The Analects of Righteous Father’s Collapse

postscript:

"Yu Xi, mourning and sorrow."

"Yes, Auntie doesn't want you to be so sad for her after her death."

At the Lingtang, Yu Xi was wearing a black mourning dress and her face was haggard. At this moment, she could not get up to greet these friends who came from far away, and the friends were very considerate that she was suffering from the death of her mother. The blow, just a few words of comfort.

After sending away all the guests, Yu Xi also persuaded her husband and children to go away. In this last time, she wanted to accompany her mother by herself.

The white candle in Lingtang made a crackling sound, which was the only sound in this empty hall. Yu Xi looked at her mother’s kind and gentle smile in the photo, as she did when she was alive, but she couldn’t give her enough. Soul comfort.

It is said that a child with a mother, no matter how old, is a baby. Now that her mother is gone, she can no longer be like a child.

Yu Xi rubbed her dry eyes that had been crying for a long time, and returned to her mother's room to prepare the unfinished relics.

When she was sorting the jewelry box left by her mother and saw a notepad placed in the dark box of the jewelry box, she couldn't resist curiosity and took out the book.

This is a notepad with a cowhide cover. The paper pages have turned yellow. The three words Jiangyue Moon written on the cover prove that the owner of the diary is her mother.

Although she knew it was wrong, Yu Xi missed her mother so much. She wanted to understand her mother's past through this diary. With such an urge, she opened the diary.

2018.09.27

Dad took me to Disney, and bought me this diary, I like it very much, love dad

2018.09.28

I have a nightmare, my dad comforts me and loves my dad

...

There is not much substantive content. Yu Xi has calculated the age of her mother when she wrote this diary. She couldn't help but smile. The mother at that time was also a child and loved to mess with her parents.

But it's no wonder that mother likes her father so much. In Xi's heart, her grandfather is the best grandfather in the world. When she was very young, her grandfather's arm was her cradle. She could ride on grandfather's neck and smile proudly Those of the same age are not small.

It's a pity that her grandfather died of illness when she was nineteen, when she was still in school at the time, and she couldn't even come back to see her grandfather for the last time. This has always been her regret.

Thinking of his grandfather who died early, Yu Xi felt even more sad.

She sniffed her nose and continued to look down.

2019.7.3

My dad took me to learn taekwondo, which was harder than I thought. This was the first time my dad didn’t condone me. My dad told me that I couldn’t always be lucky that I met all the good people. When I met the bad people, everyone He should have the ability to protect himself. He can't keep me forever. I should learn to grow up.

So sad, will dad leave me?

Angry, hunger strike for three hours

"Poof—"

Seeing this article, Yu Xi was sad and funny. She seemed to be able to see her young mother pouting, pretending to be angry, and her small eyes kept stealing her grandfather's arrogance from time to time, because that was how she came when she was a child. of.

Xi Wu seems to be the only way for Jiang’s children, first her mother, then her, and then her two children, Yu Xi feels that this tradition should be passed down from generation to generation, just as Grandpa taught her mother, We can't hope that all the people we meet are good people. When danger comes, they have the ability to protect themselves.

After the emotion, Yu Xi turned down page by page. The diary was not written every day. When the book was halfway through, Yu Xi's page turning speed seemed to be much slower.

2026.5.17

I have nightmares again. Now I understand what happened to me eight years ago. The man is the devil.

2026.5.18

I can’t imagine what would happen if my father didn’t show up

During this time, the text of the diary was very sloppy. Yu Xi's heart was like these words. There was a guess in her heart, but she was not sure.

After a long period of time, the diary was suspended, and it was not until three years later that the notebook was used again.

2029.7.23

I found a lot of relationships, and finally found the man who was in the psychiatric hospital. He had a bad time. I was very happy.

When I went to visit, he curled up in the corner of the ward, constantly knocking his head against the wall, chanting "Sorry, I'm wrong, I'm sorry, I'm wrong."

The doctor said that this had been the case since he was sent to the psychiatric hospital. The man was a pedophile and seemed to provoke someone. The other party castrated him and severely tortured him. Since then, his psychological defense has been Breaking down, immersed in the panic of being abused, can't walk out anymore.

This tormented me for a long time in my dream, and the existence like a nightmare disappeared. Now he is a bedbug who constantly endures psychological and physical torture in regret.

I am free!

2029.7.26

When the man had an accident, my father was often away from home. I recalled that during that time, there seemed to be a policeman who had come. I didn’t know what he had talked with my father, but now, I seem to realize it.

Not only did Jiang Moon realize it, but Yu Xi, who was watching this diary, also realized it.

Her chest hurt dullly, and she felt breathless.

My mother, who distressed herself, had such an encounter, and was grateful that her grandfather could save her mother at that time, so that her life would not be messed up because of that matter.

But my mother was guarded by her grandfather, and Yu Xi couldn’t imagine what kind of mood his grandfather was at that time. How much grief he had to endure. One person planned such a comprehensive method that even the police couldn’t catch him. Braid.

Yu Xi wiped her tears and looked down.

In the subsequent diary, her mother did not mention it again. She experienced love breakups, love marriages, childbirths, and daily trivial things and work that occupied most of the diary until the time was near. In 2048, the year that my grandfather died.

The diary is coming to an end.

The last article is March 21st when my grandfather died.

2048.3.21

Every girl expects a prince in her life to come to her by riding a white horse. In my life, a great king has accompanied me for half of my life.

He pulled me out of the mire and taught me to be a princess and a queen of life at the same time. He is more important to me than any prince.

Today, my king is gone

At this point, the diary is over.

Yu Xi covered her mouth and burst into tears.

*****

On the day of the cremation of the body, except for the suit on the mother Jiangyue, among the relics accompanying the cremation, Yu Xi only added a red diary.

The husband and children could not understand, but Yu Xi did not explain too much.

The mausoleum of the mother has been settled long ago. On the left is the tomb of grandfather, and on the right is the grave of Yu Xi’s father. Holding his mother’s favorite jasmine flower, Yu Xi, who is over 50 years old, stood in front of the tombstone.

She should not be sad. Perhaps her mother is now happily reunited with her king and prince. That is her greatest happiness.