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Episode 20: The Blue World
"That's how you built the foundation."
I talked to Fai, and that answer came back.
"Foundation"
"Yeah, you can't go on an adventure without a house, can you?
... I think the teacher said the same thing before.
Maybe I have an island in me. [M]
That's me. It's a place I created that only I know, and it's me. That's how it feels.
I couldn't belong anywhere, but it was never a bad thing. [M]
Loneliness is easy. Nobody needs to understand, nobody needs to hurt me... I think it was necessary for me to be alive.
That's why I'm Floating Island. It seems like it will flow somewhere fluffy, but no one will have any trouble with it anyway.
... but at some point, I felt that Ukijima was not empty, but floating in the lake.
The water slowly took me in, and sometimes the waves made me happy. [M] It protects Ukijima and says, "You can float here."
Then, when I realized that Ukijima was floating on the water... I could see the vast land around the lake. My vision opens up, I see things, and I want to go on an adventure.
Perhaps this is what Faye said: "Foundations have been made."
I feel like I'm here, and I feel like I can stay here.... it's very strange, but I can't help thinking so.
"So corn is used to this world?
Uh... yeah. Maybe so. I'm completely used to this world. [M] Living in the woods is fun, and I'm familiar with the fact that the mochi pictured in the picture becomes a mochi... and people are strangely kind to me, but I'm used to it.
Faye is bright and refreshing, looks after me as funny, Laocles is calm, and leads me quickly when I'm in trouble.
Mr Crowe has a lot of things I don't know and he tells me. I wonder what Lian and Ange... are. I'm glad you're purely nostalgic. I'm excited to see you doing all kinds of things with a small body. And Lyla sees the same thing as me from a different perspective. That's why they teach me so many things.
... they're all very gentle. Not only people, but also birds and horses, and tube foxes and phoenixes and dragons are really gentle.
I'm getting used to it... and I'm just a little scared. I know very well that when you go from a warm place to a cold place, you get extra cold. I already know that it's very painful to lose what I like once.
What if the water in the lake where Ukijima is floating disappears altogether? I wonder if I will return to the air-fluffy island again. Or do you spend time rolling down the bottom of a lost lake?
... no. Let's not think about it. I don't want to think about losing something important anymore.
Now, let's just think about being supported here.
Let's think about what might come at that time. And... you just have to do your best not to come as soon as you can. Hide it, protect it...
"I don't know what to do. You've changed a lot."
"... eh"
Suddenly, Faye told me that, and I'm a little surprised.
"Well, what happened?
"Hmm?... face?
Kao....? Have you changed your face? I haven't shaped it yet. Um...
"Am I glad? Somehow, you smell better than the first time I saw you."
"At first, you had a nasty face. You"
"... I don't really know because I can't see my face."
"Hmm? Really? Well, I was. I mean," Buuuu, uuuuuuu, "or" shhh, shh, shh, shh, shh... "
That's what Faye says to remind me.... Speaking of which, it's been almost a year since I met him. You're early.
I've certainly changed a lot since I first met Faye.
When I first came to this world, I was drawing because I didn't bother anyone when I was drawing alone. But now, I'm drawing while being allowed to, whatever you want.... this is an incredible change. It smells sparkly. Mm-hmm.
"So, I realized that I smell when I'm touching something I like. Pictures, bread between ham and cheese.... now is not the time for you to paint, whether you don't eat bread or me, Laocles, Claire, Lian and Angel, Lyla... well, you smile when you're with horses and birds."
... I wonder what you're doing. Is that how you smell at me? I thought you were somehow faceless... but I see. Has it changed that much? Me.
"I'm so happy about that! I'm glad you liked me, and I'm glad you started smiling anyway!
"... thank you for that."
Somehow, it feels complicated when you say it to the face. I feel a little embarrassed.... should I have a little refreshment too?
"The point is, we and this forest have become your home, right? That's why you can go on an adventure with confidence, right? That's a good thing! Don't!"
... but when Fay told me that, I kind of... I'm embarrassed and illuminated, but I just have to nod.
Yes, I can now go on an adventure. I want to do all kinds of things and go to all kinds of places.
That's because we made a house. This is because Ukijima is not fluffy in the air, but it can be supported by soft water, so I can see the surrounding continent.
Because it's true... maybe this is it.
"... ah, this is the third stage of Mazlow, I wonder"
"Hmm? What is that?"
