Chapter 1381 - 1233: Our Destiny (3)
However, speaking of it, the day after Song Qingyang’s wedding seems to be Song Yansheng’s birthday.
Shi Nuan is contemplating whether to give Song Yansheng a birthday gift.
So, what should she give him?
Shi Nuan then thinks of her group of roommates.
But asking roommates about this kind of thing always feels like showing off one’s relationship.
Moreover, after what happened, He Meisui and Xiao Ning were quite frightened.
Better not to bother them for now.
In the end, Shi Nuan searched online herself, finding a variety of answers, but after browsing her phone for almost two hours, she still couldn’t think of anything for Song Yansheng.
Finally, Shi Nuan was a bit tired, so she fell asleep.
When she woke up again, it was quite late, and Nanny Wang was not in the hospital room.
The room was dimly lit, and Shi Nuan picked up her phone to check the time, only to find many unread messages on it.
Shi Nuan’s eyes flashed slightly because she noticed the messages were from Shen Zui.
She hesitated whether to open them, struggling for a moment, especially since she realized that Shen Zui had saved her this time.
She hadn’t had the chance to thank him yet.
Shi Nuan opened the message content.
"Shi Nuan, I want to talk to you, but I’m afraid to call you. If I go to the hospital to find you, I guess Song Yansheng would not allow it. Thinking carefully, only text messages are more suitable for you and me at this moment..."
"You and I got together when you were fifteen years old, and I was eighteen. We hadn’t known each other for long before that, and we used to interact just like friends. When I confessed, I was afraid that I hadn’t done well, leading to your rejection..."
"Luckily, you didn’t reject me. Yes, luckily, you didn’t reject me. This is the thought I’ve had countless times when we were together. But in the year we broke up, I selfishly wondered, why did I meet you, why could you hurt me so deeply, why?"
"Actually, many things don’t have answers and never will. The most important thing is to see them clearly. In the past, I couldn’t see clearly. No matter how many times you reminded me that you fell in love with someone else, I still deceived myself into thinking that I still had a chance, a chance to regain our three years, a chance to return to the year when you were fifteen and I was eighteen..."
"But saying it’s a dream, it truly is a dream. Now, your life should have hope, and I, from initial disbelief to renewed despair, make this dream instantly awaken. It’s really a bittersweet dream, don’t you think?"
"But last night, I really dreamed of you. I dreamed of you smiling at me, and that smile was so beautiful. I love your smile and hope that through my efforts, your smile will never fade, but I ultimately didn’t have the chance!"
"I don’t know much about Song Yansheng, but no matter if his feelings for you are as deep as mine, at least he never thought of giving up on you. That is his brilliance, and it’s the reason he can keep you by his side and make you fall in love with him..."
"Nuannuan, I really like your name. Every time I speak it, my heart feels warm and soft. Even when we were apart and I was abroad, you didn’t know that every time I called your name, my heart inexplicably felt a pang of sourness. Perhaps I realized at that time that I had lost you."
"But Nuannuan, whether you belong to me or not, I am yours. If in the future... if in the future, you’re willing to acknowledge me, even as a friend, I will be very happy. Because that proves I haven’t completely disappeared from your world..."
"Nuannuan, I’m Shen Zui. You once said my name is very special and asked if my father is a drunkard, otherwise why would he give me and my sister such names. Do you remember how I answered? I said my mother doesn’t drink much, but she likes to collect various famous wines. Father, to support her hobby, specifically built a foundation for famous wines, even now after their divorce, he often auctions off some good wines and sends them back, often donating to mother’s wine foundation..."
"I once asked Father why. Father said: There is no reason, she is the woman I once loved, I wanted to give her a happy life, but I didn’t achieve it, I feel guilty, I want to tell her in this way: As long as she needs, I’m here, my feelings for her have always been sincere and unchanged..."
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