ahhh? ”
I came out of the living room, and I ran into Ubrica.
I howled and waved at Ubrica.
“Good morning. Son.”
“Then why do you look like a mountain tribe chewing rock salt? Oh, you're so big you can only sleep on the floor. I can't help it. ”
Ubrica shudders.
“My child, Abby...."
“Abby is a fierce loser! ”
[The constellation "The Muscle Pig Dreaming of the Wheel" is in despair!]
Ubrica rushes out into the backyard, vomiting the roaring lion. Bang, bang, bang, bang. I was worried that the old hanok would break because the footsteps were so violent. I checked the safety of the hanok floor and chipped my tongue.
“What's wrong with him? He's not a kid.”
Is that because you're a teenager?
It's so hard raising a child.