... memories are frivolous.
My brothers smiled at the wine in their hands.
I was forced to pour alcohol into my mouth when I realized it.
The tavern and the smile of the people.
grief, the terror and despair that engulfed it.
Dark and man voice.
……
"So, Prince Leon. We will continue to take the carriage to the castle.
The moment I touched Mr. Steele, my vision changed and I was standing in the carriage.
Special abilities specific to King Friesian nationals. Just as Pride possesses predictive abilities, he was also a special ability man for instantaneous mobility. I snorted at the pride saying, "If possible, keep it a secret."
... I was in a strange room when I woke up.
I don't know why, and what I understood with my confused head is that I broke my promise to Pride. And it was an important departure.
Pride knew me and I thought I would no longer make excuses or other meanings. Or so I exposed myself to ugliness in front of my fiancée and even broke my promise.
Because of me, the engagement that matters to the kingdom of Anemone is about to return to blank... and there's nothing I can do to commit such injustice. She abandons her disgrace as the First Prince, apologizes to her peacefully, and stops me from trying to wish her.
'You mustn't, Master Leon.... that there must be no royalty bowing its head like that for the sin of innocence.
"An innocent sin.
I wondered what you were talking about.
I broke my promise and practically stayed with a lot of women in the tavern. Despite the fact that I got engaged the other day. I already understand that it is betrayal enough to engage other women without my knowledge, no matter how unwilling I am.
Yes, I betrayed her.
She is the first heir to the throne of the Allies.
her, the first princess loved by many of the people of the kingdom of Friesia.
She's my fiancée at the moment.
The words of apology didn't come out well either, and my hands trembled because of the horror of the situation. And yet, she speaks.
"I know everything," he said.
She knew and understood everything about my innocence. Moreover, even rumors of women's relations spread under the castle are truly groundless.
Not only me, but also the princes and knights of the style who refrain behind her breathed and opened their eyes.
How can she be so calm? Despite the rumors, do you believe and forgive me for knowing such an unjust rumored fiancé?
I said it was only natural for me to be suspicious.
She speaks. My brothers drugged me and tried to fall for it.
... that people like me were finally abandoned by my younger brothers rather than being trapped. I stabbed you in the chest worse.
Even when they told me to strangle my brothers,... I was shaking my neck beside them when I realized.
My brothers are not bad. I'm sure they couldn't forgive a flawed person like me for being royal in itself. That's why he tried to get rid of me. That's all.
Because it is a natural duty as royalty to protect the people to eliminate the existence of what can be a foolish king.
Yet I acted the other way because of the noise I made about the people. If they were punished... there would really be no heirs to the throne in this country. That must never be all. If they make bad rumors like me because of it, they may lose the credibility of the people.
But she reprimanded me so many times.
Deny my thoughts.
He woke up and called me by my name.
I appeal to my own will and desire.
I still think my words will come. [M]
Why is she so desperate about me by now? [M] Just because it's an alliance and a fiancé, that's all.
"Dear Leon, what is your most beloved?
... I didn't know.
What the hell should I love now? [M]
She said that night that there was no need for love between us. So, what do I love?
Emotions fall one after the other, and all the fear and chest pain linger on this body. All that's left of me is my filthy desire. [M]
Hide it.
My heart sounded the alarm before I thought it would.
No matter who doesn't love me, pride is all I have to love.
Until the end, I am obliged to play as I please.
At least I get my engagement back on the blank, until then.
"Come on, Leon.
... to her icy voice, her whole body cut cold in an instant. Keep going. Sharp as a knife. Her words sting my heart.
My heart needs to be there.
I thought the words alone would stop my heart, and in the next words I was completely terrified.
'I'm not the one you love. Accept your desires.
"Desire.
The words were the least I wanted to be pointed out.
I don't like it.
That's all, no.
No one can know this filthy heart to her anymore.
Don't accept it. Don't admit it.
Knowing the filthy desire, there is nothing more terrifying than forgiving and affirming pleasure alone as a priority.
We must endure, endure, and continue to endure.
To protect the people to be protected from me.
Still, she won't forgive me for running away.
Now is the only time. He told me to face it before I overflowed everything.
I've never been so strongly blamed by anyone in my life before.
Because if you behaved the way the person wanted, everyone was satisfied with everything.
Yet I was nothing like anyone else she'd ever asked for.
"Dear Leon, you don't stop loving from the bottom of your heart..."
Her mouth opens.
"Something I love from the bottom of my heart and never stop." The answer I didn't even know from her mouth is spinning.
Only at that moment, I forgot everything and made my ears clear to her words. He wants to know. If you realize it, there's never been a new desire to rule all of me.
"Of this country, you must be a people."
... my chest, it almost ripped open.
As soon as I was put into words, I felt my emotions roaring and rumbling inside of me.
"I love you." The moment I knew who this thought was, I couldn't bear it.
I love you.
This country, the people.
More than I can describe in terms of sweet words.
... No.
If this emotion is love, I should leave this country unnecessarily.
