The Magician Wants Normality

― ― At Barakshin Church (Agnos monograph)

I have now been stripped of my status as a princess and have found myself in the church of Barakshin. From a general point of view, it seems that I am in a situation that is said to be 'exhausting'.

... but...

But I've never felt that way myself.

The people who saw me off had a sad gaze on me... but I didn't know what was sad.

Because not only does it change where you live.

The people around me have changed, and my raison d 'être remains the same.

I exist because of your mother's wish, and if it doesn't come true, there's no reason to live?

Although I didn't say them out loud, I didn't mourn or grieve, and the queen and the prime minister's grandfather looked a little sad. I didn't know why.

If the nanny had been alive... she would have followed me everywhere. It's only true that she turned her attention to love and affection.

But even then, the best reason is' for your mother's sake '. The nanny always called her "precious daughter", and it was also for her promise to protect me.

I don't think that's a bad thing. Because the nanny is only the mother.

I have no memory of your mother, so to be honest, I was glad of her loyalty to serve you.

Even if you are looking at your mother through me, you remember that your mother was alive, and you still care about her.

... such a nanny passed away, and there were only people around me who worshipped me unconditionally, and those who infiltrated my vigilance. However, nothing has changed except that the nanny has disappeared.

That's why... I didn't change either. It was also a nanny's wish, and keeping her mother's wish fulfilled was the only thing I could do to make her a nanny.

--And those days will be over.

Without me as a princess, I can't fulfill your mother's request or anything.

I don't mourn myself, I don't regret the mistakes I've made, and that's what I thought.

Now, what are we going to do? --And what I thought echoed in my ear was the voice of [someone] who suddenly came down.

I'm cumming! This child belongs to me now! No objections!

It was Mizuki who picked me up when I was banished from my country. As it was, I became Mizuki's property.

I'll take care of you more than I picked up! It seems to be Mizuki's policy, and I took her to Sarovara.

So I got a basic... really minimal education. It's hard to live as it is.

Mizuki's education is broadly divided into two parts. "Return my assumptions without limits" and "let me learn the minimum courtesy to coexist with people".

The first thing I was told was, "If you don't know, ask people." I didn't tell certain people to ask because, according to Mizuki, "only a few people have opinions, and their opinions are the most correct ones for me".

[Which flower is the prettiest?] Even if you ask, the answer varies greatly depending on your personal preferences, right? Some people say that the roses are beautiful, while others like the clarity of the lilies. There's no definite answer. "

I want answers, but if they tell me so many correct answers, I'm in trouble! And when he had spoken, Mizuki stroked his head, saying, This is what Agnos needs now.

”Suddenly I was told to have my own will, so it's impossible to do anything more than live my life so far. Therefore, Agnos should choose the most favorable among many opinions."

'First of all, something I can agree with.... try to [make your own choices]. "

... I am.

I have always lived by the words and wishes of 'someone'. But Mizuki says it's no good. I will not tolerate such a way of life any more than it is my property.

If you say so, I have no choice but to obey Mizuki. I mean, I belong to Mizuki.

While repeating such a thing, somehow, I understood what it was like to "have my own will".

Every time something happened, Mizuki kept letting me choose something, so I could choose and act on my own will naturally.

For example, sweets that come out with tea.

By choosing one of several sweets, it became mine. I was very happy about that, but at the same time, I'm just a little sorry that I can't eat other sweets.

I suddenly understood it as it repeated itself... "joy and joy to get what I wanted" and "loneliness to have something to lose by making a choice".

Maybe this is what Mizuki wanted me to wear.

And at the same time, you wanted to make them understand... [like an unintentional doll, the emptiness of [someone] letting you live as you intended]. "

Others could take it for granted, but I couldn't even think of rebellion.

That's why... I was able to be the [Princess of Ogasaki].

Regardless of the author, he probably became a "character" who played the role he was wanted to play.

It was very shocking to me to notice it. However, once you notice it, you will know how distorted you have been.

I don't want to deny the wishes of my mother or nanny. But I... in the last few days, I've started to want to live on my own terms.

I don't know about it, but I don't want to feel this way.

In the end, I went to Mizuki. Because Mizuki always answered my questions, as I said, "Take care of me."

I didn't even know what I was talking about, so I was overflowing with emotions.

Although I woke up and cried, Mizuki picked up my words and hung out with me.

And one last word.

"You can live as you want." Because it's my property, so it has nothing to do with your mother's request, right? I forgive you. Ignore you. "

I thought it was that easy... but my current position is "Mizuki's property". The words of the owner are absolute and should be given priority.

Thinking so, my heart became lighter. Having been given the "excuse to live freely", I could easily see the correct answer.

Can I... live on my own accord?

"I'm the owner of everything, and even if I want to live freely, I can't complain. The people who were about to tell me, I gave them permission, so there was no problem."

Maybe I'll do something bad?

In that case, I'll punish you with an iron fist. For now, I'll give you an excuse. But don't do anything that doesn't suit me, the owner, for no reason. "

... I think I've been told something rather noisy. Mizuki seems to have dropped Harvis' fortress, and the iron fist sanction is not an exaggeration.

But...

But... strangely enough, I was happy for some reason.

You don't have to bother listening to me, you can't stop me saying that you can't do anything wrong, everything... 'cause you're watching me'.

And it was Sarovara's Princess Tirucia who surprisingly backed my choice.

I have a royal fence. But you're already a civilian... you don't have any fences. Not to mention, the owner, Mizuki, allowed it. "

What do you sometimes get lost in? What do you hesitate to do? It's your life, live as you please. "

Having said that, Princess Tyrusia leaned her mouth against my ears, as if to laugh confidentially.

{...... I fulfilled my wish. From now on, I'm going to live as I please, more than ever. ”

I said it with confidence.

Immediately after saying that there is a fence, this word. But I thought it was her.

I'm sure Princess Tyrusia won't abandon her current position on her own terms. That's why I'm convinced that there's a fence, and I'm trying to live like myself.

The path I chose must have been a struggle, but Princess Tirucia... seemed to be having a good time. I envy you so much.

Let's change. I want a new way of life, even if I'm abandoning my life.

Once I have made a decision, I know what I need to do. Mizuki didn't say "Forget your mothers' wishes".

So... let's just let him sleep a little. Maybe it's one of those kind memories.

There is no more "Princess of Ogasaki". I am Agnos, the [lucky one] who is protected by the possession of the mage Mizuki.

This must be the beginning of my life.

― ― From there, Mizuki led the engagement with a variety of people.

I've learned a lot and I think I've caused a lot of trouble. However, all of that shapes me now and will continue to grow.

And I noticed something. There were more people than expected who could help me.

A lot of friends in this church... not like Mizuki, but an important family. If you share it with everyone, a snack at a bite is very delicious.

I think it's delicious because everyone eats it, and I'm happy to share it with you.

You want to share it because you want to eat with everyone!

It's called a happy helper.

That's what the children who got along with me told me. Certainly, even if the amount of mouth is small, the mind is very satisfied.

My days in the church were surprisingly good. Sometimes I feel lonely when Mizuki is not around, but I'm not worried.

There are people in this place that I need. There are people who show kindness to me, who lack a lot of kindness. So, it's okay.

Besides... Mizuki will definitely rush in if I need her.

My owners are ruined, selfish, and sometimes scary... but if you get lost or in trouble, they will definitely help you.

Is that the owner's responsibility? Hey, Mizuki.