Nightmare and I jumped out of bed, I breathed heavily and quenched the heartbeat of my chest that struck the early bell.
Oh, yeah. I don't have Richter now. I think so, and I stroke my chest down relieved.
... I never thought my favorite brother would be the scariest person for me.
A week has already passed since I was locked in my own room upstairs.
Ever since then, I've had dreams of when Richter turned into a leopard, and this is how I keep jumping up.
For the first two days Richter had hung in my hand a restraining magic called [Kadena], called 'Punishment'.
In short, it's like handcuffs, but I quite enjoyed not being able to use both hands, albeit for a few days. Confirming that he was no longer willing to run away from me, he immediately released it but......
Now, this room that I'm in is a predecessor to the Roseblade family - that is, someone who hits my grandfather used it a lot when doing side jobs.
Now my late grandfather was working as a writer on a side job, so he liked this villa where he could work in a quiet environment. For this reason, the bathroom is fully furnished here in the hope of my grandfather, who was often stuck in the room.
So as long as you can carry food, I won't have any trouble living in confinement... so to speak, I haven't been out for a single step in the past week because I'm in a state of confinement.
Perhaps the day the inspector comes to visit he will inevitably go to another room, but still, he just moved around the mansion.
Richt has really turned that day into a frontier.
Though there had been signs for months, kindness towards me still remained at the time.
With that said, back then he was badly disturbed and looked anxious even though he had grasped my behavior with the bugging (bagging) feature of the contract ring...... I'm sure Richt was so afraid to 'take me away from someone' that he still couldn't feel safe.
Back then, he was so exhausted that it was painful to watch. That's when me and Nate talked like we were going after each other - maybe that triggered it.
If I'd only listened to that conversation, it would have just seemed like I'd even met him...
Nevertheless...... it is true that when Nate told me to "do it again as a lover in this world," I got lost for a moment. There is no choice but to be interpreted by Richt as "betrayed".
And I think one of the causes of Richt's broken heart is that I 'rejected' him in a previous life.
Regrettably, I still can't remember the day I died.
Richt says I turned him down that day. He couldn't explain the details, but how could he have done that...
According to what Nate told me, the cause of death for us twins seems to be accidental, but why did we both die together?
... No. I can't remember.
Richt will be back in a few hours. He'll be visiting this room in a little while when he gets home.
I'm locked in a room, so naturally Richter will take care of the meal, but he can actually do it himself even if I don't cook in this world.
So this past week Richt has been cooking meals and bringing them to this room.
I was also prepared to be forced into my body when I saw that leopard change, but so far, I have not been able to get my hands on it. Maybe it's the only conscience in his heart that's broken.
But...... if that conscience is even gone, I'm sure I'll be vain and mauled too. What the hell happens to us if we cross the line?
Instead of asking for his body, Richter kisses me like a bite, indispensable every day. At least I just hope the act doesn't escalate any more.
But I'm the one who drove Richt this far. It's my fault. I have, until now, repeatedly acted recklessly without knowing his feelings.
I'm sure that every time Richter got hurt a little bit. Ever since my last life, I couldn't tell anyone. Trouble alone, suffer...
So maybe I should just spoil and accept his demands that went crazy.
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"─ Ceres"
"... mmm..."
A gentle voice echoes in my ear and I open my eyes.
Oh... me, I fell asleep. Soon, it seems that Richt is back.
"Were you sleeping? Have you been waiting for a good girl?
Richt said so and narrowed his eyes, smiling. And as I tangle my hair in my fingers and give thanks to love, I lean my lips against that hair and gently drop my mouth.
Previously, when I was like this, all I had to do was put my hands lightly on my head and say "I'm home," but whatever I did since that day, I've totally treated you like a lover.
"You missed me while I was gone...? I really don't want to leave for a moment, but I have a job as a court magician."
That's what I ask, Richt strokes my cheek. If they ask me this, I'll have to shake my head vertically.
