The Resetting Lady

I fell into a book. 117 years have passed.

a girl of 117 years old

She was born in this world from the beginning. the inside of this book

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Karen tried to get her voice together. You must stop crying. Now we have to check.

"There's no way you didn't know from the beginning. As soon as I heard it, I thought about it. I knew as soon as I heard that she was like me! There's no way you don't know....”

"My mother was just like me....”

Beautiful red-haired women, women, women.

"But I didn't want to know, and you didn't tell me for sure. It's something everyone might think about, but... We didn't check it out, but we went over to each other in vague terms. "What is love?"

“…….”

Karen was suffocated. But you have to say it. You must speak. Now you really have to say it. In a little while, there will be another ending, and he will die, and he will start again, and if he doesn't drive him to the point of killing again, Dulan won't say again, and again.

"My mother gave birth to me, and if she stopped after that... It's simple. It's something everyone could think of. I just have to give birth to a child and pass it on to my child....”

Karen has to talk. But my throat was bursting with blood. I don't want to talk. I don't want to check. I don't want a definite answer. But all those undeniable things, Raymond's words, Mrs. Dare's words, Prince Gwiz, Louis, Catherine.

"I suppose so. The child... is the result of love, and I find the person I love and make a family, and it's over."

But that's impossible for Karen. Karen gave her hand a boost. Blood is flowing from my hands. But I can't feel the pain. I want to run away. But I can't. Because

"The consolation you're talking about... True love... After all, it's nonsense... It's just a mirage."

Mother's mother, mother's mothers, blessing in blood, repeated time.

"I'm infertile."

Karen eventually said.

Tears streamed down from my eyes.

How many times, how many times.

Karen doubted several times in her life without her father telling her or Dare telling her. My period was extremely irregular. But a woman's body that is under extreme stress is like that's the way it is. Karen tried not to think.

Karen spent the night with countless men, but there was no fruit. I met more and more men because I was curious. Meet, sleep, check. Check Duran if it's not Raymond, Bowen if it's not Duran, or even a street bully, or a man with children.

And Karen had to be sure.

You cannot have children of your own.

"So… the way I can finish it… There isn't, is there?"

Karen sees Duran. Tears continue to flow. I couldn't tell whether tears were flowing or blood was flowing. But I still see Duran. In the midst of this, she wants to be dishonest. Hope.

“…….”

But Duran nodded.

It was a death sentence.

"…I see."

There was no scream.

Silence filled the room.

06. Referee II

I can't even cry.

“…….”

Karen was lying with dry eyes. No matter how time passed, it didn't matter now. He needed time to shut himself up. The prison seemed like a plausible place to flee a while ago, but not for Karen. It's only one day until the trial. No, we have plenty of time. There are so many now. Time lasts forever. It was like that from the beginning.

I didn't know what to do. So Karen was lying down. If you were to be a stone statue, if you could stop thinking about it...Somebody kill me. Someone put me in a coffin and tied a stone to the sea and threw it. so that he won't be able to survive.

But if you do that, you'll be born again. If I open my eyes again, I'll be standing alone in a cold, rainy garden.

No matter how desperate I am, time passes.

I can't go crazy even if I want to. No, are you crazy already? Who can define what is crazy is? I didn't want to think about anything. If I could stay like a tree or a stone. But Karen knows. Even if you want to hit your head or go crazy, all wounds are healed over time. The body forcefully returns and so does the mind. In the end, the mind is affected by the body. She can't even go crazy. forever

The morning is coming.

The morning comes to her, who wants to die but cannot. Even if the cruel truth is revealed, the morning comes. Nothing changes.

"Caran Evans, your trial day. Come on out."

“…….”

Karen lay down and shed tears all night. I lay still like a corpse and shed tears. But nevertheless, the morning came. The umpire is over. It is now a man's trial. a trifling trial of no consequence Karen turned her head but couldn't get up. I lay down all night and cried, so I couldn't get tired.

"Wake up...Damn it, you, open the door and go in."

Karen, who lay down and shed tears, was raised by the guards with rough hands. Karen got up because she was attracted to them. I tried to get up, but I couldn't get up all over. But it doesn't matter. There are people who have to put her on the bench. Somehow they will hand Karen over to court and sentence her to death. Again.

