Still, Wait For Me
Chapter 518 Lonely, Ancient Innocence
The three of them sat in the garden downstairs and drank a few jars of Qingdao beer that Xu Tiansheng had bought on the way, although at this time they were paying for a table full of good wine.
“By the way, when did you come up with that?” Sincerely asked.
“When you were all hiding things from me," Huang Yaming snarled with an empty jar and said, "When you both arrived, you knew what you were not saying, such as Fu Cheng, you would rather argue with me than speak up. I knew then that I could never go that far. ”
Brothers persuade you, and they feel they can no longer persuade you… these are two completely different concepts.
“Why don't you ask me when and by what?” Huang Yaming added.
“So when were you, what was it, seeing through?” Xu Tiansheng cooperated.
“When a person really doesn't love another person, even if he works harder and plays more carefully, he can't play well.” Huang Yaming first felt the words in the fog in the clouds and went on to say:
“As you all know, I get drunk all the time, I get sent home, I throw up. Chen Jingqi used to take care of me. Later, Tan Qingling came. She left. Tan Qingling took care of me for a while...
Three days after Tan Qingling took over, the difference came out.
Every time I used to get drunk, no matter how often I was sent home, I was helped upstairs... I could feel that one of the things that helped me was a woman's hand and shoulder, which was Chen Jingqi. I get home, no matter how late, no matter if I need to, she comes downstairs to pick me up, she helps, sometimes there are two security guards who send me home, she replaces one of them. How stupid do you think she is? How can she have security?
Later, three days after Tan Qingling took over, I no longer felt a woman holding my hand. I was drunk, but I knew she must have stood far away, because I was dirty and stinky, because there was a bar guard who would send me up anyway.
Besides, I never felt Chen Jingqi wipe my face before. Until Tan Qingling did it a few times, even if I was drunk, I still felt painful. I didn't know how careful she wiped before, how light and gentle she was.
Also, I used to wake up the next day always clean. Later, sometimes things stick to my clothes and sometimes I have them around my neck...
So, when a person really doesn't love another person, even if they try harder and play more carefully, they can't play well. Especially when I look like I don't know anything. ”
After finely splitting a big call, Huang Yaming's meaning, Xu Tiansheng and Fu Cheng probably understand, acting, can never really perform the painful effect, especially on those not obvious and unknown details.
However, the look on Huang Yaming's face at this time is a little sour in his eyes, but he doesn't know whether it is for Tan Qingling's fake or Chen Jingqi's true.
“So well, if you don't stay and don't chase, Chen Jingqi is too grievous. You hurt too much.” Fu Cheng said.
“Just hurt her too much, afraid of more... I can't seem to do anything, so I thought, let her go.” Huang Yaming said.
“Then change it.” Fu Cheng said.
“Dogs can't change to eat shit.” Huang Yaming said so.
Fu Cheng was helpless for a while.
And he said, "Have you asked Jingqi Chen? What does she think, maybe she just wants to? ”
Huang Yaming stood up and said, "Then I'll ask. ”
…………
Perhaps tonight's mood made him realize how rare and important it is to have someone who loves him so much, Huang Yaming decided to do so.
The time is tight, and the highway in the middle of the night is racing at speeds all the way through.
“Slow down, aren't you afraid of an accident?” Fu Cheng sat in the back seat and said nervously.
“I'm not really afraid of an accident," Huang Yaming said. “I'm just afraid of lying in a hospital bed and nobody taking care of me. ”
“I'll do it, Bag. You'll make it.” In a sitting area, Xu Tiansheng robbed the driver's seat.
By the time the car arrived at West Lake City Airport, it was more than half an hour before the plane took off, and Chen Jingqi's pedestrians had passed the security check. Xu Tinsheng called and called...
Chen Jingqi saw Huang Yaming, the two of them crossed the security area, a dozen meters, and she stopped going out.
“I'm not engaged.” Huang Yaming looked at her and said.
Chen Jingqi smiled and nodded. I didn't know what to say, but it didn't seem surprising.
“I've actually always known who was really good to me.” Huang Yaming continued.
Chen Jingqi nodded and began to shed tears. Silently, the teardrops rolled down one by one.
“Why don't you stay and we'll try again?” Huang Yaming finally asked for the export.
Chen Jingqi stunned.
At this moment, it was as if the drama scene of a television film had appeared. The passengers at the airport were entertained. They stood up and watched, whistled and whistled, ”Stay, stay...”
Chen Jingqi shook his head: "No. ”
Like a child's stubbornness, a simple word of resilience.
Huang Yaming tangled up and said, "I'm trying to change it? ”
Chen Jingqi shook his head: “You won't. Huang Yaming. Why haven't you called me before?... to avenge her?... you're actually so smart, I know you know everything and can see through it, so I'll wait for you to make your choice.
Not when you choose her or me, but when you choose, whatever, my pain.
But you still haven't come to me. Even if it's just to tear her apart, retaliate against her, you know, you made a choice in the process, and for whatever reason, you finally chose to hurt me. ”
“I…”
“I'd rather you gave up revenge if you really cared about my pain. But you didn't... you'd rather sacrifice someone, including me, to do one thing. Without asking me, you helped me choose, to be sacrificed. Even temporarily, it is enough to explain a lot. ”
Chen Jingqi was right, and Huang Yaming, the loser, stopped talking.
Today, he is no longer the original Huang Yaming who cares and cares to make her happy.
She no longer leaves him around.
Once upon a time, this woman did love him very much and did everything she could. He had a run, she didn't pursue him, he hurt her, she still cared about him, he made a mistake, she chose to believe again,...
Unfortunately, the results remain.
There is a category of girls who, because they love someone, are willing to endure grievances, injuries, do their best to please them, and are unwilling to let go anyway. Often such a girl, once completely dead, never turns back... because she never dares again.
Huang Yaming opened his mouth.
“You know what? The happiest part of my life was the time you were in the hospital, and the rest of your recovery. When you couldn't move, you couldn't hurt anyone. You became cute, obedient, wanted to smoke, wanted to what? You always looked pathetically at me... a facial plea. ”
Huang Yaming just said, "I'm not really afraid of an accident, I'm just afraid of lying in a hospital bed and not being cared for.” Now Chen Jingqi said that her happiest time was when she took care of him lying in bed.
Chen Jingqi said these words with a smile on her face and quickly disappeared. She said:
“Unfortunately, that's the only time you're harmless. The rest of the time, whatever you move, whatever you say, whatever you do, it always ends up hurting people, not just me.
Maybe that's what you're meant to accomplish, but I'm just a very ordinary girl, someone who loves me, who doesn't hurt me, and I'm good enough, so you really don't fit me. ”
“Please, don't hurt me anymore. ”
Chen Jingqi turned around and left, without pausing, without turning back.
If someone doesn't understand what heartbreak is. A person who clearly loves, reads, remembers… but no longer has the expectations and aspirations for the future, no more the courage to try… but dares not, is truly the most thorough of hearts.
Huang Yaming walked out of the airport and smiled. He said, "Yes, she's right. ”
Lonely, ancient innocent.
Innocence is defined as "punished according to antiquity” and converted into “crime, criminal”.
Innocent, so lonely.
It's not all wrong to be forgiven, it's all right to look back again and again.