The picturesque rice cakes are delicious today

I drew it. [M] I drew it all over again.

The first two sheets stayed the same. At the same time as the paper that was filled with water at the beginning and the Christmas gift from the teacher.

The painting shows the world after the Kachikachi arson king burned it down.

The woods burned down and a fire broke out, and I began to paint.

The forest is regenerating, and the people I've met are gathering.

I followed the events since the Tickle King appeared. Draw around the world to reclaim what's lost.

Go to the Amber Pond. I went to the Spirit Lord of Gorda. I went to Mr. Crore's dad. I went to the fairy country, or to the gringo forest. He said he was at the Agent's house.

From the drawing, the world regenerates. Beautiful landscapes and people there. All, all.

... once the first two are finished, it will progress one by one. A sketchbook that doesn't need to be watered down can't be drawn multiple times at the same time because when you finish drawing, you can peel the paper from side to side and move to the next page. You can always draw only one piece at a time.

As a result, only three paintings were completed by the evening.

... well, there's no magic painting in this world, and watercolor paint can dry up in some time, so there's nothing I can do about it.

It was time for the teacher's mother to come, so I decided to take up some time. [M] Ishino-kai said that it was probably better not to face the teacher's mother. No, I think so too. It definitely makes the conversation confusing.

In the meantime, the painting I painted is in my room. Thankfully!). For the time being, make sure that the complete set of luggage is not stained by cardboard.

"Togo-kun, can I have a minute?"

When I was cleaning up, Ishino-kai spoke to me suddenly.

"I need to tell you one more thing." It was in the letter of protection..... "

If I thought, Ishinokai-san told me about [that]... I would be very surprised.

I walk out of the teacher's house with a crutch. [M] At dusk, the asphalt has a long shadow. Morning and evening are a bit similar.

... and along the way, I passed a woman who walked in a hurry. He was younger than my mother, but somewhere he had a similar vibe to my mother.

Oh, I somehow thought that was the teacher's mother.

I walked there without worrying about me... but I wonder if Ishinomi-san will see him soon. Good luck, Ishinokai-san.

And... I have to do my best, too.

Welcome back.

When I got home, my mother came from the living room to the front door to say hello.

"Where have you been?"

"Take a walk, like the main street in front of the station or the library."

She sits at the door, takes off her shoes, wipes the crutches, and goes up to her house. But now, I feel like I'm disturbing you.

Yo, as I walked towards my room, my mother caught up with me and grabbed my shoulder.

"You're going to school tomorrow?" Do you understand? "

"I know. That's why I took a walk."

Maybe my mother doesn't know what I'm talking about. I don't think I know what 'so' means. From the point of view of my mother, I think 'although' is correct.

"Hey, Kirigoe! Listen to me!"

"Yeah, I hear you."

I was a little embarrassed, and my mother turned to face each other in frustration. [M]

At that moment, my mother is frightened.

You grabbed my shoulders and pulled me into a face-to-face position, but my mother was frightened facing me.

... I'm often blind to these people for some reason. Even if I try to make eye contact, you won't look at me.... even though I was able to make eye contact with Ishinokai-san immediately.

"Next week, it's not a test anymore." What are you thinking? "

Yeah, I think it's going to be a little harsh this time.

When I answered that question honestly, I was stunned.

"...... such an energetic thing! Hey, it's a test!?"

"Well, I don't think that testing has any meaning in itself, but... I made a mistake in the test, and I'm thinking of slowly starting over for the winter break. So, let's make up for the time I took off from class."

When I answered that, my mother gave me a dull look. [M] "It's as if I hadn't thought of it..."

"Ah, yes, Mother."

While looking at such a mother, I think it's just right to ask.

"Do you have time right now? My dad's here, and I need to talk to him."

Therefore, I am seated in the dining room. [M] It's a seat that doesn't have very good memories. I remember my mother drooling and sighing at this table, and this table was a less enjoyable place to eat, and I had hit my head in the corner... no, that's fine.

