The Struggle of Returning to The Other World

Silence came down again.

I can't swallow the situation.

In the first place, I am confused from around Noel breaking into people's rooms late at night. In such a state of confusion, when you suddenly say, "Come to me," etc., you can't possibly just get your heart rate up for nothing and read the meaning correctly, etc.

But I knew right from previous rules of thumb that Noel wasn't just saying it with a sweet connotation. So I mean, uh. - Do you mean come and evacuate because it's dangerous?

"... why not"

I hate myself for not being cute until this time.

But I'm somewhat angry at Noel's forceful way of not caring about this one at all from earlier. I honestly didn't want to take Noel's hand.

"Think about why Lord Frahamti can't protect you."

"... if you protect your mediocre daughter as badly as I do, it's obvious that you reject her."

At that time, I was convinced that it was best.

However, from the way Noel is now in front of me, I somehow know that this is not an answer that I can make a point. Nature and my voice goes down.

"That stuff, it's dictated. I should have done as much as I could to get you into Lord O'Turand's mansion under the guise of a newly hired servant."

……

"Lord Frahamti is using you. To re-summon you, the former witch, and to blur out the disturbing elements who are trying to cause confusion in the royal palace."

"I can't believe it's a use. I didn't ask for anything from Lady Frahamti."

"You don't have to do anything. Instead, it would be more convenient for you to stay natural"

"I have no idea what that means. Tell me more clearly!

I mean, you're a decoy.

Huh?

Me?

"My daughter is entering and leaving the royal palace, resembling a former witch but not sure if she is in person. - If the man who summoned you finds out about it, he won't be able to help but move to make sure. Lord Frahamti is trying to hold it down there. If you behave in a way that makes it easier to capture your opponent's movements. That's why you're being thrown out. I can't lure you into my room."

... somehow, I know what Noel is talking about.

"For Lord Frahamti, your safety is secondary. I don't know how the other side is going to get out, and I'm sure I can think of enough dangers that could harm you, but that's not a problem for him. The same is true of Lord Otuland and Lord Ordis, who are silent on the present situation. You don't have a single real ally around you right now."

I bit my lips off.

I haven't thought of Mr. Frahamti and the others as intimate to me from the beginning.

I knew the other side was dealing with me at the other convenience. - Until the reality that Noel poked at me, though I just didn't understand.

So it's not that I'm shocked that I was treated like a so-called "ho".

More than that, I've learned many times that Noel is trying to be on my side everywhere. Even you have your own position, and you're trying to help me by coming up late at risk.... even though I'm no longer someone worthy of protection until then.

Noel seems pissed off at me for remaining silent.

I laid my hand on my shoulder, which I leaned over. There is a strong force in his hand.

"Hulka, let's get out of here. I'll take care of the rest."

At that time, the bracelet on my left hand began to twitch and light up.

Repeat the flashing slowly, as if breathing.

This is the bracelet Mr. Ordis told me to wear all the time. I almost forgot its existence because I was wearing it during 46: 00, as I was told.

Is this the kind of guy who would let Mr. Ordis know if there was imminent danger to him?

- You suck!

He didn't even explain it, but Noel also figured out what this was all about.

I let go of my hand from me with an abominable tongue at the knight's mercy, the symbol of a gentleman. This man just wants to let the ladies of the world know that this poor gala is more natural.

"You know, Noel. 'Cause I know exactly what you're talking about."

Noel looked at me in silence.

"But I'm not going to Noel's"

……

Since the beginning, the answer has been decided.

This life is what I wanted myself to be.

Wherever the thoughts of Lady Frahamti and Mr Ordis may be, it is a completely different matter from this. Because I want to be here, I'm here.

Besides, in case something goes wrong with the status quo and someone needs to hide it, the person I'm asking for help from isn't Noel. At that time, no matter how much you hate me, I'm going to push you around Mr. Ordis.

Noel can't be on my side.

So leave me alone already.

