Chiaran's arms gently turn around his back and shroud me modestly.
Relaxed with that warmth, I remembered for decades that people could cry even if they were happy.
There was a part of me that felt a backlash in my conviction that I was going to enter increasingly difficult situations.
Are you sure you want to keep pretending to be a normal girl?
There's so much you can do, but it's just selfish of you to remain helpless.
It is the first time since I was reborn that I have been told clearly.
You can live as you want. You have that right. ---Aware of everything, he acknowledged my choice.
That's how happy and comfortable it is to be so full of breasts.
As usual, Chiaran just hugs me without saying anything until I calm down.
Oh, my God, this is stupid. Have you gotten used to it yet? I'm more comfortable crying than embarrassed.
I want to do this for a while.
The feeling of warmth gradually became more and more pleasant, and I felt relieved. Yes, this has happened before!
If you let go of the intimate face you were afraid of, there would be some trace of my tears on Chiaran's shoulder....
"Ahh, I'm sorry, I did it again... after all, I may not have the ability to learn..."
How many times is this? The third time!! Stupid, am I!?
Chiaran stopped the hand that tried to take out the handkerchief and wipe it in haste.
"It's okay. Rather, wipe your face. When class is over, people will come back."
While saying so, Chiaran puts out his handkerchief and wipes himself.
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I also shut up and put a handkerchief on my face, which was supposed to be terrible.
Oh, I think I'm back in a nice mood again.
However, even if it was a little insufficient, I didn't feel as cold as before.
If Chiaran has made it clear to me that there are no mistakes, that's enough. There must be a reason to be a chiaran, and I don't have to ask.
Unlike my family, I have absolute trust now.
The disappearance of secrets, on the other hand, relieved me.
But on top of that, there is still a sense of crisis that cannot be wiped. Now I'm honestly in a hurry.
"I'm so much alive as Chiaran!?
Yes, discovering Zachariah means you're estimated to be your age! Not to mention this is the third perimeter.
Even though I'm a classmate, if my grandmother treats me, it's just too much. This is still going to be 16 maidens!!
"No, on the contrary, I'm more concerned that you can count on me."
Chiaran looked back at me in a complicated manner.
"Even now that I'm an adult, Master Douglas treats me like a child. I've just arrived at the same age as the students you've been teaching me, haven't I? You don't think I can count on you?
I opened my eyes unexpectedly to an unexpected question.
Sure, I was a classmate with Douglas in my previous life.
I'm surprised Chiaran thought that. Ever since I was a kid, I thought you were a lot better than me.
"That's not true. Because there's a clear shift in consciousness."
Whether I met Gladys or not before, there is a clear line in me.
Even Fergus, who has lived as a teacher for more than 30 years, has always impressed me as a teacher and junior. Conversely, it is a rare phenomenon that young new teachers who meet each other for the first time feel more adult than I do.
This is not the case, by the way, because Uncle Julius feels older than Tristan.
"Chiaran hasn't grown up with me since I was a kid, so I don't think he's younger. I've been counting on you since we met. Now that I'm out of hiding, I'll rely more on you. Are you sure that's it? I don't care if it bothers you anymore.
"That's fine. If you have any trouble, tell me anything. I'll do what I can."
Chiaran nodded somewhere relieved.
If I had such a note, I would have grown more and more. You really don't weigh yourself, do you?
When the problem that had been dragging me for some time had completely cleared up, the biggest question arose.
"Nevertheless, how did Chiaran know what was going on before me? He died before he was born. Did someone tell you that?
There are a few people in my previous life who are aware of my existence, but I am troubled if they talk to me. I'm getting a little worried.
Chiaran categorically denies my concern.
"No, I've been able to guess roughly what you've been saying since you went to school. The legends that remain match you too much."
"No! I should have kept it down a lot and been common sense!
I felt it slightly, but when I was pointed out again, it was a bit shocking. Does the behavior of approaching the common sense side with some steps at my standard stride feel like the range of error from the side?
Besides, Chiaran, who didn't know anything about it at the time, was discovered by just legendary information, and his confidence collapsed! Even if you are asked for a basis of confidence, it is troublesome!
Chiaran supplemented it with a bitter smile.
"A slight change in behavioral patterns will not change the essence of you. Someone who knows you well and who has loved you well will understand. There are probably more people who are aware of it than you think."
"Eh, hold on! Like who!?
Oh, my God! Am I actually standing on pretty thin ice!?
"That's not what I'm saying, because everybody pretends not to notice."
In contrast to me, I heard a calm voice again and again.
"I can only say this clearly. You are loved and watched by so many people. I'm pretty sure it's a big part of their reaction. But none of those who noticed said anything else, right? I'm not the only one who respects your way of life."
The feelings that were finally calming down in that word began to shake again.
If you ask me, yes. I noticed a lot of people in my past life, but none of them talked. Everyone accepted my wish as a matter of course.
"... hey, Chiaran. --Are you gonna make me cry again...?
Chiaran's mouth collapsed when he leaked the complaint while his voice was clogged.
"Sorry, but now you understand, don't you? You were never alone."
How far do you really understand me?
What I was trying to convey came all the way to my chest.
When I was building a wall in my heart, I didn't even notice it.
As the only Gentile in the world, no one really decided that they couldn't understand me and didn't try to get me through. In a situation where I had to live on my own for the rest of my life, I quickly gave up and cut off my feelings.
But if you open your mind and look at me, there might have been a lot of people around you back then. Like the people who are watching me now.
It was a little late, but I was deeply grateful to Chiaran, who finally made me realize it.