"Well, thank you for taking the time. I need to talk to you."

My mother has a steep face in the opposite seat, and my father is sitting with his arms crossed and looking down at me. They're both nervous. Of course I'm nervous too. I've never talked like this before.

"I want to change my school of aspiration"

But it has to start, so I offered.

"... where is it?"

"Tokyo University of the Arts.... since it's a public school, the tuition is cheaper than other universities, so I wonder if I can do something with a scholarship."

I've thought a lot about it.

First of all, the art of private school is impossible. The five universities are a bit tough. Although Kyoto Municipal Art University was originally a public institution, when I went to Kyoto, I ended up living alone, and it cost me extra money. I dreamed of a school far away because I wanted to leave my parents, but when I think about money, it is realistic to go to my parents' home. Alternatively, you can come from a 'rent-free house in the neighborhood of the house'.

... then I thought it would be the most difficult, but it would be the most realistic to aim for Tokyo Art Museum. At least, if you're just aiming for it. If you just dream, it's free.

No, no, no, no.

But that's what my father said.

"Waseda or Keio if you're aiming for it." If you can't do that, more than a law school in Ichibashi. I told you before. Otherwise, I won't allow it. I'm done talking. "

Moreover, he sighed deliberately and said so, and his father took his seat.

"Well then, I'll do it even if you don't allow me to." What about that kind of report? "

When I say that to my father who is going somewhere, a face with little emotion turns towards me. If you say it hard, you say, "It's a hassle."

"I wonder if I can do something about the money without having to give it out." If I borrow a scholarship, I'll manage. Well, if you're a public aesthetic major, it's enough to borrow a scholarship of 50,000 yen or 80,000 yen a month. In addition, if I work part-time, I can manage my living expenses and consumables. "

I have no choice but to work part-time for money other than school fees. The cost of living is the same, as is the cost of paint and paper.

... but I'm prepared to do something about it. I know that if you're poor, you'll blunt them. Still, I know it's much better to be hungry than hungry.

"You don't see reality at all." What was the payment in the first year? You don't know, Kirigo. If you're going to go to college, you'll need a bunch of money before you go to college. It'll cost you about a million dollars. Of course, I can't rely on scholarships because I'm not enrolled in school. And how do you prepare a million yen? "

My father told me to throw up over my head without taking a seat. [M]

“Look at the reality. It's not so sweet in the world that a child like you can do it in a dream alone."

"Well, I've already looked into that.... if it's a little bit of a million yen, there's a way to figure it out." That's why the first year payment is okay. "

But what my father said was already a simulation.... I guess that's why I'm trying to get to Midea without my parents' help.

"... are you going to spend your savings? Your old balls?"

And when I thought about it, my father said something a little strange.

No, savings... eh? Savings? What happened to my old man's savings? Um, my mother collected it almost immediately, and even though I said "I want to use it," it didn't come out, and even if I hid it in my room, it disappeared at some point, so I thought there was no such thing anymore!

... no, I don't think so. As far as my father's face goes. "I don't know if you're making such a face right now..."

"Hey, hey, Kirigoe. The scholarship is a debt. What are you going to do with your job after going to Mi-da? How do I get my scholarship back?"

I have a little thoughts about my father, and my mother comes up to me from the side.

"Can you make enough money to survive while repaying your scholarship?" There's no way you can live by just drawing! "

”When that happens, I'll find a way to live by laughing, 'Oh, you're a fool when you're young'”

I know the difficulty of making art money. But at the same time, I know the joy of being allowed to draw my own paintings and become money.

"That's not true... That's the wrong way to live"

The mother frowns.

"I'm saying it for you." Why are you telling me twisted things like that? "

The father sighs.

They must have their imaginary happiness. It's definitely true for them... but it must be hard for me to breathe.

