My birthday is a weekday. I went to school as usual today.
I party and celebrate with my family, but I get a gift from someone close to me on the same day, such as a celebration. Well, even if you say so, it sounds like you're prompting for a present, so you just need to know who you know.
Enter the classroom with Max as usual.
"Ah, good morning, Gladys! Max!"
The moment I saw Yuka greeting her energetically, the vision of the future jumped into my head.
Good morning.
Whoa, look out! Have you got the same attitude as usual?
Oh, my God. It's not like me. You're getting a little excited. It's unusual and light in the heart.
I'm happy, but on the other hand, I feel so sorry and depressed... Honestly, when you think about it (...), it makes you feel very complicated.
That morning's class was somehow overhead, and I didn't feel like I was studying or working. Of course, I didn't do anything to put it out of my mind.
Continue to behave as usual, eat lunch together, and then break up into afternoon elective classes.
I'm going to the Economics class with Chiaran.
"So, what's up today?
--That's right ~.
Asked as before by Chiaran, I naturally accept it. I won't be surprised if Chiaran sees you anymore.
On the contrary, I just wanted you to listen to me. I don't intend to talk to you about it. I really just want people to listen to me. Because there are no answers.
But this is a private conversation. And yet, with me and Chiaran, walking in the hallway is very noticeable. Until the bell of the next lesson, I entered an appropriate empty classroom to avoid the crowd.
"This is definitely a secret, right?
Sit in a nearby chair and then push it again.
"Okay."
Chiaran nodded. You can see clearly the height of my inner tension. Unleash the emotions that you've been holding back all morning, just as much as you want.
"I hear there's a surprise party in Yuka's hometown."
"Sapraiiiiiiiiiiiiing?
"Yes, I plan to secretly prepare and call someone I want to celebrate and surprise them by suddenly starting a celebration event."
"--ahh... today was your birthday. I arranged for a present to be delivered to the house.
……
In this explanation, Chiaran understood in general terms.
"It's hard to understand too much."
"That's right! It looks like Yuka is gathering the party buddies and planning it! It's painful to pretend not to notice ~"
With agony, I'm beating you up. What I saw was a happy birthday party just for girls. There were 16 candles standing in the cake in the hall.
Only Yuka knows that I am a former Japanese.
It's a much more nostalgic memory, but once upon a time, it was celebrated by family and friends, blowing out candle fires.
I summoned my friends to the hometown event for me to prepare for the Eucalyptus hometown celebration after school.
I'm really so happy with that feeling, but why do you realize it, I'm so sorry from the bottom of my heart, honestly, I regret not being honest and surprised on the spot.
Chiaran smiles bitterly.
Well, that's where adults want to be.
"I know, I will! But I don't know how you feel..."
I want to beat myself up about how you really feel about this.
I wanted to show my real face in front of everybody, like, "Yikes!!?"
I can play. I'm pretty good at it, to be clear.
But I don't think it can be divided into favors that don't ask for anything in return...
"Well, I know how you feel, but...."
Chiaran sympathizes with me. That's right. If I were a prince, I'd be stupid.
"Chiaran is always cool."
"Even on the surface, I'm trying to be."
"Don't you ever feel like you're being dragged inside?
"Occasionally, when a five-year-old friend shows up in a flat and remarkable costume at an prestigious awards ceremony."
Then she answers in a state where she doesn't know if she is serious or joking. Is that me, perhaps?
The award ceremony for the Leonor Prize, the country's highest economic award. The absolute realm of my body was gorgeously thrown through.
"You didn't change your complexion."
"There will be no other response on such a stage. - Are you worried? You're in trouble in some weird places."
I don't know what to say, so it's kind of cheating.
--I know that in the first place. Thank you so much for trying to save my heart from just being a kid five years ago. A frozen mind in fear of an endless past and future.
Five years after that. Whether I am free or not, I look after myself by turning around.
"From Chiaran's point of view, do I still look inconvenient?
A word said to Chiaran once upon a time. It really shaken my heart. I think I've changed a lot. What does Chiaran look like?
Surprisingly and seriously, Chiaran sighed in trouble.
"I wonder why you're so extreme. I know too much about people, but I don't see too much about myself."
"Extreme?"
"A person who is completely free from everything is just a socially incompatible person. Adults are handicapped. I'm not a kid anymore, so it's better than that.
"To...?
I asked the stupid Chiaran back.
What!!? Yeah!? Why are you telling me that I've been so obsessed with it, but what's with that texture?!?
Yeah ~ ~ ~...?
Chiaran laughs at me as I moan in protest.
"Isn't that enough? You don't know where to relax. Looser and better, don't push me... At least you're more natural than you were then. Don't look painful when you're laughing. --That's fine. I don't have to be bound by the word" freedom. "
……
--Ah, ahhhhh, they did it again!!
I wonder why this is happening with Chiaran.
For me, the word "freedom" was even like obsession sometime. Chiaran even realized that.
I regret it again because I have someone who is convinced of it. I feel like I've lost the strand entangled in my feet and I feel lighter.
Absolutely, this is a surprise.
"Chiaran should be a therapist rather than a king."
I smiled with a weak face.
I'm sure that was an impossible expression. Chiaran smiled gently.
--A birthday party that suddenly started in an empty classroom that was brought in by fellow students after school that day.
Of course, I was greatly delighted after I looked surprised.
But I was really surprised. When you actually face the scene, you drown in incredible joy.