# Suspension (9)

It was too many sleepless nights. Those who are fed up with nightmares that wake up several times and then fall asleep again, and are not calm by the joy that they are only safe now. So the campfire under the night sky only grew. No matter how good the bed is, it's better than being alone in the dark. Some say that the soft duvet keeps bothering me because I'm accustomed to rough bedding.

Late, the bride and nun find winter.

“Let me help you. There will be children in need of God. ”

Winter, which was awake as an accident prevention, kindly accepted the request.

“Sure. I'll go with you. It might be dangerous." ”

The bride may be dangerous, but the nuns are dangerous. Soldiers who are confused will only see gender.

Quite a group of soldiers gathered. The bride prayed for them.

“Almighty and Eternal Lord, You are the Creator of all things and the foundation of peace. Just as you have protected Abraham's journey from his hometown, and as you have kept his family safe, please protect the children who regard you every moment as a refuge of all adversity. Give courage when fighting, comfort when sad, and may return safely to those you love. The heroes who are already famous will be freed from the second death through you. Lead them out of darkness into light. We invite you in the name of Christ. Amen."

But not everyone here was pure. When the godly closed their eyes and put their hands together, the scorners cast a cold glance. I saw him flinch with a rosary on his finger. Even if you have such things, you must have faith.

What do we do? We have to stop him now. Winter when I hesitated, but when I saw the grieving soldier held by the bride, I decided to stand still. Anyway, as long as winter is watching, there won't be any big problems.

The bride and nun tried to console each and every one with sincerity.

Therefore, it was inevitable to avoid the outrageous question. The questioner was the soldier who turned the rosary. Squeeze tightly and squeeze your other hand in your pocket.

“Hey, Padre. I have to ask you, why did God create that fucking plague? ”

“ ……. ”

“I've learned and confessed that God is infinitely good and that all of his achievements are good. Even though there are many filthy and annoying pups in the world, even when there is a war on a fictitious day, even when my friend cheats and runs away, there will be a holy will of God. But this isn't real, is it? I blamed him the whole time I was running away. I wonder how you keep your faith and what you tell someone like me. ”

It reminded me of the death row in the basement. Are those fucking zombies Lord's providence? Many doubted the absolute good in the face of the Apocalypse.

A single question represented a fierce number of things. The bride gives a painful look.

“Do you mind if I talk to you for a minute? ”

It was a nun.

“I understand your grief. because I've been thinking the same thing. But this affliction was actually nothing new. Because, as the brother said, there were many evils in this world before the plague. ”

She waits for a moment. It was a time for acceptance and a way to temper hostility.

“I don't know if you've seen it, but here in the stained glasses of the cathedral there's an inscription like this. Praise be to water, Lord, our sister. It's a verse from the cantec of the sun. St. Francesco, who made this praise, said that even death is our brother and sister. Matthew 23: 8 says, & '93; You are all brothers, &' 94; so St. Francesco said, & '93; All things are one in the will of the Lord, not just men. &' 94; ”

Winter was convincing. That's what it meant. A new troop quietly replies to send in a radio message that a member of the Preventive Scalping team has arrived from another region. I had to take a ride, but I was also worried about this place.

The nun's words continue.

“So that terrible plague must also be in the will of the Lord. After many prayers and tears, I concluded that the Lord justifies man through pain. ”

“Fuck. That doesn't sound like anything……. ”

“Just a little more, brother. Do you know Helen Keller? He's been blind for a lifetime, deaf, unable to make a sound. And she said, The world is full of pain, but on the one hand it's full of people who overcome it. ”

“ ……. ”

“I have the same thing in Rome. But where evil prevailed, grace abounded." If the brother had faith, he would have read Job. Job lost his wealth, lost his sons and daughters, and was afflicted with a disease he could not cure himself. My friends blamed Job. The Lord's judgment was always right, so Job would have done something wrong. However, as you know, Job did nothing wrong. ”

“ ……. ”

“It was a trial. Even though the Lord had cast out all that Job had, Job kept his faith. And so his faith became more righteous than anything else. because they overcame the pain. God created evil, but evil itself was not the purpose. ”

“Fuck……. ”

“The Lord has also afflicted his son. Jesus said, crucified. My God, my God! Why did you abandon me? I feel like that's what the people of the world are doing right now. This is the time to protect, forgive, and comfort each other... If there is no threat, there is nothing to protect; if there is no sin, there is nothing to forgive; and if there is no sorrow, there is nothing to comfort. The virtue of people is that only when you're faced with pain is evident. ”

And she lets out a sigh.

“By the grace of God, we are the ones who overcome. ”

I don't know if this is true of the Catholic doctrine. However, it was not concluded with a thought of a day or two. As the worldview is the worldview, everyone who has faith must have their own concerns.

It was just a beautiful story for winter after living in the world of those who could not overcome.