"It seems that your happiness and my happiness are different." So, if you're saying it's for me, let me paint. You don't have to support me. "

... but I'd be glad if you supported me. I'd be glad if you could keep an eye on me. But I know it's a bit unrealistic to want them to do that.

"... or do I have to live for you guys?"

At the very least, I hope you'll forgive me for living alone.

As soon as I said that, a strong shock was applied to the side of my head. Guru, your head is shaking, and then you're in a dull, heavy pain. Then, I realized that I was beaten.

"Cut it out!"

Your nausea is coming at you loosely and you're fluttering. It's been a while. It's been like this.

"Cool your head! Who the hell do you think you are..."

"I'm trying to keep my head cold."

Usually, if I get hit, I don't have to say anything more, but I can't back down here this time. Patience, seeing your father again.

"...... I've been thinking a lot. Really. I'm going to go to the art department of the school of education and become the art teacher of the school. I also thought about studying art history and art. But... eventually, even though I'm going to be a teacher or an artist, I want to learn more about painting."

I know how difficult it is to eat with paintings. That's why I'm properly investigating whether there are other occupations that can be involved in painting, besides painting. If you include that kind of thing, I know that it's not unrealistic to live with a painting. Of course, it would be far from a financially prosperous life.

"You're wasting your life on paintings!?"

"From my point of view, a life that can't be drawn is much more useless."

I wonder how a hysterical mother would know. Thinking... I suddenly remembered.

"When I was in elementary school, I received a gold medal at an art exhibition, remember? Oh, I was so glad you complimented me. Besides that, I didn't have much praise from my mother."

After a bit of reflection, I don't have many memories of being praised other than for that gold medal. I don't know how long it has been since I got 100 points in the test and even when I went home, I didn't get any special compliments.

"So I also noticed that she likes to paint. Thanks to this, I can still love painting and live."

Anyway, that was the point of departure for me. It was a big event that I liked to paint, and I was able to live to support it.

Though it's my fault...

"Oh, I shouldn't have praised you for winning the prize at the art exhibition...!"

... listening to your mother's words, your chest feels a bit refreshed.

Well, I think so, and I think so. Maybe just a little bit, a little bit disappointed.

"... if that were the case, I'd already be dead." He died in the winter of sixth grade. "

Huh?

This is not about comforting your mother's lament, but about hunting you down. But I will tell you properly for now.

"Don't you remember the day after the pass announcement, I got home late?"

I don't know if you remember, but I think you probably don't remember. I wonder if my mother realized in the first place that I had returned that day. [M]

"That day, I tried to jump into the river."...... if it hadn't been for someone who helped me, I would have really fallen into the river. "

Both father and mother looked like they were talking about something. I may not be very interested, but I have to make sure that I'm interested. That's the way it is.

"Well, sometimes there was someone who caught and dragged me back to Land Cell just outside the curtain, so I'm still alive..."

Let's talk about the teacher, I'm a little lost... and I've come to the conclusion that I can't wait to talk about it later.

"... so, uh, let's go back a bit and report it to you."

Just a little courage... and I'm going to tell you a ridiculous story.

"I decided to inherit about 2 million yen"

The teacher wasn't a novelist since he was born, of course.

Before the teacher started earning a living from novels, he seemed to have been writing novels as a hobby while working for a few years after leaving college. If anything, the teacher I met for the first time didn't actually make a living from a single novel!

... well, when I was working, I had a lot of savings, and I was able to earn a living with a novel while eating up the savings a bit, and I became a novelist who could earn enough money to live without having to put my hands on my savings.

... and the money left in the teacher's deposit account is about 5 million yen.

And the teacher said that he wanted to give me 2 million yen, excluding the legacy and everything else, and left a will. So, the stamp duty and other rights that are planned to come in the future will be given to Ishinomi-san.

"One million yen will be used for the first year of enrollment. I want to use 1 million yen to go to prep school.... if you're going to Midea, if you're aiming for Tokyo Art University, I don't think you'll be able to make it to prep school in time."

