My body is heavy. My head hurts. My voice is withering because I screamed too much.
In the end, I was also vainly mauled by Richt for resistance.
I don't want to remind you, and I don't want to believe you... it's true that me and Richt were physically bonded last night.
─ ─ Don't forget the fact that you and I are connected today.
"... eh"
I remember the words that Richt told me and accidentally stuck me in the pillow. Last night, many of the words he said dominated and cursed my head.
I'm sure I can't escape my brother for the rest of my life. Originally, I knew Richt wasn't going to let me go. Nevertheless... I had a faint expectation somewhere in my mind that "one day you might find out" would come.
─ Still, are you gonna insist that you don't want me?
"No, no! There's no desire for you!
I shout back to Richt, speaking in my head, unexpectedly. Indoors with no one but myself, a sad voice sounded.
When I layered my body with Richt last night, my body reacted unconsciously. Richt, who saw it, while saying he didn't like it, might have sincerely thought I wanted him.
"Because... you're my brother, aren't you? You've been my real sister and brother for a long time now, and there's no way you can seem like that, is there? I just want to be friends as a normal sister and brother like I used to be......!
Even he used to see me as a heterosexual all the time, so maybe he's no different than he is now in the spiritual part.
But at least, he wasn't the kind of person I'd force to hate before. Even during this time, when I cried out, you stopped right, why...?
Though Richt has always said he wanted to hold me since his previous life...... really, did he want to make me cry until then?
"... I want to go back to my normal sister and brother"
While my head understands it's an unfulfilled dream, I can't help but hope so.
Last night, Richt held me in his bed all night. I couldn't stop crying too much of the shock, and I kept gently stroking my head to soften.
I'm sure he hasn't slept one night because he did that all the way to around the early morning when I was tired of crying and sleeping. But... Richter went to work, as usual, speaking to me.
Look at me not responding. Richt had a sad look on his face, but now in my eyes I also couldn't help but react because he only appeared in "The Terrible Man Who Mausoled Himself" instead of "My Loved Brother".
"Hey, how could you!? How could you do such a terrible thing!? Tell me, Richt! What...!
I'll ask him with that scream, but I don't know if Richt is asking because he's in the King's Capital right now, and he'll be at work.
However, I kept throwing the question even as I blamed my brother for not being in the mansion right now.
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"Good luck, Richter"
He was slapped in the back and called out at the same time as he was out of work. Looking back, a fellow man stood smiling.
He invited me to a drink yesterday after work. Am I in a good mood because I rarely participate, which I usually refuse?
"Good luck"
"No, thanks for joining us yesterday. If Richter joins us, we'll raise the morale of the newcomers."
Yesterday was a welcome party for newcomers recruited halfway through, but they had a lot of newcomers who admired me for everything and went for court magicians, and my boss really asked me to join them.
"With that said... were you okay yesterday? I've been drinking a lot for a long time..."
"Yeah, I'm fine. Besides, I always say no, so sometimes I wonder if it's okay to do oh and take my wings off..."
"Right. I hope so."
Originally, I'm not too strong on booze. This man knows that, so he must have wondered when he saw me drinking.
"But how did you drink so much? He seemed like he couldn't do it."
"It's..."
Looking at me stuck in words, my coworker man peered into my face as I leaned my neck.
"Actually, I have a one-sided woman. Because the person doesn't turn to me too much, so..."
"I see. So, you're giving up alcohol"
"Yeah, well."
"Nevertheless... there's no woman who can't be overwhelmed by you. I'm surprised. Born of a good house with status and wealth, with high magic and talent... besides its beauty, isn't it?
I smile back at my colleagues who praise me for doing it. It's natural not to be overwhelmed. Anyway, my loved one is my real sister.
"But that made her cry. I can't help but notice that it's important and important, and I always hurt her."
"Really...... but I guess I didn't lose my edge? Then we'll make up for it."
"Right..."
I'm sure he only thinks so precisely that he 'had a fight with someone he liked'.
But I did nothing worse against Ceres. I'm sure she'll keep resenting me forever.
But... still, I really wanted to be tied to Ceres. With the help of booze, but I wanted to be tied. If I hadn't been drunk, I wouldn't have cared about being rejected.
I feel like I did a terrible job. But now Ceres can't run away from me for the rest of his life. As soon as I thought so, my chest filled with relief and my heart filled.
Even if Ceres succeeds in escaping using some method, the fact that he 'made mistakes with his real brother' should keep her tied up until he dies. Then you'll never forget me.
What I fear most in this world is losing Ceres and being forgotten by Ceres.
"Well, you better not come up with much."
My colleague advised me to leave the room after finishing my return journey.
When we got to the town of Reeve, the area was completely stained with sunset. As I was walking home on an unpopular (one-sided) path, I could hear myself inadvertently calling off.
"Long time no see"
……
Looking back at what his voice sounded like, Nate, his best friend and lover of his previous life, looked at me with a slightly sword-soaked look.
"If I waited here, I'd feel like I could see you"
"Oh, what... isn't that Mr. Nate? What's the matter, sir? Can I help you?
"Yes. Actually, I couldn't help but wonder how Rosetta is doing... But I thought visiting the mansion would be annoying, so I waited for you here."
"Really? Thank you for worrying so much about our servant. But I'm still in a bad shape, so I'm not seeing her."
"I knew it wouldn't get better"
"Yep..."
Nate answered that, unfortunately lowering her brow butt.
"A lame question...... Rosetta, are you really sick?
"... what does that mean?
"No, the... I might be rude to say this. It doesn't seem to me that you're hiding something. Come on, can you tell me the truth? Mr. Richter - no... should I now call you Hope?"
……
It was so abrupt that I was slightly upset as soon as Nate uttered my name in a previous life.
But there's no need to panic. It is also within the limits of his assumptions that he will find out who I am. You should cut through the white here at all costs.
"Nozom......? What the hell are you talking about? My name hasn't changed since I was born."
"After all, that habit (...) is no different from previous life"
"Habits...?
"I've been wondering since I first met you. You always had the habit of putting your arms together when you were upset or angry inside. There are many other parts of you that I'm sure you're looking forward to.... I won't forget my old best friend that easily, even if he changes shape."
That's what Nate said, but he slowly walked over to me.
─ ─ Again, you're good at observation and insight. It has been so since previous life.
"Suddenly, I wonder what I'm going to say...... Previous life? You really think there's something like that...?
"Of course, I can't prove it. But I do remember the three of us living in Japan.... don't you?
"Will you please stop? I don't have time for any more ridiculous stories."
"You seem to really want to keep me away from Rosetta... but the reason you do that is' cause I still love her in this world 'right?
……
"Tell me, hope. Rosetta-- no, what's Chizuru doing now?
Nate told me what I meant one after the other, and I stuck around.... Can't his eyes be deluded at the earliest?