With that heart, I'll stare straight back at Noel.

But Noel didn't break either.

"What are you going to do alone?"

"I'm not alone, there's Mr. Ordis and Mr. Otuland."

"I just told you I don't know how far I can trust you"

"But I don't think it solves anything if you're just suspicious and frightened of people. I may be betrayed, but I'm prepared to believe you two."

"More than me, take them?

"That's not the problem."

It doesn't always seem like a calm Noel either.

"I trust you about Noel. But Noel has to protect Master Ardina. I knew I couldn't serve as Master Ardina's escort while protecting me. Me and Ardina are incompatible with the royal palace."

……

Noel pressed silently.

Even he knows that. Maybe a lot more than I do.

"It's okay, me, I'm pretty thick. It doesn't snag easily."

I even made him laugh.

My cheeks have drawn a little, but I'm sure if it's this dark, I don't know.

After a while, Noel sighed deeply.

It's been a while since I've heard some Noel sigh.

When I was being escorted, I wish I'd heard Noel sigh tirelessly all the time. I think that's all I've been struggling with since then, well, now I don't even reflect.

"You've changed."

Am I right? I haven't changed that much myself, I think.

What has changed is the environment surrounding me. So I can't move just like I did before. Isn't that supposed to be mutual?

"... are you still seriously going back to the original world?

"... yeah"

For a moment, the fixer's husband and his wife, and Senna's face came to mind.

But after all, this is not the world I should live in. There's no way I can spend the rest of my life with your husbands. No matter how cozy you are, it's temporary. Even in my short life so far, I have repeatedly had many break-ups and encounters until I was pulled from an orphanage to a relative's house.

So I get it.

One day there will surely be a goodbye. So don't let people tie you up and decide where you are.

The same was true during the previous summons.

I wanted to spend a lot of time with Noel, but I went back to the original world and I was convinced that the world was where I belonged. Even about Noel, time makes me forget... it was supposed to be.

Though I don't know why that is, because I have a scary face in front of me right now, so I don't know what will happen in life.

"I hate the way you understand things."

Noel groaned like a groan.

If that's what you think, that's good.

The truth is, I don't know what it is. If you mean it, I want Noel to take you anywhere. I can't afford to delude myself into thinking so truthfully. But I'm the one who's enjoying it without it.

I don't want Noel to guess.

Instead, I hope you never notice. Strength, but that's for real.

"... ok"

Noel nodded quietly.

"You're not coming with me."

"Yeah."

I nodded instantly.

Another thing, a sigh spills out of Noel's mouth.

"Look, Halka."

"Yeah."

"Until you get a chance to go back to the original world, be as big as you can. You said you'd believe it, but don't forget that the Royal Palace is full of people trying to use you."

Please don't try to plant the seeds of human disbelief as much as you want.

But I guess it is, actually.

"… for once, remember the liver"

"I can't handle a great deal of auxiliary magic like Lord Ordis."

Noel's gaze is falling on my left hand bracelet.

"If you need anything, I'll be sure to help you. And don't forget that."

"... thanks"

By thanking him, Noel had guessed that I had been deluded. I didn't snort. So from his mouth, which was about to open again to complain, a sigh fell instead. How many times is this? Today, apparently, it is a bargain sale of sighs.

Noel finally took his gaze off me.

Gently open the curtain and check outside the window.

This room, which is appreciated by me, is located opposite the store. There aren't too many street streets in the middle of the night because they face just a thin back street. Still, sneaking into people's homes is too dangerous an outrage.

Noel, who had been watching the outside for a while, eventually opened the window so as not to make a sound. I jumped out the window so gently that I didn't think of myself as a dignified knight.

He's gone, I think, and an unspeakable chest ache struck me.

It's a casual emotion. I definitely need to keep it in the back of my chest.

Noel glanced back at this one, but said nothing more.

Fallen in the dark night, his figure disappeared.

I kept looking out the window for a while and couldn't move.