I live in Sillim-dong, Seoul, Korea.

"Shillim-dong?"

When I say that I live in Sillim-dong, I ask if I study for the exam.

"What's the point of studying for exams..."

I laugh when I hear about studying for the exam.

Having achieved below-middle grades at a school on the outskirts of Seoul, I am a person who managed to retake the local unnamed four-year system. To me, studying for the exam is an insult.

Even the university in the province did not return to school after military service.

I had no money and didn't want to go around. When I name the school I used to attend, people ask me if I have ever heard of such a school. Still, I graduated late because I thought I should have a diploma.

I live in Sillim-dong because my parents live in Sillim-dong.

I live in a half basement of an old multi-family house on a hill above Mirim Girls' High School.

I am a poor family and poor student.

If so, even a person should like it, but not so. She was less than 30 years old and already had her belly out and her hair peeled off due to hair loss. I want the kids in the neighborhood to call me "brothers," but I'm going crazy because there's someone who calls me "mister."

I wanted to go to a company in Anyang this morning, but a middle school student living on the second floor called me an old man, so I wanted to beat him.

My company was near Anyang Myeonghak Station. It is a company that manufactures controls and supplies them to small and medium-sized companies.

I bring the products made to the client and act as an assistant to the installation work. Although the company had less than 10 employees, I was satisfied because the company's name was reasonably "00 Tech" and the business card was also a substitute for the sales department.

When you give your business cards to your classmates, they don't know if it's a big or small company. Some even ask if he already has a substitute.

"Hey, you must be capable. You've already put a proxy!"

"It's a small company."

"How much is it? About 200?"

Then I roughly equivocate.

I wish I could keep working for this company, but I couldn't afford it.

Due to a sharp drop in clients, the president said he would close his business.

"I can't handle the labor costs.”

The boss said that the factory rent is expensive and the materials are expensive, so it is not profitable.

It seemed like it was not going well because he was going crazy about exporting to China one day.

"No, the Chinese don't know how to solder. They import our products?”

When the boss said this on the day of the pork belly party, I remember the seniors snorting.

I also think exports to China sounded futile.

Well, it takes a lot of work to make control panels because there are a lot of soldering things.

It was true that labor costs were higher than the unit cost of delivery. Also, there were many competitors, so sales were always fluctuating.

I told my former boss, Kim.

"If the company closes, where will Mr. Kim go?"

"I've got assembly skills, so there's plenty of places to go.”

"Then take me with you."

"You? Come on, you're still young, so take the civil service exam. Choi Jun-sik is still young, right? The only thing we can do in Korea is a 9th grade civil servant. I had a chance, too, and I regret not going to the civil service."

I don't know why old men ask me to be civil servants like that. My uncle tells me to be a civil servant whenever he sees me.

[Who doesn't know how to be a civil servant? I can't do it because I can't do it!]

Civil servants should invest time and money. There should also be some basic hair. I wasn't there to do that.

"Ahyo, I think I'll have to look at flea newspaper ads and work on Worknet or Albamon to find a job.”

I said, "Go public service."

"It's not easy. It costs money and it takes time."

"Walking around the Machikova factory like this.When you see it, you regret it when you're my age!"

"I'm in a position to make money right now. By the way, did you get the manager's salary?”

"No, I'm going to leave as soon as I get paid, but they don't pay me."

"It looks like the Southern Boiler hasn't collected it, has it?

"I think so. I went to the accountant's office to get a proof of employment, and I asked her, and she said she didn't have any money."

"I see. But the transfer company must require a certificate of employment, right?”

"No, I'm trying to get a loan. I have to get it in advance to use it. The landlord of my apartment might ask me to raise the rent again.”

I felt like I was seeing my future when I saw my boss, the manager, living in his mid-40s. Still, Lee was a man who gave up on marriage even though he had a son who was married and went to school. It was so-called five guns of youth.

Five bags refers to a generation that has given up five things: dating, marriage, childbirth, setting up a home, and relationships. This is a remark that comes from the worsening situation among young people, who used to be called the "three artillery generations."

"Love?"

I'm ashamed to say it, but I've never been in a relationship. There was a woman who had a crush in high school. At that time, my house was living in Geumcheon-gu, not Sillim-dong. Oh, right. I remember the name, too. It was a girl named Oh Mi Hyang. He was the best handsome guy in Geumcheon-gu. Moreover, she was a daughter of a rich president and a famous child for her good grades.

"I took the Omihyang!"

People who studied better than me and were stronger than me said they took pictures of Oh Mi-hyang here and there, but no one approached Oh Mi-hyang. Because Oh Mi Hyang goes to high school It was because I went to America instead.

There is no woman to date with me even if it is not Omihyang. Who will come to me, poor with a potbelly and a bald head?

Therefore, it is obvious that one cannot give birth because one cannot even dream of getting married. Even if I get married because of an accident, it will be impossible for me to get a house for the rest of my life. My manager, who is the number one in soldering assembly technology, also buys a lease until his mid-40s, so how can I afford a house?

If you get married and have children, you'll have to get a two-room.

Now that I'm paid over 2 million won, saving is naturally impossible except for the monthly rent of Two Room. As the new 30-pyeong apartment in Gangnam, Seoul, is worth 3 billion won, such an apartment will probably not be available even if I live in a previous life, a golden life, and the next generation.

If you look at the subway station, you often see younger people holding hands with their girlfriends.

To be honest, I envy them, and sometimes I feel jealous of them and want to hit the back of their heads.

Far from dating, living on the spot is another problem.

I don't want to meet people because I'm working at a company that's going bankrupt. You'll have to give up on human relationships, too.

I think I'll be like a strawberry-nosed Park who lives alone in the Sillim-dong market. There are times when I feel creepy that I'm going to drink alone and grow old alone.

by the way

The world doesn't know.

I never dreamed that I would become a conglomerate when I met the spirit of Mrs. Baek, a legend of the nation's securities industry.

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