Still, Wait For Me

People need someone who can tolerate you saying no, someone who can cry in front of him without giving a reason.

Most of the time, we don't.

By the time he was ready to come down from the rooftop balcony, Xu Tiansheng had regained a calm face and a gentle smile. Apart from his weakness, no one can see anything different about him.

Xu Daddy went downstairs with his shoulder.

Xu Ma is busy in the kitchen.

apple stands at the kitchen door. Xu Tiansheng looked at it for a while and seemed very anxious. She tried to go in and help several times and hesitated to move forward. For her, it was a perfectly normal state of affairs, and this was the first time she had met Xu's parents, naturally hoping to make a good impression.

It was too sudden for her today. She didn't even have time to get dressed properly. Ask Xu Tingsheng what Xu's parents liked. Mind you, these exacerbated her panic.

Another reason is that Xu Ma's divinity and attitude are not good, which is not really about apple, but apple feels it.

Xu Ma came to IWA with her anger. She was only angry with Xu Tin. Then, when she found out that several girls seemed to have wronged her sick baby son, she became more angry and targeted.

Besides, she doesn't like the state of life of Xu Tianjing. She still thinks of Ye Yingjing. In her opinion, a girl as generous as Ye Yingjing, with the same temperament as Lan, is the one Xu Tianjing should grasp.

Together, Xu Tiansheng can imagine that when Mom took the cooking job from Apple, she should not pay much attention to her attitude.

This is Xu's mother, so how could Apple not be worried?

Xu Tinsheng walked over, pulled the apron strap for her, unwrapped the apron, and whispered: “My mother is angry with me. Don't worry, come and sit down. Let's talk to my dad. ”

apple looked at Xu Tiansheng, looked at the kitchen again, hesitated, opened her mouth without knowing how to say good. She seemed very anxious to wait for her meal.

“Go make my dad a cup of tea.” Xu Tiansheng said.

So apple finally seemed to find a reason to feel safe, and made the tea and went to Xu's father and said, "Uncle, have some tea. ”

“Thank you," Xu Daddy said. "Thank you for taking care of the gardener these past few days. ”

“Me, I didn't take care of it," apple said with some shame.

“A lot of things have to be learned slowly. You're a little kid yourself, and you've done well. Actually, having this heart is the most important thing, and my uncle is very grateful to you, so I'll have time to go home later.” Xu Daddy smiled.

“Um, okay.” apple looked at Xu Gardener, a little shy, and the joy of not covering it up.

Just talked to Xu Daddy for a while, and apple's emotions have eased a lot.

The generosity and stability of Xu Da can easily make people feel solid in front of him, such as the spring breeze, which Xu Tianzheng may not learn all his life, is the build-up of floating patience, life depression.

At dinner, Lu Xin opened Xu Da a bottle of wine she had treasured. This bottle of wine Xu Tiansheng had discussed many times before, and she couldn't help it.

The ecology on the table is like this.

Most people, including apple himself, are eating Xu Ma's dishes, sincere or “hypocritical” compliments. Only Xu Tingsheng and Xu Daddy had two dishes that Apple had cooked before they ate from time to time, although the taste was really a little miserable, and said: “It's already good to start learning. ”

Then Xu Ma asked where Apple went to school and when it started.

apple looked at Xu Tiansheng and didn't know how to answer. Did she ask her to say to Xu Ma: “I'm out of school, stay here? ”

Xu Tinsheng covered up her past with haha.

Lu Zhixin and Xu Da talk about wine, then talk about business, talk about her family's business, mutually honest development, and even some of her thoughts on the future development of cheer shopping.

Although Xu Da had long heard about the importance of this girl in mutual honesty and her abilities, he was still somewhat surprised at this time. He couldn't help but praise and acknowledge that the more he talked about speculation.

Fang Orange also rarely talks about her own affairs, even mentioning for the first time her retired grandfather's name: Fang Guoxiang.

Xu Tiansheng and Xu Daddy looked at each other. This was one of the great characters of Graduate Sea Province.

So apple started to get more helpless, and she found herself seemingly useless, unable to even plug in the conversation.

Xu Tiansheng finished the whole bowl of rice for the first time these days.

