The Road to One Day Be the Strongest

Ever since I was a kid, I didn't believe in anyone else.

The only thing you can believe is yourself.

The way of life with such a creed was hard for me as a child, and on my inner side, little by little, a giant tower made up of negative emotions, such as dissatisfaction and pain, piled up.

Normally, you should talk to your parents.

But I didn't really like worrying about other people either.

Anyway, I wanted to live alone.

It was my goal not to believe anyone, not to worry about anyone, to live on my own.

He thus acquired the skill of hiding everything.

I got the skill to mislead everything.

I gained the skill to read other people's moods.

Kill and suppress your heart, you've gained spiritual strength.

But I didn't even think about it at the time.

- Thus, when that giant tower collapsed, ahead. What the hell is waiting for you?

My heart felt like it was dying.

It's breaking down and getting cold.

As it gets cold, hot tears of burning skin spill out of my eyes, and my head is smeared white.

The giant tower that was built up deep in my heart collapses, and every piece that was creating that giant tower blows out as if the real thing were twisting a faucet.

I turned my people down earlier.

Rejected the fellows who had begged to go help the day and night, and threw terrible words at them.

And I rejected her for worrying about me.

- Let me be alone.

That's what I'm told. Her, now crying face is engraved in the back of her eyelid without disappearing.

"... I suck"

A clenching fist placed on his knee sounded critical and bone-crushing, causing his teeth to snap as much as he wanted.

Until now, I've lived in hiding my true intentions.

Based on my goal, "Cool," I created another personality based on rationality.

That's - the monster of intelligence.

We judge every event by intelligence and reason before we begin to act. Prioritize rationality and eliminate emotions.

Whether it was a terribly lonely way to live, it was never a way to lose money.

That's why I stayed with the monster of intelligence.

He hid his true intentions, pushed his fear of death, and always calmly continued his quest for cool.

In doing so, it is a man named 'Gin', the most suitable personality to live in solitude, where no shards of stupidity exist.

- But I have company.

First, I met Urachi.

Of course I refused, and I ran away.

But he wouldn't let me go, and when he realized it, I thought it would be fun to spend time with her.

For the first time in this world, I met Kyoka.

Together we have overcome hardship and grown together.

Now I trust her more than Urachi, and she was always there for me as my partner, and that was all I had in mind to be my 'peace of mind'.

Afterwards, I met a variety of people: White Night, Hui Night, Olivia and Leon, and at some point many people were gathered around me.

And it killed me as a monster of intelligence.

If I were one of them, I'd think it'd be fun.

If my people hurt me, my heart will move.

While that is why I began to pursue greater rationality. As a false self, I've been dealing with my people before, but there was only one word I said that I meant it.

- If it's for your people, you can die.

Only that word, I meant it.

I wanted to protect my people from the bottom of my heart, and my intelligence also affirmed that opinion thinking which was promising for the future, me and my people.

Although.

- I don't want to die.

Second, the truth of it leaked.

White night exit.

That leaked the truth that I had been desperately trying to keep.

You can die for your people.

But I don't want to die.

That contradictory truth crushed my exoskeleton.

- You can die for your people.

That was a sensible answer, a word I could affirm, as a monster of intelligence.

- I don't want to die.

That was a terribly emotional answer, a word I wanted to deny as a monster of intelligence and affirm as far as I'm concerned.

Plated between those two contradictory words.

My heart screamed.

"... ha"

I leak my sigh and raise my face.

And at the same time, the sound of a knock echoed.

……

Though I didn't reply, I guess I felt enough signs of my awakening.

Don't hesitate, not from beyond the small, open door.

"... Kyouka?

She was the one who was supposed to refuse earlier, peeking into her face.

"I'm here to tell you the truth."

Kyoka, sitting next to me on the edge of the bed, said so loosening her mouth.

"... the real deal?

"Yeah, the real deal"

I told you, she left her body with me.

I just turned her down.

That's why I was surprised that she came to me again, and that she was so kind to me that she kept her body.

"... earlier, I'm sorry"

"Fine, 'cause I don't care"

- It's a lie.

The lie soon became apparent.

I guess you thought desperately, that long hair had all the signs of jumping on it, only bothered me for the same time, scratched my head and kept thinking.

For a long time, she has been.

At first, it was a relationship, but someday it changed to something that I could only support unilaterally.

She would affirm any action I take for a good reason.

- Well, push the real thing and kill it.

"... This is the real deal."

She just lied and grabbed the sleeve of the clothes I was wearing.

"... because I love Gin. That's why I decided to give it to you."

"... yeah, sounds like it"

To my straightforward favor, I could only answer that.

But I'm sure that's not the end of her words.

What the...

"But that's not my 'real'"

That hand, which holds the sleeve of my clothes, gained a lot of strength.

I knew, she also, to be hiding the truth.

That's why I stuck it in there.

Her words were too appealing and convenient for me. Even though I thought I was the worst human being, the monster of intelligence got into that favor.

"... because I still knew about Ginn. I didn't realize what Ginn was coming up with, but I knew that was about it, that Ginn's words and actions weren't meant to be. So I knew Ginn would, too, and I did."

When I did, she said she knew and did what I wanted.

"Since I got the opening skills. Ever since I learned about that ability. I guess one day, Ginn will be gone. You're gonna disappear from before me one day, and I thought so. And then you disappear from before me, and I hate your self-sacrifice just a little bit."

