The perfect future of rebirth

Didn't look at the habit of the calendar, plus the recent World Cup, and I found out that this year's father's day, the birthday of the young master is actually the same day.

Today, four years ago, young masters were born in the steel mills of our house.

After that, everyone knows that all kinds of illness are sudden, like rain, smashing my body, every time I think of the young master is hugged by the nurse from the house, I am disabateing him is not a daughter. I feel that I am really sorry.

Son, sorry, Dad is also the first time to do Dad, no experience.

This world is more sad than sadness, probably emptiness.

In these four years, our family experienced the process from disappointment to hope, from hope to despair, and then to the calm process, and I have gradually understood, some things, there is no way to force.

In the morning, the young master is crying, the child four years old, will not speak, will not walk, intellectual development, probably one year old child, sometimes I am very frustrating, perhaps, this is the life.

From Jiamusi's cerebral palsy hospital, when the train passed through the tunnel, I suddenly felt that time seems to fall off in my mind, the mottled world is unified and monotonous. I looked outside the window, kindly, playing on the tail of a city. At one thought, some shadows flashed in my heart. At this moment, I feel that there is no sound response after the life is detached.

Destiny, perhaps at the moment of his son, I chose to abandon him.

Everything after it is just that I am not willing.

Son, really sorry, Dad is the first time to do Dad, I don't know what to do in advance, I don't know how painful when you are in my mother's stomach, really sorry.

It's ridiculous, now, I and my wife, I have given up the treatment of my son malformation, whether it is a cryptorchor or urethral valve divertulum, or the soft palate, we have not continued to seek medical treatment.

On the one hand, it is because the economic conditions are limited. For more than three years, it has basically dragged us, and it is because, in front of this problem in cerebral palsy, those malformations are not important.

Yes, it's ridiculous, it's really not important.

Because we don't know, this child will stick to when, I don't know, I can still be regenerated, after all, in accordance with the results of genetic testing, unless adopted or divorced, otherwise, we have a healthy child. .

Wife is sometimes joking, saying that I don't have to worry, when we die, take the young master.

To be honest, I don't want to think about it, I don't want to think, I don't want to think.

I have never been a strong person. Although I have to work hard in the face of my family, I can put all the things. Observer, I will be sad to cry.

In these years, the Salon gathered in the website did not go. Sometimes it is to catch the young master, and most of them, because I feel bad, every time I have to spend a lot.

Life, no matter what imagine, it will eventually return to reality.

It seems that if you are disappointed, then all hope will lose meaning.

Son, if you can learn to talk, if you can grow up, how much it should be.

Sorry, Dad can not protect you.

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Life is a constant accepted process, accepting yourself is an ordinary person, accepting this world is cruel than what we think, accepting unfair things are in the way, accepting our pay often higher than our acquisition, accept us may I will never achieve dreams.

But accepting is not a compromise, but what is the realistic realistic realism.

Son, although Dad is the first time to do Dad, thank you for choosing me, thank you for alive, I hope that the next Father's Day is over, you are still by me.