When I was thinking about it, two words came out and Faye reacted, so I briefly explained the five-stage desire theory.
And again, I think about it myself.
The third stage of Mazlow's five-stage desire theory. Affiliation and the hierarchy of love. When it is met, it becomes a desire for approval, and when it is approved, it becomes self-fulfilling.
I belong to this world, and then, uh... you know, you love me. Thank you so much, I'm sorry, but I'm a little illuminated.
Maybe that's why I'm here. That's why I wanted a rating, and I wanted to decorate my paintings in the museum for someone who sees and likes my paintings.
... and now that it's filled up a little bit, I kind of want to do a lot of things.
That's right. That's what happened. I was satisfied with my condition and became more enjoyable.
It's about time. If this is going to require appreciation, love, and so on... I'm sure you do. I'm in very good shape right now.
... I didn't think that belonging, being loved, and being evaluated were such a thing. Tickle, it's warm... and you're feeling better. Wow. I'm feeling better than ever.
Yeah, that's right. I'm very well. [M] I want to go on an adventure. I want to do a lot of things. It's not just about painting, it's about doing a lot of things. I've never been so happy with the breadth of the world.
... this is what the foundation is for.
Because the first stage to the fourth stage has been completed. Because I have a home to go home to.
"... Fei"
"Hmm? What's wrong?
When I looked up at Faye, Faye smiled a lot at me. I'm a little embarrassed to see that face, but I think it's important to say it after all.
Well, thanks.
I couldn't say what happened. I don't have the strength to say it, and I don't have the skill to make it into words. [M] I don't have the confidence to say, "I want to give back what I got one day."
I just got it and I don't think I can give it back. I'm sure... that's why I can't say this yet.
... but Fei smiled and stroked my head.
"Oh, my God!... I'm looking forward to it! You can do all kinds of things!
Probably passed on. It may not be all of them, but something was passed on even with the shards. That makes me a little bit happy, too. [M]
"All right, all right, corn. That's how you smell!
"Mmm...."
Even if I don't think about smelling, I think I'll smile anyway. I mean, I have a place to go, where you can support me, and that's why I'm on an adventure... because it's really fun!
That night, I even listed all the things I wanted to do.
I want to go to various places and draw a picture. I would like to draw pictures of various people, and I would like to draw pictures of various things.
I also want to do sculpture. I'm also a little interested in the design. I want to try it. And textiles. Lyla is dyeing indigo, so I'm also interested in you.
I'd like to do some work. I don't care if you don't go to art. I just want to keep polishing the wood shards until they are round, and I want to polish the metal plate until it becomes a mirror. Then it might be fun to make your own writing and painting materials. I know about bamboo pens. Let's make it.
And then... the first step towards it is magic painting.
I have something to draw. [M]
It's... a big, magnificent painting, like a mural in the royal castle.
I want to draw that. [M]
But I wonder if I can draw anything in front of the wall. I have to prepare a wall in the first place, so should I start with architecture?
Fortunately, the architecture can be drawn. Well, then, you have to think about what kind of building to build, and you have to design it.
And above all, the mural there! Oh, what should I draw? If you can paint big and magnificent on a wide wall... there's too much you want to paint and there's nothing you can do about it!
... after all, I could hardly sleep that day. [M]
There were too many things to do, too many places to try and make, not enough for one night.
I looked out the window and realized that the dawn was approaching, and I rushed into the bed...
... outside the window, it looked like it was painted just with indigo gray. The sky is indigo, and the shadow of the vegetation is close to black. The slightly white sky edges are light indigo, and only a little of what is illuminated by that light can be seen to fade.... that's the view. It's like I painted it with a paint I got from Lyla.
Nice view.
Looking at the cool colors of the scenery, I'm starting to get excited again.
... indigo is the color of the world that starts now. I feel that way.
"So, I'd like you to teach me the magic painting in earnest..."
The next day, I naturally felt sleepless. [M] But I'll talk to Lyla first. For the first step, we need to practise magic painting in earnest.
... but...
"Eh, are you okay? Magic painting is a good use of magic.
That's what Lyla said... she looked at me worried.
"Well, don't make it impossible. Magic, too, but I use my health. I wonder if it's because I concentrate. Even a small piece of canvas makes you feel like you don't want to move any more, and if you draw a big picture, you won't be able to draw a magic painting for a few days... you'll run out of energy in agriculture, right? After that, you'll use your magic and physical strength. Are you okay?
... um.
Maybe not...