The voice was trembling.

She leaked a small whimper as she held my left arm.

"... Actually, yes. I know what it's like to be in the middle of the night."

The feeling of day and night.

That must have been what she said when she said goodbye.

"I don't want anyone I like to die. If someone you like disappears from before me, if you leave me to die... I thought we should give up this love. That's what they said and I'm just a little convinced."

I wasn't surprised.

Because I'm the same.

That's what they told me from day and night, and I thought if I changed my position with her - I was convinced.

That's why I was sure Kyoka would do the same.

"I really don't want Ginn to be gone. I don't want you to be impotent. I don't want you to use dangerous forces. I just... I just want to be friends with everyone all the time..."

That's her true meaning.

And it's also what day and night want.

And it's what I want.

Although.

"Yeah, I know it's not gonna be easy."

That's not put down by the inquirer.

I can't achieve a peaceful world without risking it.

We also know that I am the most prominent candidate for peace.

"... but I am"

You can't walk anymore, can you?

I'm not sure I can keep running until peace.

My legs, which I have been crushing, have been crushed, and the lights that were on my heart, and their fuel, have run out again.

Now both feet had changed too weakly to step on the earth, and their hearts were cold as ice.

I knew I was...

- I'm gonna say terrible things now.

Kyoka opened her mouth so that she could cover her thoughts.

She pushed her face against my arm.

"Ginn. Marry me"

"Become -"

In abrupt words, I accidentally opened my eyes.

Kay, marriage...... Well, that's true, though I was wondering if I wanted to do that in the future... Why the hell at this time?

When I peered into her face in surprise, Kyoka was embarrassed to push her face against my arm, but her ears were stained bright red.

"This is embarrassing..."

"Ooh, ooh..."

When she looked up shy and small, she stood up with my arm off.

Kyoka stopped with her hands together on her back as she turned her back on me and walked a few steps.

"But if Ginn stays like this, maybe this favor won't come true. Before that, maybe I'll get killed."

- So.

She said and looked back at me, and she was laughing.

Crying, I was laughing.

"So, yeah. Be happy. Gin."

At that time.

Small in my heart, the spark lit up.

"I need you even if I can't figure out what it means to live. I hate that threadbent self-sacrifice, but I'll always be next to you and I'll make you happy."

That's what I once said to Nail.

It's a curse word that makes your heartbroken opponent dependent on you.

She should have known that, too.

Then... Kyoka, you...

"If you're going to live and be happy, I'm ready to hate you and I'm ready to be a bad woman."

The hope of living, the purpose of living, the fuel.

To me, who disappeared completely, she said she would become fuel herself. Trying to be the hope, the purpose, the signpost of life.

"... stupid, you"

"I know. It's about me."

This is a half-threat.

If you don't move, Kyoka dies.

If we don't move, we can't get married.

That's all - I absolutely don't like it.

I was surprised by the overflowing truth.

... Totally, I didn't know he was going to show hope to the heartbroken guy and threaten him with words on top of that.

"Really, nasty woman"

In my fist, I put my strength into it.

On my feet, I put my strength into it.

I put my strength into my body.

Until now, I've lived alone.

I kept running to live alone, and the fuel burned out, and my legs stopped.

It all ends this way. Kyoka dies, she does not return at night, and all her companions are killed. That is literally [the worst].

- Then.

"If the future ahead sucks, scratch it and it won't get worse than this."

Just one more time.

Just one last time.

I've been cheating on myself ever since.

On my own initiative, I'm going to try to fool you.

"Remember what I promised you."

"I might forget, so I'm in the mood for you to say it from Ginn, who changed it again."

Well, what kind of punishment game would that be?

Stand up smiling bitterly.

Both legs were dressed up and then stomped firmly on the ground.

Although I have lived as a monster of intelligence until now.

Today, the chemical of intelligence is graduation.

From today on, I'm - I'm just [a fool].

From here on out, I'll throw away how cool it is.

Abandon solitude. Drop one. Discard excessive intelligence. Let's throw away a rational, boring way of life.

Muddy, stupid, even.

"For your sake, I'll only walk out once more"

I've lived in hiding the truth so far.

When I found out about it, she shook my heart with verbal skill and threw the cruel and extreme word of marriage.

Marriage is a matter of order.

I want to get married.

"You can't die, you're gone."

Weave a robe of everlasting darkness that hung nearby.

It could be the last time I wear this robe anymore.

With Ur and Chloe's help, it may not be the future ahead anymore.

Though that's terribly lonely.

- But that must be a happy future.

"I'm sorry, you guys, just a little more, give me a hand"

This is the last time.

When this is over, regardless of victory or defeat, I will disappear from the world stage.

I've worked so hard, I won't let you complain.

But if you win and disappear.

"At that time, we'll all be together (...),"

Of course he has to be in there, too.

"Kyoka, the Hui Nights probably went to the White Night place, didn't they?

"Yeah, I think it's about time we were on Dragon Nation..."

Then you can rest assured for now.

Let's leave it to them for a little while.

I'll do the last detail behind me. [M]

"" Transition Gate ""

The left eye, transformed into a moonlight eye, shines and creates a metastasis gate in the space in front of him.

The connecting point is - the divine realm, the almighty god Zeus resides in.

I don't know what you're going to do, but towards Kyoka, who's going to turn a confused gaze.

"I just made a little deposit with Zeus."