Sumi de ii Desu. Kamawanaide Kudasai

Me in my previous life.

When I died, there were two things I wished for. It was in a warm, pale light.

That one wants to live in another world, not in this world. A life that only fits scattered eyes. I never wanted to repeat it in this world. I don't want to go back.

And the other thing was that I wanted to see that guy again.

I know it's inconsistent with you not wanting to go back, but at least once more, I wanted to see that guy. I haven't been told anything important. I couldn't tell him. Because before that, I was dead.

So God, I hoped.

If it comes true, I can forget this feeling of thinking of someone I like in exchange for it. Nobody likes it, nobody accepts it, someone whose precious heart has fallen out. I hope I couldn't tell you those words I couldn't tell you, even if I could see you again. It was a fruitless love no matter how many times I turned around. Then it's the same thing even if it's gone.

If the laws of this world don't overshadow you, if you don't want to end this circle, please take me...

"Aili, honey. Me, wait, hey, Ellie."

Hold on to your hot chest and bring it to her.

"Nogi, it's okay. 'Cause it's okay."

"'Cause it's me"

From the beginning, I was no one.

- Because I was that guy from the beginning, Noisy.

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That's a previous memory.

Dead in flames, I lived in a different world once, as I hoped during death.

It was a completely different world.

There are no brothels. There is no freedom in life. My parents never dump me.

Everything is more developed than this world, lived in a convenient world. Forget what kind of life I've lived in my previous life, and I never feel free to have a normal life. Forget everything about who you liked and what kind of person you were, and you don't know anything.

She lived a mediocre life, a very ordinary woman.

He graduates from high school, works at the desired place of employment, and is also independent of his parents. I had no brothers. An only child princess, my parents adored me so much. Any time you have any trouble, say it, sweet people. smooth sailing days.

But I couldn't do enough to say that I like people and boyfriends at all. About one person remembers being confessed. But I couldn't like it with people I didn't like, so I couldn't respond. No man is attracted to my heart. So, my parents are sweet people, but there were some things I was worried about for that matter. I was wondering if my daughter wouldn't marry anyone like this. Because I am the only child in the family, it is somehow put in my ear that if I am to marry, I will take my son-in-law.

But I can't help it because I'm not there.

And there's one thing in this world that interests me like that.

It was "sum".

If you look at the tatami, you want to fall asleep and you want to leave.

When I saw the kimono, I wanted to wear it impulsively and bought it on the salary I had just come out of working.

I loved the old house where my grandparents lived most of all, and the summer vacation from elementary school to high school fully spread my hands and feet in that house at the foot of the mountain.

I liked to wear yukata for the summer festival.

The stall baked bun had no eyes.

I like the smell of handicaps. Love the sound of the wind chimes.

The Japanese pride, black and beautiful hair, also appeared many times brighter than the brown-dyed color.

"Oh, this..."

Is that why?

When I went shopping on a holiday without work, it was in the electronics store game corner that I found a sole that attracted my heart.

The game I saw was called "Dreaming Man Yukou," a maiden game that falls in love with a man's character.

A dark-haired man is smiling at this one in that package he's got in his hand so he can suck it off.

"This please."

This is the first game I've seen. I bought the kimono immediately, as I did when I bought it impulsively.

And I went back to my apartment, and I didn't even get carried away, but in my spare time, I started playing that game.

Sometimes I get embarrassed by myself for putting my hands on the maiden game, but while I'm at it, forget about that, and face the character.

This game, however, was difficult to attack and struggled with.

Because the hero's philosophy only makes vague moves.

If I think I chose one, I go to two.

If you think you have chosen two, go to one. I was in a good mood, but there was no way they were selling offensive books, and I felt like I lost researching them online and I didn't like it.

"What? I can't do it anymore."

Maybe a girl named Nodaisy who comes out of the game also felt wondered if she was looking at the main character like this.

I even have sympathy for her, who also plays the role of horse in the attack, even though she is a hindrance to the hero's actions.

"Keho,... Goho"

But while I was doing that, I fell ill.

He said it was autumn and it was cold at night, but probably because he was up asleep looking like a tank top.

And even then, I had the game in my hands.

I have nothing to let go of, I just have to let go. Was it bad that I was spending it again as it was, even though the incurability was bad for my health?

Then I finally got a fever and lost consciousness on my bet.

No one but myself, no parents, no friends, in a single space.

"When I wake up, that Kawahara..."

I remember.

Yes, I had a fever and fell.

And the next time I woke up, I was lying in that earthbound river plain.

I was me.

I just went back to my original world. The normal world for me is not that world, this world is what I really am.

That fact falls on my mind so much.

It's not my fault I felt nostalgic about that playgirl's kimono, it's because I really missed her. I felt a sense of ready-to-see when I saw protection, because I had seen it in my previous life.

But I remember it more and more and more, I don't know for myself. It will be all right.

The philosophy I was causing resentment turned out to contain a completely different personality. So I have no grudge against her for supporting me next door.

But the mad urge to kill that affection hits back in me.

"Aili, um, I wonder who I am. I can't believe you want to kill that woman."

My emotions are all over me.

Even if I know who I am, my body and mind that I am living now is also true, and not another being. As well as that, my heart, which used to be trying to make Aili a deceased, is true, and that fact will not go away.

I couldn't figure myself out.

"Nogi."

"Scary."

How can you have such an ugly feeling?

Before I remembered, I didn't think of this. But why?

"Nogi, who has always liked you?

"Like, who was?

Over my hand holding her head, she placed her hand gently.

"I feel like it, I feel like I think of someone, I collide because I have it. Nogi wasn't in love with anyone as strangely as she was there. But not now."

My heart, it's heavy. Heavy as my heart breathed back.

He had a heartbeat with Doc, claiming his presence in the back of his chest.

This important thought was that if I could throw it away, it would have been good if I had lost it.

So I forgot everything and lived in a different world.

And for whatever reason, I was able to return to this world and live.

Are you telling me that you didn't fall in love with anyone because you were losing the heart to think of someone?

I remind myself of two things I wished for.

The first wish is to live in a different world.

The second is that I want to see that guy again.

These two, contradictory wishes.

... that wish was... fulfilled.

Ruthlessly unaware.

"Oh, oh, brother."

I hug her to the side. I buried my face around my neck and hugged that cold body hard.

Aili was stroking my back unchanged.

"It's okay. Nogi's not dead yet. I'm here because my body is still alive, like me. Besides, the memories I'm supposed to remember when I died, because I'm sure I'm wandering the border between life and death."

I slowly took my face off my neck and distance myself so that I could see Aili's face.

"But"

If it's between deaths, then I'm going to die just like that?

"But if I stay long, I get my legs tied with crazy chains, like me. What I feel. There are signs of life from you."

"Why are you so, so full of words?

"I get it. From my eyes, I can see what you look like now. Besides, I'd like to find out she did it already. Based on his surveillance, he surrounded one of his underworkers and poisoned your liquor.... Oh, it's already on fire... The fire was also set up by the subordinate. I don't know how to find out, but I might have thought I'd let you all die today and start over."

I noticed my hand grabbing Aili's shoulder was clear. When Aili noticed that too, she held me in her arms and buried my face in her neck. Are you pressing your forehead with grime, or the vibration is transmitted all over your body.

"Because I will never let you do the same thing again. It's okay, 'cause that kid won't be around anymore. Real wishes to be fulfilled, because this time I can't go wrong"

"Ellie?

"I love you, Nogi, thank you for believing me to the end. Say hello to you and Mr. Shimizu."

Thank you so much.

My consciousness was already inverted when the word was whispered in my ear.