I'd like to go to prep school if I can. I've been living in a different world for about two years, but I'm not sure I can pass Tokyo University of the Arts with that alone...

"Oh, no... why is that money?" From whom? Hey, Kirigo! What the hell did you do!? "

"I decided to inherit it from Unnaku-san."

I explained to my mother who was in a bit of a panic, and she said, "Who is that? 'I just said that.

"Are you the victim of this incident?"

"... yes..."

It seems that his father knew the teacher's name. It was on the news, and there was a TV stationer in front of the teacher's house, so well, it's not strange to know.

"Why would that person want you?"

"I was originally an acquaintance. I've known her since sixth grade... and she was very friendly. Well, the point is, it was Usuyuki-san who pulled me up and kept me in the suicide attempt. After that, when I was in junior high, I met again in the library, and sometimes I started talking, and recently, I've only been interrupting my home."

... you must have been quite shocked. My son was going up to a stranger's house. Both father and mother have that look on their faces. It seems that my mother was particularly shocked. I'm sorry. I don't think I'm sorry, but I'm sorry.

"Well, that's why I interrupted my teacher's house, studied there, painted there, and managed to live."

"You didn't have any painting tools, did you?" What's the matter with you? Did you get the money from that person? "

"I spent all the lunch money my mother gave me on the artwork." That's why I drew it. "

Perhaps because unknown information emerged from one to the next, her mother's face was about to faint. Was it so shocking? Well, it must have been a shock.

"You threw away all my painting materials." So I bought it back. Crayons, colored pencils, watercolor paint. I bought back the acrylic paint... and recently, I had a collection of oil painting tools. "

"Hey, Kirigoe! Mom didn't pay for food to use it for such a waste!"

"I don't want you to say it's useless. It was the painting that kept me alive. [M] No matter what happens, it's the painting itself that made me live.”

My teacher kept me alive, but he taught me that there were paintings in me. You taught me the art of living... after all, I'm alive because there are paintings.

"What are you talking about, Kirigo?" Did you even read a strange book? "

Well, that might be it. It was a strange book. That world. Really.... it was a strange, warm, soft, happy book.

"No matter how hard things are, if you think it was an experience to paint, you can get over it. No matter how much I dislike it, I'll keep it as an ingredient for what I love. That's how I'm alive now.... I don't think you guys really understand."

My parents, who have mutated into something I don't understand, are creatures I don't understand. I think we'll probably need a wall in the meantime to survive like that. I don't think that's sad.

"Even if I die, I won't stop drawing." You can die if you can't draw. I don't want to die if I can, but I don't want to be able to draw. "

"So if you really don't want me to paint, just kill me and stop."

... after all.

I wasn't going to be killed. When I got hit with one shot, it settled down.

So for the time being, "I have this feeling, this plan. Please tell me how you will be involved with me in the future when you come to a conclusion." Dinner is not included. But, well, I'm just conscientious that I didn't get kicked out of my house. My parents were holding their heads, but I was refreshed to say what I wanted to say. [M]

... for the first time in my life. It's the first time I've been able to give so many opinions to my parents.

Well, that's why... for the first time in my life, I decided to think that my parents might think about my feelings once.... can I help you?

Whatever conclusions they draw, I think I'll do something about it. [M] When I was told not to live in the house, I was supposed to let Mr. Ishinokai live in the house. After that, I think I should drop out of high school and go to prep school while working and take the high school graduation certification examination. Tokyo Art University seems to have no problem with the discipline if it gets 80% on the common test, so I can afford to go to Ichibashi's law school. But I think I will study harder than ever. I'll be able to manage even if I drop out of high school at any time... "

... well, now, have a good night. Now, I'm just going to wait for their conclusion without expecting much.

I'd be glad if my parents could just walk over to my side. "But, well, don't expect too much..."