‘There seems to be no God out there...' ’

I told Schulz I want to believe, but I don't. It was hard to hope that audiences who lived outside, who easily despised and defiled each other, would now come and win. Dystopia of people who don't empathize. People won't be happy unless a miracle happens.

The thought of winter once before. What kind of branches have there been in the past? Moments of widespread hatred and contempt have crossed an irreversible threshold.

Fell. The soldier holding the rosary's hand drops his head.

“Dammit, I can't believe it even if I want to. ”

The priest says.

“Just stay true to life. If you cherish your colleagues, love your family, and look after yourself, God will one day answer you as a result, in the form of this world. ”

And I saw winter.

“I did it here, too. Those trapped underground lost hope. I tried to do things that I shouldn't have done as a person. I couldn't, so I asked him to wait for rescue until tonight, but he was already compromised. That's when the first winter knocked on the door. at the earliest opportunity to kill each other. ”

New recruits never heard of what happened in the underground shelter. The gaze returned to winter. I don't believe in God. Winter was silent. Wind, clouds, fire and water will not matter whether they believe in God's will or not in the courtyard.

“If the Lord had only wanted to inflict pain on the world, He would not have sent such a person in the middle of winter. I believe that the Lord is a righteous Judge. ”

One of the lieutenants standing next to me said a quiet word.

“I've heard it from the middle, but it's quite an interesting story. ”

Winter greeted him.

“Welcome, both of you. It's the middle of winter.”

“Some people don't know? This is Tanner Long from Alpha Team. ”

Alpha Team is a combat unit of the Army Special Forces (Greenbury). The lieutenant next to him saluted.

“This is George Palmer from the Ranger Search Bloc. ”

It was the same operation, but the feelings were different. It is not a simple class difference. The bearded Alpha Team Leader is rather overwhelming. Not on purpose, like that's what people are made of. Lieutenant Palmer, on the other hand, was somewhat understated.

Does it reflect different mission characteristics?

“Any word on Captain Emert, if you're a Ranger? ”

“Captain Emmett? Is he a ranger, too? ”

“Yes. I heard you're a commander of the Delta Force, and you recently tracked down a Humpback. ”

“Ah, that……. I'm sorry. You're in a different camp from the beginning. I heard you and our regiment have a contact point, but I'm guessing you're asking me this separately. ”

The lieutenant smiles faintly. I saw the love and pride beyond with indelible blood.

“Kmm. Don't just stand there. Let's sit somewhere and talk. I can see the booze right there. Major, can I feed the kids? if that's all right with us. To commemorate the end of the hunt. ”

A sound like a sandstorm hitting a rock. Captain Long points to the crate with whiskey left.

“Yes, everyone must have had a hard day. ”

He wasn't the one to question the loss of life. I would say to myself if I wanted to.

“You look quite calm, Major. I thought things would be different. ”

Rough. But by the time Captain Greenbury got here, winter wouldn't be too hard on him. No matter how good they are, it won't be easy to accept their superiors for less than a year.

That doesn't mean it's rude. There was a heart I couldn't help but think of. It would be more like self-deprecation or self-deprivation. Winter shakes the bottle without a word. The captain gives out his glass with a shivering look. You look like crap. A campfire burns out in the amber liquor.

Let's fill Palmer's share, and the captain shakes his hand. Give me the bottle.

“Have a drink, Major. ”

“I don't like alcohol. ”

“Huh, is the man out of this position? Officers who don't drink life are not officers. ”

Winter lifted the cup with a ripe smile. The captain followed me just before it overflowed.

We can't maintain our strength like this. Thinking about it, I already received it.

“To my friends who are gone. ”

The captain who freely recites the toast breaks the cup in a heartbeat. Then, looking at the winter, the winter tilted its head slightly and emptied the cup at once. Huh. A frightening captain raises an empty glass of winter.

“You're an officer.”

I think it's best to say this.

Captain Long once again bludgeons and grabs the bottle.

“No more second glasses. Until he gets back, I'm in charge. ”

My vision is still a little distorted. Recreated hangovers do not paralyze winter accidents, but the delicate movements of the body, such as insights, findings, and other sensory corrections, are naturally problematic.

Excellent. Commander Greenbury and his Rangers will buy each of them a drink.

Greenberg, who was about to ask you about the operation, finds a child staring down at the nearby window. Even exhausted soldiers at a young age seem to be curious.

“Hey, little lady! What's the bear's name? ”

The child took a step back due to the harsh shout of the violent man, hesitating a little, then returning to me.

“The doll is just a doll. What's her name? I'm not a child! ”

Then turn around. It looked like a panorama through several windows leading to the hallway. Greenberry has tasted better.

“Dammit. I didn't mean to be my daughter. Girls."

Lieutenant Palmer bursts into laughter.

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