When I can't answer anything, I get grabbed on the shoulder screaming, "Why aren't you telling me anything!? You're telling me it's better if I'm not here!?" and I'm shaken violently.
Richt left the room saying "I'll be right back" when he smiled satisfied when he saw me nodding.
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Richter, back in the room, had the dish in his hand put on a silver tray. He sat next to me as he walked straight up to me sitting on the bed.
"I made omelettes today. I tried to imitate the flavor of omelet rice you make, but it doesn't really work... Yeah, with that being said, this was the first time you made it for me in my last life. I was really happy then."
Richter carries a spoon in my mouth as he speaks pale with his vain eyes. This is how he feeds me every time, even though I'm not in hand restraint anymore.
I think it tastes delicious. But... I don't think I've eaten under these circumstances, and I'm not about to taste them.
"... for the rest of my life, I wanted you to make it just for me"
Licht, who murmured so quietly, seemed to care about something. I've behaved like a handmade cook several times in my previous life, so I think that's probably the case.
"I have dreams that I've wanted to fulfill since my last life."
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Tilting his little neck to me, Richt said, "I told you before. return."
Oh, I remember. When he first came here, he used to say, "I have dreams I want to fulfill". I'm sure it was then.
"I've wanted to marry you ever since I was a kid. Even though I knew I couldn't, I wanted to. And I swear my eternal love to you in the dress. And every day when I get home, you welcome me home, and I cook delicious food and I wait, and... one day I'm going to have a baby. Right...... about two guys and a woman would be nice. If my daughter looked like you, I would surely be a pro fool. That's how I wanted to get over it with you, though I was worried about everything. I've always wanted to be next door."
Behind the vain eyes of Richter, who speaks so, he felt the sorrow he would have had alone for many years. He opened his mouth again as he turned his eyes towards me, which dwelt in deep sorrow.
"But I didn't have the right to make that dream come true. I didn't have that right from the moment I was born, either in my previous life or in this world. I like you so much... I love you more than anyone..."
"I'm sorry I haven't noticed your feelings before," I thought when I saw Richter squeaking so bitterly.
I think I'm scared of Richter, who's gone mad. But only at this moment did I feel like I caught a glimpse of one of my previous gentle brother's scales.
"Rich..."
The moment I tried to say that, I was suddenly blocked in the lips. Yeah, it's pretty abrupt tonight. Although this act itself has ceased to surprise me anymore......
At the end of a long mouthfeel that offended the oral cavity, Richt exhaled hot breath and pressed his lips against my neck muscle.
"... eh"
Unexpectedly, a voiceless voice leaks.
When Richt grabbed my shoulders, he slowly crawled his tongue from his neck muscle to his clavicle. Even as I was confused by my first act, I ruined my breath. Seeing that reaction, Richt raised his mouth angle slightly.
"I've always wanted to do this with you. Of course, more than that...... Is that what you think it shouldn't be?
Richt asked me that, grabbing both my shoulders.
I'm about to get sucked into those eyes looking straight at me. I can't get my eyes off you.
"If this thought is a sin, I want you to fall to the same place. We've been together ever since we were born. So let's go to hell together. Even if we go to hell, we'll be together forever."
I look into Richter's ruthless eyes, who said that quietly, and his spine creeps.
After all, my brother, whom I knew, was nowhere else. I'm sure he's going to keep me locked up here for the rest of his life.
...... don't let anyone take it away from you again.
But I didn't feel like staying just that.
Probably Nate would worry about me not showing up since then. Maybe I'll visit this mansion.
Then what happens...? I'm sure Richt will see him as an 'invader trying to break paradise' and try to get rid of him. Even if not, it is absolutely natural that there would be danger to Nate, who has a deep connection with Richt since his previous life.
Oh...... I wish I hadn't gone to the town square that day. But it's too late to regret it.
All I can do now is pray that things don't get any worse.