"Carran, wake up."

Before I knew it, there was Raymond.

Karen looks ahead. Before I knew it, I was dragged outside the prison. Even if you don't move, you can't avoid an incident. Time flies again. Oh, I think I'm really going crazy now. I don't know if I'm here before I know. Raymond held Karen's shoulder firmly.

"…it's time to go to court. Just in case... Stay still."

Karen looks down at the rope tied to her wrist. He is here for killing Prince Gwiz. Karen raises her head. There is Raymond's face. He always has the same face. However, it was rare to have a face as tired as this one. I dressed neatly because it was a court, but I feel the fatigue from my face and body. It's new.

"Carran."

"Yes, Lord Raymond."

Karen opened her mouth. A harsh voice came out that I didn't want to hear. But no one cares about it. Raymond pressed his shoulder and opened his mouth.

"The Marquis agreed to disclose Prince Gwiz's misdeeds. And we've already handed over all the evidence. We've also contacted the jury separately.

"You're becoming a villain."

"I just made a sign of sex."

Raymond is determined. Raymond doesn't believe in Karen. Karen wanted the hope of being far away, something more perfect, but he always stood up in reality. Again.

He's never believed it before. Because he doesn't change. But this time again, he tried. Again.

"…that's great."

It doesn't mean anything.

"There is hope. So get a hold of yourself. You... I mean, you'll only get as much as you need."

His advantage is that he never guarantees that he can be found innocent in the midst of this. Karen grinned. Love is meaningless and death is meaningless, so why does he try?

"Get a hold of yourself.

"…yes, I see… Yes."

What can I do if I wake up? Next to Karen was guards, Raymond, and a lawyer. It's foolish of her to smoke after all. Even if Karen's world collapses, they will have nothing to do with it. Even if you cry to go down alone from the stage, you can't go down. Going down is afterwards.

"In this life, I also... I'll do my best."

Either he's being executed or he's dying. The life of this life is just around the corner. Karen was so tired, she wanted to lie down, and she wanted to rest. Now it was annoying to think.

I'm not going to leave my room in the next life. Just lie down and... Lie down.

"I'll...."

And Karen and Raymond walked without talking anymore. Now we're going to the real court. Karen wanted to finish the work quickly. I just didn't want to lock myself up in the room and do anything.

The prison door opened.

Karen frowned at the dazzling sun at noon. Where is the carriage? As Karen turned her head, someone pointed her finger at her from afar.

"…that's her!"

Someone shouted. There are people. The sound of footsteps is coming in. Raymond rushed the blank Karen into the guards and into him.

"Carran, lower your head."

Raymond takes off his coat in a hurry. And then I covered Karen up. However, voices have already spread quickly in people. Raymond led Karen with quick steps.

"She killed him!”

"That witch!"

"The Murderer!"

Fuck

It looks like he's thrown something. Karen heard a dull noise. It looks like Raymond got hit.

Puck.

Several more were hit in succession. Raymond rushes Karen into the carriage. Karen looks out the window. There are people. It's not just one or two. Raymond took off his dirty coat and threw it on the floor. And he glares at the guard.

"What are they?"

"We've been together since morning. He wouldn't listen even if I told him to go..”

"Isn't it your duty to keep it quiet?"

Raymond was angry with the guards, but the guards just looked around. Raymond sat next to Karen and drew the curtains on the window. Grab Karen who is absent-minded.

"Carran, are you all right?"

"…I'm fine."

It's because it's Raymond. Raymond lifted up under the curtain and looked out.

"That's weird, I'm sure... Your trial has been kept confidential. Where on earth did they come from?"

“…….”

Raymond lowered the curtain again.

"…but it won't be a big problem."

Raymond shut his mouth. He himself did not seem to believe much in his words. I could see him clenching his teeth.

"…it'll be all right."

Karen sees Raymond's jacket lying on the floor. Tomatoes and eggs were on the floor and they were running down. The luxurious black conquest became dirty and trashy. It seems difficult to wear that again.

“…….”

Karen turned her head. It all has nothing to do with oneself. There is nothing important to Karen now. Good, evil, love. Raymond's sacrifice and Duran's secret. It has nothing to do with it, and it should.

Why is Raymond uncomfortable?

Karen could not understand Raymond.