"I'm afraid of what I love. Sometimes violent.
If I were to strike my filthy desire for the people because of love, I would surely hurt them one day.
"Approval desire," "Love yourself," "Exclusive desire."
Before I push any more of that desire pointed out to my beloved people, I...
"Where do you have such desires?
My heart stopped for a moment and pulsed hard the next moment.
Stunning and slight expectations.
That stung me in the chest.
Her clenched hands felt her fingertips warm and her whole body of blood circling out quietly.
'Your desires are nothing dirty. To whom do you want to be recognized?... it would be to the people.
Paki, and.
I felt as if every shackle wrapped around my body had been removed one by one. The body, the mind, lightens one part of the chain.
I always wanted you to say that.
"What is the sin of wanting to be recognized as king by the people and wanting to be king by the people?"
Paki.
Also, I heard a hallucination.
The invisible chains broke even more and disappeared.
My skin foamed badly and my whole body was struck by a feeling of paralysis.
"When did you love yourself?" You who have always loved, touched and inclined the people. Or… were you immersed in joy in your appearance in contact with the people?
No. I never did that.
Instead, I always hated the way I looked when I made contact with them. If I don't, I know but I can't bear to ask for it myself.
"What is" exclusive appetite? Did you want to be loved by the people yourself, not by anyone else? That must be natural. "
My heart is beating too much and it hurts.
Still, the pain is slightly comfortable now.
I don't mind with this body.
My heart cries out for me to break this chain, please.
"You love the people so much!" Love, love, love, love. "
My "love" was affirmed for the first time.
My "desire" was forgiven for the first time.
The chains are broken and the limbs that are about to be cut off by weight are released.
The depths of my chest were shaken more than ever, and the mixed emotions that I couldn't say in a word burst out, tears overflowing.
'It's not about monopoly greed or anything. You have even devoted yourself many times to the well-being of your people, and that is why you wanted to be loved. And even if you are not loved by the people… you are still a noble person who can continue to shred yourself for the people.
No, he told me.
He told me that I was a "noble human being", who had always been noble, but had been frustrated and cursed by his "filthy desires".
So I ask. Give her a fresh little desire, again.
I wonder if this desire is unclean.
'That's right. You can ask for more. Your noble heart will surely invite you to the right path.
"Seek and be good." Be honest.
My heart screamed terribly again at those words as if I had peered into all my heart.
The chains, they're all scattered.
Something entangled like a curse disappeared like a lie.
If you call this "emotion."
If you call this "love."
If this desire is to be forgiven.
My, my true desire.
"Leave the kingdom of Anemone... I don't want to leave..."
For the first time, desire became a word and I answered my voice.
Thoughts, greed, wishes, cut the weir as soon as I put it into one word.
The thoughts that kept going inward like the tide multiplied and filled, overflowing, and tsunami struck me.
No more stopping.
Everything about me that keeps pushing and killing me runs out trying to get to the surface.
I can't stop loving the people as much as I can put it into words.
Their words, their smiles, they can't get out of their heads.
I love them so much. [M]
Yet I don't like to leave.
Now I know.
That emotion that rocked me every time I met the people was my happiness, joy, joy, healing, fun,... I loved you.
My emotions have certainly been here since the time my heart raised its voice.
I want to keep looking at what they're going to do.
I want their peace, their happiness.
I want their wishes, their dreams, their hopes come true.
I want you to be happier, happier.
I want you to think that I'm glad I was born in this country.
So I want to live with them all the time in this country.
Even if I couldn't be king, I wanted to live in this country at least.
The Kingdom of Friesia is a good country.
Rich, vast, full of charm and personality of special abilities, the people under the castle were also full of good people.
But the kingdom of Friesia is not the kingdom of Anemone.
I can't replace the kingdom of Anemone, etc.
I am above all else, dear and loving, because I am a country and a people called the Kingdom of Anemone.
There is no such thing as replacing the kingdom of Anemone for me, so that the replacement of someone important cannot be replaced by someone else.
I like this country, no matter how great it is in this world. I don't want to leave until I die. I want to live in this land and die for it.
'... yes. That's what you really want, … true happiness.
The arms that held me tighter and gentler than any woman ever had.
I know.
This is my ego, I do.
I know it won't happen to me personally. [M]
That's how you understood and accepted that wish. I...
"Dear Leon, So I...
Her words still go on.
Pull me away from the cuddle and grab this eye from the front.
'I've come so far to get all of it back to you.
"Everything."
I understand the meaning of the word correctly this time.
I understand what she's going to do, and I can't believe it myself. I can see her in the blink of an eye.
As if, my chest pounded at that figure like a Savior.
'Let's go together. It comes with us. If you are willing to grab my hand, I will make you happy.
My will.
Now I know.
Where I want, wish, should be.
What should I do as the first prince of this country, who is still locked away in a place that is irrevocable?
Take that hand stretched out.
If I squeezed it tight, she also squeezed it back even harder to respond.
If she really tries to get everything back to me.
If only she would forgive me.
I also swear to her that I will ask for what I want.