“I'll serve you dinner. ”

apple saw Xu Tiansheng finally ate some more. She couldn't help but be happy and finally found something to do. She reached over and grabbed Xu Tiansheng's bowl.

Because of nervousness and panic, the bowl slipped in her hand and fell to the floor.

“Pong”

The bowl broke on the ground.

What was broken was just a bowl, but apple's suppressed emotions seemed to crumble immediately with the sound, his hands and feet stunned, standing there staring down, tears in his eyes.

The whole table looked at me, and Xu Ma looked up.

Xu Tiansheng put his right arm up high, so he said to Apple: "It's not my fault, it's your fault you didn't hold it high enough, I bumped into it as soon as I lifted my arm. ”

Xu Ma looked at it and said, "Do you want someone to hold the bowl to the sky? It's someone else's fault. ”

“I lifted my lower arm and wanted to stretch my lazy waist.” Xu Tiansheng pleaded.

“Nor can that be blamed. Forget it, peace in pieces.” Xu Ma said.

Xu Tiansheng knew her mother very well. That's how she got her temper. That's why he did it.

After packing up the pieces of ground, Xu Gardener and Apple entered the kitchen together, looking at the tears in Apple's eyes and the helpless look, Xu Gardener reached out to hold her palm and pinched her palm.

“Peace of mind, there's me. ”

“I'm sorry, I'm useless," apple said.

“No, don't think about it, don't mess around, I'm on your side, and Mom really doesn't have a bad heart, she's just that temper, me and Dad are usually afraid of her.” Xu Tiansheng consoled.

“But I'm really useless, compared to Fang Orange, compared to Ji Xinbi, except to drag you, I'm useless at all. Turns out, I learned to take care of you, I could just wash your laundry and cook for life, but... I can't even hold a bowl. And you're not supposed to need a woman like that, and Xin Xin is too good for me. ”

the more the apple starts to say, the more excited it gets.

“apple, calm down, things aren't as bad as you think. First of all, I'm not really willing to mix my life with my career, and you don't have to put pressure on yourself. Secondly, Lu Xin's ability comes from the environment in which she grew up. These are the things we don't have. In some ways, you can't compare your weaknesses to the strengths of others. So you can't be better than others? We're done here? There is no perfect man in the world. ”

“But I'm not as good as anyone else. ”

“Of course there is. For example, you can sing. So many people like you, …”

Xu Tiansheng said the wrong thing, and now he says it may only make apple more stinging and lost.

He just wanted to explain that Apple took the initiative to skip the topic and said, "Tianjin, when you get better, I'll start learning from Xin Xin and learn to do something sincere, okay? I'll try. ”

“Okay, I believe you. ”

Xu Tiansheng knew that the apple was not suitable, but could not refuse it now. Xu Tiansheng will support anything she is willing to do and anything that is positive.

……

Xu Pa Xu Ma stayed at the river bank until almost 10 o'clock at the hotel.

Because of the apple's emotional instability, Xu Gardener insisted on staying.

This evening, Xu Gardener's body temperature rose again, burning the whole person confused.Apple held him, letting him put his headrest on his leg, watching carefully, nervously, helplessly.

But Xu Tiansheng insisted that she not tell Xu Ma.

apple understands why.

In a state of confusion, Xu asked Apple:

“If I die, how will you live? ”

apple cried voluntarily because of this sudden, heavy question, but found herself unanswered, because if there had to be an answer, that is, all she had to do was think about it and feel empty.

She actually doesn't have a life anymore.

“Actually, I died once. Actually, that time, you had your own life, and you lived well.” Xu Tiansheng said.

He spoke unconsciously, and apple could not understand that he had died once. What she heard was that Xu Tinsheng was saying, hoping that he could live well without him.

“If it were me, I'd been wondering, wouldn't you actually be better off without me? You still have such a big career, and a lot more,..."

apple asks Xu Gardener.

“I think I'll live my whole life in insecurity and guilt. Thank you for loving me, but I hope you like yourself first, have a life you love, such as sunshine and comfort, such as singing and traveling, …" Xu Tiansheng buried his head, whispering.

“I promise you, I won't make you feel guilty or anxious. I'll live a good life. ”

while pouring water to Xu Tiansheng, Apple turned back to his room, took out a few bottles of sleeping pills from his suitcase, looked at them, and threw them into the river outside the window.